22/01/2013 EastEnders

So what is this? Some sort of a joke?

I've signed.

Look.

That's my name. You're free.

You wanted to be free. You are.

So what's the catch?

There's no catch. It's real. I love you.

So I'm letting you go.

You're just going to let me go, are you? Just like that?

Not just like that, no.

I've had your ex round here, throwing my stuff out the window.

I've had your daughter, Lauren, round. Begging me to go.

When was Lauren round here?

She was just round here, told me I was tearing your family apart,

that I had to leave.

That she'd never seen you so sad.

What, and you care, do you?

Yes, yes, I do care.

I love you, Max.

You're the only man I've ever loved. I'm making you miserable.

I don't want that. I never wanted that.

So what you going to do, Kirsty? You're just going to go?

-You're just going to disappear, are you?

-Yes.

Right. And when's this going to happen? Next Christmas?

Now. Tonight. In ten minutes that bag'll be packed.

-And I'll be out the door.

-Yeah, right.

-You don't believe me?

No. No. I don't believe a word that comes out your mouth.

Not any more.

Fine.

I need a cab. 20 Albert Square. The B&B.

As soon as.

I'll tell the driver when he gets here.

There. All booked. Be here in 20 minutes.

10.30. Then I'll be out your hair.

You're serious, yeah?

Yes. I'm serious.

Now if you don't mind, I got some packing to do.

Right. Well, hope you have a nice life.

Yeah. I will.

Bye, Kirsty.

Bye.

Goodbye, Max.

TV PLAYS

All right?

How is she?

What?

Dot? How was she?

Oh. She's fine. She's good, yeah.

Right. You managed to miss the washing up.

That's an old trick, isn't it?

He's perfected it.

Right, good night.

Night-night, darling. Don't stay up too late, will you?

-Night, Dad.

-Night, darling.

Babe, can we talk?

I've got a splitting headache, actually.

I'm just going to take an aspirin and go to bed.

-Babe, please. Only take a second.

-Can we talk in the morning?

-Look, look...

-What is it?

Divorce papers. They've been signed.

How...how did you get these?

I just saw her, didn't I? I saw Kirsty, I just saw her outside.

I was, you know, coming back from Dot's

and she was marching over here.

I told her to go home, stay away and she put these in my hand.

She said she'd had enough.

She'd had enough? That's what she said, is it?

No. Well, no, she didn't say that in so many words but, you know, same as.

Babe, I'm free, aren't I?

This just happened? Just now. Just outside?

Yeah. Just, you know...just...it was outside.

-Yeah. I couldn't believe it.

-Couldn't believe what?

Kirsty, she's signed the divorce papers. She's going.

Why?

I dunno. Must've been your mum's strong arm tactics, you know.

Scared her away.

No. I don't think so.

The last thing she said to me was that.

So what's made her change her mind?

I don't know. Babe, I don't know, do I? It don't matter.

She's signed 'em. You've got them in your hand.

What more do you want?

I want her gone.

-She will be gone. Soon.

-When?

She's going tonight.

-SHE SCOFFS

-How do you know?

Well, cos she told me, didn't she? You know...

Babe, I didn't believe her either.

You know, I accused her, I accused her of playing games.

She pulled out her phone, she phoned a cab straight in front of me.

15 minutes.

Babe, you wake up in the morning she isn't going to be here.

And you're all right with that, are you?

Babe, course I am. It's what we wanted. Innit?

I suppose.

I just...

What do you mean? Just what? What?

Nothing.

I've just got a splitting headache, I think I should just go to bed.

I'll bring you some aspirin and a glass of water, yeah?

-We'll get an early night.

-Yeah.

Well, it's good, innit?

Where's she going to go?

Who cares? She's going, Lauren, that's all that matters.

It's not your problem, is it?

I did go over and see her. And I told her to leave.

Yeah, I know. I know, and it's worked.

You should be proud of yourself.

So it is my fault then?

So you don't want her to go?

I obviously want you and Mum to be OK.

But I didn't think she'd just leave like that.

Lauren, she's going to be fine. Trust me.

Babe, just go back in there, watch TV.

Relax. There's nothing to worry about. All right? I promise.

Hey, hey, where you been, young lady?

-You can't just swan out halfway through a shift.

-Sorry.

Come on, we need some more tonics, yeah. Let's go.

I'm not staying. I just wanted to hand in my notice.

-Good idea. I might join ya.

-Alfie.

What, darling?

I'm not joking. Something's come up. A family matter.

-I have to leave.

-Hold on. When?

Now. I've got a cab coming in 15 minutes.

-HE SIGHS

-I just wanted to let you...

The thing is, I need paying for my shifts.

No, of course. I understand.

I don't want to bother you but I'm skint. Completely skint.

Whoa, calm down, it's all right. Fine. Give me a sec.

Not a problem. Watch yourself, darling.

Oi, oi, oi. What you doing?

Kirsty's having problems with her family. She's got to go.

She's going now?!

Yes, Rox, she's leaving now. It's fine.

Here you go, sweetheart.

That's too much.

No. Just consider it a bonus. All right?

Thanks. You're a...you're a really nice bloke.

Thank you. It's been a pleasure. A genuine pleasure, all right.

See you around, yeah?

You take care, all right?

You know where I am if you need me. Right.

What can I get you fellas? You OK there?

LOUD MUSIC AND CHATTER

What you doing?

Nothing.

I got you a glass of water and some aspirin.

Thanks.

You OK?

Yeah, I'm fine. Just got a splitting headache.

Do you want the light on?

Nah, nah. I'm all right.

CAR APPROACHES

Let's have a cuddle.

Babe, I don't want to fall asleep in my clothes.

Don't worry. I won't let you.

-I'm sorry.

-For what?

All this stuff with, with Kirsty. It's not your fault, is it?

I mean, you told her to go and I've been taking it out on you.

No, you haven't.

-I have. I said some horrible things.

-I probably deserved 'em.

No, you didn't. You didn't deserve any of it.

I thought you had a headache?

I have.

It's sort of going. I don't know why.

Babe, what's got into you?

I just want to show my husband how much I love him.

Babe, you don't have to show me. I know, don't I?

I love you an' all, don't I?

HE SIGHS

What's wrong?

Nothing.

This is a first.

What?

Babe, can we just have a cuddle?

So have you got somewhere to go?

I don't know. I'll go and bother one of my mates.

Like who?

What do you care? You want me gone, I'm going.

What is your problem?

I don't know, I just, I feel bad for you, that's all.

Well, don't. Don't ever feel sorry for me.

I can cope on my own. I'm used to it.

So you've definitely got somewhere to go?

Yes! Yes. I've got somewhere. It isn't a problem. I've got money.

I got everything I need.

Look, I've got a cab coming, I've got to pack. You're just...

You're just doing my head in.

OK. Sorry. Good luck with everything, yeah?

Yeah.

Same to you.

And listen...

You're all right. Don't let anyone tell you any different.

Thanks.

Just cut down on the booze. It don't lead nowhere. I know.

Trust me. You don't...

You don't want to end up like me.

Bye.

DOOR CLOSES

What?

You just seem a bit tense.

I should get ready for bed.

You don't want her to go?

-What?

-Do you want her to go?

-Yes. Of course I do.

Why do you keep checking the window?

-Why you tensing up every time a car goes past?

-I don't.

Do you want to go give her a goodbye kiss?

-No, I just want to get her out of my life.

-Do you?

-Yeah.

Babe, go to sleep, I'm going to go downstairs.

Max?

I'm not tired. I thought I was but I'm not.

What you doing?

What happened at the funeral?

What?

What happened between you and her the day of Derek's funeral?

I don't know what you're talking about.

She said something happened. She told me to ask you about it.

Told me to look you in the eye, watch you lie.

Babe, she's winding you up, isn't she?

So nothing happened?

Ten minutes she'll be in a cab, out of here, end of story.

What happened?

Babe, nothing.

Nothing much. It was silly. Just a stupid game of hers.

-It didn't mean anything.

-What didn't?

Do we have to do this now?

Yes. We do. Because I want to know.

I told her what I've been telling her all along, I felt nothing,

that I wanted her to go and then she told me to prove it.

-Prove it? How?

-It's so stupid.

-How?

-Babe, it's just really silly.

Max, I can go over there, ask her myself if you want.

By kissing her. A kiss. A peck.

You kissed her?

-No. She kissed me.

-What's the difference?

There's a big difference. She kissed me.

Wanted to see if I felt anything. I didn't. That was that.

You didn't?

No. Nothing.

So why didn't you tell me?

Why do you think? Cos we'd have had this exact same conversation.

Well, why you telling me now, then?

Cos she's going, isn't she? Who cares?

And you felt nothing?

Babe, please. See, I knew, I should've just kept my mouth shut.

No, no. You're right. Let's talk about this.

She's going now, isn't she? So let's talk about this now.

Let's just get it all out.

Now. And then tomorrow, it'll just be a fresh start. Yeah?

Fresh start?

Yeah. Totally. Just tell me.

Just tell me everything I need to know now. Yeah.

Then it's done, isn't it? It's forgotten.

-Yeah, that's what you say.

-I mean it, Max. I promise you.

Please, will you just tell me?

HE SIGHS

There's nothing to tell, is there? We were together.

I came back here. I found you. It ended.

But when you were together you didn't know about me, though?

About how I felt, or anything, did you?

-No. Exactly.

-So you must've had feelings for her?

Yeah. Yes. Babe, I told you all that, didn't I?

So you cared for her?

Yeah, course I did.

You loved her?

I was fond of her, yeah.

Were you in love with her?

Max, be honest.

Will you just tell me?

Yeah. Yeah, I was. Yeah.

And now that's all gone, has it? Just gone?

-Yeah.

-Completely?

-Yeah.

-You don't sound convinced.

Babe, what do you want me to say?

I'm not saying I don't have some tiny feeling for her.

I do, I care about her, what happens to her.

We were close, got married, we shared a bit of life,

it weren't for long, I know, but...

I don't know. Honestly, I don't know what I'm talking about.

You still got feelings for her?

I'm not saying that, am I?

Things happened, all right?

She's not very good at looking after herself.

I let her down, didn't I?

One minute I was there. Next minute I was gone.

No phone call. Nothing. I treated her badly, didn't I?

I don't feel good about that.

She had to deal with things, had to handle things on her own.

-I don't feel good about it.

-What things?

All sorts. You know. Like...flat. And job. You know.

No, I don't know.

She had some difficult times. And I weren't there.

-What sort of difficult times?

-Why do you want to know?

Why do you keep asking me questions?

Why do you keep pestering me? You got what you wanted. She's gone.

On her own, all right? Well done. You've won.

-I won?

-We won. We won! We won, babe.

What do you want to do, crack open a bottle of champagne, celebrate?

She hasn't got anything. She got no-one.

And now she's on her own again.

So you just feel sorry for her?

Yeah, I do feel sorry for her.

There's nothing else you're not telling me, no?

No. That's it. Absolutely.

I don't believe you.

HE SIGHS

-I'm going downstairs.

-There's something else, I can tell.

There's something else you're not telling me.

What, you want to know every single little thing that happened?

I want to know everything, I want to know it all.

-You want to know it all?

-Yes, I do! So tell me.

Will you just please tell me?!

She had an abortion.

There you go. You happy now?

You happy now, Tanya? She had an abortion.

When?

When I was back here with you.

Was it yours?

Yeah. She says it was.

Did you know?

No. Derek knew about it. He didn't tell me though.

-It don't matter now, does it?

-So when did she tell you?

-Babe, I don't know. A while ago.

-When?

When she came back here. Christmas. She might've mentioned it.

-"She might've mentioned it"?

-She rammed it down my throat.

-But you didn't tell me.

-I'm telling you now, aren't I?

So how'd you feel about that?

Not good. I mean, how would you feel about it?

Did you want it?

I didn't know about it. Not till she came back here.

If you had? If you had?

I don't know. No. Probably not. I don't know. Babe, no.

All right? No. Definitely not.

SHE SOBS

OK.

So now she's going, and you feel what? You feel sad?

You feel guilty?

I don't know. Honestly, I don't know how I feel, all right?

-I just want it to be over.

-Have you still got feelings for her?

Yeah. I have. I've still got affectionate feelings for her.

Do you want her?

-What does that mean?!

-Do you want to sleep with her?

I don't even want to talk about this any more.

Do you? Do you want to sleep with her?

-Can you just stop?!

-Do you?

No. Cos she's hideous. I wouldn't touch her with a barge pole.

That what you want to hear?

You do.

Yeah, in as much as I'd like to sleep with Scarlet Johansson.

Or some sort of fit bird I saw in the street.

I'm a bloke. You know. That's what blokes do.

That don't change how I feel about you.

Well, clearly it does, doesn't it?

You didn't seem too keen a minute ago.

We're both stressed out.

So you don't want me, you want her?

Babe, did I even say that?

You don't want her?

No!

SHE LAUGHS

You're lying. You're lying. I can see. I can tell.

I can see it.

All right. I do want her.

That's the truth. I do want her.

But she's going, isn't she? She's leaving. So I can't have her.

I can't have her ever again.

Do you still love her? You still love her, don't you?

You've never stopped loving her! Have you?

You've never stopped.

Babe, I love you, all right? I want to make it work with you.

But you love her too.

And it's all a bit fresher, isn't it?

It's all a bit more new.

All a bit more sexy and romantic with her, isn't it?

No, it isn't like that. It isn't like that at all.

You're a liar. You're lying to me.

You've been lying to me for nearly 20 years,

do you think I can't tell?

-What does it matter?

-Of course it matters!

It don't matter, all right? She's going.

Once she's gone, all these...

These feelings, they'll just go.

They will, I promise. It isn't all my fault, is it?

You dumped me. And I fell in love with her.

You can't expect all those feelings just to go away.

I'm sorry, babe. All right. I am. I'm sorry.

I don't want to have feelings for her but I do.

I can't help it. It's just the way it is.

I would, I'd love 'em just to go.

I'd love feelings just to disappear, but they don't.

No matter what I do, they just don't.

So there, that's the truth. That's me being totally honest.

I do, I do still have feelings for her but they'll go.

All right, Tan? I'm sure they will.

No.

No, they won't.

They will. I promise.

SHE SIGHS

What you doing?

I feel sick. You're making me... I feel physically sick.

Don't be like that.

I want you out of the house. Yeah. I need you to get out.

Don't be stupid.

You wanted me to be honest, I have been honest with you.

What happened to a fresh start, babe?

She's going.

She doesn't matter any more. All that matters is me and you.

There isn't a me and you anymore.

There isn't.

It's ruined. It's all ruined.

I can't, um...I can't look at you the same anymore.

It's like...

You're not my Max any more. You're not mine any more.

You're not mine any more. I can see it. And I can feel it. You're hers.

You're hers. You're all hers and you need to...

-No. No, it's not like that at all.

-No, you need to get out.

-Babe...

-Get out.

Mum! What you doing?

I...

I need you out. Get out.

-Babe...why you being like this?

-Don't make me ask you again, please!

-Don't be like this, please!

-Mum, what are you doing?

-Your father's leaving. Out!

-Don't be like this.

She's leaving. She's going. You don't need to do this.

Babe, please don't do this, please. It's so stupid. I love you.

We are finished. We are, Max. I mean it.

We were probably finished the first time you ever touched Stacey.

No, in fact, before that, the woman before,

before we even came to the Square. I don't even remember her name.

-Tan, please. Please.

-No! I do not want you around. I don't.

I don't want you in my life. And I don't want to feel like this.

I don't want to feel like this ever again.

-I'm not going to let you do this.

-Don't touch me.

And don't come back.

We're done.

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