21/11/2013 EastEnders

You got a hot date?

I wish. No, just a mate. We're going for a meal.

A few drinks. No alcohol, don't worry.

Yeah, well, I do worry, don't I?

It's my job.

PHONE RINGS

Yeah, well, don't.

Tell you what, why don't you two have a drink?

I'm not going to going to be back till later

so there's no reason we should all suffer. See you later.

See you later.

Hungry?

Yeah, I am as it goes. Never mind, we'll get a takeaway, shall we?

No, don't be silly. I can cook.

Can rustle up a spag bol.

There's no limit to my talents.

No, no, no.

Lauren! Hi!

You'll come, right? My hen?!

Tomorrow?

Er, yeah, probably, don't know.

Er, yeah, you will. Cos it's going to be epic.

Oh, thank you. Thank you.

See you soon.

See you.

You all right? You all moved in now?

Yeah, just about. Come on, sweetheart. We've got to go.

Back to the salon.

See ya. What you looking at?

Fittest girl in Walford. She's right behind you.

Very funny.

Yeah, I know, I'm hilarious, ain't I? Where you off to?

Anywhere nice?

A date.

I mean, I'm allowed to worry about her, aren't I?

Yeah, of course, but there's no need. She's fine.

I just want to make sure, that's all.

How're you going to make sure?

I dunno. Just keep an eye on her.

Sorry I'm late. I had a nightmare getting here.

Bus, there was traffic, blah blah blah.

So where are we going?

Lauren.

What's the matter?

Don't you love me any more?

Look... Maybe... I don't know.

Maybe this wasn't such a good idea.

What?

This. Us.

Jake?

Look at us. Look at the age difference.

It's not right.

What's brought all this on?

Nothing. I've just been thinking, that's all.

But I like the fact that you're older.

You know, everyone else that I've dated, they've just been boys,

haven't they?

What about that Joey?

That was different. That was...

That was just messed up.

And this isn't?

No. No, not at all.

It's...

I'm...I'm in love with you.

And it feels good. It feels right. You make me happy.

What?

What is wrong with you?

I need a cigarette.

What? Since when do you smoke?

Are you going to lecture me now?

What is this?

I haven't touched it.

What is it doing in your car?

I dunno. One of my passengers. I drove him back from Stansted.

It must've fell out of his duty free.

-Don't lie to me.

-I'm not lying!

It's been opened.

Yeah, well, I didn't touch it. It was just a...

Just...what?

I had a sniff.

A sniff?

It's pathetic, I know. I was tempted. But I resisted.

Could you?

-What?

-Could you resist?

What are you doing?

Here. Go on. Go on.

No, I don't... I don't want it.

Can you just get rid of it, please? Chuck it out the window.

Give me it.

Give me it.

Give it to me! Give it to me!

What're you doing?!

What has gotten into you?

You want to know? Really? You want to know?

Well, why don't I show you?

How're you doing?

Good. You?

Mm. No Scarlett tonight?

No, she's staying with Whitney and the family. A special treat.

Lucky her.

What are you doing, then?

A nice meal, um, a bottle of wine.

Hm? Then what?

Early night.

Well, if you change your mind...

How are you enjoying your new-found freedom?

Yeah. I'm not living it up like you, though, obviously.

Quiet night. Me and the wife.

Yeah, Kirsty. How is she?

Blooming.

Yeah. Good-looking woman. Especially in the morning.

Hair all mussed up.

Great, I'll tell her you said hello. Cheers.

Fresh in my head, that is.

Last week. Me and her.

Just like old times. I can hardly walk.

You don't believe me, go and ask her.

Where are we going? I live near here.

Jake?

What are we doing here?

I thought it might be easier.

What? What would?

Look over there.

What?

You see that woman?

Yeah. Sadie. She owns the place.

Yeah.

That's my wife.

What?

She's my wife.

Sadie's your wife?

What? No, she can't be. What...

What are you even talking about?

What are you trying to do to me?

I'm just telling the truth.

She's your wife?

Yeah. And we're moving round the corner.

Me. Her.

My daughter.

But I...I thought you'd split up.

Yeah, yeah, we did.

So why have you brought me here?

I'm just trying to be honest.

I'm trying to do the right thing for once in my life.

I thought it was over. I fell off the wagon.

She threw me out. I thought that was it.

I would never, never have started anything with you

if I'd've thought...

If you'd have thought what?

That she'd take me back.

So she's taken you back, then?

We're giving it another shot.

So why have you brought me here? What, to just rub it in my face?!

-No!

-Is that what you're trying to do? Are you trying to hurt me?

No! No, of course not!

But this has got to stop now before it goes too far.

Because it will go too far.

So I'm going to get out of the car

and I'm going to go over there

and I'm going to pick up my wife and daughter,

and you're going to go home and be with your family

and forget about me.

But I love you.

I know.

No, I really love you.

Just get out of the car.

I feel sick.

Just...get out of the car, OK?

It's best all round. Really.

Lauren!

You won't tell her?

Nearly done.

Open it, then. I'm dying for a drink.

I'm no expert on a spag bol,

but to me, this looks pretty impressive.

Ta.

I just bumped into an old mate of yours.

Oh, yeah. Who's that, then?

Well, how many mates you got round here?

What did he say?

I don't know, what do you think he said?

I don't know.

Oh, give us another one.

Look, I don't know why you're listening to him.

I mean, he's dirt and you know it. We both know it.

He shouldn't even be alive.

No, it's just he said you slept with him.

What?

Yeah, that's what he said.

What, and you believe him? What is wrong with you?

-Is it true, Kirsty, or not?

-No.

-Is it?

-Well, no, of course not!

I ain't angry with you. It's better if I know.

-Look, Max...

-Are you just going to lie to me again?

Cos that worked out really well last time, didn't it?

You're late.

Yeah, sorry, I got held up.

So, how did the move go?

It was crazy. I was rushing around between this place and the house.

I'm exhausted.

Yeah. Yeah, I bet. Is Bel ready?

Yep, she's upstairs. We've already eaten, I'm afraid.

There's one there for you but it's probably a bit cold by now.

That's all right. I'm not hungry anyway.

Is everything all right?

Yeah, yeah, fine. Just tired, you know.

Just tired.

You look upset.

What? What're you talking about?

-Your face...

-I'm fine!

Have you had a drink?

No!

I can smell it on you.

Sadie, listen...

Oh, please. Save the flannel. We both know where this is going.

You're going to tell me.

You're going to tell me in the end.

I can stand here all night until I get an answer.

-Bel will be down any second. Perhaps she can listen in.

-OK, OK, fine.

I had a tiny, tiny drink.

I knew it.

Minute. Honestly. It was just a sip.

After last week? After everything we said?

It just happened.

That's it.

What? What are you talking about?

That's it. Over.

No. Come on, babe.

I warned you. I warned you time and again.

One more drink and that would be it.

Yeah, but there were extenuating circumstances.

Really? What were they? I want to hear them.

What, here? Now?

Yes. Here. Now. Or you are out.

Tonight. I'm not doing this again.

I'm not going to put our girl through this again.

You're pathetic.

I don't want that, either.

Well, tell me.

What are these excuses?

And I want the truth.

OK.

I was at a meeting. The group.

There's this girl...

Girl?

Yeah. Just a girl!

She went off the rails.

She had this bottle and she was necking it.

I took it off her. I was just trying to show her how strong you could be.

It was just there. In my hands. I could smell it.

Smell it on her breath.

Before I knew it, I'd had a taste. But I spat it out.

I spat it out. I smashed the bottle, and I walked away.

It was just a taste.

Look at me.

I walked away for you.

Because I love you.

I love you and Bel.

I went over to Carl's and I gave him what he wanted.

In the morning, I fleeced him.

I came back here and I paid your debts and that's it.

I didn't enjoy it.

I mean, I didn't get off on it.

In fact, it made my skin crawl.

I feel horrible just even thinking about it.

I did the wrong thing for the right reasons.

To protect your kids. Can you understand that?

Can you?

Yeah, I understand.

Really?

Yeah, I totally understand.

Well, you can be angry with me if you want.

I think we should call it a day.

What? No!

I don't want to make a big thing about it.

It's not even about Carl, you know.

It's just you and me, I just think it's wrong.

Wrong? Wrong?

How can it be wrong? I mean, I'm standing here,

model wife, cooking my husband his supper.

I can see you're making a big effort, Kirsty, and I really appreciate it.

Right, OK, well, listen, just tell me what you want me to do.

Just tell me and I will do it. Please.

I just...I just don't want you, Kirsty.

You know, you're just standing here in my kitchen.

You're just trying to be Tanya all over again.

Oh! Oh, Tanya. How boring! Listen, she's gone, mate.

I mean, news flash. She don't want you. I do.

Yeah, well, I can't do this. I just don't feel anything.

I don't feel a thing. Not since I come out of prison.

I don't feel nothing about nothing, Kirsty. And that includes you.

So, that's it, you know, I'm sorry.

I'm sorry if I've been a big disappointment to you.

But that's it. I ain't got anything for you. Nothing. Nothing for you.

Max. Listen, how can you say that? You're still...

You need some sleep. You just need some rest.

Yes, I do. I need some sleep and I need some rest.

I do. I need a rest from all of it. From everyone.

Everything. I need to be on my own for a bit.

I need to be there for the girls. I want to just be a dad to them.

I want to give them my full attention.

I can't keep doing this. I ain't got it in me, Kirsty.

No, no, no, listen, you'll feel different in the morning.

You'll see.

You'll go to Alfie's stag do. You'll get slaughtered

and you'll have a really good time,

-and you can forget all about this.

-No.

No.

I'm sorry, I don't want to hurt you. I promise.

All I've ever wanted to do, Kirsty, is look after you.

But that's it.

We're finished, you and me. We both know it, don't we?

DOOR OPENS

You all right, Lauren?

Lauren?

What's the matter?

Nothing. I've just been made a complete mug of, that's all.

-What do you mean, made a mug of? Who's made a mug of you?

-Lauren?

What's happened? Tell me.

-Lauren?

-Kirsty, it's all right. I've got this.

Dad, I'm fine. I told you.

No, it's not that, Lauren. It's off. It's corked.

What do you think I am?

What, you think I can't resist a cheap bottle of wine, Dad?

Yeah, well, why risk it, Lauren?

You don't understand. You don't understand at all.

-Lauren, don't be like this.

-Leave me alone!

-Just tell me what happened!

-Max, just let her go!

I think maybe you need to pack your bag.

Why don't you go upstairs and sort your room?

Have an early night.

Why'd I want to do that?

School. Look at you. You're exhausted. Go.

Dad?

Your mum's right, love. Go on, I'll be up in a minute.

Take your time.

Night-night, sweetheart.

You need to go.

No. No.

I'm not going anywhere.

It was nothing. Nothing at all.

Look at me. Am I drunk?

I'm strong. I'm over it.

Please. Just give me a chance. And listen.

To what? Excuses? Lies?

You're so unforgiving. So perfect.

I can't do anything right, can I?

I look at a pub, a glass of beer. You freeze up.

You don't trust me to go out the front door.

Self pity. It's never an attractive quality.

I can't talk to you, Sadie. I daren't talk to you.

If I have a moment of weakness, I have to hide it from you.

So it's all my fault?

You never take any responsibility.

For what?

For anything.

Who started that argument, eh? Who wouldn't let it go?

On and on and on.

I took my eye off the road for a second...

You can't blame that on me.

Oh, we were both to blame.

We killed a child.

What could possibly be worse?

People, they just don't get over something like that.

It takes years. We have to help each other,

not fight with each other. You can't keep shutting me out.

Oh, is that what I did? Shut you out?

Did I drive you to drink as well?

Is that all my fault?

You don't talk about it.

I mention her name and you clam up.

Because we've got to move on. We've got our own little girl.

We have to think about her. But you couldn't do that, could you?

Oh, no, you threw it all away. The restaurant.

The salon. The house. The lot. That was down to you.

And to your "illness."

Will you keep your voice down?!

And where were you, eh?

Locked away in your own little world.

I was depressed.

Deeply unhappy.

Guilty.

There's nothing unusual about that.

But I dealt with it.

Did you?

Yes, I did.

I've got the salon.

I've got this place.

I'm trying to get our lives back together.

I am scrabbling a living here amongst the dregs.

I'm trying to build something up for Bella.

Get us back to where we were...

But I can't do it alone.

I can't do it if I don't trust you.

You can.

You can trust me. 100%.

I promise. I'm not going to let you down again.

Tonight was a moment of weakness.

It's never going to happen again.

I promise you, OK?

Lauren? What do you want?

I just wanted to talk.

Are you OK?

No. No, not really.

I made a fool out of myself.

I really have.

I just wanted to see you. Can I come in?

Um, yeah, well, I...

Just for a little bit.

I've got company, babe...

Are you going to be long?

Sorry.

Oh. Er...

OK. Yeah. Another time then, yeah?

Yeah, yeah, course. Yeah.

-Bye.

-Bye.

She back on the bottle? Your ex?

Look, if I'm in the way, just tell me. I can go now.

No. No, don't.

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