05/06/2014 EastEnders

Billy, don't.

You ain't taking them, Hon.

Yeah, well, that's not going to stop us, is it?

Come on, put it down.

Billy, stop being so stupid!

Billy...

Who's stupid now, eh?

You KNOW how important tonight is to me!

I was just having a few drinks...

No, you're completely wasted!

-Give me the other passport.

-You can't take them now, can you?

-I can get other ones.

-No, you won't! Cos I won't let you!

Will you keep your voice down? I don't want our kids hearing us row!

You're not taking them, Hon. You're not stealing my kids.

You see them every other Saturday and now you're the Father of the Year?

-I love my kids!

-Yeah, when you remember they exist.

Oh, that's rich, ain't it? Coming from you!

Sorry, weren't you the one who wanted to give Janet away

because she wasn't perfect?

What sort of a mother does that make you?!

You will never see my kids again!

-Yes, I will!

-Get off me!

-You're not taking them!

-We're going.

-They're my kids!

-Yeah?

And I wish they weren't! I wish I'd never met you!

Hon... Don't...

Don't...

Look, I know...

I know I'm not the best dad,

but I'm not the worst...

I'll see them more...

it's like I was trying to say. I'll be there more...

It's the best thing for them. For me.

And what about me?

You used to say that I was...

I was the best thing that ever happened to you...

If that's true and you meant it, then why are you doing this?

Don't do it!

CHILDREN'S VOICES, MUFFLED THROUGH WALL

(I'm sorry.)

You know, when you left me,

you said that you would never stop me seeing my kids.

-You said that.

-And I've not! But things change.

-YOU'VE changed!

-Yeah, I've had to change, Billy!

Six years of being a single parent with no real help from you!

I've given you money, when I've had it!

And I've never said a bad word against you as a dad, ever.

I've just thought, "Oh, well, that's just Billy."

-That's not fair!

-It's true, though.

-This is a chance for William.

-And what about Janet?

Hmm? Taking her out of school when she's doing so well. What about her?

-She'll be fine.

-Honey, you don't know that!

You could be setting her back years!

-Sometimes in life, you have to take a chance, OK?

-OK.

What if there was something else, a different chance?

-Like me. Like you and me.

-Oh, Billy, please, not again...

No, no. Listen to me, Honey, listen.

I'm sorry I tried to kiss you last night, that was out of order.

But the truth of it is...

I've never stopped loving you, I never...

You said yourself, you know.

I've got a nice flat, I've got a job...

I'm doing well. I'm back on my feet.

Honey, Janet and William...

..they do not need to go to Canada.

What they do need is a dad.

A mum and a dad...

Honey, think about it.

We could be a family again.

Please.

-Hiya.

-All right. I haven't finished counting yet.

Look, leave that, I'll do it for you.

Do you want to eat something?

Well, I'm covering the chippie tonight, so,

I just thought I'd eat something there.

It never goes away, does it?

I'll do that for you. You'd best get going.

Oh, thanks.

We were good together, weren't we, Hon? We was a great team.

And I've not met anyone who came close to you

and you haven't got a bloke, have you?

Well, there you go, then!

Perfect! We could be a proper family, the kids'll love it...

-No, Billy.

-You've not thought about it.

-I don't need to.

We're not the same people. It wouldn't work.

It'd be weird at first.

But you did love me, Hon, didn't you?

It's not just about love, is it? You broke my trust.

-But I've changed.

-No, Billy. All right?

No.

Hello?

I better go and get Janet an emergency passport

and I've got loads to sort out. So, I'll see you tomorrow, yeah?

I'm not doing this to hurt you, Billy.

Pops?

Come here. It's all right, don't cry.

Please don't cry!

Alfie!

-You all right, darling?

-Listen, I really need that gear...

B, listen, sweetheart. What have I told you?

It's too risky and I don't want to be involved.

You don't have to get involved. Listen, I'm desperate. Please.

OK, OK.

You didn't get it from me, all right?

His number's there and his name's Roger.

-Promise you didn't get it from me.

-Yeah, I promise.

-Say I promise.

-I promise. You're a life-saver.

Oh, whatever.

-Don't tell my mum.

-No, course I won't!

Oh, hello, Alfie.

All right, sweetheart. You feeling any better?

-Well, some days are better than others.

-Good, good, OK.

-Well, I'll see you around, then yeah? Bye, see ya, B.

-Bye.

-What does he want?

-Nothing, just passing on a message from Kat.

Phil!

What you said to my dad...

Listen... Forget it, I shouldn't have had a go at him,

but if Jake gets found innocent, then what?

Innocent? What do you mean?

-He hasn't told you, has he?

-Who's saying he's not guilty?

-It doesn't matter...

-Yeah, it does matter!

Me and Sharon, we... We went to see Jake in prison.

He reckons the Old Bill don't think that Lucy was killed in his flat now.

What do you think?

I don't think he did it.

I tried telling your old man that, but he wouldn't listen.

I'm sorry, Peter, you know, but I know what guilty men look like

and I honestly believe that Jake's innocent.

I've waited for this all day, I have, can't wait, no kids,

no Kat moaning about her swollen ankles.

We'll have a nice pint, and at a stretch, how about this?

Some pork scratchings... You all right, Cinders?

Got a good view, have you?

Eh, come on, let's all stare at the vomit-pebbled lesbian?

No, sweetheart, I was only just going to...

First time I've worn a dress in months. My girlfriend pukes on it!

That's women for you, eh?

Can we have some service here, please?

Gone downhill since the last landlord!

-Do you think she's all right?

-She's all right...

-Cos she don't look all right...

-I'm all right me, a hundred percent.

Never better. No, you go on, get your drinks in, yeah,

-don't bother offering to buy me one!

-Well, do you want one?

A drink?

Yeah, yeah, all right then. Yeah, yeah, just the one, eh.

Oh, who's that? Is that your favourite, is it?

He's good, ain't he?

You two play together nicely, yeah?

At least she knows you're not all right with it.

Burning that passport, I mean, that really shows you care.

Oh, it doesn't, it was stupid, I weren't thinking.

Just pushed her away even more now.

She's never going to change her mind.

Pops, you can't give up!

She said I don't show enough interest in them.

-Oh, well, that's a load of rubbish, ain't it?

-No.

She's right.

I'm a useless dad. Like I'm useless at everything else.

And I tell you something, I don't blame her, either.

Because if I was Honey, I'd want to get them kids away from me.

-Why are you being like this for?

-Look, it's only a year.

Only a year? Pops, I can't go a day without seeing Lexi.

That's different, isn't it?

Look at them.

You're their dad and they love you.

You're a great grandad and you're an even better dad!

Pops, you can't let them go. You can't.

Come on, now, how about we get some chips or something?

Yeah. Where's Lexi?

Oh, she's round Roxy's, she's going to give her her dinner and that.

Right then, kids... Who wants some chips?

-Yes, please.

-Yes, please.

She might change her mind, you know.

Oh, hello! Honey, isn't it?

Linda, from the Vic. I bought the bubbly over.

-Yeah.

-Yeah, I never forget a face, me.

I've just been traipsing round the shops.

Was heading to the cafe, I'm gasping. Do you fancy joining me?

-Come on. Let's get you a nice cup of tea, eh?

-Thanks.

I've never seen Pops cry before, you know. It really got to me.

I mean, I know he doesn't see the kids that much now anyway,

but if she takes them to Canada, he's never going to see them

and he can't afford a flight there, can he?

Do you know what? I hate her!

Honey is so selfish, isn't she?

-Peter... Peter... Are you even listening to me?

-Yeah...

Well, it don't look like it. Pops is really upset, you know.

Yeah, I know. I feel bad for him, but I've got problems of my own.

Look, just, why don't you take that back before they get cold?

Thanks.

Every other year I've spent the ball sat with the lads,

pretending to flirt with them to get them in trouble with their missus.

You what?

This was the first work do she'd agreed to come to.

So I could show her off, be proud of her.

She KNEW how important tonight was to me.

That's why she's done this.

She's gone and got completely off her face just to stop me going.

-Well, it hasn't worked, has it?

-You're still here, ain't ya?

Because I chose not to go. Not because of her.

You've got plenty of time, don't let us stop you.

No, no, no, she wanted to go with Tina.

-You did, didn't you? Arm in arm...

-Yeah...

She's a kid. Acts like she's 19 and she's 40!

She kicks against me cos I'm the sensible one.

One of us has got to keep our feet on the ground.

-I remember when I was with Nikki...

-I'll tell you something, shall I?

Can we stop you, do you reckon?

All my mates are settling down, having kids.

I want that too...

I want to get serious, start a family,

but I know she feels like she's ticked that box.

I can't even bring it up.

I can't even tell her what I really want in life,

cos I know she'll panic, run away.

I love her,

but, you know, I'm left thinking if it's not going anywhere,

if we don't want the same things... then what's the point?

You two don't know how lucky you are.

How do you mean?

Having kids...

Lo! I was going to go and see Billy, how is he?

How do you think, Jay?

I'm sorry, I didn't mean to take it out on you.

He's really upset and there's nothing I can do about it.

Do you know what? I don't know why she's doing this to him!

Why don't we make a special night for Billy?

Get some beers in and dessert...?

Do you know what? I reckon that's just what he needs.

Make yourself useful...

Yeah, that's right.

Yeah, I'd like to arrange to visit someone on remand.

I don't know how you've done it, bringing them up on your own.

If I hadn't had my Mick to help me, I'd have gone insane.

Sorry, you don't have to talk...

It's really hard.

My dad used to help, but he died a few years ago.

Oh, love...

I've put my life on hold, my career...

..and I know a lot of mums do that and I'm not complaining.

But Janet, you know, she needs a lot of looking after

and I don't ever get a break...

Billy doesn't understand that.

You know, he picks the kids up, takes them to the pictures

or the park and it's like, "Oh, here's Daddy, hurrah for Daddy!"

That's not real life, is it?

He doesn't have to cope day in, day out.

Oh, gosh!

Crying in the street and blurting all this out,

-bet you regret stopping now.

-Course I don't!

Do you think I'm doing the wrong thing,

taking the kids away from Billy?

No, no, you've got to do what's right for the kids.

I don't really know Billy. How long were you together?

Three years. I couldn't trust him in the end.

There's no relationship if there's no trust.

You haven't mentioned love. I mean, you did marry him.

Yeah, yeah. I loved him.

But you don't any more?

Part of me always will.

You know, Billy's a really good bloke

and I know when he's with the kids, he's a really good dad.

But that's not enough.

I need this. We all do, me and the kids.

It's a new start,

something exciting to look forward to...

I know how that feels.

Working in my mum's pub for 20 years.

Getting the Vic was like getting out of prison. Suddenly I was set free.

Not that being at my mum's place was like being in prison...

You get sick of the same four walls, don't you?

The Vic was the new start for our family.

Since we've got it we've really pulled together.

I've never been this happy in my life.

Like you say, sometimes you all need a fresh start.

-These doughnuts, they'll do, won't they?

-You pleased with yourself?

He's at home crying cos of you! Do you know that?

-Lola, I know how this must look.

-No, I know how it looks,

it looks like you're ripping his heart out, Honey.

-It isn't easy for me, you know...

-Yes, it is!

What, flying your kid thousands of miles away to become a model?

-She's looking out for her kids!

-No, she's not. She's selfish.

Ain't you, Honey, you're a selfish cow!

-Yeah, you've said your bit.

-Jay, it's not as simple as this...

Honey, I haven't got anything to say to you, all right?

They're just angry. I wouldn't take it to heart.

He hardly gives me any money, you know.

It's a Christmas present or a birthday present and that is it.

He does try, he does try...

But my kids deserve better and I'm not going to lose this opportunity

just because of his feelings. I can't.

Yes, she was my sister... But I want to see him!

I heard you'd shut up.

I can't visit Jake cos I'm related to Lucy.

-Why would you want to go and visit him?

-Why do you think?

-You've spoken to Phil, haven't you?

-Yes, and why didn't you tell me?

If there's any doubt that Jake is guilty,

don't you think I've got a right to know?

Jake killed Lucy.

Suppose he didn't.

Suppose the killer is still out there.

What if they're just walking about?

What if they live around here, what if they're coming in here?

Jake is guilty, Peter. All right? He is!

Why? Why would he kill her?

This is Jake, the man who you helped when he had nothing.

Why would he attack Lucy?

Why would he leave her on the common?

-Have you not thought about this?

-Of course I have.

It'll all come out at the trial.

I can't wait that long. I need this.

Is there not anything that we can do?

That's what we've been left with, OK? That's all we've got.

Don't you want to ask him? Don't you want to see him for yourself?

Just look into his eyes?

Leave him to rot.

-Have you spoken to Sonia?

-What?

-Did you know she's got a disciplinary at the hospital?

-Yeah.

I'm not made of glass! Why didn't you tell me?

No, I just thought it'd be best not to worry about that.

Why not? That's all I do these days is worry.

Make a change to worry about something else.

She thinks she's going to lose her job over me.

Don't be silly. It's not because of you.

Because she's so exhausted from covering my shifts!

Has she even told them I've got cancer?

I don't know.

Have you thought about how we'll cope if she can't cover my shifts?

Yes, I have thought about it and I'm on top of it.

Yeah, course you have. Sorry. You're doing a great job.

I'm... I'm proud of you.

Listen, darlin', it's me again. Have you told them that I'm ill?

Well, why not?

It's a hospital trust, they're not going to give you the sack

because you're helping your sick mother out...

Hello? Is that Roger?

Yeah, Alfie Moon gave me your number.

Yeah, that's right. He said you might have a bit of gear for me to sell?

No! No!

Alfie Moon's getting mullered by a girl...

Shut up. It's the puke on her dress that's putting me off.

-That's what it is.

-Oh, excuses, excuses...

Listen, Tosh, tell me to mind my own business if you want,

but you know, about you having a kid and all of that...

what do you have to do? Is it like a turkey baster or something?

-What, you volunteering?

-Oh, can you imagine that?

That's a conversation I'd love to have with Kat,

-can you imagine that one, eh?

-We'll go to a clinic or something.

That's if I ever get Tina to agree to it.

Yeah, but if she didn't,

it's the kind of thing you can do on your own, isn't it?

I mean, that's the wonderful thing about being a woman, you see,

when it comes to having kids you got the head start on us fellas.

I know that.

Nah, I wouldn't want a family without Tina being a part of it.

Like, I didn't even want to go to the ball without her!

Tonight was meant to be our night!

I suppose she did make an effort.

Might have guessed she'd mess it up.

She shouldn't be allowed out on her own.

Terry, take the darts off her.

-Oi, it's my turn!

-No, no, no.

Come on now, listen, I want you to go and get yourself cleaned up

and go and sort things out.

-It's cos I'm beating you!

-No, no,

it's not cos you're beating me... I went easy cos you're a lovely lady.

Go and find Tina and tell her that you love her. Go on.

-Go on!

-Yeah, go on, clear off. Get out, you're boring us.

Didn't get us a drink in at all...

Not one drink you got for us, Tosh.

-Next time I'm going to slaughter you both.

-Oh, listen to her!

She's got the swagger, ain't she, eh?

Right, come on, me and you, 501. You go first. Here we go.

I gave this to your mum when we got married.

Yes.

I put it on her finger

and I told her I'd love her forever.

Then when she took you two away,

she took it off her finger and she gave it back to me.

But I kept it.

There's been times when I've really, really struggled for money,

but I've never sold it.

I couldn't.

Cos of what it means to me.

And now...

..I'd like to give this to you.

-Would you like it?

-Yes.

-What I'll do...

-OK.

I'll get your mum to put it away somewhere safe for you, yeah?

And then when you get a little bit older,

you can put it on your finger

and you can think of Daddy

and how much he loves you. Yeah?

-This is great, ain't it?

-Yeah!

-Come here.

Come here. Come here.

-The three of us together.

-Can we go to Mum's for tea?

We can do whatever you want.

I wish we could stay with you.

-Yeah, I'd like that too.

-Can we?

She'll come back from the ball and she won't say a word...

Well, she needs to let you off the lead sometimes.

It's not like that.

Are you sure? Cos from where I'm standing

it looks like she doesn't let you have any fun!

She sucks it out of you like a vampire.

Aww, no, don't say that!

She's just got it in her head how I should be.

How we should be.

Well, that's why I like being single.

Well, I like how she is, all right, I like feeling needed.

Yeah, well, don't worry about her,

let her go and get SS on somebody else.

You, me and tequila. This is the future.

He's just popped out.

I saw Phil, he said you went to see Jake.

Do you think he's innocent, too?

Well, the police think he's guilty.

Oh, the police. That's great...

I mean, they never arrest the wrong person, do they?

I mean, it's not like you ever turn on the news

and see that they've arrested the wrong person.

I can't sleep. Just tell me that he did it.

Tell me that you're a hundred percent sure that he's guilty.

I can't.

What's this?

The cab that took Jake and Lucy that night.

-I'm going to find the driver.

-What for?

Well, he'd have seen the two of them together.

So, if they had a row or something, he would have heard it.

-He'd know how drunk Jake was.

-Leave it to the police, Peter.

The police? The police? They haven't found him.

He's unlicensed.

I'm going to take these flyers out and I'm going to find him.

Peter, I really don't think you should...

If it was me that was dead, Lucy would be tearing down walls,

trying to find out who did it.

I owe this to her.

I ruined your night.

It's OK. I phoned, said I was sick.

-You probably didn't miss much.

-Probably, yeah.

I'm really sorry, Tosh.

I did want to go to the ball, and I know how much it meant to you.

I just... I got really nervous. That's why I had some drinks.

-And I probably shouldn't have...

-It's all right.

And I'm really sorry about your dress.

You looked so fit in it.

You must think I'm a right mess.

I never think that.

I just think it's a shame.

I was looking forward to showing you off.

I wouldn't have fitted in anyway.

You'd fit in anywhere.

Should I make us some coffee?

I'll have a cup of tea, if you're putting the kettle on.

Do you mind if we have some time alone?

I pay rent here, too. And technically, it's a communal area.

I want to be alone with my girlfriend.

Oh, sorry, I forgot it's all about what you want.

-You're right, Tina, she really is needy.

-Needy?

-I never meant it as a bad thing...

-I'm not needy!

You're the one with the umbilical cord still attached to your family!

-This has nothing to do with them!

-Oh, really?

I thought everything had everything to do with them!

You can go and sleep with them tonight. You ain't sleeping with me.

You don't deserve someone that constantly brings you down like that.

Yeah...

I deserve better than you, Tosh!

DOOR SLAMS

I'm sorry you've been stuck with me...

Don't be silly!

I just wish there was something I could say that would help.

You have helped. Just talking to someone's helped.

Oh, good, everything will work out. You'll see. It always does.

Don't forget, you're their mum. No-one knows them like you do.

If you think this modelling is the best thing for William,

then you've got to do it.

Billy will come round.

He ain't got much of a choice, has he?

No, I don't know. Suppose I've got a decision to make, haven't I?

You've already made the decision, haven't you?

Guys! We've got chips!

Pops?

Pops?

Lo?

What?

Oh, no! Janet? William?

Oh, Billy, what have you done?

Where are we going?

We're going on our holidays.

TOGETHER: Yes!!

-You'd like that, wouldn't you?

-Yes.