10/06/2016 EastEnders

I've called everyone I know. Nobody's heard from him.

I mean, what if we never see him again?

Well, what did you really expect?

All Dad ever thinks about is himself.

I'm going to Uncle Jack's for lunch.

He told me to invite you and Steven.

It'll do you good.

Maybe I'll give Auntie Carol another call.

Well, she'll call us if she hears anything.

Abi's right, babe. Stop beating yourself up.

Besides, you've still got me and Louis.

Listen, Jane's mum's on her way.

I thought we could pop in, see if there's anything we could do.

She's coming to Uncle Jack's.

It's quite clear that Ian doesn't want us there.

I know, but he's going to need us today, babe. Please.

Will you look after Louis just for a bit?

-Thank you.

-Thanks.

BABY GRIZZLES

SHE HUMS

Mm! Oh!

Hope you're hungry. I've made your favourite breakfast.

It's pancakes, strawberries,

served with a side of me.

Mm!

Doo...

A-doo-ba-doo-doo doo-ba-doo-ba-doo!

Now, Pearl is asleep, so I thought we could spice up breakfast.

Kim, look...

Denise and Patrick are coming round later for a roast

to celebrate the Queen,

but for now, you have my undivided attention.

-Hm?

-I just spoke to Donna.

She's ovulating.

Sleep OK, boys?

Eventually.

Ah, thank you, Birdie.

You going to do that for me one day?

-(Shut up.)

-I need to get ready.

-Why? Where are you going?

I thought I'd take some flowers to Laurie's grave.

Well, do you want me to come with you?

No, I'd like to go on my own, if you don't mind.

I should go, too.

I'll walk with you.

Can I borrow you for a minute, Paul? Computer's playing up.

-It was fine yesterday.

-Yes, probably something I pressed.

Right, see you later, then. Cheers, Les.

-Just leave it, Grandad.

-If I can explain...

I thought you got rid of Christine's stuff.

Claudette sent over a few things.

You won't say anything, will you?

Oh... As if I would. It would finish you and Nan.

I promise you, it was just once.

Where are you going?

I won't listen to promises you can't keep.

Yeah, OK. No, don't worry. Thanks anyway.

Where's Ian?

Where do you think? He'd rather pretend it ain't all happening.

Look, I've got to get to the caff.

Marie's not feeling too good and I can't get cover.

You don't need to be open today.

I know, but takings are down,

and, well, I just want to keep things going.

I'm sorry to ask...

Can you finish sorting all this lot out for me?

-Yeah, sure.

-Thanks.

Ta.

Where do we start?

It's fine. We'll sort it.

Ahh, that's Ian's.

Make sure he gets it.

Aren't you even going to say goodbye?

-I know he's tried to get in touch.

-There's nothing more to say.

It's just easier this way.

So, no doubts?

I will not put him through this.

Doesn't even get a say?

You know, they'll be here in a minute

to get me ready for the ambulance - you'd better go.

I'm going to miss you.

Me, too.

Oh...

Come on, don't have me blubbing. I can't even wipe my own eyes.

Go on.

OK, bye. You take care.

Bye, Jane.

You all right, babe?

Look, Lauren, I'm sorry you got lumbered, all right?

Ian should be doing this.

Please just try and cut him a little bit of slack.

Where's my mum?

She had to go to the caff.

I didn't think you'd be up to this.

Yeah, we can stay as long as you want...can't we?

Yeah.

Yeah, I could bring Louis over. You could give him his lunch.

I've finished doing her drawers.

I'm going to make a start on the wardrobe.

-Why does it have to be today?

-I told you that Donna...

Why not next month? She'll be ovulating then.

Look, Donna is keen to start, and I want to show that I'm committed.

Look, we can still have a beautiful day together.

You said you'd be OK with this.

Maybe if it wasn't happening so fast.

Imagine if it was Denise

and you could do something to help better her life.

You... I know you would.

-Yes, I get it.

-Come on, don't be like that.

Look, just do what you have to do, yeah?

But it's not happening here. You can go to Donna's.

Bex, I was wondering if you fancied a bit of lunch in the Vic.

-Stacey's down visiting Jean, so...

-Aw, feeling lonely, are we?

Go on, I'll treat you.

-I'll just finish this.

-All right. See you in a bit.

Be cool.

-You all right?

-All right?

-I thought you were seeing your dad.

-Nah, he cancelled.

-Ashleen double-booked them, apparently.

-Sorry.

Do you fancy meeting up later? Get, like, a DVD or something?

What about lunch?

Oh... Oh, yeah.

-Blown out twice. I get the message.

-Wait...

It wasn't anything important.

SHE MOUTHS

Ian, you know, I was thinking.

I could come with you for Bobby's hearing tomorrow.

-No, thanks. I'll ask Ben.

-I just thought, you know,

-the more support, the better.

-I don't want you.

I made you a sandwich.

-I'm not hungry.

-Right, well, you have to eat.

Will you stop making a fuss?!

He cares, that's all.

You know, we've done nothing but try and help you all week.

-And what do you want? A medal?

-Lauren, please, it's not worth it.

No... He could at least be grateful.

Grateful? I have lost everything!

Do something about it, then, Ian,

-instead of moping around feeling sorry for yourself.

-Lauren...

What do you know about it? Nothing.

You've got no idea what this family's been through,

what Jane has carried on her own for so long.

That woman blames herself for everything,

and there is nothing I can do about it, and it's killing me.

-I can't do this any more.

-Where are you going?

-Sorry.

Lauren...

DOOR SHUTS

OK, um...

HE SIGHS

Lay on the bed with your knees bent and your legs apart

so your partner can see...

-We're going to skip past that part there.

-Yeah, yeah.

Yeah, yeah.

OK, um...

Huh!

OK, I'll just crack on. Be back.

Are you sure about this?

Yeah.

Yeah. Y-Y-You?

Yes.

SHE SIGHS

What was all that about?

SHE SIGHS

Baby, what's wrong?

Ian's right. What do I know?

-What are we even doing?

-Don't worry, he doesn't mean anything by it.

-Why do you let him walk all over you?

-I don't.

Yes, you do. You do, just like Peter did.

I thought you were different.

But you're just like him. Everything has to revolve around your family.

That's not fair.

-Lauren, I know you're upset about your dad.

-No, it's not just that.

I feel like we're not...

-I feel like we're not working.

-Since when?

Hey...

Hey, come on. You know we're great together.

Yeah, we were great together.

Yeah, we were when we were in New Zealand, but not here.

Right, so what does that mean?

I'm right back in the middle of everything I was trying to get away from.

Which is exactly how Peter felt.

-You know, the constant reminder.

-I'm not Pete.

-Babe... I'm sorry.

-You've got nothing to be sorry for.

-I do, cos I should have been there more for you...

-It's not your fault.

Well...

Maybe you just need to take a step back.

Just keep your distance from Ian.

-Steven...

-Just till the hearing's over, yeah?

However long that takes.

It's... It's just better to stop this now, while we're still friends.

But I don't want to just be your friend.

We just need to focus on our own families.

Lauren...

Don't give up on Ian, yeah?

Otherwise all of this will just have been for nothing.

Please.

-Please don't do this.

-I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

You reckon they'll let me stay round again?

Well, I hope so. Beats slumming it at the Arches.

Paul, what's the matter with you? You've been quiet all day.

Nothing.

Bex, it's me. Where are you?

Where's Ian?

He's upstairs.

I'll start loading the car.

I have to be somewhere.

So...

At least put up a little bit of bunting or something.

What we eating? SHE SNIFFS

Pizza.

Pizza? You said you were doing beef, man!

I was, but then Vincent decided to go and make a baby with Donna.

-No, no, I thought you all decided against that.

-Excuse me...

Sorry, just rewind that bit a sec. I thought I heard you...!

I thought I heard you say

that Vincent's going to make a baby with Donna, but...

That's the plan.

DENISE SCOFFS

That's over your dead body, right?

You mean...?

-What are they playing at?

-Well, actually...

..I had my doubts.

But...

Vincent and me, we're solid.

So, um, I'll go and get the drinks.

TV PLAYS

DOOR OPENS

TV OFF

-It's all done.

-Where is it?

Oh, it's in...it's in the bathroom, by the...by the sink.

It has to be kept warm... until it's ready.

HE CHUCKLES DISBELIEVINGLY

I'm serious.

Apparently, it says the best place is under the armpit.

It's fine. I'll do it.

No, whoa, whoa, whoa.

Why bother if we're not going to give it the best chance of working?

There goes my dignity.

PHONE BUZZES

Ah! Where are you?

Well, since when?

No, no. Don't worry, it's fine. We'll do it another time.

Do you need anything?

All right. Well, you rest up, yeah? All right, love you.

-Everything all right?

-Yeah, it's just Bex.

She ain't feeling very well.

I meant what I said, you know.

I hope we're that close when we're older.

They really look after each other, don't they?

-That egg routine this morning...

-Will you give it a rest?

Paul, I like them.

Yeah, well, their marriage isn't as easy as everyone thinks.

What's that mean?

At least you talk and get along.

I rung my old man in Portugal and all I got was a grunt.

Like, I know it sounds daft, but...

I enjoyed being with a happy, uncomplicated family for a change.

You don't know how lucky you are, mate.

Jane...

Is there anything I can do?

Leave.

Jane, I know I shouldn't have come here.

-Just go.

-Please...

Ian's in a really bad way.

Did he send you?

No. He doesn't know I'm here.

What do you want?

Please...don't go to Birmingham.

Ian, he can barely even get out of bed.

I know I'm the last person that you want to see...

..but you've got to hear me out.

I know I've made some terrible mistakes.

Is that what you call shooting me?

And I know that Bobby is really sorry for putting you here.

Don't you dare.

Don't you dare. Bobby is nothing like you.

Please, I'm not making excuses.

I just...

I just want to put things right.

I am not...interested in your guilt.

That's not why I'm here.

But I know that you understand.

About guilt.

How it can just eat away at you.

Ian says that you blame yourself for everything.

You can't live your life feeling that way.

Cos if you do, it will always be with you...

..no matter where you hide.

All right... I just came to see how you are.

Oh, I said not to bother.

-Where's your mum?

-Work.

Oh.

Whose are the trainers?

Mum's.

-For... For running.

-Really?

-Yeah.

-Yeah?

What, a size ten?

-Fine. Come through.

-Mm.

-Shakil?

-You all right, man?

You lied to me.

-We were just talking.

-We...

-I was just upset about my dad.

-And now it's time you left.

-Dad, I'm not 12.

Yeah, what's wrong with spending time with my girlfriend?

You're going out with him?

Um...

Yeah.

Yeah, I am.

Look, I'll see you at school, yeah?

Cool. Um, I'll text you.

It wasn't easy coming here today.

-They'll be coming to get me ready in a minute.

-Jane, you're making a big mistake.

What would you know about anything? I mean, really, come on!

You sound like Ian.

I know that me running away to New Zealand fixed nothing.

Helped me forget for a bit,

but I was never really happy.

And then I got with Lauren, and...things just fell into place.

I found someone that I loved.

Who reminded me of everything that I'd lost.

Look, I know it is too late for me and Ian, but...

..it's not for you.

Jane, you're his rock.

I know that you're the one lying here,

but you're still the strongest.

Please don't let everything that you have been through together be for nothing.

Ah, can't say I saw this one coming.

Super Vincent knocking up his own sister.

I mean, you have to admit, it's all a little bit like Jerry Springer.

Vincent is giving the gift of life. I couldn't be prouder.

OK.

So as long as you're happy and you've thought this through,

that's all I really care about.

Yeah?

OK.

Well, I'm guessing that...

Vincent's going to become more involved now.

Cos Donna's going to need a lot of help, isn't she?

Actually, that's where it's great

that she only lives across the Square.

That way, you'll be able to share all your holidays

and all your Christmases together.

Here... You're going to be like a stepmum and aunt

but just rolled into one.

No, no, no, come on. No point in getting ahead of ourselves.

I mean, today may amount to nothing.

-Oh, yeah, course.

-Hm?

-Course.

It's going to be fine.

I can do this.

-I can.

-We heard you.

I can't.

-Where are you going?

-To stop it.

DOOR SHUTS

TV PLAYS

PHONE BUZZES

-Where is she?

-Er, bedroom. Why?

Well, that's not how I imagined trying for a baby.

But I'm glad that bit's over.

Over?

Is...everything OK?

Pi... Pizza's waiting.

Lead the way.

Listen, Kim...

I know me and you have had our differences,

but I'll always be grateful for this.

-Hm.

-Now we just have to wait.

Fingers crossed.

Fingers crossed.

DOOR SHUTS

-Where's Nan?

-She took Janet and Will to the park.

Oh.

-Not fancy it?

-No, I had a bit of a headache.

Grandad, I'm...

I'm sorry for getting angry this morning.

Look...

Paul, you don't have to say anything.

It was wrong sneaking behind your nan's back.

I want to understand.

If there was another way... I wouldn't have.

It's the only way I know how to cope.

These last few weeks have been a strain.

The blackmail...

-It's all becoming too much.

-I thought you'd ended the blackmail.

Yeah, yeah, well, it's all getting sorted.

None of that matters any more.

I want you to get rid of Christine's things for me.

I'm... I'm done with her.

Just... Just do as I say.

No. I won't.

-Well, then, I will...

-Keep them.

All right? I'll... I'll turn a blind eye.

Why?

You've always been there for me.

Never judged. Never tried to keep me and Ben apart.

You love me because of who I am.

No, I couldn't put that on you. It wouldn't be fair.

I won't let you suffer...

..because of who you are.

What have you done now?

-We haven't got time for this.

-Ian...

-Um...

-I think we should give them a bit of space.

Come on, I'll buy you a coffee.

What's he doing here?

He wanted me to see you.

I'm sorry for ignoring you, love.

If you're having any doubts, any doubts at all

-about going to Birmingham...

-And what if I was?

Then I'm begging you with all my heart.

Don't go.

I need to know something, Ian.

Do you blame me?

Be honest. If there's the tiniest part of you that blames me...

No.

-Not one bit.

-Because I can't help thinking, right...

-I could have done more...

-Jane. Jane.

-I could have...

-Jane.

You have been a fantastic mother.

You've put yourself...

..through hell, all right? There's...

There's nothing more you could have done for my kids. Any of my kids.

Nothing at all.

But do you think it's even possible to carry on after all this?

I don't know any other way.

-Come on, Ian, look at me. I'm no use to anyone.

-Jane, Jane...

I will do everything for you...

..until my dying breath.

I just want you by my side.

Always.

Back in a sec.

Steven...

What did you say to her?

I just told her not to run away from the people she loves.

Yeah, I'm going to get the first flight I can.

I just don't want to cause you guys any more pain.

Thank you for...

for everything you've done.

Bye, Dad.

Here...

I could do with some support at Bobby's hearing.

Stay.