16/01/2017 EastEnders

Oh, Jay, bacon.

-Yep, all ready to go.

-Sausages...

They're in the... They're in the oven.

Fried slice.

Oh, very healthy(!)

Yeah, well, it's Phil's birthday.

And it's good, don't get me wrong.

Good old-fashioned fry-up.

Presents.

Just wait till he sees what I've got him.

-So what's all this?

-Happy birthday, Dad.

BABIES CRY

Sorry, were you sleeping?

In this place?

Chance'd be a fine thing.

It IS a maternity ward.

Ten out of ten, Sherlock, what gave that away?

So how is everyone?

Kim? Mum?

They haven't said too much to me, you know.

Nothing you can repeat, you mean.

Denise, they'll come round.

When hell freezes over.

Listen, man.

You have lived with this decision for months and yet you've found

it...difficult at times.

Just give it time. The worst is over, I promise.

-So where did you get this?

-Sent away for it.

This company on the net do them. You send them pictures

and they turn 'em into jigsaws.

Puts my aftershave in the shade.

And my socks.

Did you know about this?

-No.

-Keeping secrets already, eh?

Right, if you two give us five minutes, we'll dish up.

-I'll get that, Phil.

-Let's get the plates.

-Can I do anything?

-No, you sit down.

-We'll wait on YOU.

-Thank you!

He must have been planning this for ages.

He thinks the world of you, you know that.

Yeah, well, same here.

Sharon, you know what we were talking about?

I'll never replace him. Dennis, well, he's his real dad,

he always will be, I know that, but...

..I'd like to do adopt him.

Make it official.

I brought a little something for the children.

Very kind of you.

It's only a couple of colouring books, nothing much.

That's what Glenda said when she bought that last night.

Oh, very nice.

Amy, I said later, didn't I?

Go on, upstairs, get your schoolbag. Take that with you.

Get Ricky's schoolbag too, darling.

Can they come back?

Who, dear?

Auntie Ronnie and Amy's mum.

They can see us, you said. From heaven.

So can they come back, too?

Yes...well, you see...

Listen, Ricky...

Listen, mate, we've already had this discussion, haven't we?

Ronnie can't come back. Nor can Amy's mum.

They got ill, all right? And now they're dead.

And they can't come back, OK? They're gone, mate.

They are gone for good.

What? What am I supposed to say to him?

"It's all right, yeah, Ronnie's a star up in heaven"?

She's going to waft down at night, give him a kiss when he's asleep?

Yes, well, they don't understand like we do.

Well, you tried that, Dot, didn't you, and did it work?

No, I don't think it did.

I am not doing it.

I am not confusing him and Amy, and I am not upsetting them any more

than I already have.

They are going to know the truth.

Yes, all right, I will protect them, I will comfort them,

I will cuddle them when they start to cry.

But I will not lie to them.

So don't ask me to do it.

You were the one who was talking about this.

I thought you'd be pleased,

I thought you wanted me to be Dennis's dad.

Sharon?

Phil, it's a lovely idea. And Denny'd love it too.

But?

Been going out of my mind about this.

What are you talking about?

I found something out. I heard something I wasn't supposed to.

Something about you.

You and Denise.

Half day, is it?

This is the time I always start.

I've been down here for two hours already,

getting the breakfasts under way!

And I did the cleaning before I started.

All right, so you ARE pulling your weight, then?

About time.

Sorry, mate, it's only food this time of day.

You can help yourself to tea and coffee and that,

but 11 is when we do alcohol.

I've already told them that. As well as doing everything else.

I'm only telling you what I heard.

I mean, why would she say something like that?

Well, she's lost it, she must have.

Well, she seemed pretty certain when she was talking to Shirley.

Look, I'm not attacking you here or nothing, I can do the sums.

Nine months ago, you and me weren't even together.

This still don't make any sense.

You weren't making much yourself back then.

Don't you think that I'd remember?

Well, I do, I remember exactly what you were like.

Half the time you didn't even know what planet you were on.

She didn't say this, it's just an impression I got.

That she was off her head and so were you.

She probably thought it was just a one-night stand.

Then she found out she was pregnant.

Me and Whit are going to go down the cash-and-carry.

Oh, second thoughts, I'm staying,

cos that's exactly what I need with the nut I've got this morning.

-You're only 40 once!

-Thank God.

I'll save you a bacon bap for later, how's that?

You better.

Now...

who fancies a little something to wash down that lovely full English?

CHEERING

Ho-ho! Lovely brew.

Why ain't she said anything to me?

What was the idea, keep me in the dark forever?

It's not as simple as that.

Sounds simple enough to me - she's having my kid.

She HAD your kid.

A boy.

Phil, I didn't...

So what's the idea there, then? Keep him in the dark too?

Don't tell him who his dad is?

She wasn't going to tell anyone.

It wasn't ever going to be an issue.

Sounds a pretty big issue to me.

She's giving the baby away, Phil.

She's putting him up for adoption.

Breakfast is served.

Hope you're hungry...

What?

Phil...

I still say them children are too young.

And you thought so too, it was obvious.

When the girls were small, there was a little boy lived next door.

One day he came into our garden, I was watching from the window.

And he took our ladder away.

Didn't you say nothing, cheeky little blighter?

His gran had died the week before.

His mum and dad told him that she'd gone to heaven,

and that's where she lived now, so he thought he could climb up there

and say hello.

So, yeah, what Jack said did sound hard, harsh even, but...

Yes, it WAS harsh. I mean, them children need time.

I mean, I know Jack means well but he ain't thinking straight.

He's doing the best he can with the kids.

I mean, he doesn't have much choice, does he?

We can take some of the strain,

but in the end...it is only him.

And Matthew's father.

My grandson, Charlie.

Phil? What are you doing here?

You got... You got anything to tell me?

I asked you a question.

Just calm down, Phil.

Shirley...

I don't believe this.

-This is nothing to do with Shirley.

-What does that matter?

Take my advice, you want a private conversation,

don't have it in a public toilet.

All that matters is this is my son,

my flesh and blood we're talking about.

And you weren't even going to tell me, was you?

Let's calm down, shall we?

And now you're going to let him be taken away by...what?

By complete strangers?

Your son? Your flesh and blood?

Go and do one, Phil.

-What?

-This is exactly why I didn't tell you.

Cos I knew exactly what you'd be like, and you ain't exactly

disappointing me, are you?

Coming in here, like a caveman, throwing your weight about.

Where is he?

Just like you've done with all your family, and look how that's

-worked out.

-What's that supposed to mean?

Just look at Ben. Look how messed-up he is. And Lou.

Lou - she's your kid too, isn't she? Your flesh and blood?

You didn't even see her in years, did you?

And now you want to march in here, and play Dad of the Year.

Is this a joke?

Where is he?

And never mind me not saying anything,

why didn't you say something when you found out I was having him?

Well, you can count, can't you? You can do a few sums.

But you didn't, and we both know why.

Cos you were in such a state that night

that you don't even remember it happening.

Yeah, but it HAS happened, hasn't it, Denise?

And it IS happening.

So I'm going to ask you again - where is he?

Forget it.

-Phil...

-I'll find him myself.

-Where is he?

-Phil...

Where is he?!

Where is he?

-Phil, you'll get us thrown out.

-Tell them, Sharon.

Tell them who I am.

Tell them I've got rights!

-Tell them.

-Denise...

You're right. Phil's made a million mistakes in his time.

But who hasn't?

But Phil's right too. However all this happened, you can't just

pretend it's nothing to do with him because it is, you know it is.

And more to the point, he knows it now too.

Now, deal with this properly,

the two of you. You got yourselves into this mess,

now get yourselves out of it,

because if you don't, I can't answer for what he'll do.

Has he been in touch, then?

Who? Oh...Charlie?

No, no, ain't been in touch for months, he don't answer his phone.

Well, maybe he's not interested.

Or he might have changed his number.

It ain't just Charlie I'm thinking about. I mean, it's Jack.

Has anybody asked him if he wants to bring up Matthew?

I mean, he's only known him since he was a year. Maybe it'd be

a relief to him, you know, have one less soul to worry about.

I think it would kill him.

If he was to lose Matthew, right now,

right on top of losing Ronnie...

I think if Charlie does get in touch, if he does start

asking about Matthew, I think you should tell him to leave well alone.

I can't do that.

You could try.

It's his child, it's his decision.

Those kids are the only thing keeping Jack going right now.

You rip Matthew away from his brother and sister,

away from Jack...

I'm just going to go and check on Matthew.

Denise, you...you can't do this.

Not without my say-so.

I can. I am.

-I have.

-Phil...

You're an alcoholic. You could drop dead at any minute.

You nearly killed your own daughter when you smashed into the car lot.

That was months ago.

Is that what this is about?

You just don't want him to have anything to do with me?

Would YOU, in my shoes?

But it ain't just about me, is it? This is about you. You're turning

your back on him. What's all that about?

Because... Because it's too late.

What... Are you saying he's already gone?

The social workers are coming for him. Later, but it is too late,

for both of us.

I haven't done this on a whim, you know.

I've had my kids. And I love them, I always will.

I can't help it, and I've really tried not to,

but I love this little one as well.

But that time's gone. That ship's sailed.

Look...

You know what it's like, you know how it works.

First couple of years they're little bundles of joy,

all you've got to do...

You feed them, clothe them, change them.

Then they get older and they really start needing you.

Just when they start needing you, they decide they don't.

When this kid's in his teens, I'll be in my 60s.

You, you'll be in your 70s.

This family he's going to, they're just starting off.

They've got everything before them, they're going to grow with him.

I've done my growing and so have you.

Plenty of people have kids later in life, especially these days.

And why would you do that? Why would you take that on?

Because he's my son.

Cos of one drunken night that you can barely even remember?

OK...

..you've thought this through, you've made your decision,

fair enough, but you're doing my thinking for me, and...

..you've made my decision too.

It's not just you, is it?

What?

If Denise does what you're asking, if she does stop this adoption,

it's not just you who'll be bringing up this baby.

It'll be your wife as well.

And you haven't even asked her what she thinks about it.

Huh?

Forgot my wallet.

Get all the way there and not a wallet about, can you believe that?

What a rick.

Make sure you save that bacon bap, won't you?

Already got your name on it.

What I'd give for a hair of the dog.

Naughty, naughty!

Whoo!

You know, what she's saying... You know, of course it'd be

better if I was a few years younger. But how does anybody know how

it's going to work out with this new family? I mean, what happens if they

split up in a few years from now? I mean, where would this kid be then?

They couldn't just kick him out.

If something happens,

if something goes wrong, they ain't going to have the same

feelings as his natural parents - it stands to reason, don't it?

That mean you don't for Denny?

What?

Well, you were talking about adopting him earlier on.

Dennis is different, I've known him practically all his life, haven't I?

Do you love him?

You know I do.

Like one of your own? Like Mum and Dad loved me?

And this new family, they're going to know this kid all his life too.

That's not all that could go wrong, though, is it?

What's that mean?

Yeah, this new family could split up.

Or one of them could fall ill.

I'm on the mend now, Sharon, ain't I?

But you've still got a fair way to go, haven't you?

And what happens if all of that doesn't go as you hoped? What if

you do take on this baby and all of a sudden you're not around any more?

You've made your mind up, haven't you?

-No. I haven't.

-Sounds like it to me.

Do you think I'm just messing about, do you?

What I said in there, you know, that's right.

Denise is talking for herself.

She's made her decision and that's fair enough.

For her.

Not for me.

I've got to think about this kid, I know that.

I've got to think about what's best for him and I know that too,

but that don't mean that I'm not.

It don't mean that WE'RE not best for him, Sharon.

I want to do this, I want to make this work and...

I want to fight for him.

Then that's what we do.

It's simple, Phil. Whatever you decide, I'll support you.

So let's go in there and do this, shall we?

Let's go and fight for him.

He's fast asleep.

I know what you're saying, about Jack and the children,

but Charlie is Matthew's father, you don't know what you're asking.

I know exactly what I'm asking.

And I know why. And so do you.

Because Matthew's already part of a family, a good family.

DOOR OPENS

-Glenda?

-Through here.

With a good man looking after him.

Don't look at me like that, you knew it was a one-night stand.

Didn't tell me who with, though.

Now you know why.

You've, erm...

You've made your arrangements, I know.

And you've got your reasons, I ain't saying you ain't.

What he's trying to say...

Do you think I haven't done what you're doing right now?

Gone over and over it a million times, thinking what would it

-be like, what would

-I

-be like?

And I'm still doing it now, I'm still going

over and over it and I think,

"Yes, it'd be OK, yeah, you can do it."

But I can't, Phil. A baby, at my age?

I can't give it what it wants, what it needs, it wouldn't be right.

And you, you can't even walk to the top of the street without stopping

-for a breather.

-He's just had a major operation.

Yeah, yeah, a new liver.

Yeah.

And that comes with a lifetime guarantee, does it?

Don't think so.

And look at me. I don't come with no guarantee either.

There's no guarantees with anyone, though, is there? Phil said it,

and he was right - anything could happen, no matter who you are.

This isn't your life, or mine, Phil. It's his.

I want to see him.

Have you not been listening to anything I've been saying?

He HAS been listening. And he's made his decision.

I want to see him.

I thought this was for the kids.

Yeah, I'm just making sure it's working.

What I said to Ricky earlier...

..everyone's right, there is no manual for life, is there?

What to do when your wife's not there any more.

And the way I am with them, you know, I think is...right.

You're doing wonderfully, Jack.

Yes. We can't imagine how you're coping.

And everyone keeps saying that too.

I don't want to hear "wonderful",

I don't want to hear that I'm "coping".

Sorry.

-Do you know what I really want?

-What?

What I've wanted from the moment this happened,

every single minute of every single day?

I want to get in my car and just drive, drive away and not stop.

This is the shock talking...

It's only been a little while.

And I've done it, an' all.

I got 60 miles before I turned around last time.

And, no, I ain't going to do it.

And don't you do it neither.

Don't tell me I'm doing wonderfully and don't tell me that I'm coping.

I'm dealing with this one day at a time.

That is how I'm dealing with this.

Maybe all this is a good thing.

It doesn't feel that good.

What if Phil had found out in a year's time, two years' time?

Think of the trouble he might have caused.

It would have been too late then.

This is Phil Mitchell we're talking about.

You know what he's like, he'd have found a way.

But now that he knows,

there's nothing else for him to find out.

Has he been playing us?

What?

Is that what this has all been about?

To get in that unit and get his son?

Come on. Let's go home.