EastEnders spin-off series. When Keiran is forced to face his fear of water, past memories flood back about the night of the boating tragedy.
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Can I ask about my father? Do I look like him?
You're you and that's all that matters.
You want to sell, don't you?
We're potless. Ro's been through it all, there's no money.
There was never any money.
I think I'm seeing things. I got scared tonight.
Like something was coming. Something horrible.
I should have seen this coming.
Look at me. Hotshot lawyer, afraid to paddle.
I need you to get this to the lab. Photos for enhancement.
It's probably nothing, but fast-track it will you?
I thought we'd finished with all this now your dad's gone.
Tell that to Mam.
She's right, though. It's important for the kids.
And what about you? What's right for you?
I'm not going back to the States. I'm going to stay here.
This is my home. It's where I want to be.
I think it's time we headed back.
This is all moving too fast, Kat.
-It's done now!
-It's not, though, is it? Cos he'll find out.
And what about me? Haven't I been through enough?
Dermott deserves to know the truth.
Body of Christ.
Body of Christ.
Body of Christ.
Body of Christ.
# Soul of my Saviour sanctify my breast
# Body of Christ be thou my saving guest
# Strength and protection may thy passion be
# O, blessed Jesus hear and answer me
# Deep in thy wounds, Lord, hide and shelter me. #
So, the kitchen can go here. I'm thinking open plan, that way
people can eat and watch the cooking as it happens.
So it'll be like a restaurant?
A cookery retreat.
And don't worry, I'll point them in your direction to get merry.
What's a cookery retreat when it's at home?
It's a posh person's holiday.
You know, not all of us look at relaxation as a form of weakness.
The new Cois Dara will be an experience,
an escape from their hectic city lives.
Maybe they'd be interested in my sculpture?
No-one's going to want to lug a six-foot piece of wood home on
the plane, you eejit.
I don't know. They might.
Bit of authentic Irish culture.
Authentic Ireland, that what you're giving them?
Hey. We could even do tours of the farm?
Aww, that's a great idea. Huh!
We could wear costumes, bonnets maybe, Mam?
We could yell, "Top of the Morning",
while juggling potatoes in one hand and milking a cow with the other?
You know, I'm so glad to see that your entering into the spirit
-Some of us have got actual work to do.
Don't go far. Dinner in 20.
Go on. This place still gives me the willies.
Kieran? Come on, mate, stop messing with me.
What're you thinking?
I'm thinking my mother's a lunatic.
-Oh, hey, Dermott.
Slacking off, Da?
Oh, blame me. I insisted he take a break.
What can we do for you, Dermott?
I actually just drove past Cois Dara and I saw that
there was a light in the window.
I think you might have a tramp in there again.
Kieran not told you? We're doing it up.
Eileen has grand plans for a family business.
Well, I'd like Kieran to agree.
You know he's a stubborn as an old boot,
but I'm hoping that Andy might be able to twist his arm.
They're down the pub now. Can you imagine it?
A cookery school in Redwater? It'll be amazing!
Oh, amazing is the word.
Yeah, that's great!
Don't they know Grandad's just died?
In the States, compassionate leave means taking your coffee break.
Sorry. I'm all yours.
So, you haven't told me what you think?
Mum's plans? You know she wants me to stay in Redwater.
What do you want?
Well, I have a panic attack if I can't get reception for more
than an hour. I don't know. I mean...
This place just doesn't feel like me any more. I've changed.
Not to me.
Part of me really wants to, but another part's like,
I've got a job, an apartment, I've got a whole life back in the States.
I can't just give that up. Can I?
No, I suppose not.
Not if it makes you happy.
Dermott not out with you tonight?
Spur of the moment thing. PHONE RINGS
Sorry. Got to take this.
Did he seem all right to you?
Dunno, yeah. Why?
No, it's just in church earlier on, he seemed a bit...
That my rolly?
So what is it?
Well, you only ever smoke when you're in a mood.
It's Eileen and her stupid plan for Cois Dara.
We're fine as we are.
Why do we all have to dance to her bloody tune?
We don't. It's her neck on the line.
And it's not like you've ever had plans for the old house.
-So, why you acting like she's stepping on your toes?
I still find it hard to take in.
Little Dermott in a dog collar.
He's a credit to you.
Well, so's Kieran to you.
Oh, sometimes I wonder if I did the right thing. You know, moving away.
I mean, Dermott's processed his feelings at the time. But Kieran?
I don't know.
You did what you had to. Thought about getting away myself.
But I never had your guts.
You know, when you lose a child, you've nothing left to be scared of.
Roisin thinks I've totally lost the plot.
What do you think?
I think you're terrific. I mean your plans.
I thought you wanted me to stay?
I thought we'd come to an understanding. What's the problem?
You're dreaming. Where's the money going to come from?
We can barely support one family on the profits we bring in,
never mind funding a new business.
I'm going to get investors. I've got contacts in the States.
This isn't America, Eileen.
It's not the promised land, it's a tiny village in Ireland.
Really? And there's me thinking we grew up in Disneyland.
Might as well have.
Been away so long you don't remember what it's like here.
What it's really like.
So show me.
MURMUR OF CONVERSATION
How are you?
Hi, Dermott. How you doing?
This is set to be a regular thing.
Your ma tells me you're staying in Redwater?
Typical Mum. Nothing's been decided.
It would be great for me and Andy, wouldn't it?
The old gang back together again, I mean, you know.
You two always were thick as thieves.
Sure, yeah. Me and Bernie'd love having Kieran around.
-How is Bernie?
-She's grand, yeah, why?
I'm just surprised she let you out so close to the due date.
Trust me, I'm the one having to rein her in.
She's down the station right now.
Oh, right, I thought she was on maternity leave?
She is, yeah.
But she's latched onto something on Adeen's phone, won't let it drop.
Some wild-goose chase, Derm. Something to do with Grandad.
Right. Poor Bernie.
I expect she's just worried about the baby, really.
Anyway, have a good night, boys. Duty calls.
-Right. See you, Derm.
See you later, Derm.
Dermott! I tried calling you. I left a message.
Do you want to join us, we're just about to order food?
Erm, I'd love to, but unfortunately one of my
parishioner's has cancer and his wife's convinced herself it's his
last night and she's not in a good way. I really have to go.
Yeah. Course you do.
I'll give you a call.
Don't take it to heart, Kat.
I'm not, he's in demand. I'm dead proud.
Come on, then. Who's hungry?
Come on, sit down. Good boy. Right, sit yourself down.
Sausage, chips and peas and I'm going to have some fish.
Trust me, I was holding back.
Oh. Feels like a hurricane dodging round a bowling ball in here.
Then why are you at work anyway?
If I had an excuse like yours, wild horses wouldn't drag me back.
-You know what I mean.
I told you. I'm waiting for an e-mail.
Here for a while, then?
You're not skiving off and leaving me on my tod.
What if I went into labour?
Put on the kettle, then so.
Remind me why you're not married, Dougie?
Oh, my God. That smell!
You can't be serious?
HE DIALS PHONE
How come you're not covered?
Go on in to the house. Get warm.
I'll finish up here.
Nah. I'm fine.
What do your friends think about you staying? Won't you miss them?
Sometimes the bigger the sea,
the harder it is to find the fish you want.
At least there are some fish.
There's fish everywhere, Ro.
Got your eye on someone?
That'll be telling.
Peter's not into women like that, you know.
-I'm just saying.
I don't want you to make a fool of yourself.
Who said anything about Peter?
Oh, come on, it's pretty obvious who you meant.
Why wouldn't he be interested in women like that?
He's just not the kind of man you'd meet in America.
Exactly. That's why I like him.
Call come in, some kids are starting fires on the ridge.
If it's Adeen, give her a clip for me.
Oh, you made me jump.
I found a stray.
Thought you'd know what to do with him.
You can ring the emergency dog warden or you can keep him
for the night,
but if you do that you'll have to report it officially tomorrow.
Oh, I'll take him home, then.
Big old softie, aren't you?
You're a workaholic. Shouldn't you be at home with your feet up?
Much more peace and quiet here.
I saw Andy in the pub, actually.
Typical. We're supposed to be saving money.
He said you were working on something personal?
-Is it Lance?
-Come on, Bernie, it's only me.
Came as a shock to everyone, you know.
Something like that happening here at Redwater. And to Lance.
It could be nothing.
Lance went swimming every day. He was fit,
healthy. Could make me blush coming out of his wet suit.
Well, that's proof positive, then.
I don't know. Something feels off.
Have you got any evidence?
You're right. It's probably nothing.
Haven't been sleeping too well lately.
Are you going to take him home, then?
You can talk to me, Bernie.
You came to me once. Just after Jonjo was born.
Things were strained between you and Andy.
That was in confession.
Oh, of course, and everything you have ever told
me has stayed in the strictest confidence.
I just want you to know, that you're not alone.
Alone? What does that mean? Andy and I are fine.
Of course you are.
-Shall I make us a cup of tea?
-I got one, thanks.
I'm sorry, Dermott, but I need to be getting on.
-I'll be seeing you.
Hello, Redwater Garda.
No, the pictures aren't here yet. Can you send them again?
I'll still be here.
I'm sorry, he just ran in here. The little scamp.
Well, you've got him now.
Yeah. Come on.
It's all this talk about Lance, it's really got to me.
I can't discuss my work.
Please, if there's anything I can do to help.
Get out of my way.
Bernie. Please. Please. Please, Bernie.
Tommy, will you sit down? Alfie.
-Tommy, do as your mum says, come on, buddy.
-I've had enough.
-You haven't finished your peas.
-I don't like green food!
Just come here.
Hey, put your backside down there, young man, and finish those peas.
Boys will act the maggot unless you take a firm hand.
He's full. Go on, you can play if you want, Tommy.
May I? It was so nice to see you at mass earlier.
You're practically locals now.
Yeah, it's lovely. Everyone's been so welcoming.
So you're intending to stay?
Well, we're not, are we?
We're playing it by ear.
See, that's what I'm talking about. Dilly-dallying.
It's not good for him.
I know you want to stay for Dermott but he's the adult here.
He can come and visit you in Spain.
Tommy's the one you've got to prioritise,
not to mention your other two.
Are you saying I'm a bad mother?
Kat, Kat. Sweetheart, that's not what she's saying.
All I'm saying is that, this is when they're shaped.
Dermott needs me.
Does he? Dermott's changed, you saw his behaviour at mass.
Seems to me, you're the one who's upsetting him.
Oh. Help me.
Call an ambulance.
-Call Andrew. Now, Dermott. Now!
-Did you call an ambulance?
-It's on its way.
-Did you call Andrew?
-I couldn't get through.
Sorry, Bern. He must have had his phone switched off.
Did Andrew come to you?
Bernie, you know I can't discuss anything he might have told me.
-Has he talked to you about us?
-You know I can't discuss it.
Anything he's told me I can't say.
I thought this baby would fix things. I did it for him.
And now he's not even here.
OK, just breathe. Just breathe.
That's it. Keep breathing.
Oh, sweet Jesus. Why can't men give birth?
But your mum said you were both staying?
That's Mum for you. Gets ahead of herself.
She's a breath of fresh air, all right.
Is it just me, or has Peter got a thing for my mum?
Ah, it's lovely. You and Dermott could be step-brothers.
Look, earlier, in Cois Dara I saw Mouse's name on the wall.
Must be hard being back here, Kieran.
You can talk to me, you know.
It's stupid. I've been having nightmares.
About the accident?
We're all back there.
It's so vivid. The freezing cold water.
Voices shouting in the dark.
And there's Mouse.
Her hand, you know? Except...
Except this time I reached out and I grab her.
I grab her and I pull her onto the boat and...
Like... How stupid, I nearly drowned.
And I laugh back.
Then I wake up.
Dermott? Is it OK?
It's a boy. It's a boy!
PHONE KEYPAD BEEPS
I need an ambulance, please.
Do you think Agnes was right?
Do you think I've messed with his head?
It must have come as a bit of a shock.
You know, Kat, it wouldn't hurt to slow things down a bit.
Maybe take your time, yeah?
I miss the twins so much. You know that, don't you?
-But I can't. Not yet.
Not till I'm sure.
Sure of what?
I don't know exactly. But I just know that Dermott needs me.
Where's it going?
-What's the lady's name?
Hello, Bernie. Bernie, can you hear me?
It's OK. It's OK.
Your mummy's going to be fine.
Hello, is anybody in...
Hey. It's my baby.
Bernie, I'm just going to lift your head.
You're going to be fine.
You're going to be fine.
Bernie, are you OK, love? Are you OK?
KNOCK AT THE DOOR
-I just delivered Bernie's baby.
I need to see Kathleen.
Is Bernie all right? I mean, what happened.
-Where is she?
-What's that on your jumper?
-Is that blood?
-Is she upstairs?
Yeah, she's just got off to sleep.
I'd rather not wake her.
You going somewhere?
Yeah, I'm just looking. Got to go home at some point.
Have you got a problem with us?
You're jealous? Yeah.
Dermott, I promise you I'm not jealous.
Agnes was right, we should get home, focus on our boys.
Come on, get out. Get out.
Did I hear voices?
No, it's just the telly. Go back to sleep.
Jeez, I turn my back for five minutes.
You gave me such a fright. How're you feeling?
-Where were you?
Dermott said he tried to call you when the contractions started.
What? No, he didn't.
Your phone was off. He couldn't get through.
I was so scared.
I'm sorry, Bernie. I'm so sorry.
Don't leave us again.
The door was open.
It's late. Everyone's at the hospital.
You heard? The baby's fine.
Why don't you want me to have a mother, Agnes?
Well, don't be ridiculous.
I'm happy you've found Kathleen, even after she let you go.
But you have a life here, Dermott. It's your calling.
Is that what this is?
It's been a long night.
That implies a choice.
Did I choose to live here alone?
It all comes down to those first few moments.
You're tired, you're emotional.
I held that baby in my hands...
..and I think I felt what you must have felt.
I finally understood what it meant.
You committed the most barbaric violation against nature there is.
You ripped me from my mother and that's the moment.
You weren't ripped from anyone, Dermott,
you were lifted from chaos and given to your mother.
Now, I understand why this has been hard for you.
It's no wonder that you're questioning things, doubting.
I don't want your sympathy.
All I'm saying is that it doesn't matter where you come from,
or who you come from.
This is your home.
You're like a grandson to me.
And Kieran and Andrew think of you as their cousin.
No, Cois Dara.
Nobody even told me.
Do you honestly believe that Eileen could set up
a business here without your help?
You're the backbone of this community.
You're the person we look to for guidance.
I'm sure we'd be lost without you.
If you hadn't been there, Dermott...
Oh, but something called you.
And you answered.
Come. Dermott. Come.
-How is she?
-She's OK. They're both OK.
Oh, thank God. Thanks to Dermott.
Hero of the hour.
You lads should wet the baby's head.
Hey. Why not? Huh? You must be buzzing.
Won't be able to sleep.
I don't know.
Ah, come on. Wouldn't be the same without you.
-Yeah, Granny's right.
Could be a widower right now if it wasn't for you.
Ah, go on with your cousins.
All right, yeah.
-Right, pints it is.
-Have you money?
Guys, I've got a better idea. Follow me.
KNOCK AT THE DOOR
Just wanted to say night.
Congratulations on becoming a granny again.
Hm. Granny. God, I feel ancient sometimes.
Yeah, but it's a small price to pay.
Oh, yeah. I can still smell the pig shite.
Can barely remember when I last wore some.
-Here is to Andrew's beautiful baby boy.
So, what're you going to call him?
Well, Dermott, obviously.
What. Come on, I just delivered your baby.
Yeah. It's just Bernie usually decides and she's got weird taste in
these kind of things, so.
Had you going, though.
Hey, Bernie said you tried to call Andy when she went
Yeah. I did. Must've been out of reception.
It's funny, I was getting calls from the office, so...
What? Are you saying I didn't try?
Bernie was screaming in pain, I didn't want to leave her.
I went to try and call him and when I couldn't get through I went
-back by her side.
-It's OK, Derm, no-one's...
-She wouldn't even be here if I hadn't stopped by.
So why did you, stop by?
I found a dog. A stray. I wanted to report it.
So where is it?
I don't know. Must have run off.
I got your text.
I was thinking about Cois Dara.
Yeah, what about it?
Well, I'd like to help out.
Erm, you know, drum up some business, Bible study,
youth groups, that kind of thing.
Ah, yeah, I don't know.
I mean, it's early days,
I don't even know if I want to be involved.
Right, yeah, of course. I mean..
-Well, if you do, I'd like to be involved.
That's a nice thought, Dermott, but
I think Mum wants to keep it in the family.
Here, give us that.
Let's do something.
Come on! When did you two turn into a pair of old grannies?
Come on! Come on. Come on.
Here we go.
Is that a good idea? We've all been drinking.
And again and again and again and again!
You can tell you've got a ticket to heaven. Come on. Give us a go.
Andy, come on.
-No, it's fine, it's fine, it's good.
-Wait a minute, don't...
-It's not safe.
-"It's not safe, Andy."
I heard that tree crack.
Go. Go. Go.
That branch might be rotten.
Your turn now.
Yeah, you're all right.
It's cool, it's a buzz.
What? You not man enough?
That's it, buddy.
-Go. Go. Go. Go.
-That's it good, good come on.
-Again and again and again.
You're fine, Kieran, just hold on.
We'll swing you back.
Don't let go. Dermott, save me!
Grab my hand. Come on.
It's OK. OK.
We're too old for this.
Not too old to make eyes at my sister, though.
-I'm a single man.
-So, you're interested?
That's why you brought me here? To reclaim your territory.
Stop me moving on?
Daddy dying and Eileen coming back, it just made me think.
I miss you.
You want to start sneaking around again? Lying to everyone?
-It doesn't have to be like that.
We're not old, Peter.
This could be our chance.
Run off. Never look back?
Why not? We talked about it often enough.
Dream of living in the city, do you remember?
Where people were rude and you can't see the stars for
the pollution and sirens would keep us awake.
And we'd live in a bedsit.
You'd go to medical school and I'd train to be a chef.
We'd work hard and then we'd play hard as well. We'd go to
gigs and dance and meet people and talk.
And make love.
20 year. 20 years, Ro.
That's how long it's been since we last came here, last did this.
And I look back and I think why?
Why did I waste my life?
Oh, waste? You have a family, a business.
I live with my mother.
So leave, if that's what you want. Leave.
The only person stopping you, is yourself.
So you don't want me any more?
No. I don't know. It's not even about that.
Those dreams aren't mine any more.
I've learnt to be happy with what I've got.
-Right, daddy-oh, I'm going to turn in.
Take Jonjo's room. Towels in the bathroom.
Right. Sleep well, guys.
-Will you be warm enough?
-I'll be fine.
Can we talk?
I got to get some sleep.
Get the house ready for my boy, for Bernie.
I just need a friend. That's all.
What is it?
I remembered something.
-Did you get a message on your phone tonight?
-Saying you had a missed call?
If Dermott had tried, you would have.
You're saying he deliberately didn't call me? Why?
What has this got to do with you remembering something?
when we were clinging to the hull, Auntie Iris was yelling for
-help and Dermott let her go.
If that had been Mouse. If I'd even gotten close...
What are you saying, Kieran?
I don't know. There's something off about him.
Something not right.
You're upset. It's understandable.
Look, you two have always had this competitive thing going on.
You got your pride hurt tonight.
-Is that really how you see me? You think I'm that petty.
-That's what it sounds like.
I think the world of you. Always have. Always will.
Don't go back to America.
..she needs you.
Doesn't mean we can't be friends. Does it?
Should get some sleep.
# She's a rich and rare land
# Oh, she's a warm and bold land
# Oh, she's a true and old land
# This native land of mine. #
When Keiran is forced to face his fear of water, past memories flood back about the night of the boating tragedy.