2017 Highlights Part One Victoria Derbyshire

This programme begins

with women talking frankly

about intimate health issues.

Hello and welcome to our programme.

We will bring you some exclusive

interviews that we have wrought cast

over the last year. In April we

revealed that 800 women were suing

the NHS and the manufacturers of

mesh implants that had left them in

permanent pain, sometimes unable to

have sex or walk. Following that

story, the organisation that sets

the guidelines for doctors in

England have now announced that want

to ban mesh treatments in some

cases. In April, this programme

exposed a painful secret. Thousands

of women were keeping to themselves.

Every time I walk, it feels like

something sharp is inside me.

The

tape had come through my joiner, so

it was actually all the way through

and protruding through.

My husband

is so much less of my husband. We

cannot have sex. We haven't had sex

for 4.5 years.

They thought they

were alone, so suffered in silence

for years, and aware there were many

more like them.

Over the last five

years, I counted I have had over 53

admissions because of agonising

pain.

I phoned my husband and I

said, I can't live any more, I can't

go through this.

I actually do think

it is in my head. I didn't know

where else to turn.

This is a joiner

will mesh. It is used when women

have a product or bladder

incontinence normally brought on by

childbirth and it is often made from

polypropylene, the same material

used to make this kind of drinks

bottle. Over the past 20 years, more

than 100,000 women across the UK

have had joiner will mesh implants.

Some doctors now believe a minimum

of one in ten patients experience

problems.

Just a number. Somebody's

mum, somebody's sister and all these

people are impacted.

Can I ask, did

you have been suicidal thoughts?

You

did? Yes. I planned it. I mapped it

out.

With us this morning, a dozen

or so... Earlier this morning --

Visio, we revealed hundreds of women

taking legal action against the NHS.

Would you support calls for the mesh

to be banned? Yes. Definitely. The

simple procedure could end up

costing tens of billions of pounds

in compensation. Over the last seven

months, many, many women have told

us their stories.

I just wonder how

many people are going to get

crippled before anyone listens to

us, what we go through on a daily

basis is a nightmare.

But

convocations with mesh can arise in

other places as well. --

complications.

Oh, my God. No wonder

it inches. It is really thick. Just

like nylon. It is...

In July, we

revealed NHS mesh repairs were

leaving many patients in chronic

pain.

It is this I had been stabbed

with something hot, I don't want to

eat, I don't want to venture out too

far.

We even arranged for two hernia

mesh patients to meet up.

Take a

seat. I have had an operation I

didn't need and six years worth of

investigation.

Some gynaecologists

claimed a ban on the mesh implants

would risk depriving women of the

option treatment which will in cost

-- incontinence has been effect do.

A growing number of doctors believe

the risk is too great and in

Scotland, the use of mesh has been

suspended. Labour have called for

joiner will mesh repairs to be

banned on for a public enquiry will

stop they received cross-party

support.

Let's say it is as little

as one in ten in whom this is going

wrong if that were a medicine, it

wouldn't be on the market.

Now this

programme can exclusively reveal the

National Institute for health and

clinical excellence has effect if we

recommended a ban on vagina will

mesh repairs for products. They say

the procedure should only be used

for research. The health watchdog

was initially going to publish its

updated guidance in 2019, but as the

spotlight intensified, it was

brought forward to December and they

say they will not comment until

then. Campaigners are calling this

latest development a backdoor ban

and historic moment, but also say

the fight is far from over. They

want a temporary suspension of all

pelvic mesh repairs while an audit

is carried out to find out the true

scale of the women affected. They

also want them to provide advice on

other types of mesh repairs like

hernias. The idea for that story

came to us from one of our viewers

who herself was in chronic pain. If

you have a story you think we should

be covering, it get in touch. You

can e-mail us. This, following the

collapse of the charity kids

Company. Back in 2015. Its founder

seemed to disappear from public

life. But in October of this year,

she was back. Two years on, her

anger and defiance that she had

anything to do with the charity

folding was very evident.

Have a

look.

There wasn't financial mismanagement

of kids company. Let's be very clear

about that. When Kids Company closed

in August 2015, we had a year's

money ahead, three months reserves.

What shot the doors of Kids Company

was false sexual abuse allegations

being taken to Newsnight, broadcast

and then the police subsequently

found that no crime had been

committed, we were cleared, but by

then, it was too late because the

funders who had alleged the money

withdrew their grants and because of

that...

They had to close it. You

couldn't pay your staff.

You were in

financial trouble. No, we couldn't

pay our staff... It is very

important than we have this

conversation that you ask me

questions, because there are so many

inaccurate pieces of information...

You couldn't pay your staff. We

reason we couldn't pay our staff...

That is true. No, we couldn't pay

our self-employed staff cause our

payroll staff were paid completely

to the last month that they worked

with us. The reason we couldn't pay

the self-employed staff is because

the Cabinet office created a rumour

that the 3 million grant they gave

us wasn't the salaries and wasn't

spent. Consequently... 2.1 million

of that Grant was left in the bank

account when we could have paid the

self-employed, and that's the point.

You had to get an emergency grant

from the government.

Well, you

describe it as an emergency grant.

The truth is that they were

significant discussions taking place

behind the scenes with the Cabinet

office about the fact that the

funding they were giving us was

insufficient. The problem is that in

this short television interview, I

cannot give you the full detail, but

what I can tell you is that there

was a systematic dismantling of Kids

Company by a kind of political

driven malicious campaign.

Why would

that be, when this was a government

who had given new £47 million in

grants?

It was government is not

cohesive. You think all of

government works together.

It

doesn't. OK, politically motivated

dismantling you say. So some kind of

conspiracy to shut you down? Who

would...

Who was involved in that?

There were some civil servants and

some politicians and the difficulty

I have is I don't know exactly

who... Who do you think?

We know

this has happened.

Who do you think?

I don't know and I'm not going to

get into a guessing game.

Can you

understand that it does sound...

Slightly absurd to say on the one

hand the government is giving you 47

million. That is a lot of money. On

the other hand, there is an unnamed

civil servant or two trying to

somehow, civil servant, dismantle

you.

Well, look, you think you live

in a democracy, but actually, it's

not that straightforward.

You're not

going to apologise to the children

that were let down by the closure of

Kids Company.

Don't put me in that

position, that Tory. Don't frame it

in that way, because that is not

right.

Children were let down by the

closure of Kids Company.

Would you

like to apologise? In my book, I

have clearly stated that the one

thing I experienced is extreme

sorrow at the fact that the children

suffered in this way.

Would you like

to take some responsibility for

that?

We were not responsible for

the closure of this company. Not at

all? No, and I'm absolutely clear

about that. The only way we'll get

the truth here is if there is some

kind of an enquiry, I don't want us

to spend the money on it, but some

kind of" -- enquirer that is

independent of the government.

Next

question. Would you like to

apologise to the taxpayers and the

people who donated from the goodness

of their heart money that you

wasted?

I don't think we waste of

money. Why are you assuring that we

wasted money?

Where did that come

from? Well, a pair of shoes for

£305.

That, I don't know what the

story of that is.

Potentially a

waste. Anyone spending £305 on shoes

is a waste.

If that has taken place,

and I don't know what the real story

of that is, I would have to find out

about that, and that is something

that I would not... Let me ask

you... People gave us money, be very

careful about this again. We

actually fund raised to buy the

children clothes so they were

restricted funds to buy children

clothes.

People give you money when

you fund raise, from the goodness of

their heart. Don't expect it to be

spent on designer shoes. Someone

described it as a child of an

Iranian diplomat including funding

their Ph.D.

Studies. Again, that

isn't how the story is and I don't

think you should frame it in this

way.

This is all from an audited

report.

What report?

Where is this

audited report? An adult client

paid...

You have just made an

allegation and I think you haven't

identified the source of the report

for me, I don't know where you're

getting your figures from, we housed

families, I don't know which family

you are describing, but you are not

asking me the questions that really

matter, which is why was Kids

Company left with some 17,000

children who were statutory

responsibility with no-one willing

to pay for it. Why were we getting

that type of child through our

doors? Those are the sorts of

questions you should be asking me.

The life -- those are the questions

you should want me to ask. We took

two celebrity with opposing views

out on a blind date to put serious

political debate in an everyday

setting. This is showed that an

increasingly polarised world where

debate is often black and white,

there can be consensus amongst

people on opposite sides of the

spectrum. Wish I had the silverware,

polished glasses and invited them to

lunch. An election blind date.

Could you go to bed with remain?

Could you make them see the light? I

will not answer that. I will turn

answer that!

Are you only attracted

to Brexiters? That's a good

question. He has no words.

You must

ask if the story about you meeting

someone on a plane is true.

Is it

true?

This is a ridiculous setup.

You were snogging a model. I hope

someone has a video.

What was she

doing in business class? That is a

very good question. Would question.

Were you stitched up?

What that

episode shows is you cannot trust

anybody, you cannot talk to

anybody,.

That is awful. I don't

think you can trust random people.

There I was, sitting at the bar,

having dinner in the one cystectomy

and start talking. What do you do?

What you need, Nigel, is just a

nice, steady Brexiteer girlfriend.

It is then you don't have to have a

conversation with her all the time

you have had with me. Just saying I

don't understand why you feel so

strongly over dinner to her, when

you should be exchanging sweet

nothings. And you know you are both

on the same page, you both want out,

you both think the European project

is disgusting.

I still don't get why

you feel so strongly about this.

I

grew up in Brussels, I have worked

in Brussels.

Fine.

I would like what

we had, Nigel, and I don't want to

lose it. Cameron I think probably

did as much to lose the referendum

as anyone else.

The deal was

rubbish.

The deal wasn't good

enough. So Cameron I hold almost

entirely responsible for this, more

than you.

Do you? That's

disappointing.

And then, when we

went over the waterfall in a bucket

he left Downing Street with a song

in his heart.

He had to. He had to

go.

I used to play golf. The other

big hobby that I got which used to

be considered really geeky, really

geeky... Metal detecting. Can I

guess? Carriage driving.

No.

Is its

40?

It is historical.

Grass rubbing

-- is it sporty. And my close?

Not

really. I am a First World War nut.

Oh yes. Lennon an absolute nut.

Nigel, what should I do with the

rest of my life?

What do you want to

do?

I don't know. I think I am

swimming against the tide at the

moment.

Well, you will lose that

one, but that's OK. What do you want

to do?

I just wondered if I made a

terrible mistake, as well.

I think

you did pretty well, actually.

So it

doesn't matter that I'm the butt of

ridicule from half the Cabinet for

joining the Lib Dems. Back to

politics? I was asking Nigel what

should do with the rest my life, and

have eyed dropped a massive (BLEEP)

have at bay made a mistake?

How

would you sum up your political

first date?

Like... It is really

interesting, because Rachel is seen

in this country as being this sort

of hardline remainer, but when you

talk to her about the European

Union, in France she would be a

hardline Eurosceptic.

I think that

is right. There are few of us that,

even hardline...

Had she been from

anywhere else I would completely

understand why she sacrificed her

reputation to join the Liberal

Democrats.

Do you think you have

sacrificed a reputation?

I seriously

felt we were entering a 1-party

state on an issue that I believe to

be wrong in every particular. I felt

that I couldn't actually live with

myself unless I had made a futile

gesture, and stand up and be

counted. If only to be shot down.

And how would you sum up your

political first date with Nigel

Farage?

Well, like Nigel Farage,

incredibly entertaining and

infuriating. And wrong.

And wrong.

You can watch the full-blown date

between Nigel Farage and Rachel

Johnson and others, including Mary

Beard and Peter Stringfellow, on our

website. Mental health is an issue

we talk a lot about on this

programme, because we know it is

important to you. Mental health

issues affect one in four of us. Our

correspondent wanted to share his

story about how playing football had

given him a reason to live after

attempting to take his own life

several times. In one of the most

touching encounters of the year, he

told us about the suicide of his own

father.

One morning on the ward the

occupational therapist would be up

and asked if I wanted to play

football. And of course I said yes.

I didn't really expect much at

first, but I realised I had no... So

I rang my mum and asked if she could

get me some. Within an hour she had

gone out and bought me a pair. At

the time I didn't realise that if my

mum hadn't bought me those boots,

things might have changed and I

might have lost my life to mental

illness.

Take your time.

So every

week, I attended training, and it

gave me hope for the future, that I

could be someone my family and

friends could be proud of. To me, it

wasn't just football. It was my

life. It had given me stuff to build

on. Instead of destroying, I had

become stronger in my war on my

Demons. Every week I would put so

much effort in that I couldn't walk

a days afterwards. It changed meat

into a better man and it made me

want to stay alive so my mum and

brothers would have to bury me.

Instead, they could say to everyone

that my son and brother plays for

QPR. I have done some amazing things

at QPR Healthy Kickers. My biggest

achievement would be in my first

three seasons at the club I was top

goalscorer. Every time I put on a

kick to make it, I was in a

schoolboy any more. I was James. I

was free from my Demons.

Unfortunately, others aren't so

lucky. In 2010I lost my father to

suicide, on my sister's birthday.

But I've taken the good from the

bad, and I've met amazing people,

travel to places to play football. I

get to make people crowd. For a

young boy you'd like me, losing my

dad left me confused in this big

world. I didn't have any sense of

direction. I met my coaches, Connor

and Nathan, and they helped me find

my way. They stood in my corner. The

support I had from them was amazing.

I just felt so thankful they became

my role models. They showed me that

I am worth something. I am lucky

enough to know them. We can never

stop people getting mentally unwell,

but we can help them recover with

the use of football. It worked for

me and many others that I have

played four, against and played

with. Football saved my life.

Well

done. That was magnificent. Are you

all right? Do you think it is

important to speak out?

People are

suffering in silence, because they

don't have someone to look up to and

say enough is enough. You have got

to change. I... People who are

mentally unwell are seen as this

sort of outcast in society, and once

we start breaking down the stigma,

people will come out and say they

have got problems.

We will continue

to keep in touch with James in the

new year, and follow his progress on

our programme. And if you need help

and support, you can find a list of

charities at the BBC action line.

Finally, in 2018 we will be looking

forward to a royal birth. William

and Kate's child, plus the wedding

of Prince Harry and Meghan Markle.

It was a special anniversary in

September which touch the hearts of

so many, the 70th anniversary of the

Queen and Prince Philip. Here is how

we mark their enduring relationship.

# When you are in love... # It's a

loveliest night of the year.

The

king and queen announced the

betrothal of their dearly beloved

and daughter, the Princess

Elizabeth, to Lieutenant Philip

Mountbatten.

I am so happy that on

this, my third visit, my future

husband is by my side.

Into the dull November morning, two

braise draw the carriage. Inside,

Her Royal Highness Elizabeth, and

her father.

Thank you for watching. We are back

live on a January.