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-My name is Catrin Cooper. | 0:00:08 | 0:00:10 | |
-I'm 32 years old -and I have been beaten. | 0:00:10 | 0:00:14 | |
-On average in England and Wales... | 0:00:16 | 0:00:19 | |
-..two women are killed by their -partner or ex-partner every week. | 0:00:20 | 0:00:24 | |
-Tonight, we follow Catrin -as she meets others... | 0:00:26 | 0:00:29 | |
-..who have been -in violent relationships. | 0:00:29 | 0:00:32 | |
-I'm 26, I'm gay -and I have been beaten. | 0:00:33 | 0:00:37 | |
-With domestic abuse prosecutions -in Britain at an all-time high... | 0:00:40 | 0:00:46 | |
-..we hear the story -of a Caernarfon mother... | 0:00:46 | 0:00:49 | |
-..who was injured so badly -by her husband... | 0:00:49 | 0:00:52 | |
-..that her speech remains impaired. | 0:00:52 | 0:00:54 | |
-My name is Fiona. | 0:00:55 | 0:00:56 | |
-I have six lovely children -and my husband almost killed me. | 0:00:56 | 0:01:00 | |
-Just after 10.00am on a Sunday -morning in London last month... | 0:01:10 | 0:01:15 | |
-..over 200 supporters -of the charity Refuge... | 0:01:15 | 0:01:18 | |
-..set off on a 10k sponsored walk -across the city. | 0:01:19 | 0:01:22 | |
-It's a beautiful day today, -in the sunshine... | 0:01:24 | 0:01:27 | |
-The aim was to raise awareness -of domestic abuse. | 0:01:31 | 0:01:34 | |
-Domestic abuse -can mean the abuse of a partner... | 0:01:35 | 0:01:38 | |
-..a family member -or someone close... | 0:01:39 | 0:01:42 | |
-..and can be physical, emotional, -psychological, sexual or financial. | 0:01:42 | 0:01:48 | |
-This is Catrin Cooper's -second such walk. | 0:01:51 | 0:01:54 | |
-Two years ago, she told police... | 0:01:54 | 0:01:57 | |
-..that she had been beaten -while she lived in London. | 0:01:57 | 0:02:00 | |
-Only talking to other people -on social media... | 0:02:06 | 0:02:09 | |
-..gave her the strength -to do something about her situation. | 0:02:10 | 0:02:14 | |
-I found other people -on the Internet and social media. | 0:02:17 | 0:02:20 | |
-That did a lot to help me -understand what happened... | 0:02:21 | 0:02:24 | |
-..and how I felt at the time. | 0:02:24 | 0:02:26 | |
-I definitely now feel -like giving something back... | 0:02:26 | 0:02:30 | |
-..and to also be -a part of this community. | 0:02:30 | 0:02:33 | |
-Her relationship with the man ended -when he moved abroad. | 0:02:42 | 0:02:45 | |
-Catrin moved back home -to Anglesey... | 0:02:46 | 0:02:48 | |
-..because she couldn't cope -with staying in London. | 0:02:49 | 0:02:52 | |
-I was a mess. | 0:02:54 | 0:02:56 | |
-I spent a period of six months... | 0:02:56 | 0:02:58 | |
-..trying to deal with it by myself. | 0:03:00 | 0:03:03 | |
-I don't recommend that to anyone. | 0:03:03 | 0:03:06 | |
-It was the most difficult time -I've ever experienced. | 0:03:06 | 0:03:10 | |
-But to be fair, it was a tough time -for everyone around me as well. | 0:03:12 | 0:03:17 | |
-She couldn't leave her house -because she didn't feel safe. | 0:03:19 | 0:03:23 | |
-Even going to the beach at the end -of the garden was too much for her. | 0:03:23 | 0:03:27 | |
-She was under medical supervision... | 0:03:28 | 0:03:30 | |
-..and was diagnosed with PTSD, -post traumatic stress disorder. | 0:03:31 | 0:03:35 | |
-A lot of bad dreams. | 0:03:35 | 0:03:37 | |
-Panic attacks... | 0:03:38 | 0:03:39 | |
-..which mostly happened to me -during the night. | 0:03:39 | 0:03:43 | |
-During the day, the most tiring -thing was the flashbacks. | 0:03:44 | 0:03:48 | |
-It was just like... | 0:03:50 | 0:03:52 | |
-..you'd hear something -or someone would say something... | 0:03:52 | 0:03:56 | |
-..and it brought the memories back. | 0:03:56 | 0:03:58 | |
-I could swear -that I was seeing it all over again. | 0:03:59 | 0:04:02 | |
-The police got a warrant -against the man... | 0:04:05 | 0:04:08 | |
-..but couldn't arrest him -because he had moved abroad. | 0:04:09 | 0:04:12 | |
-Catrin is still pressing -to get him to stand trial. | 0:04:12 | 0:04:16 | |
-Over the past two years, -there have been times... | 0:04:18 | 0:04:22 | |
-..when she has questioned -her reason to live. | 0:04:22 | 0:04:25 | |
-There were days -when I told my family... | 0:04:27 | 0:04:29 | |
-..that I didn't want -to be here any more. | 0:04:30 | 0:04:32 | |
-Now that I'm better... | 0:04:33 | 0:04:35 | |
-..there's a lot of guilt about that. | 0:04:37 | 0:04:39 | |
-I feel so guilty. | 0:04:40 | 0:04:42 | |
-That's the worst thing. | 0:04:43 | 0:04:44 | |
-That's the worst thing for me. | 0:04:45 | 0:04:47 | |
-That any person I love -had to hear me say... | 0:04:47 | 0:04:52 | |
-..that I didn't want to. | 0:04:53 | 0:04:55 | |
-Fiona Parry lives -across the water in Caernarfon. | 0:05:00 | 0:05:04 | |
-In September 2015, while walking -her children to school... | 0:05:06 | 0:05:10 | |
-..her husband almost killed her. | 0:05:11 | 0:05:13 | |
-They had been married -for 16 years... | 0:05:13 | 0:05:16 | |
-..but the relationship -had been fiery from the start. | 0:05:16 | 0:05:20 | |
-Before I married him, -he burnt my face with a poker. | 0:05:21 | 0:05:26 | |
-At a wedding, -I lied to my whole family... | 0:05:27 | 0:05:29 | |
-..telling them that a lighter -had blown up in my face. | 0:05:29 | 0:05:33 | |
-But he had put the poker -in the fire and burnt me. | 0:05:33 | 0:05:36 | |
-He wanted to mark me, to scar me, -so that no-one else would have me... | 0:05:37 | 0:05:42 | |
-..because he said I was too pretty. | 0:05:42 | 0:05:44 | |
-Under pressure from her husband... | 0:05:46 | 0:05:49 | |
-..Fiona severed ties -with family and friends. | 0:05:49 | 0:05:52 | |
-Their marriage remained violent... | 0:05:52 | 0:05:55 | |
-..but she says -she stayed with him... | 0:05:55 | 0:05:58 | |
-..because he had -so much control over her. | 0:05:58 | 0:06:01 | |
-I try to tell people -that whatever he did to me... | 0:06:02 | 0:06:06 | |
-..he could get around me, -soft-soap me, every time. | 0:06:07 | 0:06:11 | |
-"I'll change, I'll change." | 0:06:11 | 0:06:13 | |
-He was like that every time. | 0:06:13 | 0:06:15 | |
-Because I had no family -to support me... | 0:06:15 | 0:06:18 | |
-..he knew that I'd go back to him, -take pity on him. | 0:06:18 | 0:06:22 | |
-And that's what I've always done. | 0:06:22 | 0:06:24 | |
-Fiona Parry has six children. | 0:06:25 | 0:06:28 | |
-Her eldest son from her first -marriage recalls hearing the abuse. | 0:06:28 | 0:06:33 | |
-Even though he sent us upstairs... | 0:06:35 | 0:06:37 | |
-..I could still hear Mam shouting. | 0:06:38 | 0:06:42 | |
-Begging him to stop, in a way. | 0:06:44 | 0:06:46 | |
-Iwan and his sister Sarah moved -to their aunt's when he was seven. | 0:06:49 | 0:06:53 | |
-He only visited his mother -when his stepfather was out. | 0:06:54 | 0:06:57 | |
-For years, I blamed Mam, -but now I know you can't do that. | 0:07:01 | 0:07:04 | |
-It wasn't her fault. | 0:07:05 | 0:07:06 | |
-She was trying to protect us. | 0:07:06 | 0:07:08 | |
-She never did anything wrong to him. | 0:07:09 | 0:07:11 | |
-She'd never provoke him... | 0:07:12 | 0:07:13 | |
-..to deserve to be beaten. | 0:07:14 | 0:07:17 | |
-She never would have. | 0:07:17 | 0:07:18 | |
-That's the worst thing about it. | 0:07:18 | 0:07:20 | |
-Getting hit -when she didn't deserve it. | 0:07:21 | 0:07:23 | |
-The four youngest children still -lived with Fiona and her husband... | 0:07:25 | 0:07:30 | |
-..but they all spent -several nights in a refuge... | 0:07:30 | 0:07:34 | |
-..when violence flared up at home. | 0:07:34 | 0:07:36 | |
-She just wanted to keep him happy. | 0:07:38 | 0:07:40 | |
-That's why she didn't leave him. | 0:07:40 | 0:07:42 | |
-She was afraid of what he'd do... | 0:07:42 | 0:07:44 | |
-..not just to her -but to the children as well. | 0:07:45 | 0:07:48 | |
-There was no... | 0:07:48 | 0:07:49 | |
-Once he went, there was no control -over what he could do. | 0:07:50 | 0:07:54 | |
-It was like a switch in his head. | 0:07:54 | 0:07:57 | |
-He just... | 0:08:00 | 0:08:01 | |
-One minute, -he was perfectly fine, then... | 0:08:01 | 0:08:04 | |
-If he wanted to do something, -he wouldn't stop. | 0:08:04 | 0:08:07 | |
-This is Sylvan Maurice Parry... | 0:08:08 | 0:08:11 | |
-..Fiona's husband -and an 18 stone weightlifter. | 0:08:11 | 0:08:15 | |
-Fiona stayed with him -through everything. | 0:08:17 | 0:08:20 | |
-She even took him back... | 0:08:20 | 0:08:22 | |
-..after he was jailed -for three years for attacking her. | 0:08:22 | 0:08:26 | |
-But on 3 September last year, -he went a step further... | 0:08:28 | 0:08:31 | |
-..while they walked -their children to school. | 0:08:31 | 0:08:34 | |
-He hit Fiona to the ground, -then kicked and stamped on her head. | 0:08:34 | 0:08:39 | |
-He told Sarah, "If I were you, -I'd pick up the kids from school. | 0:08:39 | 0:08:43 | |
-"I've killed your mother." | 0:08:43 | 0:08:45 | |
-Sarah ran out -in her pyjama shorts... | 0:08:45 | 0:08:47 | |
-..and Maurice went over -to his mother's house. | 0:08:47 | 0:08:50 | |
-She was flown by air ambulance -to a specialist unit in Stoke... | 0:08:53 | 0:08:58 | |
-..where she spent four weeks -in a coma. | 0:08:58 | 0:09:01 | |
-The injuries to her brain mean that -she has no memory of the attack. | 0:09:01 | 0:09:06 | |
-But three of her children... | 0:09:06 | 0:09:08 | |
-..then aged one, four and eight, -witnessed the beating. | 0:09:08 | 0:09:12 | |
-He was an animal. | 0:09:14 | 0:09:15 | |
-Vile. | 0:09:15 | 0:09:16 | |
-He was the most monstrous, -vile scumbag in the world. | 0:09:16 | 0:09:21 | |
-Do you know what? | 0:09:21 | 0:09:22 | |
-If he had a heart, he wouldn't -have done what he did to me... | 0:09:23 | 0:09:27 | |
-..what he did to his children. | 0:09:27 | 0:09:29 | |
-Beating their mother, -killing her in front of them. | 0:09:29 | 0:09:33 | |
-If he wanted to do it, -why not do it in the house? | 0:09:33 | 0:09:36 | |
-No, he had to do it -in front of his kids. | 0:09:37 | 0:09:39 | |
-Kids he was supposed to love. | 0:09:39 | 0:09:41 | |
-I won't say any more about him. | 0:09:41 | 0:09:44 | |
-He was scum. | 0:09:44 | 0:09:45 | |
-I wish he was dead. | 0:09:46 | 0:09:47 | |
-In part two, Catrin meets a gay man -who was beaten by his partner. | 0:09:51 | 0:09:57 | |
-I sat on the ledge of that bridge... | 0:09:59 | 0:10:03 | |
-..and I was ready to jump... | 0:10:06 | 0:10:08 | |
-..because I'd had enough of him. | 0:10:09 | 0:10:11 | |
-She also comes face to face with -a man who abused his wife for years. | 0:10:13 | 0:10:18 | |
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-Catrin Cooper is on a tour... | 0:10:33 | 0:10:35 | |
-..to raise awareness -about the effects of domestic abuse. | 0:10:35 | 0:10:39 | |
-She says she suffered PTSD after -being beaten and emotionally abused. | 0:10:40 | 0:10:46 | |
-She now wants to help others. | 0:10:46 | 0:10:48 | |
-Many people contacted her... | 0:10:50 | 0:10:52 | |
-..after she wrote about -her experiences on social media. | 0:10:52 | 0:10:55 | |
-Today, she is meeting one of them. | 0:10:56 | 0:10:58 | |
-He isn't ready to show his face... | 0:11:02 | 0:11:05 | |
-..but like 700,000 other men -in England and Wales... | 0:11:05 | 0:11:09 | |
-..he says he was beaten -by his partner. | 0:11:09 | 0:11:13 | |
-How was it at the beginning? | 0:11:15 | 0:11:17 | |
-Everything was fine -during the honeymoon period. | 0:11:17 | 0:11:21 | |
-We had been on holiday -with each other. | 0:11:22 | 0:11:25 | |
-Two years into the relationship, -he cheated on me. | 0:11:26 | 0:11:31 | |
-It went downhill from then on. | 0:11:31 | 0:11:33 | |
-He says his former partner wanted to -control every aspect of his life... | 0:11:35 | 0:11:39 | |
-..who his friends were -and what he did. | 0:11:39 | 0:11:42 | |
-He also took his wages -to control his finances. | 0:11:42 | 0:11:45 | |
-Over time, he then became violent. | 0:11:45 | 0:11:48 | |
-We were on holiday when he -first hit me, giving me a black eye. | 0:11:49 | 0:11:53 | |
-When I got back, people asked me -what happened but I just lied. | 0:11:54 | 0:11:58 | |
-I told them -I'd walked into something. | 0:11:58 | 0:12:01 | |
-He had so much control over me. | 0:12:01 | 0:12:04 | |
-It was my fault, basically, and -I had to apologise in the morning. | 0:12:05 | 0:12:09 | |
-Looking back on that period, -he can't understand why he stayed. | 0:12:10 | 0:12:14 | |
-It felt -like he had been brainwashed. | 0:12:14 | 0:12:17 | |
-Were you able to talk to anyone at -the time about what was happening? | 0:12:18 | 0:12:22 | |
-No, I didn't want to appear weak. | 0:12:22 | 0:12:27 | |
-Being a man, especially... | 0:12:28 | 0:12:30 | |
-..you have to have this masculinity. | 0:12:31 | 0:12:34 | |
-He says he was punched and throttled -regularly over two years. | 0:12:36 | 0:12:39 | |
-It was always worse -after his partner had been drinking. | 0:12:40 | 0:12:43 | |
-There is one night in particular -that he remembers. | 0:12:44 | 0:12:47 | |
-I ran out of the flat. | 0:12:49 | 0:12:51 | |
-Near the flat, there was a bridge -over a railway track. | 0:12:51 | 0:12:56 | |
-I sat on the ledge of the bridge... | 0:12:59 | 0:13:03 | |
-..and I was ready to jump. | 0:13:06 | 0:13:08 | |
-I'd had enough of him. | 0:13:09 | 0:13:12 | |
-He pulled me off the bridge and -started to strangle me on the floor. | 0:13:14 | 0:13:19 | |
-Then the police arrived. | 0:13:20 | 0:13:22 | |
-When I was in hospital, -he started to text me. | 0:13:23 | 0:13:26 | |
-He wanted me to come home -and to move in with him... | 0:13:27 | 0:13:31 | |
-..and for some reason, I did. | 0:13:31 | 0:13:33 | |
-One minute -I was ready to kill myself... | 0:13:33 | 0:13:36 | |
-..and the next minute, -I was moving in with him. | 0:13:36 | 0:13:40 | |
-He had started a career -as a shop manager... | 0:13:41 | 0:13:44 | |
-..but he had to leave one job -because his partner told him to. | 0:13:44 | 0:13:49 | |
-There were so many other nights when -I had packed my bags ready to leave. | 0:13:50 | 0:13:54 | |
-For some reason, I waited for him -to return to see the packed bags. | 0:13:54 | 0:13:59 | |
-You expected him to say... | 0:13:59 | 0:14:02 | |
-..sorry. | 0:14:02 | 0:14:03 | |
-He never did. I always said sorry. | 0:14:03 | 0:14:05 | |
-If it makes you feel better, I said -"thank you" after he hit me once. | 0:14:06 | 0:14:11 | |
-The thing is, your mind -is just all over the place. | 0:14:11 | 0:14:15 | |
-You never react -in a normal, sensible way... | 0:14:16 | 0:14:19 | |
-..because the situation itself -is so nuts. | 0:14:20 | 0:14:23 | |
-The relationship ended -after four years. | 0:14:31 | 0:14:34 | |
-Since then, he has suffered -from regular panic attacks. | 0:14:34 | 0:14:39 | |
-What advice would you give -to someone in the same situation? | 0:14:43 | 0:14:47 | |
-Walk away. | 0:14:47 | 0:14:48 | |
-Tell someone you are close to. | 0:14:49 | 0:14:52 | |
-The main thing is to walk away, -to get out of it. | 0:14:55 | 0:14:58 | |
-It's not healthy -to be in that kind of relationship. | 0:14:58 | 0:15:01 | |
-On average, -police in England and Wales... | 0:15:07 | 0:15:09 | |
-..are called to a domestic abuse -incident every 30 seconds. | 0:15:10 | 0:15:14 | |
-But why do people -beat their partners? | 0:15:15 | 0:15:17 | |
-One man who was prosecuted -for beating his wife... | 0:15:17 | 0:15:20 | |
-..agreed to meet with Catrin. | 0:15:20 | 0:15:22 | |
-He's been -on an offenders' programme. | 0:15:22 | 0:15:25 | |
-Because he has children, -he wanted to hide his face. | 0:15:25 | 0:15:29 | |
-I'm curious to find out... | 0:15:29 | 0:15:31 | |
-..what life was like before -this scheme that you've been on. | 0:15:31 | 0:15:36 | |
-It was extremely volatile... | 0:15:38 | 0:15:42 | |
-..to the nth degree all the time. | 0:15:42 | 0:15:45 | |
-There was no happiness in my life. | 0:15:45 | 0:15:48 | |
-You know, I've held my wife -up by her neck up to a wall... | 0:15:49 | 0:15:52 | |
-..spitting in her face with anger. | 0:15:53 | 0:15:55 | |
-I've thrown her to the ground -when I've been angry at her. | 0:15:55 | 0:15:59 | |
-And I'm twice the size of my wife. | 0:16:01 | 0:16:04 | |
-He has been found guilty -of attacking his wife... | 0:16:05 | 0:16:08 | |
-..and of criminal damage -after he smashed up a fence... | 0:16:09 | 0:16:12 | |
-..following an argument. | 0:16:12 | 0:16:14 | |
-When you and your wife -would argue... | 0:16:14 | 0:16:16 | |
-..what was going through your mind? | 0:16:17 | 0:16:21 | |
-How dare she question me. | 0:16:22 | 0:16:24 | |
-I've worked all week and all she -does is nag me when I come home. | 0:16:24 | 0:16:29 | |
-I come in on a Friday, and I can -feel the tension in the house. | 0:16:29 | 0:16:34 | |
-I just want to go back out -and go on the lash. | 0:16:35 | 0:16:38 | |
-How did you justify that -to yourself? | 0:16:38 | 0:16:41 | |
-Now, I'm appalled. | 0:16:41 | 0:16:43 | |
-The couple separated and he didn't -see his children very often. | 0:16:45 | 0:16:49 | |
-They were dark times and he jumped -from a bridge in a suicide attempt. | 0:16:50 | 0:16:55 | |
-After a period in hospital... | 0:16:59 | 0:17:01 | |
-..he joined the charity Relate's -Choose 2 Change scheme... | 0:17:02 | 0:17:06 | |
-..for domestic abusers. | 0:17:06 | 0:17:09 | |
-I walked in there just like -the old, arrogant me, thinking... | 0:17:09 | 0:17:13 | |
-"They can't teach me anything. -I can't learn anything from this." | 0:17:14 | 0:17:18 | |
-It took Choose 2 Change... | 0:17:19 | 0:17:21 | |
-..to make me start -pointing the finger at myself... | 0:17:21 | 0:17:25 | |
-..and not at other people. | 0:17:25 | 0:17:27 | |
-For years, I would blame -everyone else for my actions... | 0:17:27 | 0:17:30 | |
-..and not actually look at myself. | 0:17:30 | 0:17:32 | |
-After being on the scheme -for two years... | 0:17:34 | 0:17:36 | |
-..he is back in the family home -with his wife and two children. | 0:17:37 | 0:17:40 | |
-He hates what the children -have witnessed. | 0:17:41 | 0:17:43 | |
-A relationship -is not a boxing match. | 0:17:44 | 0:17:46 | |
-I'd tell anyone who's -in a relationship that I had... | 0:17:46 | 0:17:50 | |
-..you need to re-evaluate -what you want out of life. | 0:17:50 | 0:17:54 | |
-Domestic violence can kill... | 0:17:54 | 0:17:57 | |
-..and does kill two women -every single week in the UK. | 0:17:57 | 0:18:01 | |
-I could have killed my wife -quite easily. | 0:18:02 | 0:18:05 | |
-In Caernarfon, Fiona Parry -was almost killed by her husband. | 0:18:11 | 0:18:16 | |
-She says that in some ways, the -attack was a blessing in disguise. | 0:18:19 | 0:18:24 | |
-What he did to me on that day -made it a terrible day... | 0:18:24 | 0:18:27 | |
-..but I'm glad -what he did too in one way... | 0:18:27 | 0:18:30 | |
-..or I'd still be -with the ugly pig. | 0:18:30 | 0:18:33 | |
-Sylvan Maurice Parry was jailed -for life for attempted murder. | 0:18:34 | 0:18:40 | |
-However, he could be out -in seven and a half years. | 0:18:40 | 0:18:44 | |
-I'm petrified. | 0:18:44 | 0:18:46 | |
-I know he'll come looking for me. | 0:18:46 | 0:18:48 | |
-I've known him for 16 years -and I know. | 0:18:48 | 0:18:51 | |
-It doesn't matter -that he'll be sixty-odd coming out. | 0:18:52 | 0:18:55 | |
-I know he will. | 0:18:56 | 0:18:57 | |
-He will still think that he has a -hold on me for the rest of his life. | 0:18:58 | 0:19:03 | |
-Following the attack, -Fiona's heart stopped twice... | 0:19:06 | 0:19:11 | |
-..and surgeons -had to drill holes in her skull... | 0:19:11 | 0:19:14 | |
-..to release the pressure -on her brain. | 0:19:14 | 0:19:16 | |
-I'm glad I'm here with my kids... | 0:19:17 | 0:19:19 | |
-..and they're not putting flowers -on my grave. | 0:19:19 | 0:19:22 | |
-A year after the attack, -Catrin went to visit Fiona. | 0:19:25 | 0:19:28 | |
-Hiya. | 0:19:28 | 0:19:29 | |
-Hiya. - -Thanks for seeing me. | 0:19:29 | 0:19:30 | |
-Thank you. | 0:19:31 | 0:19:32 | |
-Having heard about -her horrific experience... | 0:19:34 | 0:19:36 | |
-..she was keen to see -how she was coping. | 0:19:37 | 0:19:39 | |
-How has the past year -been like for you? | 0:19:39 | 0:19:42 | |
-What I've been through -has been horrible... | 0:19:43 | 0:19:49 | |
-..but I've done so well in a year -to get to where I am today. | 0:19:49 | 0:19:53 | |
-I keep thinking I'm the same -as I was before. | 0:19:53 | 0:19:56 | |
-I keep thinking about the Fiona -from two years ago... | 0:19:57 | 0:20:01 | |
-..who was fantastic. | 0:20:01 | 0:20:03 | |
-Now I'm on the road to recovery -from a brain injury. | 0:20:03 | 0:20:07 | |
-I want to be the woman I was before, -but I can't. | 0:20:07 | 0:20:11 | |
-Did you ever think he was capable -of doing what he did? | 0:20:12 | 0:20:15 | |
-No. | 0:20:16 | 0:20:17 | |
-I never thought -he'd do what he did to me. | 0:20:17 | 0:20:20 | |
-I had been beaten by him -and taken it, whatever. | 0:20:23 | 0:20:27 | |
-But what he did to me this time -was horrendous. | 0:20:28 | 0:20:30 | |
-He should never have done it. | 0:20:30 | 0:20:32 | |
-If he had only just beaten me -like he'd done before. | 0:20:32 | 0:20:37 | |
-After all, -I didn't deserve it anyway. | 0:20:37 | 0:20:39 | |
-No-one on this earth -deserves what I went through. | 0:20:40 | 0:20:43 | |
-She now wants a divorce. | 0:20:45 | 0:20:47 | |
-But she can't hide from the tattoos -bearing his name on her body... | 0:20:48 | 0:20:52 | |
-..something else he insisted upon -over the years. | 0:20:54 | 0:20:57 | |
-How does it feel to see his name? | 0:21:00 | 0:21:03 | |
-Disgusting. | 0:21:03 | 0:21:04 | |
-I have to get rid of them. | 0:21:04 | 0:21:06 | |
-It makes me angry to see them. | 0:21:06 | 0:21:09 | |
-His name is just a thing. | 0:21:09 | 0:21:11 | |
-How many tattoos of his name -do I have? | 0:21:11 | 0:21:15 | |
-Some of the tattoos bearing his name -don't bother me... | 0:21:15 | 0:21:19 | |
-..because I can't see them. | 0:21:19 | 0:21:20 | |
-I can see some of the others -when I'm doing things. | 0:21:21 | 0:21:24 | |
-I want to get rid. | 0:21:25 | 0:21:26 | |
-Disgusting. | 0:21:27 | 0:21:28 | |
-What do you hope for in the future? | 0:21:30 | 0:21:33 | |
-First of all, -I want the kids to be OK. | 0:21:34 | 0:21:37 | |
-I want to get better. | 0:21:37 | 0:21:39 | |
-Maybe in the future, -I'll be with someone else... | 0:21:39 | 0:21:42 | |
-..with a man that respects me. | 0:21:42 | 0:21:44 | |
-It's about trusting a man -after what I've been through. | 0:21:45 | 0:21:50 | |
-If that's possible. | 0:21:51 | 0:21:53 | |
-You will. | 0:21:56 | 0:21:57 | |
-You're doing really well. | 0:21:57 | 0:21:59 | |
-I will survive - that's what I say. | 0:22:06 | 0:22:09 | |
-Domestic abuse affects a quarter -of women and one in six men. | 0:22:13 | 0:22:18 | |
-Catrin says that the stigma attached -with it still keeps sufferers quiet. | 0:22:19 | 0:22:24 | |
-When I first came home, I was given -some bad advice from a colleague. | 0:22:24 | 0:22:30 | |
-They told me to take time out, -but to do it quietly. | 0:22:30 | 0:22:34 | |
-I remember thinking, -"Why am I doing this quietly?" | 0:22:34 | 0:22:37 | |
-I didn't have anything to be ashamed -of, I didn't ask for this to happen. | 0:22:37 | 0:22:41 | |
-Catrin's aim -is to change this perception... | 0:22:45 | 0:22:49 | |
-..and to prevent other people -from suffering the same pain. | 0:22:49 | 0:22:54 | |
-Make sure you tell someone. | 0:22:56 | 0:22:57 | |
-The more you talk about what's going -on and hear it spoken out loud... | 0:22:58 | 0:23:02 | |
-..the more you realise -it's blinking wrong. | 0:23:02 | 0:23:05 | |
-You can then understand that you -shouldn't be in that situation. | 0:23:05 | 0:23:09 | |
-No-one should be. | 0:23:09 | 0:23:10 | |
-My advice would be to speak -with someone, just one person. | 0:23:11 | 0:23:15 | |
-Just try it. | 0:23:15 | 0:23:17 | |
-Next week, we're on the road -with the police... | 0:23:19 | 0:23:22 | |
-..as they try to reduce the number -of motorcyclists killed on the road. | 0:23:22 | 0:23:26 | |
-He's reacted -but his friend has carried on. | 0:23:26 | 0:23:29 | |
-We also hear from those -who have lost loved ones. | 0:23:30 | 0:23:33 | |
-I don't want any other mother to -go through what we've been through. | 0:23:34 | 0:23:39 | |
-It was so hard, and still is. | 0:23:39 | 0:23:40 | |
-S4C Subtitles by Testun Cyf. | 0:23:55 | 0:23:57 | |
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