Fatal Error - Part 2 Casualty

-What's going on?

-Emilie's not just a patient. She's our mum.

-Your mother's ill.

-My mother died two years ago, Charlie.

You are on your own.

I'm not your brother any more.

Now, Rita and Charlie are on a course until this afternoon

so I will be running the shift.

Erm, I think Senior Staff Nurse Chiltern would like to lead.

Do you want a shot at the hot seat, Benjamin?

I am Diane Stuart, agency.

-What are you doing?

-Headache. On to the IV coffee next.

I don't think I can do this.

-Things go wrong, that is part of leadership.

-All clear?

-Shocking.

-Wait, wait, wait...

Time of death - 13.23.

Think carefully about what you are going to say.

Ben?

BEN RETCHES

You OK, Ben?

She's dead, Dylan.

It's all my fault.

Yeah. OK, bye-bye.

How are we doing?

I've just called Connie. She's on her way in now.

Right - and upstairs?

Hanssen already knows. He's sending someone down.

Great, that's all we need.

How did this happen?

That's what we have to work out.

Who administered the shock?

II can't remember what happened. Why didn't she clear?

Unless-unless I didn't give the warning or...

Ben, Ben, hang on, hang on. Be very careful.

What are you saying?

It all happened so quickly. I can't remember, Dylan.

I am not sure if I asked her to clear or...

Well, of course you did, you always do. Why wouldn't you?

Then why did you get a shock?

Huh?

I don't know. I don't know.

But you did, you did give the order to clear.

That's what you have to tell anybody that asks.

OK, your job is on the line.

I think I need to go home.

I know. I understand that, but you can't.

They're going to want to talk to us.

Ben - what happened was a tragic accident

but it was a mistake and it is not worth jeopardising your career over.

I just... I don't understand, how can she die from one shock?

I mean, it doesn't add up.

That is what we need to find out.

Do the rest of the department know?

Well, if they don't already, they very soon will.

-Hanssen knows.

-Oh, great(!)

Right, the police have contacted Diane's mum. She's on her way in.

-OK. Have you spoken to Lofty and Dylan?

-No.

Make that a priority, then. We need to know what happened in the lift.

-Will you let me know when Mrs Stuart arrives?

-Course I will.

-Dr Hardy?

-Mrs Beauchamp.

Your brother's failed to turn up again. If he doesn't turn up

in the next 24 hours, tell him not to bother.

Henrik, I'm here, so...

MUSIC: Vienna by Billy Joel

# Slow down You're doing fine

# You can't be everything you wanna be before your time

# Although it's so romantic on the borderline tonight

# Tonight

# It's too bad but it's the life you lead

# You're so ahead of yourself that you forgot what you need

# Though you can see when you're wrong

# You know you can't always see when you're right

# You're right... # EMILIE COUGHS

You look tired.

You should get some rest.

I'm fine.

Honestly.

Come on, let's get you up.

CAL'S PHONE RINGS

THEY GROAN

HE GROANS IN PAIN

'Hi, this is Cal. I can't get to the phone right now

'but if you play your cards right, I might get back to you.'

I can't face them, Dylan.

Ben, Ben, Ben, Ben. Come on.

Just take a deep breath. It's OK.

There you are.

Are you OK?

Yeah, yeah, fine. We were just, you know, taking a minute.

I am not surprised.

I realise this must be really difficult for you both.

Lofty, I've got to talk to you about what happened.

I'm going to need to take a statement, OK?

And just so you know, Diane's mother is on her way in.

Mother?

Dylan, Connie would like to speak to you.

Right.

EMILIE WHIMPERS AND COUGHS

All right.

-Hey, hey, hey.

-SHE COUGHS

Hey, just try and calm down for me.

Try and breathe deeply.

I'm going to need to get us some help.

Yeah?

EMILIE WHIMPERS

'Emergency - which service?'

Yes, er, ambulance, please.

If there is anything we can do...

You want to go home...

..just say the word.

I think I'll stay. We're short-staffed anyway.

Right, so we need to fill out this clinical incident form,

outlining the events as you remember them. OK?

Lofty?

So, when you were in the lift, the patient went into pulseless VT...

-Yes.

-..and Dr Keogh made the call to shock her?

I realise this is the last thing you want to relive

but it is very important we get this down.

So, after Dr Keogh had given the instruction to shock the patient,

you pressed the button on the defibrillator?

-Yeah.

-And you said, "Clear"?

You checked everyone had done so before you pressed the button?

Lofty, I am so sorry.

You just say yes and we're done.

Yeah.

I can't imagine how difficult this must be for you.

You have our support.

Seriously, Tia? Pride?

You're actually coming out at...at Pride?

Not that I didn't know anyway -

nobody binges on Orange Is The New Black that much.

One, that's just insulting

and, two, that's not it

and, three, that's just insulting.

Wahey, howdy, cowboy.

Yeah, I told you I wouldn't break tradition, Dix.

The drinks might be non-alcoholic but Dixie's gay cliche drinking game

is well and truly alive.

Hey, Lily - stilts. Drink.

Who, Lily?

HE LAUGHS Yeah, she can't get enough.

Angel wings - drink.

Yeah, all right. I'd better get off an' all, before Chuckles here

ruptures her spleen laughing.

All right, see you later.

You could at least look like you're having a good time.

-You're being inappropriate.

-No, I'm not.

I'm joining in, it's a celebration. Where's your party spirit?

-I'm here to work.

-Mmm...

-doesn't mean you can't have a bit of fun.

-When the fun starts,

let me know.

All right. Let's play Gay Pride Bingo.

Me and Dixie played that last year.

Mrs Beauchamp -

this is Mrs Stuart, Diane's mother.

Mrs Stuart, I'm Connie Beauchamp, senior consultant

and on behalf of the department, can I say...

I want to see my daughter.

Yes, of course. If you'd like to follow me?

Thank you, you've been very kind.

I can assure you, we're doing everything we can to find out what happened.

Have you got any children, Mrs Beauchamp?

Yes, I have - a daughter. She's ten.

Well, unless you can bring my daughter back,

you can't really assure me of anything, can you?

Why has she got all those tubes stuck in her?

It's standard procedure in situations like this,

to leave the patient as they were when they died.

Standard procedure?

What, you mean, when somebody goes to work and ends up dying?

I understand this is very difficult for you.

If it's of any comfort, she would have felt no pain.

Everything's going to be all right now.

Mum's here.

MUSIC: Don't be So Hard On Yourself by Jess Glynne

# Learn to forgive Learn to let go

# Everyone trips Everyone falls

# So don't be so hard on yourself No

# Cos I'm just tired of marching on my own... #

Pippa?

Pip? It's me.

Tia?

Ta-dah.

What have you done to your hair?

And what are you wearing?

I knew this was a bad idea.

Is this some kind of fancy dress?

Let me spell it out for you -

-used to be a chick, now she wants a d...

-Daisy!

I can do this. It's fine.

I'm a guy, Pip.

I'm transgender.

And you wonder why he hasn't seen you for six months?

-Who are you?

-Daisy, Daisy Stoppard.

Look, why don't we just sit down and talk about this?

-We're leaving.

-No, Pip. I want to stay.

I want you to stay.

I don't know what rubbish this freak's been filling your head with...

Let's go, Robert. She's not worth it.

# Don't be so hard on yourself No

# Learn to forgive Learn to let go

# Everyone trips Everyone falls

# So don't be so hard on yourself No. #

-Tia.

-You stayed!

Come with me right now, we can pretend this never happened.

Here she goes again - Little Miss Bigotry.

Why don't you just do one, mate?

CROWD GASPS AND SCREAMS

Daisy! Daisy!

Daisy!

-LOUD BANG

-Tia, watch out!

GLASS SMASHES, CROWD GASPS

Your local GP can review this in a couple of days.

Tell you what, Lily,

your problem is, you don't know how to have fun.

I'll take you into town - show you some places

-that me and Dix used to...

-Please, no more Iain and Dixie stories.

I know what fun is - and no, thank you to your invitation.

Go on, then. Tell me what your idea of fun is.

All right, I'll go first.

A few of the lads, plenty of beer, good bit of banter,

maybe a cheeky kebab on the way home.

Followed by regretful hook-ups, vomiting and a raging hangover.

See, you do know how to have a good time.

SHOUTS OF DISTRESS

Now this, this is fun.

Come on.

Ethan.

Er, no, Ethan. I should take this.

-PATIENT VOMITS

-Oh, what?

It's fine, Dr Hanna, I can do it.

Just perfect.

Ethan.

What have we got?

Well, she's had a chest infection.

Pulse is 100, resps are 28 and sats are 96%.

She's had two 5mg salbutamol nebulisers with minimal effect

and 500 of ipratropium.

She's been on amoxicillin for the past week but, so far,

-hasn't had a response.

-Right.

Can you get someone to look at his shoulder, please?

No, it's fine I am going to stay here.

The sooner you go, the sooner you can come back and find me.

OK, I'll be right back.

Charlie, take good care of her.

We will.

Ethan, you don't have to do this.

It's fine, thank you, Charlie.

Let's get some bloods off and a chest X-ray, please,

and we'll need a sputum spec at some point.

Emilie, we're going to try and find out

what's causing these breathing problems, OK?

Excuse me, sorry.

Hi, I'm Dr Chao.

Any pain in your neck or back?

Give us some room, please. All right, what is his name?

-Tia.

-Robert.

Did you touch the power supply?

OK, Robert, let's get this off you.

One, two, three.

I always knew when I met the man of my dreams

there'd be a bolt of lightning between us.

Really?

Shame it was a dodgy power cable.

OK.

Lofty...

..are you OK? Sorry, that is a stupid question.

We are really worried about you.

Thanks.

What happened?

Ben, can I have a word?

-I'll see you later, yeah?

-Yeah, whatever you need.

I can't do this.

Ben...

I can see it on their faces.

I know it doesn't make sense. They know it doesn't make sense.

Why would she have done that?

Ben, nobody knows anything, all right?

They're just concerned for you.

And as for Diane, she clearly wasn't paying attention today.

I've taken a shock. We've all taken a shock.

Exactly, exactly. There are any number of mitigating factors.

You need to stop asking yourself these questions

and start thinking about what you're going to say.

Earlier, when she told me she was tired...

..and I was telling her off.

The pills.

-KNOCK ON DOOR

-Come in.

Sorry to interrupt, but we've got incoming from the Pride event.

-ETA five minutes.

-OK.

Is that it? No more details?

Erm, possible electrocution.

You're kidding?

You're not kidding?

Right, thank you.

Tell me about these pills, Ben.

I saw her taking these earlier.

Just assumed they were painkillers or vitamins or something.

She tried to hide them from me.

Do you think they may have made things worse?

Well, I don't know but we can find out.

Pop them back, yeah?

Mrs Beauchamp?

Michael Hall, Deputy Director of Operations for Unscheduled Care.

Mr Hall, whilst you're welcome here,

I can assure you we have everything under control so...

Forgive me, Mrs Beauchamp,

but a dead nurse in resus tells me otherwise.

Mr Hall, Rita Freeman, Clinical Nurse Manager.

Ah, excellent. You'll be next on my list.

First, I'd like to speak to the member of your team

present at the time of the incident.

I'll let you know when he's ready to talk.

Miss Freeman, this isn't really something that can wait.

Look, I've filled out the clinical incident form

and he's taking a little breather before I need him back on the floor.

And you think that's wise?

Staff Nurse Chiltern is a diligent and caring Band 6 nurse.

As his line manager, I can personally vouch for him.

And until we've conducted a thorough investigation...

We have no reason to suspect that one of my nurses is at fault.

Now, if you'll excuse me, I'm going to speak with Diane's mother.

I'd also like to pay my respects to Mrs Stuart.

Rita, would you show Mr Hall to resus, please?

Yes, Mrs Calvert.

Yeah, I'll stay with Tia until you get here.

Just glad I was here to look after her.

All right, Dylan, this is Robert Calvert, 16.

Hit by an overhead lighting rig, approximately 20 minutes ago.

No contact with electric but he has a query fractured right radius and ulna.

Wasn't KO'd. GCS - 15. Pulse - 90. BP - 120/70.

Sats - 97. I've given him five of morphine, oxygen

and I've cleared his neck at the scene.

OK, let's get him in.

Ben,

come on.

Mrs Stuart, I'm Michael Hall, Deputy Director.

I am very sorry for your loss.

Thank you.

If there is anything I can do...

What happens to her now?

Diane's body will be taken to the mortuary,

but for now, Mrs Stuart, can I take you to the relatives' room,

get you a cup of tea?

I want to speak to the staff who she was working with when she died.

I want to know she wasn't frightened and that it was quick,

-that it was painless.

-It was quick, it was painless.

Well, how would you know? You weren't there.

Mrs Stuart, once the Trust has completed a full investigation,

the full circumstances that may have contributed...

-Circumstances? What are you implying?

-Nothing.

Nobody is implying anything.

She was a good daughter and she was good at her job

and now she's dead. How did that happen?

It doesn't make sense.

OK, Emilie, you've developed what's called an aspiration pneumonia,

all right?

It happens after you inhale food or liquid...

..which is a common side effect of Huntington's, I'm afraid.

Cal says you don't think he cares about anyone else.

So, we're going to start you on a new course of IV antibiotics.

You're wrong.

You may not feel the effects immediately

but you should start to feel better soon.

When you'd made up your mind up about something...

..you used to hold your breath

until you got your way.

Once he did it for so long, he passed out.

-Scared the life out of me.

-Right, stop it.

Excuse me?

I'm sorry.

Erm, I'm going to try and find you a bed on a medical ward...

..where you'll be much more comfortable.

Can you let me know if there is any change, please?

'You have one old message.'

'Message one.'

'Yeah, everyone's been really nice.

'Usual grumpy consultant - Dr Keogh, this time.

'Anyway better go, Mum. Love you.'

'To listen to the message again, please press 1.

-'To save the message, please...

-PHONE KEYPAD BEEPS

'Yeah, everyone's been really nice.

'Usual grumpy consultant - Dr Keogh, this time.

'Anyway...'

Robyn, can we get vital signs, FBC, U and Es and a CK, please?

Has anybody ever told you, you have the most exquisite bone structure?

I'll leave you in Robyn's capable hands.

No, I'm serious. You really should smile more.

God, does she, like, ever smile?

She has her moments, just few and far between.

-Anyway, let's get you into this.

-DAISY SIGHS

Your mum and dad are on their way back from the caravan.

You might want to get changed out of that costume

before they get here, though.

Guessing they've been kept in the dark about this little experiment as well?

Actually, Dad helped me pick out the outfit. They're cool with it.

Can you feel me squeezing your fingers there, Robert?

How many more times? Her name's Tia.

Only a little.

OK, let's get some pain relief, then, please.

We'll need a chest X-ray and some shots of the lower arm

-and we will try and keep this elevated, OK?

-OK.

So, I got you your post.

Thank you.

'Hotties on Holiday'?

-HE LAUGHS

-That-that is not mine.

Mm-hmm?

Cal.

How is she?

-Er, could you give us a minute, please, Louise?

-Oh, don't mind me.

Please.

OK, but look after him,

cos he cried like a baby when Zoe relocated his arm.

Kind of turned me on.

Is that wrong?

Yes.

Emilie has pneumonia.

I've asked to admit her once a bed becomes available.

Right.

I'd go home and rest.

No, I'm not leaving here without her.

Fine, then you can both go upstairs.

Just so long as we're as far away from you as possible.

Is that right?

Do you have any idea what the past few weeks have been like for me?

No idea whether I've got this condition.

It's like a bomb waiting to go off.

Yes, I do actually.

It's exactly the same for me.

Ethan, you should have called me. We could have helped each other.

But you had no right to keep it from me in the first place.

You know, I was trying to protect you.

I need to get back.

Fine, well, I'm coming with you.

OK, I've checked on Toxbase.

The pills that she was taking were a legal high

that have been known to cause cardiac problems.

So, it could well be that...

It just doesn't change anything, Dylan. I still killed her.

I know all about it.

I saw it in a documentary about fetishes last week.

-Is that right?

-This isn't a fetish, Pip.

Are you sure you're not some kind of, I don't know,

glorified lesbian?

Look, don't worry, you'll grow out of it.

The trick is not to do anything too embarrassing in the meantime.

OK, the X-ray shows that you've fractured

both the ulna and the radius.

The displacement, means, I'm afraid, you're going to need an operation.

Can we get a below-the-elbow back slab?

Still in some discomfort?

It's really sore.

OK, some more analgesia as well, then, please.

Emilie?

Hi, it's Cal.

I'm taking over her care again.

She's my patient.

Well, I can make her better, Ethan.

Right, like you've done for the past few weeks. Hmm?

She should have been brought in days ago.

She refused to come in. She hates hospitals.

She said she didn't want to die here.

OK, so that's what we're doing now, is it?

We are letting the patients tell the doctors what treatment is best for them?

Look, Ethan, I know you're hurting, but I had to do right by her.

She's our mother.

My mother died two years ago.

EMILIE STRUGGLES FOR BREATH

Emilie? Emilie, can you hear me?

It's all right, I've got it.

-If you really want to help, get out.

-It's fine.

Just go.

Cal, please.

EMILIE WHEEZES

Heart rate and resps are up.

Yeah. Her sats are worsening.

Your ECG is normal. Looks like you got away pretty lightly

but I'd still like to keep you in for observation.

Can Robert and I go to the same place?

I'm afraid it doesn't work like that.

They're going to want our statements soon, aren't they?

Yes, but stick to the facts and don't divert from that,

you'll be absolutely fine.

ROBERT YELLS IN PAIN

What is the matter?

It's my arm. It really hurts.

-Do something.

-Dylan?

Yeah, shall we get this cast off?

-He's had the morphine, hasn't he?

-Yeah.

He shouldn't be in this much pain.

OK, that's great.

Yeah, there is no pulse. It could be compartment syndrome.

Erm, OK, I need to stretch out the muscles in your arm, OK, Robert?

-ROBERT YELLS IN PAIN

-Yeah, he needs a fasciotomy now.

What does that mean?

Compartment syndrome - it's a very serious inflammation

of the muscles in the forearm. It is potentially limb threatening.

Now, Robert, I am going to need to make an incision down your forearm

-to relieve the pressure.

-I'll call orthos now.

Er, no. There's no time. Let's get him into HDC

Can we have some help here, please?

I'm afraid you are going to need to stay here.

Her parents aren't here yet. She needs me.

Do you want your friend to come?

Can she?

-Yeah, I warn you, it is going to be gruesome.

-Fine.

This way.

Well?

We've stabilised her - for now - but it doesn't look good, Cal.

I'm sorry.

I'm not going to give up on her.

There's nothing more we can do.

Then I'll take her somewhere else.

This is all because of Mum, isn't it?

You were never there and now you're trying to make up for that.

What? No!

But even if it was,

it's better that than giving up on someone

just to make your own life easier.

What?

Yeah, it'll be like she never even existed.

That's what you want, isn't it?

How can you say that?

What are you two playing at?

There's a sick patient in there, in need of medical attention.

You two are standing out here, bickering.

I'm sorry, Charlie.

Yeah, me too.

Ethan,

Emilie's your mum.

The longer you go on denying that,

the harder you're going to find this.

Right.

OK, Robert, I'm going to make the incision now.

It's going to feel uncomfortable for a little while

but you'll feel better in the long run, OK?

Do you remember the last time we were in hospital together?

Year 9 - Tia decided to neck two litres of cider in a graveyard.

It was her Goth phase.

You said that it was apple juice.

Oh, my God, your mum went crazy when I told her.

She found us in the cemetery,

Tia, propped up against the side of some headstone.

Guess that's why she lost it.

You're doing very well, Robert.

You had to have your stomach pumped. Your mum was in bits.

Stayed with you all night though, didn't I, Tia?

That's what best friends do.

I have spoken to the union and fully apprised them of the situation.

I've also suggested that Lofty speak to the RCN as soon as possible.

And when can I speak to the nurse in question?

I thought I made that clear. He's mid-shift.

That's what I was afraid of.

I don't like what you're insinuating, Mr Hall.

I've spent long enough down here.

The sooner Mrs Stuart can see that this hospital is doing everything

it can, the sooner she'll believe that we're are all on the same side.

We are all on the same side.

Then it shouldn't be a problem for me to speak to Nurse Chiltern

and Dr Keogh.

The conference room on the first floor should be fine.

Not much to look at, is it?

No.

I wish I had a penny for every time I've sat here

staring at that blank grey wall, hoping for answers.

But it doesn't say much, does it?

How is she?

She's stable.

How's Cal?

He's still with her.

You know...

..our biological mother is dying and it's Cal I'm more worried about.

Can you believe that?

Have you told him that?

No.

Then maybe you should.

At the very least, it would mean you could stop staring

at that blank, grey wall.

Actually, I'd better get back in.

Thank you.

You're welcome.

Bye-bye, wall.

Yeah, OK, that should do it.

Let's leave the saline dressing on

-and can we get a vacuum splint as well, please?

-Sure.

-You're not just going to leave her like that, are you?

-Yes.

Don't worry, you're in very capable hands.

What has she done to you now?

Actually, I've been thinking...

I've been Tia all my life - all my memories are hers.

I can't just change that.

What are you saying?

That maybe I should go back.

Maybe none of this was such a good idea after all.

I'll call you.

Course.

Let's get you upstairs, shall we?

Robyn, do you mind if I come with Daisy, too?

-I could do with a break.

-Yeah, sure.

I'll see you in a bit.

Could I get a couple of minutes, please?

Yeah, I'll be just outside.

You should try and get some rest.

I'm fine, Ethan.

Look, I was thinking about what you said.

About how she didn't want to die in a hospital.

So, if you like, I could ring around the local hospices...

..see if I can get her a place somewhere nice.

-Really?

-You said it yourself - she hates hospitals.

Yeah.

OK, well, I will get on with that straightaway

and I'll tell Mrs Beauchamp that

we're both going to need some time off.

I mean, somebody's got to make sure you don't mess it up, haven't they?

Thank you.

That's what brothers are for.

Pride -

it's like gay Christmas.

I'll bear that in mind.

In the meantime,

here is where I leave you.

Wait.

What now?

I, erm, just want to be sure we understand each other.

You don't get in touch with Tia again,

not even if she contacts you first.

You'll kill him if you do this.

He'll have lived and died in the wrong body.

How can I kill somebody who doesn't exist?

-Well, that is just it. Tia - she's the lie.

-Yeah?

Well, she's my best friend and I'm not giving up on her.

Daisy?

Dr Chao?

-What's happened?

-I don't know.

Let's get her into resus. You stay here, please.

-Have you called her parents?

-She doesn't have any family.

Dr Keogh, Mr Hall would like to take a statement from you and Lofty.

-Can I have a minute?

-Dr Keogh?

She mentioned you.

Were you one of the ones with her in the lift?

When she died?

Mrs Stuart, I-I... I'm so sorry for your loss.

No, everybody's sorry.

Was she scared?

Was she in pain?

We are trying to find out...

So that's it, is it? Back to business as usual?

-No, nobody is saying that.

-No, but you're not listening to me, are you?

Nobody will tell me what happened.

Is it..?

Was it her fault?

Mrs Stuart, I was there when it happened. Erm...

I hope that it might give you some consolation to know

that your daughter was instrumental in reviving a patient

that we were trying to save.

Erm, what happened to her was a tragic accident.

Nobody could have foreseen it.

Would you like us to take you to the Patient Affairs office?

I just need a minute.

Are you OK?

Yeah, fine. Where's Ben?

I don't know.

-I thought her ECG was normal. She is in VT.

-It was.

Daisy? The electric shock you received has caused your heart to

start beating very fast,

but we're going to fix that for you, OK?

Charging to 120.

Clear.

I can't do this!

Lofty!

Louise, come and help me, please.

Charging to 120.

Clear.

Nothing. Still in VT.

Charging to 150.

Clear.

She had a little girl, Max.

-I know, I know.

-What am I going to do?

It's all right, I've got you.

I've got you.

Where have you been?

Just checking that your mum was still coming.

They'll be here soon.

How are you feeling?

Robert.

Daisy suffered a heart complication from the shock.

What?

She's OK, but when she came round, she was asking for you.

If he's talking, I'm sure he'll be fine. Seemed OK to me.

You knew?

Hopefully, she'll make a full recovery.

Hey, do you remember when we...

You do realise that all your stories make me out to look bad

and you out to be the hero, don't you?

No, they don't.

That's why you don't like me coming out as Robert -

because you don't know how to control him, do you?

Just like you don't know how to control Daisy.

Do you honestly think I'm threatened by that freak?

Yeah, I do.

I think you're threatened by all of this

and it's taken me becoming a man to stand up for myself

and tell you that.

I thought I'd lost my best friend.

Do you know what you've put me through today?

This isn't about you!

I've...

I've been so scared, Pippa.

So scared.

Do you have any idea what it's like being born in the wrong body?

Not knowing who you are?

I just didn't want to lose you.

Telling my parents, doctors' appointments...

The only person I wasn't scared about telling was you.

So, what, you just want to keep pretending to be a boy?

The only pretending I ever did was being Tia.

My name is Robert.

Robert Andrew Calvert.

And I'm a guy.

A man, Pip.

A lad, a bloke.

I finally have the chance to be happy,

because Tia...

Tia wasn't happy.

She hadn't been happy for years.

So...

..if you don't like that, you can go.

Anyway, whatever it is, I'm here for you.

Thanks, mate.

Could you hold the lift, please?

Thanks.

Which floor?

Oh, erm...

Patient Relations office, I think it is.

Are you OK?

Tried to be so strong.

My daughter died here today.

She was a nurse here. Agency.

It was her first shift.

Her name's Diane.

I only spoke to her a few hours ago.

She was saying how nice her boss was.

She was hoping for a few more shifts here.

I've been trying to find the people she was with.

I wanted to know where she was,

what she heard,

what she saw.

None of it matters though, does it?

She's not coming back, is she?

SHE SOBS

What am I going to tell her daughter?

Is that your floor?

I'm really sorry for your loss.

I should go.

I can't do any more here, can I?

Thank you.

Ben, I need a word with you before you go in.

I just met Diane's mum.

-Oh?

-She was so brave.

I know what I have to say.

Yeah, I know you do.

I should never have stuck my oar in.

But what you said earlier...

I was... I was trying to protect you, but...

..if it hadn't have been for me,

you would never have been in that position in the first place.

You would never have accepted the promotion,

you would never have worked yourself into the ground like you did.

You didn't force me into anything, Dylan. We are both grown men.

We are not the same, though, are we?

And I know that you would never have been comfortable going in there

and telling them anything less than the full truth as you saw it.

That makes you a better man then me.

Go on, they're waiting for you.

Well, look what even the cat didn't fancy dragging in.

I, erm, just wanted to say

I'm sorry

for the way I treated you.

Pippa, Robert told you he was trans.

It is hard enough without losing your best friend as well.

She will always be my best friend.

You should try telling HIM that.

So...

Nurse Chiltern, having gone over your clinical incident form,

can you now talk us through what happened

when Dr Keogh said he wanted you to shock the patient?

Ben?

I don't know.

-I'm sorry?

-Lofty?

It all happened so quickly - I didn't have time to think.

What are you saying?

I'm saying that I didn't have time to check

before I gave the order to clear.

-But on your form, you said...

-I was still piecing everything together.

Dr Keogh was convinced the procedure was followed to the letter.

As I said, it all happened so quickly, he was mistaken.

Do you have any idea how much your actions will cost the Trust?

Not to mention the adverse publicity for the hospital?

Have you even heard a word I said?

A woman's lost her life and all you care about is your hospital budget?

How could you have been so stupid?

Stop this line of questioning immediately.

I will not have you bullying my staff

and if you continue, I will terminate this meeting now.

I made a mistake, Rita.

One that I'll never forgive myself for.

Ben, what you have just said raises serious concerns.

This matter will continue on to a formal investigation.

I understand.

You can go.

Beer and banter, I can do, but I draw the line at a kebab.

-What?

-I thought we could go down back to the Pride event,

if it's still going.

Yeah, all right. Tell you what, I'll see if I can round up some troops.

But if you think I'm playing bingo, think again.

You can go in there, you know.

What do you want?

Hi...

..Rob.

It's all right. You rest now.

Those lads have come out of this really well.

I hope you're proud of them.

I am.

But if you tell anyone,

I'll deny all knowledge of it.

CONNIE'S PHONE RINGS

Henrick?

Staff Nurse Chiltern's done what?