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# The beast in me

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# Is caged by frail And fragile bars

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# Restless by day and by night

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# Rants and rages at the start

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# God help the beast in me... #

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POLICE SIREN WAILS

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# The beast in me

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# Has had to learn To live with pain... #

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HE SHOUTS IN PAIN

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# And how to shelter From the rain... #

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Come on you. We'll get that seen to at the station.

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You had enough already?

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No, I'm at the station, just had to sign some prescriptions.

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Do you fancy a pint tonight?

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Nah, best not, I'm going to get a run in before...

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Ah, yeah! That's exactly what your broken body needs right now?

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-Mind over matter.

-Remember what we talked about?

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No, not a clue.

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We talked about you stopping being so boring and getting a life.

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Maybe I'm happy being boring.

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You can't run forever, Forest!

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What's that?

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This is the final piece to this year's Christmas colour scheme.

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When did Christmas have a colour scheme other than red and green?

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It always has in our house.

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Every year I chose a colour and a theme

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and then I pick the decorations to fit around them.

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-You buy new decorations every year?

-Of course.

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You don't drag the old ones out and throw them at the Christmas tree?

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No. I love Christmas too much for that.

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This year it's "White Christmas".

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Silver!

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Oh!

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Oh! But I've bought white doves...

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and white paper chains!

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Silver will brighten things up.

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No, I was going for a more classy, sophisticated look,

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like Frank Sinatra "White Christmas". Not silver!

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-What's wrong with silver?

-It's tacky.

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I've just bought a silver Christmas tree, Imogen said it was cool.

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And she's at art school.

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-Bit early for presents?

-Christmas decorations.

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Oh, lovely.

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Silver isn't posh enough apparently.

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Hey, Kev. How was your mum?

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Right. I'm going to sort this out.

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On what planet did they think silver was white?

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HE COUGHS

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Here we are, Doc, this is John Doe.

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Apparently.

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-It's OK, you can leave us.

-Sure?

-Yeah.

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I just need to take a look at you.

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HE COUGHS BREATHLESSLY

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No rush.

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HE COUGHS

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-That chest doesn't sound too good.

-It's fine.

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-When was the last time you saw a doctor?

-No point.

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Well, at least let me take a look at your hand.

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You're definitely going to need stitches,

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we'd better make an arrangement for you to go to A&E.

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I'm not allowed to let you bleed to death.

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OK.

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How about I put some steri strips on it for now?

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We can think about what happens next

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after we've stopped you bleeding over everything.

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I've called every company this side of the hemisphere

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and there's not a set of white words anywhere. What am I supposed to do?

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-Alert the United Nations.

-They look fine.

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-They won't look right.

-Nah, of course not.

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I've got this centrepiece that I've made for above the fireplace,

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and if I can't find any white words, it'll ruin everything.

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It sounds amazing.

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It is.

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I've got this set of little white doves to hold the letters in place.

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-Not real ones?

-Wouldn't surprise me.

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-They're beautiful.

-You must really love Christmas.

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I do, it's my favourite time of the year

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and we always have such an amazing time.

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-You do.

-What do you mean I do?

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-We have perfect Christmases.

-Not if you're a kid.

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You loved Christmas!

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I'd have loved it more if I was allowed to eat normal food,

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instead of posh unpronounceable stuff,

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or if my presents were wrapped in real wrapping paper with Santa Clauses on.

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You never brought proper tins of chocolates,

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we always had to have truffles.

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I wasn't even allowed to put up the decorations.

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You always helped, you still do!

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I hold the odd bauble while you hang it on the tree.

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I remember one year, I made you a Father Christmas tree decoration

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and you hung it in your en-suite.

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It was very Christmassy in there.

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I just wanted the sort of Christmas all my friends were having,

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you know, fun.

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We had lots of fun! It was party after party.

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Yeah, for the adults.

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You and your mates got ratted on Bolly

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and played spin the bottle and I was sent to bed early.

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Fun times!

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Right. Well, I have a patient.

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HE COUGHS

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You are one lucky man, the old lady doesn't want to press charges.

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-But can I go now?

-Doctor Clay wants you to be seen at A&E first.

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The doc's sorted me and I want out of here.

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OK, fine, I'll let you go...

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When you tell me your real name.

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Mum!

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I see you're busy as usual.

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-I'm sorry.

-What for, being an ungrateful little sod?

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Yeah.

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OK.

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You know, some bits of Christmas were all right.

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Which bits?

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I quite liked the Perry Como Night Before Christmas song.

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Was that it?

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Mum, I was a kid,

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I just wanted Christmas to be...

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I don't know. I just never felt part of it all.

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But you WERE part of it!

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No, as a kid I was just part of the decor

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that had to keep clean and quiet.

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-We never played any games.

-You had board games.

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-Which you never played with me.

-Your dad played with you.

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He set up that Ghostbuster castle thing, took him all day!

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Yeah, Dad was great.

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But you were too busy sipping sherry and getting ready for the party.

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That's telling me.

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Where's John Doe?

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Well, there were no charges, we had to let him go.

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-I was going to refer him to A&E.

-Waste of time.

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Those strips aren't going to hold forever.

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I'm sorry, you can talk to the custody sergeant,

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but he was determined to get going,

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desperate to disappear again, I guess.

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His family reported him missing nine months ago.

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He looks a lot older now.

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That's what living rough does for you.

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Of course!

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His wife's a patient of mine, she's been in a right state.

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Reckon they'd given him up for dead.

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Shouldn't we send out a search party?

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It's not against the law to go missing

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and he's managed to stay out of sight this long.

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Where would we start?

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I'd best let his wife know he's been sighted though.

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-I'll come.

-Why?

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-Ah, don't get upset.

-Upset?

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Why should I get upset?

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When all the graft, all the hard work

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and time spent trying to make Christmas perfect,

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when actually I was creating a child's Christmas in hell?

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Mum.

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I just wanted this Christmas to be special.

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-Will I have to identify him?

-Sorry?

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Well, I'm assuming you found a body.

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We arrested Mr Wingate this morning.

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-Arrested? But...

-He's alive.

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Alive?

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-I'll get some water.

-Thanks.

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-How do you feel?

-I'm fine.

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-Do you feel faint?

-No, I'm just...

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I don't know,

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I suppose I wasn't expecting to hear those words.

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It would be easier if you'd come to tell me he was dead.

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At least that would make some sense.

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Where did you find him?

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We arrested him going through bins.

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-Bins?

-The householder doesn't want to press charges.

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So where is he now?

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Your guess is as good as ours.

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So you're here to tell me you found him

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but that he's gone again.

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I'm sorry. We thought you would want to know.

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Did he ask after me?

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Dr Clay spoke to him more than me.

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Did he ask after his children?

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No, I didn't think so.

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Anyone who can just walk out, without even a goodbye,

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without a word of explanation,

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why should they suddenly show any concern for their family?

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There were a few sightings near Bluebell Wood...

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..so I used to go and sit there...

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..for hours...

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..but not a sign.

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It is clear that he's been living rough somewhere.

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He'd rather live out of bins than come home to me.

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Why?

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What did I do wrong?

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You shouldn't blame yourself. People leave for all kinds of reasons,

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-reasons of their own.

-I loved him.

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I cared about him.

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I thought we were happy.

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I think you'd better go.

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HE WINCES IN PAIN

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KNOCK AT THE DOOR

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There are no patients waiting

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and you are seriously not going to avoid me a minute longer.

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So, did you tell your mum about Nadia?

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No, not after...

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After what?

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I always thought my dad left my mum because he was married,

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because he had other responsibilities,

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but it wasn't because he was married.

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He left her because she was white.

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If someone wants to disappear, it's not our job to haul them home.

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Why are you so bothered?

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Why do people run?

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Just up and leave it all - their work, family, friends?

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Maybe he had some kind of breakdown?

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Either way, he made his choice.

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I don't know how I got it into my head that my dad was married.

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I don't know if it was something I made up

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or something my mum told me just to keep me quiet.

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It's ironic, isn't it? I've spent my entire life

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getting grief for being the only brown kid in a white neighbourhood

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and it turns out I'm just too white for my dad.

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Did your mum say any more?

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No, I couldn't, she was too upset.

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So you don't know what pressures your dad was under?

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Pressures? He was a racist!

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He was young, you were illegitimate,

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his family could have been on his case, white woman or not.

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Talk to your mum.

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Tell her you need to know the full story. She owes you that much.

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My mum struggled all her life to bring me up properly!

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She had everything against her. No help, no money.

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I owe her everything!

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I've got work to do.

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-Hello!

-'Hi.'

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Are you in a zoo?

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Uh, no, I'm out running.

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Again? Don't you think you should give yourself a break?

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This is my break.

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'Fair enough. Listen,'

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could you pop in when you've got a minute?

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-You missed signing one of your prescriptions.

-'Yeah, sure.'

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Thank you. And I just wanted to say, anything rose-scented.

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-Not lavender, lavender is for oldies.

-'Sorry?'

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In case you're my Secret Santa.

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I've got to go.

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OK. Bye. Don't run yourself into the ground.

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Yeah, bye.

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No prizes for guessing that was Dr Clay.

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Yeah, going for another run.

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No wonder she left him.

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HE MUTTERS TO HIMSELF

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Thank you. See you next week.

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Oh, um...

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I think that you should cut Jimmi some slack,

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he's been through enough.

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I'm quite up to speed on Jimboy's trials and tribulations.

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So you know he's really struggling.

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The best way to get over heartbreak is to get on with your life.

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No!

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BIRDS CAW

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Dr Clay is, um...

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-He's a delicate creature.

-A wuss.

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-I didn't say that.

-So what's with the kid gloves?

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He's trying really hard to hold things together,

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which is difficult for him because he has other issues.

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Of course he does. He needs to stop whining.

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No, that's the last thing he does. He's a very private person.

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If anything, he's keeping it all too buried.

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Or he's just running away from it all?

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Why are you so interested in Jimmi?

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Is it to avoid the great big hole in your own miserable life?

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Must be really boring on your own,

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staring into empty beer glasses and greasy takeaways.

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Ooh. Touche, Mrs Holins.

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That really suited you, that did.

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One...

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two...

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MUTTERING

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Caspian?

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Caspian.

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Caspian, look at me.

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-Oh! Are you all right?

-Christmas shopping!

-Oh.

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Oh, um, I was reading somewhere

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that they've found silver on the moon.

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-Where did you read that?

-Um...

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But they've also found silver in the sea

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and it's that that draws the tide. Or something like that.

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-Sounds magical.

-I think it makes silver a pretty class act.

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And a good reason to have a silver Christmas tree.

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PHONE RINGS

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Hello, health centre. Can I help you?

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I've been thinking.

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You could meet up with Nadia.

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Ask her some of the questions you want answering

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without upsetting your mum.

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You just don't know when to leave well alone, do you?

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We need to get you out of here.

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No.

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This'll stop the bleeding till we get it seen to properly.

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I'm not going anywhere.

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You don't have a choice. You might have pneumonia.

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HE COUGHS

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So...

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I'll let nature take its course.

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Mate, you're not a flipping fox!

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You can't just crawl off and lick your wounds better.

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You'll need some serious medical attention to sort that chest out.

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Ah!

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Yeah, OK, it'll be slow and it'll be painful

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and I wouldn't recommend it. Anyway, I didn't come all this way

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-just for you to die on me now.

-Why did you come?

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Good question.

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I didn't ask you.

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I don't need help

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-(COUGHS)

-I don't need...anyone.

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Mate, you know what? So far today,

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I have wandered round for miles on an injured leg,

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I've lost my phone,

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I've had a massive panic attack in, I don't know, a wood somewhere

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and now I'm completely lost.

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You may not think that you need anyone, but they need you

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and they need answers.

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Hi there, Jimboy. Gobby Holins just told me

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that you've got more issues than a ferret's got fleas

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so if you want to join me for a pint later,

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we could talk about them. I mean, I'd rather we didn't

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but as long as I've got a pint in my hand, I won't mind

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and if it means you'll stop being such a massive loser and get a life,

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then it's a plan.

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So give me a buzz, mate.

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Oh, this is Al Haskey, by the way. Bye.

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CASPIAN COUGHS AND WHEEZES

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If you head straight in that direction...

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..you'll find your way out of here.

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No, I'm not leaving you.

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I can't go back now.

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HE COUGHS

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What did you do?

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I was a drunk.

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Right.

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It was...out of control.

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I didn't want my family to know.

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So you ran away.

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They were better off without me.

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Or was it the easy option?

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It was the only option.

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This is no life for you, it's no life for them.

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It's too late for me to go back now.

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Why do people run?

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Why do they think they can just shrug everything off and start again?

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Do they think it'll be better?

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Look at you.

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This is... This isn't a life.

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You're in limbo, you're living off scraps.

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And she's sitting, your wife is sitting at home

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with no explanation, without much at all.

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Is that what you want?

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No... No.

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Well, then.

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What would I tell her?

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The truth.

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-Cos it's as easy as that?

-No!

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No, because it's difficult.

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But it's the right thing to do.

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Stop running.

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Stand still.

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Does she hate me?

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No. She's angry.

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Do you reckon she'll let me explain?

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You ran out on her. Come on, sit.

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Sit. OK, are you ready?

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All you can do now is offer the truth.

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I love her.

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I always have done.

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HE COUGHS

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If she can just let me see her...

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..I could tell her that.

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That's a good start.

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Wait there, wait there!

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Yes!

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Hi, yeah, this is Dr Jimmi Clay from The Mill Health Centre.

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I need an ambulance urgently in Bluebell Woods.

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Great, thank you.

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Right.

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Let's get you back there

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and call your wife.

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Caspian?

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No, Caspian! Not now, mate! Caspian?

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Before you chuck me out...

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A peace offering.

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They're lovely.

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But we can get different-colour ones,

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or even mismatched, if you want.

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I've got you these.

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I scoured Letherbridge for them.

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But if it's not what you want?

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Just work your magic, Mum.

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Or do the same thing you do every Christmas.

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It wouldn't be the same if you didn't.

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And you're right, this year needs to be extra special.

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Thank you.

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This will be the best one ever for you, me and Dad.

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HE SHOUTS

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Don't get mad,

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but Nadia's number is in your jacket pocket.

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I put it there a while back.

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Anyway...

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it's there if you change your mind.

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DOORBELL RINGS

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Does he want to see me?

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I thought you were a lean, mean running machine?

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Life's too short.

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-Are you telling me you've come over to the dark side?

-I'll give it a go.

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Wait a minute. Does this mean

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-I've got to listen to a load of whinging?

-You did ask.

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Well, just keep the ale coming.

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Or how about we forget the whinging and cut straight to the beer?

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He's already with the dark side.

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And you've got some catching up to do.

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Lincoln Hendry. He was hit by a car, left by the side of the road.

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Why would you help someone and then disappear?

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I believe in being a good Samaritan.

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It is you, isn't it, the mystery angel?

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Let me through.

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I've called the police!

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-What's going on?

-Ta-da!

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-You want to show me how it works?

-No.

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