Painted Blind Doctors

Put it down!

Face the truth, YOU pushed her away.

No, you don't, no.

No.

-Elaine, I'm so...

-Bye, Alex.

BELL RINGS

Jimmi.

Hi. Can I come in?

Of course.

What can I do for you?

Is something wrong?

Eh...

There's no easy way to say...

Harrison's dead.

No.

What happened?

He said he was the target for some of the other prisoners.

It was nothing like that, he took his own life.

-What?

-I'm sorry.

There's no question?

It couldn't have been an accident?

They found him in his cell, he'd hanged himself.

I thought you'd like to know before you saw it in the morning papers.

Right. Thanks.

-Would you like some tea? Kettle's just boiled.

-Er...

Oh, yes!

This piece wouldn't be the same without your attention to detail.

-Thanks.

-No, don't stop on my account.

You're fast becoming my Edie Sedgwick.

-Edie Sedgwick? Andy Warhol's factory girl?

-Right.

See, that's what I want this place to become - like Warhol's factory.

He was excellent at marketing himself.

I love his work - those Marilyn Monroe screen prints.

He put the super in superficial.

He saw the future, made his name a global brand.

Is that what you want?

Well, this exhibition will be a leap forward, certainly.

Kingsley Apollo, going into orbit.

Ooh, that's a bit obvious, Im.

Isn't that your art school mentality talking?

No... I'm so glad that I've left all that.

This is so much better,

-actually doing things instead of talking about them.

-Hmmm.

Everybody's always banging on about how being a student is like,

"Finding yourself as an artist." It's just so boring.

This is much more of a challenge...

Belinda darling.

KINGSLEY LAUGHS

Did you speak to the gallery?

Are they gonna give us the whole space?

OK.

Alright, hang on.

Now darling, I know I can trust you with this,

but just be a bit more careful with the brush strokes.

Devil's in the details.

Hello, hi.

Well it needs a whole room to itself, that's the point.

Come on.

I'll send you a photo.

I must have been the last person he spoke to.

He said he'd do the right thing.

I never thought he meant...

I don't think any one anticipated it.

They'd have put him on suicide watch if they'd suspected otherwise.

Anyway, it is for the best, isn't it?

He said there was no way out but he found one, didn't he?

I'm not sure I'd put it like that.

Perhaps he finally did the right thing.

Anyway...

Thanks for coming - I'll see you later.

Are you still coming in?

Why wouldn't I?

It's a lot to take in.

I'm fine.

I dealt with Harrison last week. Drew a line under it.

If you're sure?

I believed in something that wasn't there.

A stupid affair, nothing more.

Hello, is it alright?

What are you doing here?

There was something I wanted to talk to you about.

-Well, it couldn't wait.

-I'm working.

Nobody else is. Look, time for a chocolate brownie? Quick energy fix.

Mum.

So...

I didn't want you to hear it from anyone else,

Harrison Kellor's dead.

What? No? Serious?

Hanged himself, according to your dad.

There is a God.

Immie!

You don't expect me to have sympathy for him?

No, but someone's died.

Yeah and better him than Jack. What did he say?

He doesn't know yet. This is the thing, you see.

I wanted to go up there, tell him in person, not over the phone.

But your dad's all,

"Cut the cord, have you lost the plot?" - typical.

-So...?

-So I know you can do that video doodah thing on your phone.

I thought that Jack set you up with Skype?

Skype? Tripe - I can't get it to do anything.

So you want me to do it?

Now?

PHONE RINGS

Alright, Gnome?

-Bit early in the morning for you?

-I've not even been to bed yet.

Get you, you rebel.

Morning love.

-Mum, what's up?

-Harrison's dead.

-What?

-He hanged himself on Friday.

So basically, you both left Letherbridge at the same time.

-Right.

-Are you alright?

I know it's a bit of a shock.

No, yeah, I'm fine, good riddance.

Hope he's burning.

-I'm only sorry I won't get my day in court.

-I'm not.

At least this way you won't have to relive it all, none of us do.

I was looking forward to facing him down when I was taking the stand.

Are you sure you're OK? How's Newcastle?

Yeah, great, it's brilliant here, loads of nice pubs and clubs.

I've met a few of the other people doing the LPC.

-It was a right laugh.

-Lovely.

Has Mr Skanky McTalentless Buttcrack coughed up any wages yet, Im?

I've told you, it's not about the money.

It's always about the money.

Alright, I better be off, see you.

Call your dad, he'll tell you all...

Do you think he's all right?

He's fine. Better than fine.

I'm still here, thankfully.

Burst appendix - slippery little devils.

I thought it was indigestion.

Anything else I can do?

Not really, thanks. Unless you're any good at pest control?

My monthly visitor's back.

Cramps? That will be uncomfortable with stitches.

Not that - her.

Out there.

Every four weeks, like clockwork. "The Mistress."

Do you know her?

She sits there sometimes for hours until the other car arrives.

She gets in and off they go.

He's obviously married,

otherwise why all this?

That's terrible.

Someone, somewhere, is getting hurt.

Used to be me once, getting the heartache.

He ended up with a family he told me he never wanted,

with the other woman, and I got this.

You must be able to justify it to yourself.

Cheating once, in a moment of madness, that's one thing but...

They believe the passion can excuse the guilt.

-You know I used to teach English Literature?

-Really?

All those stories of women lost to love.

"I didn't plan it, I'm not a bad person, I couldn't help myself."

She must know that she's doing wrong.

Wasted lives. Can I start being a bit more active?

Yes, as long as you're careful.

I won't be witness to this any longer.

Martha?

-Good morning, Doctor Cassidy.

-Morning.

Sorry, am I in your space?

I'm having a bit of engine trouble.

I've called the breakdown service

He won't leave her, you know.

Excuse me?

I don't want you parking here any more.

-I told you...

-Yes, engine trouble,

every four weeks and always here.

I don't want to be the backdrop for your sordid activity.

-Who do you think you're talking to?

-Park somewhere else from now on.

You're pushing yourself too far, Martha.

You don't know the first thing about me.

I have your car details, you and your "breakdown man"

and a list of times and dates.

-Handy for any divorce case.

-You need to get your facts straight.

Let's get you back inside.

Facts? You don't know facts, you just deal with lies.

Excuse me?

You're pushing yourself too far, you might pop a stitch.

Can you give me a hand getting her back inside?

I'm sorry, I'm waiting for someone.

Please, she's just had major surgery. I can't do it on my own.

Come on, we need to get you inside, come on.

I know we made a bit of fuss, but I'm not sorry that you are staying.

I'm learning more here than I would at college.

I couldn't have dropped in

-as casually as you like if you were in a class.

-No.

I know this won't mean much to you now but I've always hoped

that we'd have this...

this really cool mother/daughter thing.

I don't mean matching outfits and going clubbing together and such,

but just mates.

I am going to be really busy you know.

-Networking with other artists and learning new skills.

-Yeah.

It's made it easier to cope with Jack settling so far away.

Maybe, MAYBE Kingsley isn't so bad after all.

He's amazing and he's already become a really important part of who I am.

I should get to know him better, why don't you pop round tonight?

I'll make a very artistic shepherd's pie?

I'll ask him, he'll be back in a bit.

Meanwhile...

So what has he told you? Is it that golden oldie?

-"My wife doesn't understand me?"

-Martha, keep calm.

-Is that all?

-Thanks.

Yes, thanks. I hope it hasn't worn you out,

can't have you spending the rest of the day flat on your back, can we?

-Martha!

-If you must know he's in an unhappy marriage

and they're stuck caring for his ill mother, a crippling mortgage.

-I see.

-I'm the one bright spot in his life.

We grab what happiness we can.

It won't always be like this.

And your life's on hold?

He's worth it.

And anyway, he's not hurting his wife because she knows.

-She knows?

-We're discreet for the sake of his mother.

Until they can afford to find a private nursing home for her.

You'll be in a nursing home before he leaves his wife.

Why should he change anything

as long as he can have his cake and eat it?

-He's not like that.

-Wake up! They're all like that.

Yeah! Well it's my life.

Morning.

Elaine?

What are you doing here?

Admin.

You should be at home.

I'm fine here.

To be honest, it's best if I'm busy - around people.

Long as you're sure.

I can't help thinking, "Was it my fault?"

-I don't see how.

-Did I push him into it?

He kept saying I was the only one "who could save him."

Harrison wasn't a stupid man but he was a calculating one.

If I hadn't rejected him...

YOU didn't push him into anything, he tried to drag you down with him.

-But...

-You were lucky you got out when you did.

Some of it must have been down to me.

I was in the same situation, almost, last week.

How's that?

Another man who I thought needed help,

who turned out to be just as damaged as Harrison, only I couldn't see it.

What is wrong with me?

What's wrong, is that you blame yourself for the failings of others.

KINGSLEY LAUGHS

Kingsley, do you have...?

What's going on?

Well, you were busy in the studio.

Now we're going to be grown up about this, aren't we?

You're everything that I find desirable in a woman but...

Well sometimes you just fancy something

-that's not on the usual menu.

-Why didn't you say?

Well, I didn't think I'd have to.

Creativity is about being open to options.

For instance, now you could go, you could stay and watch

or maybe you could...

-I don't eat in that restaurant.

-Oh.

Not even a little Immie sandwich?

Stop it. This is...

What? Wrong? Disgusting? Or liberating?

Yes! No...

Yes, I thought that we had something

We do but it's selfish to keep it to ourselves.

Is this what you were doing on Saturday afternoon?

When you sent ME to go and get supplies?

When did we ever say we were exclusive?

Do you have you ANY idea what I've given up to be with you?

Yes, a lifetime of mediocrity. You should be thanking me.

Thanks.

And by the way, whatever you thinking, you are no Warhol.

You're just something that sounds like him.

# I'm desperate to connect

# You can't live like this

MUSIC ECHOES

# You've lost

# To fear, doubt and distrust.

There we go.

I'm sorry for the trouble.

Is she still there?

Yep.

Looks like he's here too.

-Silver car?

-It's not a man.

-No!

-What is it?

How did she find out?

You said that she knew?

SHE SOBS

Let's get you inside.

Dad?

Dad?

What?

I've really screwed up.

What? Why?

You were right about Kingsley.

I thought that he loved me.

What's he done?

I found him in bed with a man.

Oh, the little scrote...

-I've ruined my life and what for?

-Wait until I get my hands on him.

-No, dad, no.

-You need to dump him.

I HAVE!

-But now I'm stuck here in Letherbridge

-Why are you?

Don't you still want to go to London?

Well, go and phone the college -

see if it's not too late to change your mind.

-There's no way!

-You won't know until you try.

What if they say yes?

I'll get you there. Go and find out.

Thanks.

Go on - quick.

Why won't he pick up?

Maybe she's killed him.

In which case you got off lightly.

That's not helping, come and sit down.

He must have told her.

How else could she know where you were?

PHONE BEEPS

It's him.

"In hospital, nothing serious, will call you when I can."

He didn't want me to worry.

"When I can?" How convenient(!)

What do you mean, convenient?

He's in hospital and his wife shows up in his place.

He wouldn't lie to me.

He's hiding from you! He's picked her.

No - this is our new start.

I have to see him

What if his wife's there?

It doesn't matter. It's all in the open now.

She's won. Wake up before you get left on the shelf.

You're just a bitter, twisted old cow.

Well take a good look...

..because I'm you.

I thought...?

I was the poor wife?

No.

So why did you lie?

-I was ashamed.

-Then why be so holier than thou with me?

Because you are outside my house, every month, rain or shine,

reminding me of how stupid I was.

I gave up everything.

It cost me friends, family, people I pushed away

because I didn't want to hear what they had to say.

But if you loved him?

Nothing but guilt and misery.

And for what?

For the crumbs stolen from another woman's plate.

It's not like that with us.

It isn't.

I'm really really sorry that I messed you about.

But if you could just give me a chance then?

That's brilliant, thank you. No, tonight. OK, bye.

That's it, the college were fine.

Said I wasn't the first student to flip-flop on them.

What about your lodgings?

That was my landlady, she's still got the room.

Took longer to persuade HER than it did the college.

Right, OK. So it's settled?

Yeah. There's nothing to stop me, is there?

Immie, if you don't go now...

It's not that I won't miss you because I will...

Better get on packing...

Yeah go on.

Don't forget to call your Mum!

Think about what they have together -

the home that they've made,

the children that you're going to be hurting.

They don't have any.

It comes down to one thing -

living an honest life,

or living with the guilt.

Harrison was a psychopath.

-He was good at manipulating people.

-I don't...

He's doing it now.

Suicide was an end for him but this is going to impact

on YOU, Jack, and Kevin, for quite some time.

IF you let it.

I wanted to believe he'd done the honourable thing.

Spared us more agony.

Well he spared himself. No-one else.

I know, you're right,

You need to take time off, starting now.

I'll tell Howard.

Do you think she'll go to the hospital?

What, see if he's really there?

I don't know.

Is what you told her true, or did you exaggerate?

Which would you like to believe?

You can tell me, I've heard it all before.

I love my husband.

We're good.

I better be going because I've stayed longer than I expected.

What's going on?

We've been trying to call you, where have you been?

Getting stuff for the meal tonight, where are you taking all that?

-There's been a change of plans.

-I'm going to London after all.

What? No, you're not, you can't... Not like that.

It's all been arranged.

No time for explanations, I'll tell you about it when I get back.

What about your work with Kingsley?

I'm sorry to mess you about, but it's for the best.

-What's he done?

-He's made me see what's important.

-I'm getting my duvet and then that's everything.

-Hurry up!

But Jack's had all the freezer food she hasn't had a proper send off.

Never mind that, go and give Immie a hand.

If you think you're leaving me behind...

Immie, hurry up otherwise the M40's going to be a car park.

Hey, you all right? Everything OK?

-Fine.

-OK.

I've been thinking...

Christmas - I know that it's a way off

but I...

want to plan ahead

You had me worried there.

Do you want to talk now, or are we going to have lunch together?

Together.

Right. Let's get this show on the road.

No wait - two minutes.

What are you doing?

Oh!

Are you going to make it back in time for your shift?

Yeah, yeah. I'll sort it, don't worry.

You've been amazing, dad, thanks.

If you really want to thank me,

make sure you make a proper go of this.

I will.

And ask your landlady if she's got a spare room for your Mum.

Mum?

Dad says if you're not in the car in ten seconds then we're off.

What was so important that we couldn't leave without it?

Oh, Mum.

I know it's silly.

Because London isn't even that far away!

You will come home for Christmas, won't you?

I've got to go before I can come back(!)

Finally. Next stop M40.

You sure you're all right to drive?

Yeah, I'm fine.

Don't want a sing song, keep you focused?

-I'd rather not actually, thanks.

-Charming.

Right. Let's have some music.

Who's had me Bee Gees CD?

I don't know, but I'll gladly shake them by the hand.

What is your problem with good music?

I don't, it's just that every time you put it on,

all we hear about is you and Billy Gerraty

at the school disco for the hundredth time.

I was at a sensitive age, I'd never been groped like that before.

I mean the way he was fumbling,

I thought he was trying to nick me bus fare home.

Did you know your mother was such a loose woman before she met me?

I'm going to loosen YOU in a minute, Rob Hollins.

# And if I lose you now,

# I think I would die

# Oh, say you'll always be my baby

# We can make it shine

# We can wait forever, just a minute at a time.

I think there should be a medicine

that cures e-everything.

That's a great idea and if you can invent one

that makes people younger, you'll become a millionaire.

I understand that you are indulging in a fantastical notion

of a romantic schoolgirl.

One that has very poor taste in men.

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