14/09/2012 EastEnders

What do you want?

Me?

Or the money?

What?

I am giving you a direct choice.

There is £450,000 in there.

You can have it.

Take it.

Leave - no questions asked.

Why?

Why are you doing this?

Because...I have to know.

Because it's burning away inside me.

Every single night - the same question,

"Do you want me?

"Or do you want my money?"

It's been there since the very start.

Since I bought the first drink instead of you. Since you proposed.

The pre-nup.

Oh, Michael, the pre-nup.

You made me tear it into pieces on our wedding day.

You know, the same voice in my head, "He doesn't love you.

"He just wants your money."

You're behaving very strangely, Janine.

Why don't you just put the money away? Somewhere safe.

-We'll talk in the morning.

-No!

Because we are talking about this now, Michael! Now.

What is wrong with you?

I have to know.

For sure.

Once and for all.

-ALFIE:

-So who is he?

-He's a bloke. He's just a bloke.

-Some bloke?

What's his name? Does he have a name?

-You don't know him, you don't. He's not from round here.

-OK.

-Where did you meet him then?

-You know.

No. No I don't know, Kat.

What, in the bar downstairs?

A club - the R&R?

No.

Oh... The other night when you went out with Kim

and you didn't come back until the morning?

HE SIGHS

How stupid am I, eh? I'm like a mug, ain't I?

-I'm the biggest mug in the world.

-I'm sorry.

You go back to his then?

-Yeah.

-Where?

Catford.

Catford?!

And I don't know him? I've never met him?

Just a one-off, was it?

Was it a one-off?

No.

-How long then?

-SHE SIGHS

-A while.

-How long's a while?

-A while.

-I don't understand.

What's a while?

Three months.

Three months?

I'm sorry. I-I really want to be honest with you.

Three months?

Yes, three months, keep saying it, it's not going to change anything.

So where - where did you...? When you...?

All right, so is this like, you know, like once a week?

-Once a day?

-No, not once a day.

So once a week?

What difference does it make? What, do you want a number?

-Do you want a total number of days?

-Yeah, yeah.

I want to know every dirty, disgusting little detail.

If you love me that much, why did you make me rip the pre-nup up?

-I didn't make you.

-Well you didn't give me a choice.

You could have walked away.

It was my wedding day. We had a tent full of guests.

Michael, I was six months pregnant!

You could have walked away!

No, you knew that I wouldn't. How could I?

Yes, fine, fine, all right, you gave me a choice

but you knew that I wouldn't take it.

Come on, at least be honest about that?

Honesty.

You want honesty?

I'll give you honesty.

Yeah, I admit it.

At first I had one eye on the money.

That wasn't all.

I liked you.

I thought you were interesting.

You interested me.

And then...

..as things progressed...

I fell in love with you.

-Really?

-Really.

But you couldn't just let it happen, could you?

You had to be in control.

You MADE me sign that pre-nup.

You MADE me run around.

You MADE me do as I was told.

Do you have any idea...

..how humiliating that is?

And I wasn't going to have it, Janine.

Equal partners.

That's what I wanted.

Nothing more.

What about the hospital?

YOU...were not there...

After a week or so you just stopped going. I was there week...

Week after week, on my own.

-You weren't.

-I was freaked out.

Because every time I went to that ward

I didn't know if they were going to tell me that...

she was dead.

I just couldn't bear that.

I love that girl.

-Yeah? And me?

-And you.

I love you. We're all in it together.

I know... I know my limitations, Janine.

I know I'm not a natural father.

I know that.

It freaks me out. All that...getting close.

I find it uncomfortable.

I know you find it uncomfortable too.

We're the same, you and I.

Except I'm the one with all the money.

-Who cares about the money?

-You do.

You do.

Unless it's something else.

Another reason why you've been neglecting me.

I don't think I have been neglecting you.

Is it another woman?

Is that what this is?

Have you been seeing someone else?

-ALFIE:

-How can you do that?

How can you do that to me, Kat? To Tommy, eh?

I don't know.

I'm sick. I can't help myself.

You can't resist, can you?

I'm not right in the head, I never have been.

Stop with that now, do you know how boring this story is?

This sob story that you keep coming out with all the time.

Harry's little girl. Nightmares when I was a kid.

Cos right now, I do not care. Do you hear me?

I do not care because this is way beyond...

-No, you said before...

-I know what I said! I know what I said.

I said if years down the line if you made a little mistake,

maybe I could understand. But this is different, all right?

Cos this is you rutting away like some filthy, disgusting animal.

What, three, four times a week?

Not thinking about me, Tommy, the family, not caring.

I do care. I care...

Oh yeah. Course you do. Course you do, Kat.

You're overflowing with love right now!

Not for me, but for him!

I love you.

Really?

Yes, otherwise I wouldn't be telling you all this.

But you get your jollies elsewhere, don't you? With this nameless bloke.

-This stud from Catford.

-It's not like that.

No? So, what is it, then? What is it?

Just a bit of fun, do you go to the cinema, you go for a pint?

-No, it's not...

-No, are you two just getting sweaty together? What is it?

Why...?

Why, is it...?

Is it because he can give you something that I can't?

Is that what it is?

It's not just sex. It's not just a fling.

What, then?

I got involved.

Got involved?

W-what's involved?

And I'm sorry. I-I'm really sorry, Alfie.

What do you mean, involved?

Oh you...you mean like...

You mean like love?

Do you love him?

Kat? You look at me.

Do you love him?

I don't know.

I'm so confused and I feel so guilty.

-And I can't get through a single day without just wanting to die.

-Yeah.

Yeah. I'll ask you again.

Do you love him?

Yes...

..or no?

Yes.

I think so.

The other day, Billy heard you on the phone to a woman.

You were talking to a woman.

Yeah, I talk to women all the time!

That's my job! She was 50, she's an estate agent.

I'm not interested in other women.

How do I know that? How do I know?

-You could be lying to me now.

-Janine. You need to listen.

You are destroying this. This good thing that we have.

I have to know, all right? I have to know.

But you can never know, can you?

You can never know anything for sure.

I just told you.

There is 450 grand, all right.

You can take it. No strings. It's yours.

You can go, take it, all right. Now you choose.

No.

I refuse to be drawn into your game.

Fine.

I'm going to bed.

When I wake up in the morning...

If this is still here then I'll have my answer.

You really do love me.

And if it's gone...

Well, if it's gone, I'll know that you never did.

Now I-I'll see you in the morning.

Maybe.

It started off as a one-off, a stupid mistake

and then it just got complicated.

I didn't want this to happen.

But you and me, we just...

We just couldn't seem to get close.

HE SIGHS

I... But...but what about the lovely times that we had, eh?

What about, you know, last week, there was just me you and Tommy?

And we were camping.

And that message on the bandage? I mean, did you mean that?

Course I did.

But you love him too though?

So who is it, Kat?

Just tell me his name, just so I... so I can talk to him, yeah?

-No.

-Just tell me his name. That's all.

-No, I can't.

-You can't? Or you won't?

-No, I can't. It's not going to help.

Let me tell you something. It's going to help me.

Cos right now I just want to kill him. So... Just tell me, yeah?

-I'm not telling you.

-Tell me his name.

No, I'm not telling you. It's not going to help.

-It's not going to do any good at all.

-Tell me!

-NO! I can't tell you.

-Tell me.

-I can't!

-TELL ME!

-Please tell me, OK.

-No.

Kat, I'm begging you. Please tell me.

-Just tell me his name.

-I can't.

ALFIE SOBS

Alfie, listen, it doesn't matter, it doesn't matter.

The only thing that matters is you and me, that's all that counts.

Stop.

You say, "You and me."

What do you mean, "You and me?"

There is - there is no you and me.

-There is no you and me. Come on.

-No...

-Get out. Get out.

-What are you doing?

KAT SOBS

Alfie, please. Just let me talk to you.

-I just want to talk to you.

-Get out. Get out.

-Get out.

-No! Alfie...

-Get out. I said, "Get out."

-I just want to talk to you.

-Get out.

KAT SOBS

LAUGHTER FROM PUB BELOW

RAUCOUS LAUGHTER

Here he is. Here he is. Landlord, three more, please.

Make them doubles.

-JACK:

-Hey, you all right, mate?

-What's wrong?

Wrong? What could possibly be wrong? My life's perfect.

-Somehow I feel you don't mean that.

-What, you had a bad night?

-Come and have a drink with us, eh?

-No, no, no. We're closing up.

It's time to go now.

Woah, woah, woah, we ordered a drink five minutes ago.

Yeah well, I've been busy clearing up glasses if you hadn't noticed.

-Ooh, I'm sorry, Jean.

-All on my own.

Give them their drinks then send them home.

Thank you very much, landlord.

Three large scotches, please, Jeany, and one for yourself.

No, thank you.

DEREK LAUGHS

Jean!

BOTH LAUGH

BABY CRIES

DOOR SLAMS

BABY TOMMY COOS

Looking for something?

Where's the money?

Ugh.

It's all there. I got sick of looking at it.

I had to move it.

That big ugly pile of money reminding me of you.

You weren't going to take it?

If I'd taken it, you'd be in an empty house now.

Take her.

It's OK. Ssh.

Where are you going?

Don't, OK.

Don't. Cos I don't want to hear any more of your madness.

I realised tonight quite how twisted you are.

I thought you and me were the same. We're not. Because you've killed it.

Any love, any real love that I had for you, you have killed it.

Michael, please, I haven't slept.

She's really done a number on you, hasn't she?

Toxic Granny.

All this money and look at you - you're poison.

Tell me something. When you came down,

were you more upset at the money being gone or Scarlett?

Which one was it?

Was it your daughter or was it your dosh?

Yeah, just as I thought.

I don't care about me. I care about her.

And with you as a mother, what hope, what chance has she got?

Ever? For happiness? What are you going to do to her?

And even if you try your very best,

you just can't help yourself, can you? You're going to mess her up.

And deep down inside you know that's true.

Michael, please just wait.

Michael?

Put her to bed now.

TRY not to get that wrong.

Think you can manage that?

Michael...

Kat? What you doing out here? What's happened?

It's, um...

It's me and Alfie.

He knows...

Knows what?

What does he know?

I've been seeing someone.

I've been having an affair.

Go in there, get on your hands and knees and beg him for forgiveness.

I can't, he won't listen to me.

You have to. Alfie, you know, he's...

..he's unique, ain't he.

There's no-one else like him. He needs you and you need him.

Needs me? What for?

I'm dirt, I'm disgusting.

Kat, he loves you. I know him.

I can't, he won't forgive me.

-He won't even let me through the door.

-You've got to make him.

Prove to him that you're worthwhile,

that you'll do anything to make it work.

Why are you being so nice to me? Why do you even care?

I've always cared about you, Kathleen. You know that.

Go on. I won't tell anyone. It'll be all right.

Do you know what? You've changed.

Janine and Scarlett - they've changed you.

You used to be so...

Horrible?

No, lonely.

You're not lonely any more.

Go on. Get going. Before it's too late.

Wish me luck.

You don't need luck.

-DEREK:

-He did, I'm telling you.

-He didn't!

-He did!

Oh, here she is, the missus.

What's the matter, love?

You had a barney? That old man of yours been picking on you, has he?

-You all right, Kat?

-Give her a drink, Jean, anything she wants.

-MAX: Yeah, yeah. Vodka?

-Maybe she's not in the mood, eh?

Look it's gone 11, yeah, you lot should go.

You heard her.

All right!

MUSIC BOX PLAYS: "Twinkle Twinkle, Little Star"

ALFIE SIGHS

-Let's go away.

-What?

Let's just pack our bags tonight and go, yeah.

Take Tommy, just get the car and go.

-And go where?

-Holiday.

A holiday?

Yeah, just drive somewhere. Anywhere. Some dump off the M4.

I don't care.

You mean like run away?

No, not for ever. Just a week, two weeks.

Just you, me, Tommy - our little family.

And then what?

We give it a go. Yeah, we give it our best shot.

We talk about it. Try and figure out what's wrong.

And if we can't, I'll give you a divorce.

Let's just get away from here, get away from the Vic.

-And him?

-And him.

-Right.

And you think this is going to solve everything?

I don't know. But what other choice is there?

I go tomorrow. We just let it die. Is that really what you want?

I know you feel like this now, but don't you think that after a week,

you might regret not even talking about it?

-And this bloke?

-He's gone, he's history.

-History?

-Yeah.

-What, just like that?

-Yeah.

-I thought you were in love with him?

I don't know. I told you. I don't know. It's messed up.

-I'm messed up.

-Why are you doing this?

Are you doing this so Tommy doesn't lose his dad?

I'm doing it so I don't lose my husband, who I love.

I love you, Alfie Moon. I've always loved you.

Do you know...

-how much I'm hurting?

-I know.

And I don't know what else to do about it.

I just don't know how to make it better.

But I can't let you go, not like this.

I will do whatever you want me to do.

-Anything, yeah?

-Anything.

You call him.

You call up lover boy.

And you tell him in front of me...

..that it's over.

You tell him you don't love him

and that you never did.

OK.

You can use this.

Goodnight, Jeany darling. Thank you very, very much.

-You think you're charming, but you're not.

-Oh-ho-ho.

None of you.

Come on. Night, Jean.

Ah, look at that!

PHONE RINGS

He's not picking up.

Hi, it's me.

Listen...

I've got something to tell you.

This whole thing has been a mistake.

It's been a big mistake.

I'm not interested any more, it's over.

I don't want you to call or bother me again.

I love my husband and I want to make it work with him.

-Give me the phone.

-Don't call me again.

Give me the phone, Kat.

Give me the phone.

-No.

-What you doing, what you doing?

It's done. It's over. You don't even need to think about him again.

Now I'm going to go and get Tommy and grab some stuff.

Alfie.

Are we going?

I was going to leave you a note.

But I think it's better that you're here in person.

Why? What are you doing?

I'm relieving you of your duties.

As a husband.

TOMMY COOS

I know, I know, I know.

Shall we go then?

-I'm not promising you anything, you understand?

-Yeah.

-Come on.

-Oh wait, Tommy's teddy. I'll catch you up, yeah?

Come on, let's go, buddy. Get in the car.

DRUNKEN LAUGHTER OUTSIDE

MAX: What you doing? What are you doing?

LAUGHTER

DRUNKEN CHATTER

Everything you said was right, I'm too warped for this.

I'm past help.

-I didn't say that.

-No, no, you did.

Yes, you did.

I can't do it.

I can't, I'm not fit for it.

I can't be a wife. Or a mother.

I think it's better for everyone if I just move on.

Woah, woah, what are you doing?

Like I said,

I'm moving on. My solicitor will be in touch.

Hang on, what about Scarlett?

You said it yourself, Michael.

She's better off with you.

You're not thinking. Janine...

You've been under a lot of strain.

You didn't mean the things you said, did you?

I did.

I did, I meant every word.

And so did you.

Please just look after her for me.

Janine.

JANINE!

I love you.

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