21/12/2012 EastEnders

I'm sorry.

Him?

Him?

-HE SIGHS

-This is just...

I can't do this... This is just too messed up.

-Alfie, listen...

-Alfie?

Alfie, listen to me. Just hear me out. Listen...

You and him. You and him? Kat, of all people... Derek Branning.

What is wrong with you, eh? How sick, how twisted can you be?

It's over. I don't love him. I love you. I haven't let him touch me in months.

Shut up! I don't want to hear it from you, OK?

Cos I want you out of my pub. I want you out of my life for good. You understand?

-I'm not going. And you're not getting rid of me like that.

-No. Get out! Get out!

-Get out!

-Let go of me! Don't do this!

Don't! Tommy's upstairs.

Please.

Get out! Get out!

-Alfie!

-Don't you ever say my name again!

Well, it's been a very nice party. I'll see you all tomorrow at the wedding.

MUSIC PLAYING: "Happy Xmas (War Is Over) by John Lennon

-Come with me.

-Don't touch me.

He doesn't want you, Kat. Didn't you hear what he said?

He's my husband.

Come back to mine.

We'll calm you down and then we'll make a plan.

A plan?

A plan. Yeah.

What? You think hanging around here is a good idea?

Don't cry. I'll protect you.

I'll look after you.

Alfie!

SHE SOBS

He can't hear you, Kat. He can't hear a word you're saying.

I'm gonna talk to him. Find out what went on.

Oi. Oi. I don't need your help with my domestic situation.

You understand? In fact, neither of you.

So why don't you take your wives, your girlfriends, your kids

and your mates, and just get out my pub. Yeah?

Come on. I think we should go.

Oh, you think, do you, Tanya? You've got the message haven't you, sweetheart?

What about the rest of you, eh?

What you hanging around for? What, a lock-in? Free drink?

What, free bag of crisps? Yeah, why not?

Good old Alfie'll look after you, won't he, eh?

Alfie's a soft touch. He wouldn't hurt a fly.

Now, you - all of you - you get out of my pub.

Right now! All of you.

Get out, now! Out!

Well, that is unbelievable, innit? Kat and Derek.

-That is disgusting.

-Come on.

Get your hands off me, you.

-Oi! Don't talk to your mum like that.

-Dad. Dad, come on. Come on.

She ain't exactly pure, is she?

Oh, no, you - you've got some skeletons in your closet.

-Will you shut up and get out?!

-Get your hands off me. It's a new top.

Let's tidy up.

Why don't you come back with us, all right? Till it's all sorted.

What about Dad? Shouldn't I go and see if he's OK?

I think you should wait until the morning. She can stay with us, can't she?

Course you can. Come on.

Come on, Poppy. Come on.

Must be genetic. Branning boys.

Just can't keep it in their pants, can they?

Yeah, yeah. Inside, Lauren.

-Maybe you should go and find Derek.

-Why?

Well, because we're getting married tomorrow, aren't we?

And he's your best man. I can deal with this.

Oh, listen to you.

All you can talk about is your stupid wedding. You don't even care about Kat. Do you?

We're getting married in under 14 hours.

So, yes, it is a concern. Sorry about that.

Well, YOU are a hypocrite. In fact, actually you all are.

Lauren, can you just give it a rest, please.

What are you getting so drunk for anyway? What, are you trying to ruin your mum's hen night?

She is a liar. She has been lying to you.

-Lauren...

-No. I don't care, any more, I really don't care.

I don't care about anything.

OK? What people think, I don't care. Prison. Nothing.

-I don't care.

-What's she banging on about?

No idea. She's drunk, isn't she? Just ignore her.

Dad. I lied to you. I lied to you.

You know, that accident. Joey wasn't driving...

-Lauren...

-It was me. I was driving. I crashed.

And Joey lied to protect me.

What you talking about, Lauren? What do you mean?

-What do you mean? Protect you from what?

-The police. Prison. Cos...

Well, I'd been drinking. Obviously.

So what, is that true?

Yes. It's true. Why would I lie about that?

Well, that's great, Tan. Thanks. Why didn't you just tell me?

Because I was sleeping with Joey.

I loved him.

I did, I loved him and he broke my heart.

There you go...

Hot and sweet.

Thanks. I really shouldn't be here.

Course you should. Where else are you gonna be, eh?

Out there in the cold? On your own? No, you're here now.

I'll look after you.

I don't need looking after.

Really?

My boy's over there. I've gotta go and get him.

What, in the middle of the night when he's all tucked up?

-No, we'll go over there in the morning.

-We?

We're in this together now, Kat.

Look, I know... I know it's a horrible situation.

But now he knows, you're free. You can do whatever you want.

I want to be with Alfie.

Well... Course.

That's understandable.

He's your husband.

But let's be honest, Kat.

That ain't enough for a girl like you, is it?

All cosy, up in the Vic?

That's not what really gets you going, is it?

What happened with you and me was wrong.

Was it? You seemed pretty into it at the time.

That's the old me. I'm not like that any more.

No, course you're not.

I'm not.

He knows, Kat. He knows it all.

Kat... Kat, I really care for you. You know I do.

Ever since the first time we...

There is something so special about you.

So fragile.

Yes, you're a little bit naughty.

But that's what Alfie doesn't get about you and I do.

He doesn't understand the real you.

The woman you are.

I get you. The whole you.

The real you.

I'm married. That means something. Why couldn't you respect that?

I told you it was over but you just wouldn't stop.

If you'd left me alone, none of this would have happened.

All you had to do was say no.

I did.

And what made you go to the flat tonight, eh?

Hmm?

No-one made you go there.

I had to. You left me that message.

-You said...

-No, no, no, no, no.

No, you wanted to go there.

You wanted to see me.

No. I went to finish it. To tell you to back off.

But Alfie won't believe me. He thinks it's still going on.

Well, maybe he knows you a little bit better than you know yourself.

No.

But if he knew, then he'd understand.

Understand what?

That I don't love you. I love him.

It's late. You're not thinking straight.

Yes, I am.

I just need to prove it to him.

How? What you gonna do, Kat? You gonna go over there?

You gonna talk to him?

He ain't gonna listen to a word you say.

That message I left you. The last one.

-Remember?

-What message?

The message where I'm telling you to back off and I'm not interested.

That message. Remember?

Where's your phone?

Kat, what you doing?

Look, I delete my messages, Kat.

Right. What's all that lot, then?

You've kept 'em all.

I get sentimental.

When I'm lonely I like to listen to your voice.

'Derek. It's me, Kat. You gotta stop calling me. Stop with the presents. All of it.

'I meant what I said. It's over. It was a mistake.

'I don't know what I was thinking. But, please, please, just leave me alone.

'I love Alfie. I love him. He's my world. Please.

'If you care for me at all, just... please just let me go.'

If he heard this, and gave me a chance to explain, he might take me back

-and he'll know that I'm not lying.

-No, no, no. That night,

-you didn't mean all that stuff.

-No, I did. I meant all of it and he'll see that.

Look, where you going?

I'm going back there and I'm gonna play this to him.

And I'm gonna beg him to give me a second chance.

No. You're gonna go back there now? Are you mad?

Yeah. Why not?

Because you can't.

Derek knows the whole story and I know nothing. So when did you get the impression, Tanya,

that I might be a little bit upset?

He pressurised me, Max. You know what he's like.

It's not like I even had time to make a decision, you know.

We were in the hospital and the police were there.

And he just... He had me on the spot.

So from all that time, you didn't think about telling me about all this?

I didn't have a chance.

-No time, Dad. She's a very, very busy woman...

-Will you shut up?! Will you just shut up?

Look at you.

You can hardly stand up. I'm ashamed of you. I'm ashamed of my own daughter.

Thanks. Yeah, well there you go. I'm an embarrassment to the family.

-Give me the bottle. Give me the bottle. Lauren.

-No.

-Give me the bottle.

Mum!

I hate you! I hate you because I know that you told him to go away!

What did you say to him, Mum? Come on, what did you say?

I told him that he was killing you.

There you go.

I told him that just him being around was ruining your life

and that if he loved you then he would disappear.

And he did, Lauren. For you. For you, you selfish little brat.

So there you are, you see, it isn't just down to me, all right?

Trying to save you, just trying to look after you like I have done all your life!

Just trying to look after you.

-What do you mean? If he loved me?

-What do you think I mean?

He loved me? Is that what you're saying?

Why would he do that to me if he - if he loved me?

Why would he break up with me? Why would he do that?

I don't know.

No, come on, Mum.

Mum, come on, you must know, tell me!

Tan?

Just tell me, Mum.

If you don't tell me, then I am going to rip this dress up!

Just...

tell me.

Just leave the dress alone. I mean it.

Tell me!

Lauren, give me the dress.

If he loved me so much then why did he end it with me?!

Come on. Tell me.

Because Derek made him.

What?

Derek. Derek made him. Derek gave him a choice.

He said you're either under the thumb, toeing the line,

living in this house for the rest of your life...

or you break her heart.

And you know the rest.

How long have you known about that?

What, this whole time? For a whole month?

I have been crying to you...

-I'm sorry.

-How can you do that?

-I'm so sorry, darling. Lauren!

-That is what I think of you...

-Lauren!

..and your wedding! And love!

That's what I think about it!

Lauren! Lauren, don't! LAUREN SCREAMS

SHE VOMITS

Look what she's done...

What if you make things worse? And what about Tommy?

Have you thought about Tommy?

Do you want him to witness it all kicking off in front of him?

See his mum and dad tearing lumps out of each other?

Go in the morning.

I'm going back tonight and you're not going to stop me.

Oh, darling, darling. I don't want to try and stop you.

Honest...

..I meant what I said.

I love you.

And I just want what's best for you.

I know I come on a bit pushy sometimes,

a bit too strong...

What I've seen it do to you - I regret that.

I don't want to break up a marriage.

I don't want to come between a husband and wife.

I've never done anything like that.

It's... I'm an old-fashioned man, it's not what you do.

And a kid - a kid needs its parents.

Good parents.

If you want to tell me that you want to go back

and give it another chance with Alfie,

then who am I to stand in your way?

But you've got to tell me straight.

Do you want to give it another go with Alfie?

Yeah.

Well...

..all right, I tell you what I'll do.

I'll put my head on the block.

I'll go over there and I'll talk to him.

What?

I think it's best coming from me.

I'll tell him the truth.

I'll tell him that I loved you...

..but you didn't want to know.

I'll tell him I haven't touched you,

I haven't laid a finger on you for months.

I'll play him this...

-..and I'll show him what kind of woman you are.

-Why?

Why would you do that for me?

Because I love you

and I want you to be happy...

even if I can't be.

Really? You'd really do that for me?

Of course.

We did have something, didn't we?

Hmm?

I did mean something to you, didn't I?

Yeah, of course you did.

OK.

I'll sort it. I'll be back as soon as I can.

Derek... It's gonna be all right, innit?

I'll do the best I can.

-Where are you going?

-Where do you think I'm going?

Max? No, no, wait. No. Don't you understand? You can't. You can't.

You go over there, shouting the odds, hitting him or something, who knows what he could do, eh?

He could call the police, Max. He could get Lauren put inside.

-Babe, he ain't gonna do that. She's family.

-Are you sure? Really?

Are you 100% sure, Max,

because if you're not, then you've just got to smile and take it.

-I ain't gonna take it from HIM.

-You've got to.

For Lauren. For all of us.

Darling, I lied to you,

and I'm sorry for that but, come on,

I'm not the only person in this house who's ever had a secret, am I?

And I wasn't doing it in malice.

There's nothing we can do, Max.

You can't touch him.

You can't.

Here we go, look. It's like nothing ever happened.

KNOCKING

It could be Kat.

Open it.

-What are you doing here?

-I come to see Alfie.

Yeah, well, you're not welcome, so get out.

What, you the lady of the house now, are you? Didn't take YOU long.

It's fine, I've got this, Rox. What do you want?

I just want a quick word.

Yeah, well, I got two words for you Derek.

They're not very polite.

-Ladies. Would you mind?

-No.

-Rox, it's OK.

-Don't you...

Rox! I said it's OK! Now the three of you go upstairs.

I'm fine with this, all right? I'm fine. Go.

Go!

What do you want?

-I want to apologise.

-Apologise?

What happened tonight... That's not right.

That shouldn't happen to any man.

You're enjoying this, aren't you, Derek?

Oh, no, Alf, I assure you I'm not.

I mean, you imagine my life tomorrow? Everyone hating me.

Even my own daughter.

You need to get out right now. You understand me?

You need to leave...right now.

But I haven't even played you the message yet.

What message? What are you on about?

That's why I've come over to see you.

I want to play you the message. Kat's message.

I don't want you to misunderstand me, Alf, or her.

If you don't want to hear it, I... Do you?

I mean, if you don't, I could delete it. It's up to you.

Play it.

You need to know this, Alf.

The truth...

..once and for all.

I owe you that.

Kat owes you that.

'It's me. Kat.

'Listen, I shouldn't be calling. I don't even know what time it is.

'Three, four in the morning. I just can't sleep.

'I just... I want to see you again.

'I can't stop thinking about it. What is wrong with me?

'Just ignore this. Look, I've been drinking and there's a football match tomorrow.

'Maybe we could...you know, after.

'I don't know what's wrong with me. Alfie's asleep...'

There's more. She goes on. I've always liked you, Alfie.

Liked you a lot.

But you know what she's like when she's on fire.

Hm?

You know, she won't take no for an answer, will she?

This week, it's been morning, noon and night. Phone calls...begging me.

I mean, she's like this little kitten on...

I deserved that.

I suppose I had that coming.

Get out.

I'm sorry. I really am.

I'm a bad man.

I'm a very bad man.

But I guess now I've found my match.

One of us will be over to pick up Tommy in the morning.

If you want to save yourself the embarrassment, then send Jean.

And Alfie...

..no hard feelings, eh?

Derek.

Don't you ever set foot in this pub again.

Do you understand?

I almost forgot...

..you give her that.

Oh, Alfie, don't... Come here, don't, please don't.

It's OK. It's all right. Alfie...

HE SOBS

DOOR CLOSES

What?

Well, what happened? Did you tell him?

Did you play him the message?

Yeah.

What did he say?

Did he understand? Did you explain everything?

I played him the message... and I explained everything.

And he gave me this...

He didn't want to know, Kat. He just didn't want to listen.

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