21/05/2013 EastEnders

Sharon?

-SHARON!

-What?

Has Lexi taken any?

-Phil?

-The pills, has Lexi taken any pills?

-What?!

-The bottle was in her hand!

-Oh, God!

-Well, has she?

-Hang on.

Cos if she has, we need to get her help straightaway.

-Just give me a minute.

-We need to get her down the hospital and get her checked over!

-Hang on, hang on!

-Has she, Sharon? Has she?

-No, I don't think so.

-You don't THINK so?

You can't think, you've got to be sure, we can't take a chance!

Has she, Sharon?

I took two and there's ten left.

I know there was enough for another five days, at least.

Come on, Sharon, has she!

-No, no. No, they're all here.

-You're sure?

-Yes.

-100%?

-Yeah, I'm positive.

Phil, she couldn't have got into the bottle, the lid was on!

What are they, Sharon? What are they?

They're... They're painkillers.

I had a splitting headache...

I can't believe it, they've never had this effect on me before.

Phil, I'm so sorry. I can't believe it.

Well, look, no harm's done, so let's just get Lexi settled, yeah?

and I'll clean up and put some tea on.

Phil?

Phil, where are you going?

FRONT DOOR OPENING AND CLOSING

I brought some wine.

Oh. I've already opened some. Got red and white - just in case.

Great minds, eh?

And just so there are no more interruptions...

-Actually, I was going to ask you about that...

-This is going off.

Your ex is back, yeah?

And if anyone knocks on that door, you answer it

and you tell 'em I'm not in.

To anyone?

To anyone.

-Right. Red or white?

-Red, please.

Nice offer. No?

Thanks, by the way.

A punter from the Vic came over earlier.

It was like I said, you scratch my back...

Going anywhere nice?

Just got back.

Sasha's Mum had a doctor's appointment.

Oh. So not that nice then.

Not nice news either.

-She's going to be off for at least three months.

-What?

So you've got the next three months dashing from here to Sasha's?

Yeah, looks like it.

Fighting all those people on the tube,

grabbing food whenever you can?

I'm really glad we had this conversation, I feel a lot better(!)

Look, if you fancy it, I've got a casserole back at the B&B.

Like you said, you scratch my back.

Hm?

Max?

-Max?

-WOMAN LAUGHING

Oi!

Max!

-I thought I heard something.

-Yeah. It was great timing.

Yeah. Glad to see you back.

It ain't a problem, is it?

No, course not.

-After Thursday you're going to be looking after her full-time, with a bit of luck.

-Yeah.

So, what is it? You just thought you'd give me a bit of practise first, yeah?

Yeah. Why not?

So nothing's gone wrong?

-What makes you say that?

-Dunno, you don't just usually march round here and dump Lexi on me like this.

I ain't dumping her, am I?

I'm just seeing if her mum wants to spend the evening with her, you know, that's all.

I'll be back for her later.

Right. So she's been fed? And do you know when she needs changing?

-Look, you're her mum, can't you work it out?

-I was just asking, weren't I?

You up for this or not?

Yes! I'm fine. Go.

See ya.

We're fine.

Come here.

Good girl.

-All right, Abs?

-Are you busy?

I thought you was out with Lauren?

What's the matter?

We'll still catch it, won't we? That film?

-Well, yeah, course, but...

-Please, Jay, I don't want to explain myself,

I just want to go see a stupid film with my boyfriend. Is that OK?

Yeah. All right. I'll get cleaned up.

Hope you're hungry, son, cos I'm off.

So. What's been happening?

Apart from Sharon and Phil. I've heard about that.

Yeah?

Yeah, well, none of my business.

I'm pleased they've worked it out - not the only ones either.

I mean, look at you two, eh?

-Got a scan next week.

-Congratulations.

Cheers. Dot's convinced it's a boy, by the way.

So you going to find out?

Or you going to leave it to be a surprise?

Erm...I think I'll leave you two to it.

-Feeling a bit tired.

-It's all right, babe, I'll walk you back if you want?

No, no, no, you take care of Kirsty, I'll lock up, if you want.

No. You talk to your brother.

You sorted the flat out?

Yeah, plumber's all done.

So, what's your plans?

Don't really have any.

Nothing to stay round here for, is there?

-Well, stay in touch.

-Yeah, course.

PHONE RINGS

All right?

-Who was that?

-Call centre. Been hassling me all day.

SIREN BLARES

Joe said could I go to their house for a sleepover tonight?

You can have another half an hour, but no sleepover. OK?

I'll do all the washing up and make my bed!

Half an hour.

What are you looking at?

-'Lo? What's the problem?'

-There ain't one.

'So what are you calling me for?

'I'm at Ava's. Meal. Date. Remember?'

-Yes, yes, yes, I know, but Lexi's here.

-'What?'

Phil just dropped her off.

-'Why?'

-Dunno, maybe him and Sharon have some plans to get...

Oh, come on, you get my drift.

'Yeah, I had one or two myself, as it happens.'

Pops!

Lo, everything is all right, ain't it?

'Cos if there's a problem, I'll come straight home.'

No. I've got Lexi. Everything's fine.

See you later, yeah?

But, just in case, don't wait up.

Did I hear a phone?

Yeah, yeah, sorry, Lola. I know you said no interruptions, but...

-Kids are different.

-Yeah.

-You're really close, you two, aren't you?

-Well, getting there.

Don't get me wrong, I think it's lovely.

Amount of time you two spend together, you must really get on.

Just making up for lost time, I suppose.

I never saw her growing up, did I? Missed out on so much.

Pair of us have got a lot of catching up to do.

Yeah, I get the picture.

Sorry, you just sounded a bit like my ex there, for a minute.

DOOR CLOSING

Phil?

Denny?

Where's Lexi?

Look, if you've taken her to a doctor, there's no need.

I've checked and I've double-checked,

she hasn't taken any of the pills, I swear.

Oh, for heaven's sake, I'd be the first to say if she had. Phil?

Lexi's at Lola's.

Why have you taken her there?

Look, I just nodded off, I told you, I've had a really busy day.

You weren't asleep, you was out of it.

Well, I get like that sometimes, when I'm really tired.

You know, now and again, I just, I just spark out, always have.

-Painkillers.

-What?

That's what you said, them pills, they're painkillers for headaches.

I don't know what I was saying,

I'd just woken up and you were yelling in my face.

Anyway, it doesn't matter what I said now, does it? Not really.

All that matters is that Lexi's fine and everything's good, yeah?

And I've learnt my lesson, Phil, I swear I have.

You know, next time I'm feeling a bit low

I'll make sure that whatever I take, I take on a full stomach.

You see, that's another thing,

I've been so busy all day I've hardly had time to eat.

This is what you was on before?

What?

These pills. I take it they ain't exactly prescription drugs?

Why would you say that?

The bottle, for starters. There ain't a label on it.

What's with all the questions?

I'm sorry, Phil, but I feel like I'm getting the third degree and I don't like it -

I told you, I'd just woken up.

I don't know what I said, it just came out wrong, probably.

And I don't like you being spark out on the sofa when you're supposed to be looking after my grand-daughter.

And I don't like my grand-daughter crawling around when there's stuff like this lying around.

So, I'm going to ask you again, Sharon.

Is this the stuff that you was on before?

-That was quick.

-I had to be.

We've got about five minutes to get to the tube, all right? PHONE RINGING

If this is my sister...

You all right, Lola?

Well, well...

..the bad penny.

-Yeah, it's nice to see you too.

-Flying visit?

-Come on, Michael...

"Come on, Michael," what? "Come on, Michael," what? Where you been?

-We've got a business to run, here.

-Yes, I know, all right? I'm back now.

For how long? Until the next problem hoves into view

and you do another runner?

I might put a bet down on you actually.

I'll get good odds, I reckon.

How long will he last this time?

One day? Two days?

Ten minutes, the way today's panning out.

Do yourself a favour, Jack. Make it five.

You can't just come back in here, pick up the pieces, eh?

You said goodbye to everybody.

We did the same.

Phil's just dropped her off. Ain't that great?

And that's what you phoned us about?

-Yeah.

-To tell us Lexi was here?

Yes.

Well, now you've got her and we've seen her,

can we go to our film, please?

DOORBELL RINGS

-Are you sure everything's OK?

-Of course.

So what's going on, you left a message?

Oh, great! We're all here. Basically, I've got Lexi.

I've just been so excited, I've had no-one to tell!

Ain't even been to the toilet yet.

I just didn't want to leave Lexi on her own.

Lola, you're not on your own. We're here.

No, we're not, WE are going to our film.

I have heard it's rubbish though.

I went to see a doctor. When I was in America.

He told me about them, he...

He said they relaxed you,

made it easier to cope with things and...

he was right.

So, he, er...

..he sends them over, does he?

-What?

-You phone him up, say you've run out and you want some more

and he says, "Yeah 'course?"

No...

So?

I met this bloke down the club and he said he could get me some.

Look, it was just after Jack. You saw what I was like -

I had Denny crying all the time, I thought I was going off my head.

So you've got a dealer?

NO...

No, he's just someone who takes the same sort of stuff now and again.

Whatever he's got left over he knocks it out to anyone who asks for it?

No, he's not a dealer and these ain't drugs, not really.

No. I mean...what's cigarettes? What's booze?

-Exactly.

-Some stuff you get from over a counter, or from behind a bar,

other stuff you get other ways. Right?

I used to say that...

when I was on the gear.

So, how is it?

This is really good, I'm impressed. So is that Okra?

I dunno.

Didn't you make this?

Ray, it's edible. Course I didn't, it's Patrick's.

-And does Patrick know we're eating his grub?

-He can make some more.

Kim!

I must admit though, this is much needed. Thank you.

-It's really thoughtful.

-It's OK.

Suppose food is not the only thing you're not getting much of recently.

What do you mean?

You know, all the dashing around -

don't suppose that flat of yours has seen much polish?

But, you know, if you do fancy some home comforts -

one of our rooms is going begging.

Freshly cleaned, it's all nice and warm...

..or there's the launderette.

-You staying here all night?

-What's it to you?

I don't need to.

Not if I've got something better to do.

Well, I'm going for a little walk. Come along, if you want?

Yeah?

OK. Yeah. I will.

This baby stuff's nothing, man.

All you gotta do is sit back, watch a bit of TV...

-Stick a bottle in it's gob every now and again.

-Change one, two nappies.

Yeah. Nothing to worry about, really, eh?

So, why are you then?

Come on, Lola, this isn't like you.

-Nothing, just something Phil said, that's all.

-What?

This could be it couldn't it, eh? After Thursday. ME, a full-time Mum.

That's what you want, isn't it?

Course it is, but it don't stop me being scared, does it?

Look at her, she is tiny and who's she got to look after her, eh? Me.

And Billy.

Come on, you can't rely on him. I mean, look at tonight.

-He's got his own life now, ain't he?

-Phil'll still be around, won't he?

-Yeah, and he's got his own life too.

-Look, we're here.

Yeah, I know you are.

Not the same as doing it properly though, is it?

What do you mean?

You know - mum, dad, family, all that stuff.

No, she's right.

No kid can get through that - growing up without a dad.

Oh, wait, I did, and look how I turned out.

-Exactly. Look how you turned out.

-Oi!

Nah, he's got a point, to be fair.

I mean, a kid needs a mum and a dad, otherwise, "Hello, Psycho."

Thank Goodness I had it normal - mum, dad, brother, sister -

we're all perfect, no wonder my family turned out so well(!)

LEXI MOANING

Go on.

Do you know what? I think you guys are actually right.

It's going to be a doddle.

And all this baby lark, is also going to be a doddle!

Why now, eh?

-What?

-I mean, it's over between you and Jack, right?

-Yes.

-Yeah, you're history?

-Yeah, 'course we are...

So it's just a coincidence, is it?

-He turns up then all of a sudden...

-No, no it just knocked me for a bit.

It's not I'm still thinking about him or nothing,

it just rocked me, him turning up out of the blue like that, you know?

So, how bad is this?

-What?

-What's, "Now and again," mean?

-Once a week, once a month, once a day? What?

-No. Course not.

-Well, what then?

-I don't know.

You know what it ain't, you just said so, so why don't you know what it is?

Have you been taking these before, when you've been looking after Lexi?

No.

No, never, I swear, this is the first time...with Lexi, anyway.

Yeah, I've taken them, but never when she's been in the house.

I can't believe you'd think that Phil. What do you take me for?

That's what I'm trying to find out, Sharon.

OK...so does this answer your question?

The question you're really asking. Do I need 'em?

Well, come on, let's go and flush 'em away, yeah?

Yeah.

Yeah, I did that before.

I threw a whole load of stuff away, just to prove that I could...

..do you know why?

Because all the time I had a load more waiting for me.

This is nice.

You feeling better?

-I was feeling OK before, thank you.

-Didn't look like it, Lauren.

Looked like you were getting in a right state.

Oh, careful, Joey. Actually sounds like you care.

'Course I care.

-Yeah?

-Yeah.

No, Lauren, Lauren. I didn't mean like that.

We're here now. You might as well go home.

Is that it?

"Come out with me, Lauren.

"Why don't you come out on a little walk with me, Lauren,"

and you just take me home!

Is this the way you show girls a good time is it, Joey? You freak!

-Lauren?

-Oi! I'm talking to you!

Lauren?

-Come here.

-Leave me alone.

Lauren, come here? Lauren, wait! What's wrong?

Oi, oi, what's the matter?

LAUREN SOBS

Shh, shh.

It's all right, I can take it from here.

-Come on, darling. Let's get you home. Come on.

-Come on.

-See you then.

-All right, see ya.

-Bye.

-See you, bye.

So which mate is it?

-What?

-The sleepover?

-Oh, Joe.

OK. I'll bring your stuff over in a bit, yeah?

-Yes! Joe, Joe, wait up! Sleepover!

-Brilliant.

So I said, "If you want to go to football,

"I'll take you to the Orient," and then he tells me that's too far!

Listen, Ava, I'm sorry. You know, talking about me and Lola like that.

-It's all right. Doesn't matter.

-Everyone's different, ain't they?

I mean...some kids and parents, they get together and it's good...

some do and it ain't so good.

You know what's best for your family

and I weren't trying to tell you that you don't.

Just...he's no good. Never has been, never will be.

Anyway, what are we talking about him for?

I just wish he'd get the message and go -

we're over, we were done and dusted years ago.

Just the thought of him now makes my skin crawl.

This the bloke who was done and dusted years ago?

Open this, shall I?

KNOCKING ON A WINDOW

Now this beats trekking back to a cold flat -

dirty dishes in the sink, laundry all over the place.

-The room's been let.

-What? What you talking about?

I didn't know, Patrick must have done it when I was out.

How can you waft flipping paradise underneath my nose,

then just take it away from me?

Well, the food was good, innit?

Oh, hang on...

That's tomorrow. Tomorrow night.

Sorry. Well, looks like you're in luck after all, innit?

That's a shame.

What, you really wanted to go back to that cold flat?

Well, maybe it might have made the perfect excuse.

Excuse?

Well, THAT room might been gone...

What, and mine ain't?

Good job I ain't got far to stagger home, eh?

Ava, look, there's no need to rush any of this.

-Are you blanking me now?

-No, I'm just saying...

we can take things slowly.

-Life's for living.

-Yeah.

Yeah, it is.

I just...

..can't help it, I keep getting the strangest feeling, that's all.

What?

It's like...

you're looking at me and you're talking to me...

..but all the time you're, you're thinking about someone else.

You were the one person that I thought I knew in the whole world

but I don't know you, do I, Sharon?

I don't know what you're talking about, I haven't suddenly turned into someone else.

I'm just going through a rough patch. I've got a health problem...

You can't even say it, can you? You can't say it!

-"I'm an addict".

-I'm not an...

-You can't do without them.

'Course I can.

And what would've happened if that social worker had come back with me?

-Well, why would she?

-I dunno.

To check on something, to change a time or have one last look at Lexi.

What chance would Lola have had then, eh?

Or any of us have, of having anything to do with Lexi again

when the family, the people that are supposed to be looking after her,

are putting her at risk like that?

Look, from now on, from this minute, this is all in the past.

-I promise you.

-Only cos I found you like that.

that's the only reason you're saying what you're saying now.

-It's not true.

-And what?

If I hadn't have found you, you would have come round and what,

said to yourself, "I gotta knock this on the head"? No. Nah.

I ain't doing it, Sharon.

-I lived with a junkie once...

-I'm not a junkie!

A junkie who told himself, who told everyone else, that he wasn't a junkie.

Well, when I got clean, when I sorted myself out,

I promised myself I'd never... I'd never live like that again.

So what are you saying?

Who is it? Eh?

Who is it, Sharon, that I've been looking at these last few weeks?

Not you. Just someone you've wanted me to see.

Come on, Phil.

Come on, this is me, me and you.

I mean, look what we've been through

but we've always got through it, haven't we?

And you know, as well as I know, that it's cos you love me

and I love you, and it doesn't matter what happens in the end

because this is it, it always will be.

I want you out.

I ain't living like that again, I just ain't.

I ain't having you round my family

and I'm not risking losing Lexi because of you.

-You can't be serious.

-And I'm NOT... I'm not living with a liar.

Come on, you don't mean that, I know you...

you're not thinking straight. PLEASE, please, come on!

I want you out. Just get out.

-Phil, please, listen to me!

-I want you out!

I'll pack your things and send them on.

Phil, where am I going to go?

Phil, please!

Phil?

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