07/03/2014 EastEnders

-I didn't mean for it to come out this way.

-Yeah, but I thought...

I've got the gene.

-You said there was nothing to worry about.

-Well...

-So you just lied?

-No, I just messed up, darling, I'm...

Just...give us a minute, eh?

David...

Come on, mate.

I know this must be a horrible shock.

And it is for me too, believe me.

-I'm sorry, I can't do this now.

-Bianca!

How could you lie about something like this?!

Bianca, darling, it wasn't like that. Darling!

You've done it, ain't ya?

Can you even comprehend what's going on here?

-I'm just asking you not to go.

-You're 15!

-So what?

-That doesn't make a difference!

-I'm going to Ian's now,

-cos we can't stand here all night.

-Don't! It'll only make things worse.

-We're going to sort this out right now.

-Stop him, he's going to Ian's!

-Don't be silly! What you doing that for?!

-That's what I'm trying to tell him.

-He ain't calling the shots!

-Oh, and you are?! Shouting your mouth off like this!

-Who do you think you're talking to?!

-This is why I don't tell you things - you never listen!

-Oi oi, stop it!

Are you trying to broadcast this to the whole square?

Come on, let's go and talk about this somewhere else.

Look at me.

Look at me! Of course I'm still your sister.

Don't touch me.

-Roxy!

-You make me sick.

Stay away from me.

Roxy, you have got to hear me out.

I'm not interested, OK? I've already told you, we're finished.

They'll sort it out. They have to.

We've just got to keep our cool and see this through.

-What you doing?

-I can't stay here.

-You what?

-I've tried, Phil, all right? But she won't listen.

You know what she's like, she don't mean it.

She does mean it, believe me.

So, what, you're just going to take off?

DOOR CLOSES

She's all yours.

Ronnie? Ronnie, you can't just go! Ronnie!

Great.

Where you going?

Where do you think?!

You know, those two either sort it out or we're all shafted, ain't we?

-No, Phil. You stay. I'll go.

-You?

Like you said, we need to keep her close.

-You've changed your tune.

-It's too risky to have her out there.

What? Don't you trust me?

Good. Cos Ronnie's unpredictable.

But Roxy, she loses her nerve,

and this whole thing comes crashing down.

DOOR BANGS

SIREN WAILS

Ronnie?

Evening. Skulking in corners again?

-I'd love a little chat but I'm busy.

-Everything all right?

-Yeah. Why shouldn't it be?

-Only, I saw Ronnie rushing down here

with her suitcase. I'd heard she only just come back.

-She didn't look right.

-Didn't she?

And here's you, racing after her.

What, she giving Phil grief?

And this is to do with you because...?

We've got business to discuss.

Business?

-Private business.

-I bet it is, If it's anything to do with Carl.

You know what, Sharon, don't go getting a job in MI5.

I don't know what you think you're...

Don't even try it. I helped Phil clear Carl's flat out.

I wouldn't mind a chat myself.

So where is she?

Well, here we are.

Yep. Home sweet home.

Go on, you can go. I'll be all right.

What you going to do, then? Stand out here all night?

Yep. I've got some thinking to do.

I really need to figure out what I'm going to do with my life.

Well, come on, it's not ALL bad, is it?

It's not every day you get a lift home in a police car, is it?

-Let's go for a drink, then.

-Jay, I'm skint.

I think I can just about stretch to an orange juice.

Come on.

We would have told you this evening, but this lot all kicked off.

It's not your fault, Mum.

Try telling your sister that.

She doesn't really think like that either - you know that.

-Any news?

-No.

-I've been ringing and ringing, she ain't picking up.

Why don't you give her some space, eh?

-It's not you. He just feels awful about lying to her.

-No, I know.

I knew she'd take it badly. Not like you - I knew you'd keep it together.

Well, the way I see it is there's no point getting in a state, is there?

You know, you've got this gene, it doesn't mean WE have.

Well...there is a 50% chance, though.

I know, but that's all statistics, isn't it?

You've got to take all that with a pinch of salt, Mum.

Yeah, I know, but the genetic counsellor, she did say

that maybe you should all get tested - that's what she said.

Well, she would do, wouldn't she?

She wants to outline all the options.

Personally, I don't want to know.

FOOTSTEPS APPROACH

You all right?

She knows.

I'm getting a bit fed up with this.

You've got to come out at some stage.

All right, that's it, Rox. You're not 15 years old any more.

You either come out or I kick the door down, and I mean it.

DOOR UNLOCKS

-I hate her.

-No, you don't.

You're just...you're upset and angry cos she didn't tell you.

-Is that what you think this is about?

-Yeah.

Well, you would, cos you were in on it too.

-You were in on it together!

-It wasn't like that.

-What did you do to him?

-Nothing!

-You expect me to believe that?

You can believe what you want.

I didn't even know anything about it either,

not until you were both in Ibiza.

Now, you either kick off again or you hear me out.

Are you two going to talk to each other?

-Sorry about Liam.

-It's all right. He'll get over it.

-Is that all you've got to say?!

-What do you want me to say?!

Tel, do me a favour, go and get me some sugar for my tea.

What is the matter with you?

Do you want to have a fight with him or something?

I don't know what I'm doing. I thought I was good at this.

-But every time I open my mouth I say the wrong thing.

-He's a good boy.

Just talk to him.

Here you are.

Thanks.

TJ, I'm sick and tired of this.

Why didn't you tell me?

I messed up, didn't I? I didn't know what to do.

-Look, it's all right.

-It ain't, though, is it?

I mean, I'm still at school, she's only 15.

What do WE know about bringing up a kid?!

Listen, my mum was younger than Cindy when she had me.

Look at me. I mean, I've turned out all right, ain't I?

Kirsty wasn't the only one asking questions.

We had to get rid of that stuff, soon as.

Was it just the two of you? No-one else?

Couldn't trust anybody else, obviously.

Right.

Thank you.

Don't get me wrong, Ronnie.

I think the world's a better place without that nasty piece of work.

But I didn't do it just for you.

I did it for Phil.

What you going to do now?

I'm going to think about my options.

What's to think about?

No-one wants you here, Ronnie.

Even your own sister told you to get lost.

Well, you can hardly blame her.

Finding out her own sister finished off her boyfriend

and then spent two months knocking back sangria on a beach!

Yeah, that's right, it was party-central, Sharon.

What do you think, that I enjoyed it?!

I wouldn't put anything past you.

Now, do the right thing for once.

Pick up the phone, call a cab to the airport,

and take a plane to the other side of the world.

-She's better off without you - we all are.

-You've no idea, have you?

You haven't lived my life, you don't know what I've been through!

I didn't mean for it to happen, Sharon!

-I had no choice!

-You had no choice?!

No choice but to kill a man -

to take a life?!

What on earth justifies that?!

Amy.

-Hey, come and sit down, love.

-I'm clearing up.

Well, never mind about that, we need to talk about this.

You've got enough on your plate.

All you need to know is that I'm all right. Don't worry about me.

What do you mean "all right"? How CAN you be all right?

This is a big bit of news.

Let's talk about it another time, then, yeah?

I don't think you want to talk about it at all.

You're a nurse, Sonia, you know what testing means.

It means choice, it means you can make decisions,

you can do things - preventative measures.

Yes, and if I want to go there, I will, all right?

Just don't push me. I'm going to go and get Rebecca

-and we're going home.

-No! Don't you leave like this!

If you want to bury your head in the sand, you go ahead,

but you think about her -

don't you think you should get tested for HER sake?

Huh?

Listen, you've got a family now, love.

You need to talk to Martin.

Sonia?

Oh, Mum...

What's this - calm the baby down?

You going to hear me out or just have a go, eh?

It wasn't my place to tell you.

Oh, here we go.

She asked me to help her out, so I helped her out.

You know, your family's in trouble,

so you do what you've got to do and you move on, no questions asked.

Now, we're all in this together, yeah? And we either stick together

or we go down together.

I kept begging him.

I said I didn't care about the money.

I just wanted him to tell me what he'd done with Roxy.

He kept saying, "Oh, she's tied up at the moment."

He was loving it.

He was loving seeing me scared, seeing me beg.

And I couldn't...

I couldn't work it out. He had the car keys in one hand,

he has the bag of money in the other, so why didn't he just tell me?

Why didn't he just tell me and then take off?

-And then I realised...

-What?

He had no intention of going anywhere.

He didn't just want the money - he wanted us.

He wanted to get back at us, he wanted to hurt us.

What's that got to do with Amy?

He had her with him that morning!

All right, fair enough, this time he's threatening Roxy,

but what about next time?

He was capable of it, Sharon,

I'm telling you, he was capable of anything.

I confronted him

and he pushed me up against the car.

And I had no idea what he was going to do.

So, yes, I had no choice.

I was protecting myself,

I was protecting my family.

And I'm going to have to live with that every single day of my life.

Ronnie...

Jay, that was a really bad joke!

-Right, I've got another one, I've got another one.

-What?

What do Eskimos get from sitting on the ice for too long?

What?

Polaroids!

Oh, Jay...

Oh, that is a great joke!

No, it's not! Don't give up your day job, will you?! PHONE RINGS

You going to answer that?

No.

There's some things you don't tell your boyfriend -

like getting arrested for stealing nappies.

-Why not?

-Cos I might as well have "idiot" written across my forehead.

-You're not an idiot.

-No?

No. You're a good mum, you're a good laugh.

And most importantly you look powerful in a tracksuit.

Oh! You think that, do you?

Yeah. Me and all the boys think it.

Hmm! I ain't exactly living the dream, though, am I?

Look, I'm going to go, cos I'm really not good company.

You can't walk out on me - you'll cramp my style.

-Let's play a game.

-What game?

-I dunno.

-Strip poker?

-Strip poker?! Cheeky!

All right. Er, dominoes.

Do I look like I'm three years old?!

Dominoes takes a lot of skill.

-Right.

-Best of five?

-Ah, see, now you're talking.

-Right?

You didn't! You cut her hair off?!

Yeah. Both pigtails - gone! Her mum went mental.

And then the teacher, Ms Goody, called my mum in.

Yeah, she said to her,

"I know things must be difficult for you -

"you're on your own, aren't you?

"It must be really hard to keep on top of things."

My mum just looked at her and went, "Thanks for that.

"But next time Tracy Jones tells my daughter that her dad's not around

"because he's a serial killer in prison,

-"it'll be more than her pigtails that go!"

-No!

Yeah, she scared the life out of her!

Nothing's changed there, then.

-Aw... I bet he was an angel compared to us.

-Huh!

Yeah, during the day

he charmed the socks off the old ladies,

but come the night-time, take cover!

Always making his presence known, my boy.

I wouldn't have him any other way.

Do you WANT this baby?

I told Cindy I'd stand by her.

Yeah, but it ain't all about her, is it?

It's about you an' all.

Look, TJ, if you do want this baby...

..I'll back you all the way, you know that.

Here.

Thank you.

I'm sorry, I'm just being stupid.

Hey. You know you can talk to me, don't you?

Course I do.

It's me and Martin - we've not been good lately.

What do you mean, "good"?

It's been ages. Since...you know.

Oh.

I don't think he loves me any more, Mum.

He's not been, um...again?

I don't think so, no.

He's just not interested - I can feel it.

You know, I try to make an effort.

We're always so tired,

he falls asleep in front of the telly half the time.

And when he is awake...

You can just feel these things, can't you?

Couples do go through phases, though.

Yes, I know.

Well, this is definitely a bad one.

A long, bad one. And now all this.

I just don't think he's going to stay the distance - I can feel it.

Listen, don't worry. We'll get through this.

Thanks.

Thanks for coming after us tonight.

Oh, er, um...

Don't be silly.

Couldn't leave you two banging your heads together, could I?

-Do you want to come in?

-No, I can't.

It's a school night and all that.

He's lucky to have you.

Like you're lucky to have your mum, and your kids are lucky to have you.

Family's family, innit? Including that baby.

You can't turn your back on your own, though, can you?

Go on.

Go and bond with YOUR baby.

See you.

PHONE RINGS

I dunno, Phil. What, just to carry on like nothing's happened?

Unless you got any better ideas?

He was my boyfriend.

And he had his OWN family.

People who will be going mental trying to figure out where he is,

what's happened to him. I can't stop thinking about that.

With respect, I ain't bothered about his family.

I'm looking out for my own - and so should you be.

It's a bit difficult when you feel like you don't know who they are any more.

Well, you know Ronnie, don't you?

And you know her well enough to know she must have had good reason.

DOOR OPENS

Oh, bless her. Has she gone home, then?

No, she's under orders to run herself a bath.

She can't go off home in that state, so she's staying the night.

So no word from Bianca yet, I take it?

No.

Hey. Come on, stop being so hard on yourself.

-It's my fault, not yours.

-It's nobody's fault.

DOOR OPENS

Here she is.

-Bianca!

-Where you been?

-Mum, you all right?

-Yeah, just as long as YOU'RE all right.

-Yeah, course I am.

I've been being a selfish cow again, ain't I? I bet you're glad

you got ONE daughter with her head screwed on, eh?

Right, where IS Sonia?

Look, all we're saying is just hear her out.

Well, this is a turn up for the books! I thought you hated her!

So if I say you've got to listen, then I know what I'm talking about.

You owe your sister, big-time.

Oooh, the tension mounts - last two dominoes.

Don't worry about me, I've got this.

Yeah, you wish.

I told you before - skill, strategy and forward thinking.

See...

..that's always worked for me too, Jay.

It's no good.

Ah!

Does that mean I won?

-You did.

-I won!

-You did win!

Yes! I never win!

-Well done.

-Thanks.

I'm sorry if I got you in trouble with your missus.

I thought she already knew.

Nothing I can't handle.

Got to look after myself now, haven't I?

Course.

Well, you know where I am...

if you need me.

All sorted, then?

DOG BARKS

I opened the door, and Amy was just standing there by herself.

-Did he hurt her?

-No.

-But I was just thinking about what he could have...

-All right, thank you!

Thank you.

You should have told me.

-Yeah, I know.

-I'm not a child.

-I know.

-And I don't want to be treated like a child.

Amy is MY daughter.

I have raised her by myself,

and I'm perfectly capable.

Look, Ron, I know you always try to protect me.

I know, Roxy!

I TRIED to tell you, but I... I couldn't!

I was trying not to remember.

What?

Something else happened with Carl.

You know New Year's Eve, when you were waiting for him in the Vic?

He was with me.

Why?

Because I was trying to tell him to stay away from you.

-Ronnie, Ronnie...

-And he didn't get what he wanted.

He was stronger than me.

He pushed me down and he tried...

And do you know what I thought? I thought...

"Just lie down, let him get on with it."

Old habits die hard.

And then he said to me...

"You're damaged goods, Veronica."

"You're damaged goods."

I can't keep having men do this to me.

DOOR OPENS

I can't sleep, Mummy.

-Oh, baby girl.

-Come here, darling.

Can I take her upstairs?

I tell you what, I'll pop down the offy.

-I reckon we could both do with a drink, right?

-Yeah.

Come on, let's get you to bed, monkey, shall we?

-Say, "Night-night, Mummy."

-Night-night, Mummy.

-I love you.

Love you.

See you later.

Right, shall we read you a bedtime story? Which one do you want?

KNOCK AT DOOR Yep?

It's only me.

-You all right?

-Yeah.

Mummy told me about Martin.

I'm scared, B.

Course you are.

So am I.

But we've got to do this, right?

We've got to get tested.

It's not just for us,

it's for the kids.

We got too much to lose, Son.

I don't think I can do it.

What's the worst that can happen?

Are you being serious?

Well, go on, say it.

Well, if we've got the gene...

Then, we will do whatever we have to do.

Look, you know what, it's not worth thinking about until it happens.

And whatever DOES happen, we'll do it together.

We'll be there for each other, like we always have.

Men or no men.

-Hello?

-Come in.

Come in. We're having a girly night in(!)

-So?

-So...

We're going to do this together, yeah?

Yeah. One step at a time.

Thanks...

For everything.

What?

I should have said. You know, about Shirley.

It's fine.

Listen, we both made mistakes.

If you say it's all done and dusted, then I believe you.

Can't move forward if we don't trust each other, can we?

She went out like a light.

Have you seen my keys? I can't find them anywhere.

-No.

-Oh.

PHONE BEEPS Roxy...

-Is this...Carl's phone?

-Yeah. What's it doing in your coat?

-I don't know, do I?

-Give it to me.

-No!

-Just give it to...

-No!

PHONE RINGS