14/01/2016 EastEnders

I'm taking this.

Would you have married me if I hadn't been pregnant?

What? What?

You know how I feel about you! You know I love you!

All of this only happened because you...

Because what? What? Tell me.

Tell me.

All right...

It hurt when you dumped me, all right?

And when I was with her, I don't know.

Maybe I wanted to hurt you back.

Congratulations. Your plan worked!

Does Stacey know that you were using her?

I didn't use her... OK, yeah, I did use her, I did.

But you pushed me away as if I meant nothing

and you felt you could just replace me with some complete stranger.

I love you! OK? I never stopped loving you!

I married you because I love you.

Yes, I wanted to have a family with you, and I still do, actually.

My body can't have another child!

Kush, I'm trying to make this easy for you!

Will you just let me walk away, and then you go to Stacey,

go to your son!

Shut up, all right! Stop saying that, OK! You listen to me! Listen.

I want YOU.

All right? I don't care if we never have kids.

You are the woman I want to die loving!

You can walk out on me right now, OK,

and I swear it will make no difference to my feelings.

I am never going to go near Arthur. He is never going to be my son.

Shabs, look at me.

Just look at me, look at me.

I am the man you love.

And you...

You are the only woman I will ever love.

Stay.

Stay.

You were driving the car, weren't you, Ian?

Weren't you?

No...

No!

Sharon, I wanted to tell you sooner.

You nearly killed my son.

You put him in hospital!

Why would you say it was you?

-Look, Sharon, sit down...

-Just tell me!

Ian said he'd take the blame if I kept you quiet about Bobby.

I'd been drinking. I'd go down for it.

We thought it was for the best, Sharon.

You all knew?

You did this to shut me up?

Sharon, I wanted to tell you...

Don't you touch me!

Don't you ever touch me again!

Sharon!

Sharon, you... You can't leave me!

Sharon, I'm your husband!

You lie to me.

You disappear for weeks on end.

You scheme behind my back,

you keep your dead ex-wife a secret,

you give away my bar...

..and now you put my son in hospital,

and you dare tell me you're my husband?!

You've not been a husband to me

since the minute you put this ring on my finger!

Marrying you...

was the biggest mistake of my life.

I have stood by,

and I have watched you shatter Ben...

..betray Jay...

but this...

My Denny,

my son.

No more.

Hey!

Hope you don't mind.

I was waiting for a call from Kush,

and I saw your light was on.

Come in.

Er, Kamil's asleep,

Tam's out, I was just relaxing...

You sure I'm not intruding?

No, not at all.

I welcome the company. Cup of tea?

I'd rather have this.

I know you don't but...

To be honest I really need it.

Why? What's happened?

Oh, hey, come on...

We're closing now, so drink up and get out!

LIQUID POURING

Come on, then.

Agony Uncle Masood is listening.

I just feel so...

..lonely.

I'm sorry, I shouldn't have come.

No...

I'm glad you did.

I understand how it feels.

Right, OK.

What would you like to do? Would you like to watch a film? Some food?

Are you hungry?

The wine's fine, thanks.

Maybe some music.

Right, OK. Um...

Where did I put the remote control?

-Here.

-I...

MUSIC: Sexual Healing by Marvin Gaye

No. No!

Marvin Gaye...

I was just listening to I Heard It Through the Grapevine. I...

I prefer this one.

Actually...

..it's my favourite.

HE LAUGHS

No...

You'd let me dance on my own?

I don't dance.

Even though I'm lonely?

No, no, no, Carmel...

Oh, OK!

Oh...

SHE LAUGHS

THEY GIGGLE

-Whoa!

-Ready?

THEY LAUGH

Sharon...

We're shut.

I never meant to lie to you.

I was...

desperate, all right? I was...

terrified you were going to go to the police about Bobby, and...

-..and I saw an opportunity and I grabbed it.

-To gag me?

My son nearly dies, but that's OK,

as long as yours don't get locked up.

You and Phil putting your heads together.

"You take the heat, I'll deal with Sharon"? Is that how it worked?

And Jane and Kathy knowing all about it?

Phil and Kathy having yet another secret,

while I'm on my knees in that hospital

praying my son ain't brain damaged?

You...

You sided with a man you've hated for decades over me...

your best mate.

You know, on my wedding day...

..you begged me not to go through with it! And you were right.

I said "I do" with my eyes wide open.

And before we'd even cut the cake, I had his blood on my wedding dress.

I'm to blame. It's my fault.

No, it's not.

Yes, it is, cos I allowed him to drink.

Have you any idea how that makes me feel right now?

Whose idea was it to say you were driving? Huh?

Yours or Phil's?

Mine. Look, Sharon, like I said, I saw an opportunity

-and I grabbed it, OK?

-Yeah, because you didn't trust me.

No, because you were going to go to the police about Bobby!

Look, I had to stop you! I have to keep him safe.

Oh, yes, you have to keep Bobby safe.

Never mind the casualties along the way, Ian.

I mean, what's it going to take?

Him killing Jane? Or you?!

-That's not going to happen!

-And how do you know?

He's a dark, troubled boy with terrifying anger issues.

-He's just a boy who's confused!

-Oh...

Do you know who you sound like, Ian?

Dot...

talking about Nick.

Do you think I like all these lies?

Jane...

has hardly slept, now, in...

over a year.

Every time there's a knock at the door or the phone rings,

I dread it.

I stood by and I watched Max go to prison

for something that he didn't do, and...

..and now your son's lying in hospital...

..which is terrible,

but he is going to be fine, OK? You've still got him.

My Lucy's in a grave.

Peter's on the other side of the world.

HE SIGHS

And Bobby's about to go to boarding school.

And, yeah...

I know there's something wrong with him

and it terrifies me.

But I'll tell you now, I will do a deal with the devil

if it keeps him safe.

I shouldn't be mad at you, Ian.

-It's just you're my best mate...

-Yeah, and you're mine, OK?

But you were going to go to the police about Bobby...

and it wouldn't just have been him.

It would have been me and Jane.

How over the limit was he?

I don't know. Enough, I'm guessing.

He's been telling me he's controlling it, and...

I let myself believe him.

He's told me his last lie.

I'm not sure where I'd go anyway.

My dad's?

All those questions?

So you're staying?

It would be easier if I could just stop loving you.

You'll never stop loving me.

We're a unit, ain't we?

We face whatever happens.

I'm not sure I'd be able to face Stacey.

You're so important to her, though.

The only reason she never told you was for fear of hurting you.

She knew how much I loved you. That should have stopped her.

When I told you she'd been up on that Vic roof,

what was your first reaction?

You wanted to go to her, you wanted to check she was OK.

She's your mate, she's your best mate.

Don't pretend she's not.

I don't know. I don't know.

Maybe us moving away is the answer.

-Yeah, a fresh start.

-Mm.

-Hey?

And we could look into surrogacy...

-Oh.

-Because I know you want a baby, we both do...

Surrogacy?

I know it's going to be hard. And maybe it's too soon,

but in a month, a few months, a year or so...

Another baby, Shabs.

I can't believe that you would even bring this up today.

I'm just saying there are options here, aren't there?

-You think that you can just replace him?

-I didn't mean that!

You make me feel like I can never say the right thing!

I'm trying my best to save our marriage here but...

I need you to meet me halfway. OK?

Please.

Do you really want us to split up?

MUSIC: Let's Get It On by Marvin Gaye

Oh!

I appear to be missing two buttons.

I was a bit eager, wasn't I?

I don't want you thinking I came here for...

No, I don't...

I'm glad you did.

-I should go.

-Then I'd be lonely.

Stay,

talk,

forget about the world out there.

-There's something you should know...

-Hm?

..if you don't already know.

You are a very generous lover.

Mm-hmm.

Generous?

-Mm.

-Mm.

THEY LAUGH

I'm sorry...

It's all right, I'm not going anywhere.

I love you.

DOOR OPENS

I've come for my stuff. You won't see me or Denny again.

Sharon, I ain't going to let you leave me. We belong together.

You talking to me or the bottle?

Don't you think I hate myself for what's happened?

Eh? It's killing me seeing him lying in that hospital bed.

Cos when I married you, Sharon, I took him on as well, didn't I?

I look on him as mine, my own.

After you set his father up to be murdered!

Do you know what it does to someone,

to be lied to again and again?

And then turning round and asking that person to trust you?

To say they'd never lie if it was something important.

Sharon, I didn't want to lose you, all right?

So when Ian said he'd take the blame for the driving,

I went along with it.

I shouldn't have done, but I did. It was stupid, I just panicked.

But like I said, I didn't want to lose you.

I'm not up for any more prison.

And I'm not up to any more of this! It's over, Phil.

I know I've said it before, but this time, I mean it.

Sharon, we can get through this, all right?

And I'll tell you why...

I mess up.

I know I do, but we're made for each other, Sharon, you know we are.

And I know that sometimes I hurt you, but I don't mean to.

I want what's best for you.

But you said you was all right with the drinking.

-You let that happen, didn't you?

-You think I don't know that!

You think I don't blame myself for my son nearly dying

cos I let you carry on drinking?

You know, anything... Anything for a quiet life...

All right, you don't want me drinking?

I'll give up drinking, all right?

Cos I can, I can give up drinking any time I want.

But the one thing I can't give up, Sharon, is you.

So I'll give up the dodgy deals and all that stuff

and I'll concentrate on you.

And I'll get you back The Albert. 100% of it.

And I'll prove to you how much you mean to me.

You're right. We are made for each other.

Made in the same mould.

And this is what we do - you hurt me, I kick back, we have a row,

talk each other round, until one of us gets hurt again.

Usually me.

I asked Peggy once, about your dad hitting her.

"You just stand by your man," that's all she said to me.

Well, you can't say I haven't stood by you.

But I won't be like your mother.

And I will not live in your father's shadow.

-I'm nothing like my dad!

-You keep telling yourself that.

I've never laid a finger on you, or on Dennis!

Kid yourself all you like, the apple didn't fall far from the tree.

You're just saying this

because you know that's the worst thing you can say to me.

That's what it's like because that's what it is.

And there ain't no coming back from that.

Sharon, you can't leave me...

..because I'm dying.

Are you hungry? I could order us a takeaway.

Erm...I can't...

I can't remember if this was taken before or after...

..she went to bed with you.

We are going to be OK, aren't we?

Yes, yeah, we are.

I'll take an overnight bag and come back for the rest tomorrow.

I'm dying...

We're all dying, Phil.

The way you live your life, I'm surprised you've made it this far.

It's true.

Really? I'm not going to be taken in by your lies any more.

Now, where's our marriage certificate?

I thought it was in here.

What do you want that for?

I'll need a copy to give to my solicitor, for when I divorce you.

Sharon, you can't divorce me, you've gotta stay.

The doctor reckons it's my liver, it's had it.

No! Really?

You're pathetic. Is that your winning line?

You're bluffing.

It's true.

No. It's story telling!

Cos we had a little heart-to-heart once and I told you all about

Angie keeping Den around by telling him she had six months to live.

You can't even tell a good lie.

I'm not lying.

I really am dying.

OK, I believe you...

But do you know what?

I don't care.

Just hurry up and die quickly. Save me the expense of divorcing you.

Erm...

you could stay...

No, I've got to get back.

My taxi'll be here in a minute.

Well...thanks for...

Bye.

How many times, Jay?

You can't count that last bowl cos you were making me laugh.

Blah, blah, blah!

All right, Sharon? How's Dennis?

He's got an infection.

He's going to be all right though, ain't he?

Yeah, yeah, the doctors have got it under control.

Are you taking more of his stuff to the hospital?

No. No, I'm leaving Phil.

What's he done now?

I think it's best he tells you, Ben.

Why is she leaving? What have you done?

Lied to her, put her son in hospital...

turned into me dad.

Take your pick, there's probably some other things

she can add to the list.

What do you mean, YOU put Dennis in hospital?

Didn't you know, Ben? He was driving the car, not Ian.

I can't cope with it any more, I'm sorry...

I've got to focus on Denny.

You just gonna let her go? Look at you, you're wasted!

-Ben...

-I ain't going to stop her. She ain't listening.

I've listened to enough!

She reckons I'm gonna die alone.

Yeah? She's right.

Well, why don't you go with her, eh, the pair of you?

You and your whiny girlfriend.

Might be able to breathe then, mightn't I?

Ignore him, he's drunk.

What you still doing here? Eh?

If you're going to go, just go.

Or do you want me to show you how much I'm like my dad?

Oh, leave it, Ben.

He ain't going to touch me,

and even if he did, it couldn't hurt me any more than he already has.

Listen, you ain't really going for good, are you?

I'll be at the hospital if you need me. Stick together, yeah?

Bye, Phil.

Another one bites the dust.

SHE CLEARS THROAT

You know how I tried to turn off my feelings for Jade?

Push her out of my mind, walk away? And I couldn't...

This is different, Arthur has a mum and a dad.

No, he has a mum and a man who believes he's his dad.

What are you saying?

Emotions aren't predictable.

What you feel today, you may not feel tomorrow.

I've told you already... you're the only person I care about.

OK, and I've told you I'm not leaving.

To be honest, you're not a cold person.

He's a little baby...

..and he's part of you.

Good. I'm glad you're being honest with yourself.

You need to be his dad.

I know it'll be hard for me,

but, erm, we will make it work.

I'll accept Arthur just as you've accepted Jade.

It's not as simple as that.

Stacey does not want me involved. She does not want Martin to know.

Tough.

-It'll crush him.

-No more than it's crushed me.

Agree with me, we sit down and we tell Martin.

You should have told me you were driving!

Why don't you just shut up?!

Eh? I'm sick of you getting in my ear.

Well, what are you still doing here?

I can't stand the sight of any of you! So just go.

You want to be with Sharon? You love Sharon?

Just go with her. Go on.

Just go, go now!

Come on, let's go.

You're your own worst enemy, you know that?

Look, Sharon, maybe once the dust settles

-and Denny's out of hospital, you'll feel different...

-No.

My marriage is over.

Be my guest and hurry over if you want.

Get him at a low point.

Ian, do you mind if I use this place as a base?

Of course you can.

-Well, it'll only be until Denny's discharged.

-Yeah.

And then what?

We get as far away from Phil as possible.

Sharon, are you sure that's what you want?

Do you know how many times these rings have been on

and off my finger this year?

This time, they're staying off.

What's he doing?

Oi! You running off? Like you always do?

Drunk driving?

Didn't you learn your lesson when you nearly killed Dennis?!

I tell you what, Dad.

You do us all a favour, yeah, you kill yourself this time!

You heard me! You kill yourself!