09/02/2016 EastEnders

I don't want you messaging me. Leave me alone and back off.

I was... I was just worried about you.

Don't, there's things in my life you don't want to get involved in.

What...what sort of things?

-I'm telling you, just stay out of it.

-OK.

Leave my sister alone! Just...

Kim!

So that's it, is it? Just grab your bag, disappear?

I don't get it. Where, where'd this all come from?

Well, apart from being in nick, I've never stayed anywhere this long.

Oh, shut up. So that's what today was about then?

I'm not needed here any more, it's time for me to go.

Kushy...

You don't get it, do you? You really...you don't have a clue.

I don't need you sticking your oar in, all right?

I don't need you messing with my life.

I'm trying to help you.

Where are you going?

Somewhere where I can get a drink without someone calling my mum.

Kush...

And when I get back, I want you gone.

That needs looking at.

It's nothing.

Why did you do that anyway?

I'd have hit him harder if I knew it was him.

It's good to see you too(!)

Look, I only came here to tell you to back off.

That's the only reason I'm here.

Hey...

OK, just... come back to the house and let me

clean up that cut for you. Five minutes and then you can go.

And now... Here she comes, Jessica Ennis, eat your heart out.

I can't breathe.

You sure you're going to manage a half marathon?

How long was I gone?

Not even 15 minutes.

Oh, you're joking. Really?

Maybe she should just run round the Square to raise money for charity.

Oh, ha ha. Very funny.

-KNOCKING AT DOOR

-Hang on!

Oh, me legs...

Oh, hello, come in.

Sorry to bother you. I, um...

I'm trying to track down Martin, is he - is he here?

No, we're looking after his kids

but he's gone to find a mother-baby unit for Stacey.

Oh, of course. Yeah. Sorry.

Oh, no, you all right? What's the matter?

It's Kush. I really need your help.

This ain't right.

You're the one that hit him.

I mean him being here. I've got a bad feeling about it, Dee.

You need to tell him to leave.

He's here, in my house,

and if you don't like it, then YOU can leave.

MESSAGE ALERT

Who's that, the boyf?

No, I ain't got one of them.

-Oh, me neither.

-Oh, that's good then, innit?

I meant a girlfriend, obviously.

Um...

Do you fancy going for a drink somewhere, like a proper drink?

Er... Look, I would, but...

All right, I thought I'd ask.

No, no, no. I would, it's just...

Like I said, I'm on drunk patrol duty

and I've got to make sure someone gets home in one piece.

No worries.

Don't mean we can't stay here.

I could maybe squeeze in one more of them.

Maybe.

Extra cream again?

Can I get a top-up in there, is that all right?

Right, er,

if you've not bought raffle tickets yet, there's still time.

-Every penny's going to good local causes.

-Oh, yeah.

Watch the dodgy draw and see who wins.

Ooh, it's the landlady's daughter.

If you don't wind your neck in, you'll be through that door.

Yeah? You and whose army?

You're not in your dive of a pub now. I'm watching you.

All right. It's just a bit of fun, that's all. Just a giggle!

-CUTLERY CLATTERS

-Oh!

Are you OK there?

If I had four arms, I would be.

Well, do you want a hand?

What about your neck, love?

Oh, no. I'm fine.

-If you don't mind, then - just stick 'em in the kitchen.

-Yeah, sure.

Er, Ben? Er, can you get us another drink?

Yeah, yeah, I will do.

Do you fancy meeting up later?

You serious?

Paul, it's gonna take time... Paul!

You can't see what you're doing.

I'm fine.

Um... Chelsea told me what happened.

What, that's why I'm here, is it? You want to lay into me?

-Get some payback for what I did to her?

-No, that is not why you're here.

I'm not going to judge you like the others.

-I'm here for you.

-I don't need protecting.

Look, I came here to get you off my case, to keep you away.

-I don't buy that.

-Is that right?

Well, you could have ignored me, stayed away. But you didn't.

So where is it that you're living now then?

A squat in East Ham, Thatcher Estate.

Thatcher's Estate?

Drug dealers, losers and wasters. Yeah, I fit right in.

-Don't say that.

-Why? It's true.

Look, what sort of trouble do you think I'm in?

Do you think I'm being chased for nicking sweets?

OK, you can tell me and maybe I can help you.

Oh, what. Cos you're good at fronting out drug dealers and gangs?

People who want to break your legs and enjoy doing it.

Drugs, that's what I'm involved in. Just like my mum.

Well, that's all the more reason why you don't need to be

living on that estate. You need people around who can support you.

Yeah? Come here.

Oi! Oi! Oi! Get off!

Your Mum's worried about you.

Let her worry.

Why don't you let me take you home.

And do what? Just sit there on my own?

Well...it's a lot better than sitting here

and getting even more drunk.

Shabnam's not coming back.

She's gone.

I've lost her.

Zaair...

My son.

You need to get home.

I've ruined everything, haven't I? I've ruined everything.

I mean, what's the point? What's the point now? Look at me.

Look at me. Would you come back to this?

I know you've had a very hard time and it must hurt.

I have lost everything. I ain't got nothing, Son.

I've got nothing.

You know, I don't know why you turned up,

or what you're mixed up in.

I'm sorry for you, boy, but I don't want you bringing it in my house.

-All right?

-You're not going anywhere.

No, because I'm so wanted here.

If he wants to leave, you make him leave.

Yeah, cos you've brought the cavalry to chase him off.

No one's chasing anybody off. All right?

But he's just rocked up here.

-No one's got a clue about him.

-Who are you anyway?

He's my husband and he's looking out for his family,

so perhaps you should go.

This is my house!

And I say he stays.

Look, he's living in a squat.

All right? In a nightmare of an estate.

-Do you really want to send him back to that?

-A squat?

Yeah.

That can't be easy.

Yeah, bruv, like you'd know.

Trust me, I know more than you can imagine.

He's told me what's happened.

He's got... he's got involved in drugs.

And there are people that are after him, people that want to hurt him.

Yeah, well, he's not a kid, he can make his way.

Did you not hear what I actually said,

there are people that want to hurt him!

So is this about money?

Well, how much do you owe them?

More than I've got.

Is this before or after you stole from Chelsea?

Look, none of that matters any more.

All that matters is that I -

we - can help him now.

You...you don't get it, do you?

He can tell you anything you want to hear.

I'm telling the truth, whether any of you believe me or not,

that's down to you.

You're a liar, just like your father.

-Oh, what, you got me sussed? You reckon?

-You tell me.

You need to calm down, my brother.

What my dad did... He killed my mum...

-Jordan, please.

-Look, I'm nothing like him.

-I know what he is but he's still my dad.

-We're on your side.

You don't know me! None of you do. And what?

You can stand there and judge me?

I don't need this.

-Jordan...

-Get off of me.

-Dee!

-Enough!

You're going to break her heart, you know that, don't ya?

I don't know how to do it, all right?

Look... I went from being on my own after years inside,

getting by, to bang - there's Shirl

in front of me.

All right, she's looking older, but for crying out loud, we all do.

But it's as if all the years had disappeared and there she is,

the girl I knew, the girl I loved -

the girl I still love - back in my life.

Only with two sons I didn't even know existed.

Now...

if we'd stayed together and brought you two boys up,

like a proper mum and dad, things could have been different.

But they weren't.

And there she is. When I saw her, a part of me...

..wanted to disappear, leave everything as it is.

But I couldn't, cos it was Shirl.

And everything was all over the place, what with Stan and you,

with Dean.

I couldn't leave, she was in a mess.

So you stuck around cos she's a mess? What's that all about?

I'm her past, not her future.

Me being in her life ain't going to make any difference.

And what about us?

You're my old man.

You had Stan. You didn't need me.

I weren't there to take you up the stairs

when you were a little 'un and read you a story.

Give you a clip round the ear when you came in stinking of fags.

I didn't do the course, I never got the certificate.

But you're here now though, ain't ya?

I mean, I love my old man to pieces,

but, let's be straight, he's not perfect.

Neither of us are.

But that's what granddads are here for, though, ain't they?

Yeah, but...I ain't what you think I am.

I keep getting it wrong.

I mean, how could I have been more wrong about Dean. Hey?

After all he'd done.

I... I backed him up, didn't I?

My son, Dean.

When deep down, I knew he was bad.

I never said a word. Not a thing.

I failed.

I failed you, I failed Linda...

I failed everyone.

So, um...

Just remind me. Um...

You running away...

How does that put this right?

I've said me piece.

That's that.

You know why you're going? Don't ya?

Cos you're a coward.

-Sorry.

-Hello!

I was, er...just sat with Kush.

Waiting for him to sober up.

Is he all right?

He's beautiful.

Why don't you take Arthur in the kitchen?

No, no, no, don't move him. Don't move him.

Er, Lily. Come on. Let's put the kettle on.

-(Look at him.)

-Good girl.

Oh... he's a good little boy.

Hey, you beautiful little man.

Son, er...

I - I know - I know I'm a bit drunk and I'm a mess but, listen,

it's Arthur, he's...

I'm going round in circles and I'm getting nowhere. Absolutely nowhere.

I've spoken to about - I dunno, what - a dozen different people,

it's ridiculous.

-Hey.

-Hey. You all right?

-Oh, yeah.

-Lager?

Mh-mm.

There he is. There's Daddy's boy. Come here, mate.

Oh, yeah, I have missed you. Haven't I, yeah.

-How's he been?

-Really good.

Yeah?

Aw... Yeah.

I didn't mean to drag you into helping all night,

keeping you away from Ben.

I, er, don't think he's even noticed. MESSAGE ALERT

Is that him texting you?

Er... No, it's from my big sister.

Would you like to see a picture of my beautiful nephew?

-Oh.

-Yep.

That's about the hundredth one this week from my perfect big sister,

living her perfect life.

That's big sisters for you.

Actually, Abi, if you fancy it, I could do with an extra

pair of hands in here, just the odd shift now and then.

-Really?

-If you've got the time?

Well, I mean, I've got my vet work

but me and Ben, we're saving for our own place.

So if I can fit it in, the extra cash would be great.

Consider yourself hired, then. After all, us younger sisters,

we got to stick together.

Thank you.

MESSAGE ALERT

Can I help you?

This ain't the loo, is it?

No.

-You're Linda's daughter, ain't ya.

-Do you not mean Lisa's daughter?

Do you know what, I only call her that to wind her up.

Whoa, here y'are...

Your mum giving you grief, what's that all about?

I'd have you behind my bar. Pretty face,

give the punters something else to think about other than fighting.

I need an assistant manager.

It's pretty lively, the Rat and Ferret, ain't it?

There's plenty of punters but just not the right type.

It's all beards and tatts - and that's just the birds.

No, it's... it's all right if you know how to duck.

Sounds like a challenge.

It's certainly that but, you know, we do have a laugh.

I know - you, you could come and work for me?

-Oh...

-No, no... Seriously,

come and do a trial. Yeah, a trial.

Yeah, I like you. You're not as up yourself as your Mum.

You're drunk, though, ain't you.

I am, I am, but tomorrow, I'll be sober

and you'll still be getting grief.

Come on, unless you don't want to

because your mum and dad would kick off.

They wouldn't even notice. I can guarantee that.

Oi, what you doing back here? Out.

Oh, all right, all right. Sorry, Lisa...

Oh, you think you're funny? Back in the bar.

All right, I'm going, I'm going.

There's only so much of a good thing, a time, a woman can have.

You just don't get it, do you?

My cab'll be here in a minute.

So you weren't around to wipe me jacksy - big deal.

I survived. I had Stan.

We all survived. This is what we've got now.

Yeah, but I don't fit in.

-Oh, shut up.

-Dad...

No, hold up a minute, he needs to hear this.

I'll tell you why you're doing the slip, shall I? You're scared.

Is that right?

Yeah.

See, now Jade's gone, you're scared of it being just you and Shirl.

You don't want to deal with that.

You're scared that me or Lee might actually call on you

and you might have to come to the front.

Don't you think I wanted to have it on my toes

after everything I've been through?

Yeah, you got it wrong about Dean, but he's gone.

He finally got what he had coming to him.

And you walking away ain't what Shirl needs...

..and it ain't what we need.

It's Shirl. She don't need me, she don't need anyone.

Don't you know nothing about her?

The more horrible she is to you, the more she likes you.

Do you know what? It's actually doing my swede in, er...

We need more beers. So, Lee, can you go get some?

-No more beers. Where's that cab?

-No. They're for me and the boy,

while we drown our sorrows while we wave you off.

-UNDER BREATH: Go and get Shirl.

-What?

Go and get Shirley. Now.

I didn't mean to hurt you.

Will you go away?

Denise, I'm sorry.

It's fine. It's nothing.

Are you going to get out of this kitchen

or do I have to hit you again?

Kim...

Look, I've got nothing against him as such,

he's had a lot to deal with. But, Dee, he's trouble.

Look at the way he kicked off when Patrick called him a liar,

must have hit a nerve.

Yeah, well, everyone was in his face,

saying he's just like his Dad, of course he got upset.

Not like your father, eh?

What you doing back early? You got kicked out or something?

Oi, you cheeky mare.

I can leave a boozer of my own accord, you know?

It is possible.

Come on, let's get you out of here. OK?

All right, all right. So bossy.

-Come on.

-Oh, whoa!

Well, er... Look, you've got my number.

Yeah and you've got mine. Bye.

See you later.

Him losing Shabs because of everything with Zaair

and seeing me with Arthur, it must be tearing him apart.

I know, I get that. And I feel for him, I do.

Any other time, I'd walk through a wall for that bloke.

But I can't, not now.

No...

Where is he?

He left.

You mean you chased him off?

No. He...he just went.

Just let him go.

Sorry, I should... I should go.

I'm sorry for being a pain.

You're not a pain. Here, I've just been having a think.

You helped Mas with his running, didn't you?

-Mmm.

-Well, do you fancy helping me?

With what?

I'm doing the Walford half-marathon. I could really do with some help.

Oh, no. I don't think I'm in the right place to motivate anyone.

Oh, come on. You'd be doing me a really big favour.

I'm doing it for the Walford Baby Unit.

-Half-marathon, yeah?

-Yeah, eh?

And look at me, I'm not exactly Paula Radcliffe, am I?

But she has weed in the street before.

Stop it. So what do you think? Hey? What do you say?

Be my trainer?

Yeah, all... Yeah, all right. Maybe once I've sobered up a bit.

Then we can start.

OK. Thank you, yeah? Drink that tea and get an early night.

Why did you lie about what the money's for?

Well, I'm not lying, am I? I'm still doing it for Walford hospital.

I'm just doing it for the Scbu.

Besides, it'll give him something to focus on, you know?

Something to keep going.

You do realise that you're going to have to do this run now?

Yeah.

'I'm going to wait outside.'

Ain't ya gonna say goodbye to Lee?

Soppy thinks the world of you.

I'm sorry.

I hear you're walking out on me.

Look, just face it, Dee, he admitted he was involved in drugs.

Yeah? And then he said he needed money.

And when he felt that everyone was on to him, he just left.

He was lying to you.

He was.

I'm sorry.

It's OK.

I'm...I'm going to sort myself out, I am.

You better get back to Craig.

I want to be here for you.

Look, Mum, Mum...

I... I need to deal with this in my own way.

If, if I need your help, I will ask you. OK?

OK.

None of these colours are what I'd choose anyway.

First thing tomorrow, I'll go and buy some paint.

Have you got someone else?

No.

Has he got someone else? Is that what this is about?

Of course he ain't.

Lee said that you think that I don't need you?

Is that what you really think?

I don't know, you tell me.

Don't be stupid. If you want him to stay, will you tell him?

We ain't a pair of kids.

You're both acting like it.

Do you love me?

I'm here with you, ain't I?

I need to know - do you love me?

DOOR BUZZER

I'm here, we got two kids but I need to know.

I wash your pants, don't I?

Oh, for crying out loud. Do you or don't ya?

DOOR BUZZER

OK.

I love you.

There, I've said it.

You happy now?

DOOR BUZZER

Um...

I, I need someone to help me on the stall if you're interested?

You're staying then?

Here, go and wind that sherbet on.

Will you marry me?

Oh, shut up.

I've got to know.

If I was gonna marry anyone, then it would be you, yeah.

But that's not going to happen.

That'll do, that's all I needed.

Well, we're not that stupid, are we?

Ooh, right.

I'll, er, I'll leave you's two to have a roll about, I think.

Any sign of him?

I feel like such an idiot.

No, you were trying to help him.

No one can blame you for that. He is what he is.

He is part of your past and that's where he needs to stay.

I've seen his likes too many times, he would have messed you up.

I guess I just wanted to see the best in him, but...

..obviously, I was wrong.