22/02/2016 EastEnders

-I can't just leave.

-You're not staying here -

not while you're thinking stuff like that.

You need to be at home with us, so you can get better.

I will look after you.

I promise.

Martin, we can't. Just stop it.

Come on. You ain't staying here.

Martin!

Martin, what are we doing?

Stacey, we're going home, so you can be with your family,

-where you belong.

-No, Martin! This is stupid!

Stace, come on!

-Stace, come on!

-Stacey, love! Come back!

-Martin!

Stacey, come back!

Martin, will you stop, please?

Martin!

-Come on!

-Martin! Stop it! Just stop it, Martin! I'm not going anywhere!

You have to!

Martin, just sit down. Martin, just sit down and breathe. Just sit down.

Just breathe. Breathe.

Just breathe...

Just breathe.

Stacey...

It is my job to keep this family together.

You were meant to be with our son and, instead, you're in here

and there's nothing I can do about it.

No-one can.

-That's why you're better off without me.

-Stop saying that.

I just want to know how you can think that.

What you have done every day for weeks,

no-one's ever done anything like that for me.

But I'm hurting you, Martin. I can't see another way out.

We're the way out.

Your family.

How can you think it is better for Lily

and Arthur to grow up without a mum?

That is not protecting us, Stace.

It's just taking everything away. Yeah?

It doesn't matter how bad this gets.

Not having you...

is worse.

I mean, that is the end for all of us.

And I don't know what more I can do to help you understand that.

I do understand.

-Do you?

-Yeah.

I understand.

Martin...

Martin, we need to take Stacey back to the ward now.

It's all right.

I'm going to do my best.

Then we'll have our little family.

Yeah, our little family.

I love you.

I love you.

-It's OK. Don't worry. It's fine.

-Are you sure?

-Sure.

Thank you.

She... She was talking about hurting herself.

It's the only reason I...

I'm sorry.

-The police are on their way, yeah?

-No.

I think you should go home, Martin. Get some sleep.

I've got calls to make. There's a unit down in Winchester...

No, you're not going to help anyone by driving yourself into the ground.

She's in the best place.

Except she isn't though, is she?

No, because there isn't the money to look after these women properly,

but I promise you, I promise you we are trying.

Now, you need to go home.

DOOR OPENS Hey.

Sshh.

-Sorry.

-Sorry.

How is he?

Not great.

I mean, it's Stacey's decision in the end.

I just think it's going to be a very, very long way back.

-Anyway, how's Arthur?

-Yeah, he's fine.

-I reckon he'll be waking up soon.

-Aw.

-Thanks for looking after him.

-No, it's no trouble.

-I've got a bit more time, if there's anything else you want.

-No, no.

You take a break.

I'll crack on here and I'll give you a call if there's any news.

-BABY CRIES

-Yeah?

-There you go, look.

There you go. Bang on hour and a half, see?

-Oh, dear.

-OK, I'll leave you to it.

-OK.

Erm...

She is going to be all right, isn't she? Stacey?

I hope so.

Denny?

Jay?

MOBILE RINGS

Hello?

No, that's fine. I'll cover for them.

OK.

SHE SIGHS

-Tee, have you got that duster?

-You're going to go

-over my knee in a minute.

-SONIA CHUCKLES

Mart, you all right?

How is he?

Arthur? He's lovely. Stacey?

Why aren't you with her?

Dr Forde asked me to leave.

Why?

-Because I tried to break her out.

-You what?!

Did they call the police?

-No.

-This is all we need, isn't it, eh?

-You getting banged up for being an idiot!

-Sonia, just give me a break.

Yeah?

She was saying some things in there that...just made me think.

Maybe she wasn't safe...

on her own.

What...? You mean, like...?

I mean, I've had bad times,

but I've never felt like... You know.

I don't understand. MOBILE RINGS

It's a unit.

Hello?

All right, yeah.

OK, thanks for calling.

Yeah. Well, if anything else...

All right.

Thanks.

Hatfield's full.

Listen, I'm just going to get back to it, yeah?

Look, why don't you take a break? We need to get you up the hospital,

-get you checked out.

-No, I'm fine. I just need to keep calling.

-You never know.

-I can make some phone calls.

-Sonia, it's...

-It's my responsibility.

-Martin, shut up. Give me the phone.

All right? You, get in the shower. You stink.

FOOTSTEPS APPROACHING

KNOCK AT DOOR

-Is Martin in trouble?

-No.

But I'd like to talk about what just happened, if that's OK.

Martin said you were thinking about harming yourself.

I thought it was for the best.

I told Martin and the kids to move on.

Why do you think that's true?

Sometimes I wonder if bad things just follow me around.

I feel like I'm being punished and I don't deserve any better.

Why would that be?

Don't know.

This morning, I had a bad dream about Bradley

and then hearing Martin was in a car crash...

I don't know, I think I just panicked.

You know, and I thought it was for the best. I thought it...

I thought they'd be safer.

It all made sense at the time.

That wouldn't solve anything.

You know, Martin made his own decision to get into that car

when he was exhausted.

-It had nothing to do with you.

-Yeah, but he was exhausted because of me.

But you can't help him with his safety issues.

Do you understand that?

You've had to deal with some very difficult,

traumatic situations in your life, Stacey,

more than most,

but that's not because you're being punished for something.

It's not because you're a bad person.

Look at what happened with Martin.

You were confronted with someone you know well

and he put you in a very difficult situation.

But you didn't run away.

You didn't panic.

If anything, you improved the situation.

And now what? I just sit here and carry on doing nothing?

You're not doing nothing. You're getting stronger, more able to cope.

-Am I?

-Yes.

Yes, we're going to be watching you closely today

because of the thoughts you've been having, but, yes, you are.

Do you want me to post that for you?

Um...

No.

-No, I don't think I'm going to send it after all.

-OK.

MOBILE RINGS

-Um... He's in the shower at the moment.

-Sonia, I'm here.

You've had a call from a unit.

Hello, this is Martin.

No, no, no. I'm still here.

Yeah, I know where that is.

Thank you.

Well?

They've got a place for her.

Today. They've got a place for her today!

Come here.

I do feel for Martin, bringing up that little baby all on his own.

Still, that's what being a father is all about, I suppose.

-It's not all good times.

-That's it, I'm done. I'm done.

All right? Anyone asks, I'm having a pint.

You're going to go to the pub now? It's half past three.

Do you know what? I'm going to risk it.

Better than listening to you two banging on, isn't it?

Banging on? Who's banging on? I'm not banging on.

Do you think you'll be able to sort dinner out for my lot tonight?

-Are you not taking Arthur with you?

-Tomorrow, hopefully.

Today, we're just going to get Stacey set up.

-Son, listen, can I borrow your car again?

-Yeah, of course.

I'll probably need to borrow it quite a lot actually.

-You can take it whenever you like.

-Thanks.

-All right?

BABY WHIMPERS Sshh.

It's OK.

Tomorrow, we're going to see Mummy again, aren't we?

Come on, you, go.

Right. Be a good boy.

-All right, OK. I'm going. I'm going.

-Dad, wait.

Wait...

So, what happens now?

Stacey starts getting better.

-So, Arthur will be with her?

-That's the idea.

He's not going to be living with you for a while?

-No. I'm going to miss him, too.

-No, it's not that...

Bex, I've really got to go.

Listen, you... You have been amazing.

OK? I couldn't have got here without you.

Right. See you later.

-How are you meant to get to work?

-Oh, I'll manage.

-We've only got one car.

-Well, I'll get the bus, won't I?

-What? For a 5am start?!

-I'll get a cab.

Whatever, we'll work it out.

Son, I'm worried about you. You're trying to do everything.

You have to stop.

I didn't pick up, Teen, did I? He phoned me and I ignored him,

and then he got back in his van and he nearly killed himself and Arthur!

And that is not your fault.

No, I know it isn't, but have a look at him.

He's having such a rough time and I haven't been there for him.

All right, I'll have a word with Mick about borrowing his car.

Really?

Yeah. You help Martin, I'll help you.

-Does he need to go to sleep?

-Oh, I spend half my life

-settling that child.

-If you can't be bothered, I can do it.

No, it's fine.

Yes, please. Sharon, cheers.

You knocked that back quick.

-Are you complaining about selling beer?

-Not your usual, in here.

No. I decided to give the Vic a wide berth for a couple of days. Cheers.

Yeah, very wise.

You heard then?

-Mm-hm.

-Yeah, not my best effort.

No.

-How's Martin?

-Yeah, he's all right. Cuts and bruises, mainly.

Right. Well, if he's anything like his dad, he'll handle it.

-Did you ever meet Arthur?

-No, long before my time.

Yeah. He was a lovely man.

-He had a big heart. Martin's the same.

-All right, I get it,

Martin's a great bloke. Can we talk about something else, please?

Sorry, sorry, Sharon, that was out of line.

Sorry.

The last thing I need is another bloke thinking

he can find the answers at the bottom of a glass.

Is Phil still...?

Yeah.

You all right, Sharon?

Yeah, he wants a divorce.

He handed over the papers this afternoon.

What are you going to do?

I don't know. Either sign them or shove them down his throat.

Doesn't have to be a bad thing, you know.

I'm sorry about you and Shabnam.

Um... She needed a new start and I could let her have it.

I'm not sure Phil thinks like that. He's weak.

You know, he acts hard, but as soon as things don't go his way

he ends up crying in his whisky glass, again.

Complete opposite to someone like Martin, you know?

-Sorry.

-No, no, no.

It's all right. Carry on.

Well, you know...

Martin's like his dad - he's kind.

You know, anyone can lash out and drink and give up,

but to keep going...

You know, to be there for Stacey and Arthur and Lily when it's hard...

Being kind is hard.

-Too hard for Phil Mitchell.

-Do you know what? You're right.

Can you just tip that down the sink for me, please?

-I didn't mean to have a go...

-No, no. Listen, um...

You're too good for him...

..and everybody knows it.

-Does she know?

-We thought you might like to tell her.

Martin?

What are you doing back here?

We've got somewhere, Stace...

..in Essex.

They've got a bed and an MBU.

Where's she going?

Somewhere where people can look after her.

-Where she can have Arthur.

-Like a different ice palace?

Yes.

That is exactly right, like a different ice palace.

Will she be happier at this one?

Yeah, I think so.

Because when we went there last week, she was really sad.

I think she's having a really rough time at the moment, your mum.

But she really loves you.

Do I have to go?

Hey, you don't have to do anything you don't want to.

All right?

-I think she'd really like to see you.

-Really?

Definitely.

And I'll be there the whole time.

And if you don't like it, we could go and get an ice cream.

-Do you think you could manage that?

-Yeah, I do.

Good girl.

So, I'll be with you in the ambulance and that is basically it.

Stacey?

An hour ago, I was too ill to even go near a kettle

and now, apparently, I'm going to be making my own meals.

-Yeah, it's pretty different there.

-But I'm still the same.

It's like everyone assumes I'm going to get better just

because I'm there and...

I don't know if I can do that.

-Look, about earlier, it's been a rough few days.

-Oh, it's fine.

-Should...? Shouldn't she be happier?

-It's a big change.

It can't be easy for her.

You have to be a bit patient.

OK...

Ready?

Yeah, ready.

-I'll take that.

-Thanks.

Bye, Stacey.

Thank you so much.

I'm sorry that you had to see me, like...you know.

Don't be ridiculous. You've been wonderful.

-Sorry, Martin. I found this.

-Oh, thanks.

Good luck.

-There you go. Remember, it's dinner soon, though, all right?

-OK.

-Where do you want your dinner? Here or at home?

-Wherever.

Right.

Are you OK?

That was suicide Dad was talking about earlier, wasn't it?

With Stacey.

Yeah.

How can it be a good thing for Arthur to be in there

when she's thinking about doing that?

I think that's a conversation you need to have with your dad.

I'm not sure Dad's judgment's really working right now.

Look, I'm not saying he hasn't been brilliant. He has, but...

-But he's not thinking straight, clearly.

-And you'd know, would you?

He tried to break her out of hospital!

How is that someone who can make good decisions?

You're 15, all right? You don't know what a good decision is!

Look...

Even if you don't think he's thinking straight

and, to be honest, I think that's pretty reasonable,

the people in these places, they're professionals.

And it is their job, literally, to think straight.

All right?

And if they say that it's OK,

then that's the best we can do.

She's right.

All families go through tough times and this is ours,

right, but when your dad gets home and he walks through that door,

we need to support him. I need you to support him.

Can you do that?

Someone will be with us shortly.

Right.

Oh, Stace. Look.

Hello. Hello, Stacey.

Martin?

My name's Anya.

I'm going to be your primary nurse while you're here with us.

First things first, you are safe here.

And when Arthur joins you, he'll be safe too.

We're going to help you get better.

-Handover notes.

-Thank you.

And that's it from me.

I don't know what to say.

Thank you.

-Goodbye, Stacey.

-Bye.

-Goodbye, Martin.

-Thank you.

-RADIO PLAYS

-Oh, I hate this song.

-I can turn it off, if you'd like.

-Oh, no. It's all right.

I don't remember the last time I heard music.

Shall I show you to your room?

So, the way we work here - me or another nurse will be with

you at all times, at least for the first 72 hours.

You're never alone.

That's the expressing room. We'll talk about feeding later on.

Washing machine's in there, if you need it.

Nurse room.

Look at this, Stace.

Look, pottery, yoga...

There's a zumba class here.

They should ban it!

Zumba!

Crime against humanity.

And this is your room.

MARTIN WHISTLES

There's a fold-out for you, Martin, if you want to stay occasionally.

-Thanks.

-Bathroom in there.

I've got my own bathroom?

Is it OK?

It's perfect. Thanks.

I'll go and get the rest of her stuff.

I can't believe I'm crying about a bathroom.

That's a great start(!)

Who cares? We're all for a good cry here, so enjoy it while you can.

You'll be out there soon enough, doing whatever you do.

I work on a market stall.

No way! That's what I used to do.

-Oh.

-Whereabouts?

Walford. Bridge Street.

Stratford. What do you sell?

Women's clothes.

I did underwear.

I was good, too.

Sold a lot - even to blokes!

Here you are. Right...

Are you going to be all right if I get back to Arthur,

-just so Sonia and Tina can have a break?

-Yeah.

-Is that all right?

-We'll be fine.

I'll bring him first thing in the morning, yeah?

OK. Thank you.

Oh!

That's him all settled.

You were brilliant earlier, you know?

When?

With Lily about the hospital.

-Were you there?

-Mm.

Sneaky.

And with Bex.

You really are like a...second mum to them.

Are you broody?

What? No, don't be ridiculous.

I'm just saying something nice.

OK.

Cos, like, I know I'm legendary in the sack,

but that might be a bit beyond me.

SHE CHUCKLES

What are you doing out here?

Nutter.

-It's freezing.

-I wanted to see you before I went home.

Well...

-Why didn't you just go inside?

-Too many people inside.

Oh.

What for?

I think you're amazing, Dad.

I think you're amazing too.

What you've done, for Arthur, for Stacey, for us...

It's really good.

And... And I think you're really good at being a dad.

Come here.

-Oops.

-Sorry.

That's all right. Again.

-Arthur's going to be OK, isn't he?

-Yeah.

He'll be fine.

Boom!

You're so lucky at this game. You play it all the time, don't you?

-Where's Ben?

-Upstairs with Abi.

Right, go and get him. We're going out for dinner.

-Aw!

-And you're not wearing that top. Go and put a shirt on.

-I like it.

Go and change it.

Come on, quickly.

It's time we did something as a family.

You all right?

All right? Well?

It's so different, Son.

I mean, like, there are families in there, mums with their babies...

There was a radio on. There was actual music playing.

-Oh, that's brilliant.

-Yeah.

What's that?

Er...

From Stacey.

One of the nurses found it.

I'm not sure I'm supposed to have it, to be honest.

I think she must have written it when...

You know, like a goodbye note.

Do I read it?

No.

What happens if those thoughts come back? You know, and...

-This may help me understand her more, so I can help her.

-No, leave it.

She didn't give it to you. She didn't want you to read it.

Throw it away.

Yeah. Yeah, you're right.

You're right.

HE SIGHS

-Oh, hello. What are we having here?

-It's lovely.

I'll pop this in here for the morning.

I'll be finishing soon.

I'll introduce you to the night team as soon as they get here.

Now, you probably just want to sleep now and that's fine.

But when you feel like it,

these are the stories of other women who've been through here,

who got better. A lot of women find it helpful to read them.

You're going to be one of them one day, Stacey.

Thank you.

BABY CRIES Oh, come here, mate.

It's all right. Come here.

Yeah, come here. Daddy loves you so much.

Yeah.

Sshh. Sshh.

It's OK.

Sshh. Sshh.

Yeah. Daddy loves you.

Come on, mate.

Sshh. Sshh.

Sshh. Sshh. Sshh.

Yeah.

Let's see what Mummy's put.

Sshh. Sshh. Sshh.

Sshh. Sshh.

Sshh. Sshh. Sshh.

"Martin, I need to tell you the truth about Arthur.

"I'm so sorry, but he's not yours.

"He's Kush's."

BABY CRIES