29/08/2017 EastEnders

Of course I'm not in love with Whitney.

She don't know what she's talking about.

It's OK. I know.

I just can't believe you've kept it to yourself this long.

Jane's still recovering, all right.

Dad's just found he's got diabetes, Lauren.

All I ever seem to do is just cause more trouble for everybody.

No, no.

Steven, you are the kindest, sweetest person that I know.

You know that Jane and Ian, they would....

they would want to look after you.

You look pale.

Just nausea.

It comes and goes.

You won't be doing this on your own.

OK?

I'll be there with you.

We can tell them together.

I just...

I just need some air, OK?

Sorry, it's always better if I walk it off.

L, just drop it?

That'd suit you, wouldn't it? He knows, she knows.

Seems I'm the only one kept permanently in the dark around here!

Me and Woody decided that if we're going to make a proper go of things,

we're going to be completely honest with each other.

Yeah, so I told him everything. My past, my mistakes,

and Mick.

Feelings were felt and it's over now, innit?

You sure about that, are you?

Seriously, Linda, there is nothing else to know.

That's what he said.

It's just the wine talking.

Well, I think maybe it's a little bit too soon to sit down together.

It was a lovely spread, but we've really got to go.

I'm going to busy myself in the bar.

Get this sorted, Mick, for both your sakes.

Right then, the pre-packed party bags come in at 99p per unit.

Pencil, bouncy ball, a packet of sweets, that kind of thing.

Yeah, whatever you think.

Then you get the branded party bags - kids' TV shows, movies.

But, I mean, really?

Should we be encouraging that kind of commercialism?

Ingrid?!

Are you talking about my party?

We might be, big ears.

Do me a favour, go upstairs and get Ingrid.

Tell her she needs to speak to Honey. She's gone.

What do you mean, she's gone?

What's it say?

She's gone back to Norway.

Poor girl. You're going to have to stop her, aren't you, Jack?

I mean, she told me about you two kissing, so...

She's probably panicking.

So, go on, stop her. I'll look after the kids. It's fine.

Go!

I'm sorry I missed you.

I had been meaning to get in touch.

What with the anniversary of your dad's...

Nine years since he passed, eh?

Doesn't seem possible.

Well, a lot's happened since.

Well, I can see that. I mean, look at you,

strapping young man, with your own place and a job.

I might not be an astronaut or tech millionaire, but...

You'll never stop working.

I'm proud of you.

And your dad will be too.

Phil's missus called.

She's worried about you.

Look, you can make this thing as big or as small as you like.

You knew, then?

Well, did you always know?

Jase was your dad, to all intents and purposes.

He was the one who was looking out for you

and that's what counts.

Look...

..I thought that we could...

..go and lay this on his grave.

Say a few words.

He was cremated.

Well, somewhere else, then?

Why didn't you tell me?

Hey, why didn't anybody tell me?

Everybody did what they had to under very difficult circumstances.

And are you just going to sit there and sulk like a six-year-old

or are you going to come with me and lay this thing to rest?

Maybe Lauren's right. Right?!

How can she be right?

In what possible universe can telling my dad and Jane

I have an imaginary brain tumour be a good idea?!

Well, you're in it now.

You may as well milk it.

I got you these.

I could just tell her that the doctor mixed up my notes.

Yeah, they got confused with someone else's.

You need to take two of these, every four hours.

What are they? Our smokescreen.

They'll make you feel a bit nauseous, off colour,

help people believe that you're really ill,

buy us some time until we've got a real cover story.

Or I could just come clean.

We could have this over with.

Yeah, if you want to lose Louie

and have your dad never speak to you again.

Look, we have got to be strong, Steven.

Make it look as real as possible.

See it through.

I'm at a loss, L.

I don't know what you want.

Whitney, she's like half our age...

Thanks for reminding me. ..she's the one being all mature about this.

She's with Woody.

She was totally up front with the geezer.

Yeah. Just like we always said we would be.

Is this how it's going to be now? Just round and round,

couple of days' peace and then like a tear-up, yeah?

You...

You lied to me, Mick.

I couldn't tell you any sooner, because you wasn't here.

I asked you.

I asked you if you'd told me everything.

You kissed her twice, Mick!

I know!

You kissed in the hospital after the bus crash.

You told me that you didn't.

She almost died. We was both in shock.

She was dosed up, she was frightened.

Lee was still here then, weren't he?

And we couldn't find him and she woke up,

and it was... It was confusion, you know.

She probably didn't even know it was me.

Yeah, and what's your excuse?!

See, the thing is, Mick, it begs the question -

what else ain't you telling me? Nothing.

Nothing. I didn't tell you because it was nothing!

You're my husband! Right, you kissed a girl half my age!

A girl you say you think you've fallen in love with,

but you don't think it's worth mentioning?!

I thought I had feelings for her and we kissed.

OK, once, twice.

Does it matter? It matters!

It's over. It's finished.

She's moved on! Have you?

I'm going to ask you again.

Did you sleep with her?

No. Are you sure about that?

I'm not having you just keep going over and over,

making this stuff up in your head.

So I'm going to say this once more, just once more -

I did not sleep with Whitney!

You wanted to, though, didn't you?

How will you know what to do with a newborn, if you don't go to classes?

You can show me. I've done my time, thank you very much.

And if you think I'm looking after it when it arrives,

you've got another thing coming!

I ain't going to no classes!

What's this?

Teenage Parenting Classes. You know, life skills, healthy living,

breast feeding.

You know, stuff posh people pay through the nose for.

Exactly what your sister needs.

Only, for some reason, she's refusing to go!

You can scream and shout all you like.

For the last time, I ain't going!

Give me strength.

Why don't I have a word with her?

I had feelings for Whitney, but I did not act on them.

Yes, you did, twice.

You can't stop yourself having feelings,

but what you can do is you can stop yourself from taking it further,

which I did. Out of respect, to you.

Yeah, all those nights I lay awake worrying about you...

and all this was going on.

Nothing was going on.

Me and Whitney did not sleep together.

Is it why Lee left?

We've had this conversation!

The trouble is, Mick, it's like unpeeling the never-ending onion.

I don't know where it's going to end.

OK, I'm going to tell you, for the hundredth time,

I made a big mistake.

Like, it was massive. It's over, she's moved on.

Her and Woody, it's not even like they're a new thing.

What? They got together like a couple of months ago.

What, when Lee was still here? No, it was in mid-May, I think.

Didn't take her long, then.

You know, drop her knickers for another man,

even if it weren't you.

I suppose this had nothing to do with Woody, though, did it?

Cos he can do no wrong. Here we go. You've never liked him.

And I wonder why? He was all over you again today, weren't he?

Bit of harmless flirting. Nothing harmless about the way he looks at you.

I've had to put up with it for years. It goes with the job

when you work behind a bar. You know that!

Woody's a good friend. Oh, yeah, course he is.

He's been very supportive to me over the last few months in Watford. I bet he was, yeah.

What's the matter, Mick? You jealous? Me? You're the one being jealous!

Well, at least I know where to draw the line.

I've never stuck my tongue down his throat! But Whitney?

I mean, what about the other times she tried to kiss you?

She's a tart and always has been! She's had a rough time.

There you go again!

Defending her when you should be worrying about me!

Mick, you were the one person...

Argh!

After what happened with Dean...

..you were the only man I could trust.

And now...

No, don't, don't. This is all on me.

I lied to you because I wanted to protect you.

All I've ever wanted to do since we were kids is protect you.

And all I ever do is fail.

Well, I never met your real dad, but your nan said he was a wrong 'un.

It was Jase that stepped up.

He was the one who was looking out for you

when you were heading off the rails at a million miles an hour.

Everyone knew.

Everyone except me.

Yeah, and we all had your best interests at heart.

I mean, when your mum died, Jase was someone for you to cling onto.

Yeah, and I did, for all them years.

I had his voice in my ear, his face in my mind

because I thought that he was my dad. He was your dad.

No! No!

It doesn't work like that.

That wasn't your decision to make.

If I'd have known the truth,

then maybe I'd have started to think of him as my real dad.

But I didn't get a chance, did I?

Cos every single person I've ever trusted,

or I've ever been close to...

..they've all lied.

Keep finding that there's something else I don't know.

Don't know how much more I can take.

I didn't tell you...

..because I didn't want to make a bad situation worse.

You either tell the whole truth...

..or if you want to protect someone...

..you say nothing at all.

That's me all over.

Getting it wrong.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

From the bottom of my heart, I'm sorry for kissing Whitney.

I swear to you, nothing else happened.

You need to accept my apology...

..so we can move on.

Then we can draw a line.

Can you do that?

I don't know.

I can't find my purse.

Yeah, well, come back to the house.

You've probably left it there, ain't you?

Come on, you can't leave. Not like this.

Everything's wrong, Jack.

Spoiled.

It doesn't have to be, does it?

Not if we don't want it to be.

Come on, at least let me buy you a drink.

You can do that, can't you?

So the Stage Area will be here. The judging tent will be over there.

That's about all we can do this early.

Well, unless it's nailed down. Yeah.

Nearer the time, of course, we will need all hands on deck,

but, for now, I think we're looking in pretty good shape.

Wait. What about my marrow?

It needs shade, you know.

Yeah, I've heard all about your marrow, Patrick.

Don't worry, I'll make sure it's all right. See you in a bit.

I ain't going.

They'll all be girls like you.

Yeah. With boyfriends.

You don't know that.

You'll make friends.

Be able to talk about all the stuff you're going through.

Then when the baby's born, it'll have playmates.

I'd just feel better if Callum comes with me.

He said he would.

Thought you didn't want Mum to find out?

I just...

I'll feel like a right sad muppet if I go on my own, won't I?

Won't be going on your own.

Not if I come with you.

Thanks, darling.

So, floral cocktails. What about...?

Not now, Teen. I'm going to take Lady Di for a walk.

I forgot to say, Bex is interested in having another lesson soon.

Sure. I'll sort out some dates with her.

Do you know, the only reason Carmel's buying us a drink

is she wants us to help with the bunting.

I'd be happy to get stuck into a bit of bunting.

So would I.

All right.

You can have a few mates round on Friday for your birthday.

But I mean a few.

And they've got to be out by midnight.

Lucky for you I put a bit by every month for such eventualities.

I'm just surprised you didn't ask me earlier.

Carmel?

Look, I just want to say sorry for earlier.

I was a bit off with you.

It's just that it would've been my son Bradley's 30th birthday today.

No-one remembered.

Can I get you a drink?

I've already got one, thanks.

Erm...

And I've also got a plus-one for a council do on Friday.

Do you fancy it?

Yeah, it'd be great.

Good.

We're a bit early. Bobby won't call until at least five.

Yeah, but we don't want to miss our slot.

I mean, you know how strict these places are.

Maybe... Maybe you should take the call.

No, he should hear your voice first.

Why?

Doesn't matter who takes it.

The important thing is, Bobby wants to talk to us.

Um, Steven and I were wondering...

You know, now that I'm back, maybe we could all eat together tonight?

Yeah, that'd be great.

I tell you what, I'll even do something special. Oh!

You really shouldn't have bothered, you know,

cos Robbie or Sonia, they do my shopping.

It's all right, my love. It's no bother.

It's only a few bits and pieces.

I don't know how you manage to get out, love.

How much do I owe you?

Is that cow's milk, is it, in there?

Cos Ted and I used to have a cat, did I tell you?

Yes, you did.

Called Lucky.

Anyway, he was quite keen on ham,

but he didn't like his milk.

They do say that milk is bad for a cat's stomach.

DOT CHUCKLES

Health advice for cats now, is it?

I take it all with a pinch of salt.

Where is Dave? I'd love to see him.

What? I've got these flashing lights in front of me eyes.

I do hope it ain't one of me migraines coming on. Migraines?

Oh, now, come on, love.

I've got something for you. Ted swears by it.

Does he suffer from migraines too?

Terrible, terrible migraines, and nightmares for years.

Well, I don't want to get addicted.

Cos I've never been addicted in my life.

And I don't want to start now.

There you go. Got you a large one.

Trying to get me drunk?

No, no, I...

Oh, I didn't mean...

Sorry.

Dutch courage. Well, Norwegian, maybe.

Forget I said anything.

Listen, I owe you an apology.

You know, what happened at the camping... Jack, please...

Look, the kiss, it was my fault.

No, it wasn't. Yeah, I just got caught up in the moment.

We were having a nice time.

Takes two.

I still love my wife.

But you're a gorgeous young lady, Ingrid.

I'm just not ready. I'm nowhere near close.

I know. And that's why I wanted to leave.

I'm a complication.

One you really don't need right now.

No, I need you. All right, the kids, they need you.

And they're the ones I've got to put first.

I agree, but...

Look...

What if I promise to keep this on a strictly professional basis from now on?

Would you come back?

I don't know, Jack.

Come on, Ingrid. You've got to.

You've tidied all my cupboards. I can't find a bleedin' thing!

Hello.

Turn your back for a minute, she's gone.

It's like shopping with the old woman.

Don't you listen to him. Supposed to be a man's best friend, ain't they?

Bleed you dry financially. Always nagging you to go out.

We are still talking about the dog, aren't we?

Someone to share your troubles with.

They're loyal.

Never lie to you, dogs.

Trouble is, we all need people, don't we?

Well, I'm beginning to wonder.

Can't trust anyone, can you? Not really.

All let you down in the end.

I think sometimes people do the wrong thing for the right reasons.

Your own family, though?

Ain't that easy to forgive.

Bad day?

You know, I've always believed that family - they're everything.

You betray them...

You lose them...

It's like, who are you?

No-one.

Come on.

HE WHISTLES

Bobby was on really good form. Mmm.

He said he wants to see us in a couple of weeks' time.

Louie asleep?

Yeah, out like a light.

I mean, it'd be good if we can get some sort of dialogue started, won't it?

And what with the wedding coming up...

Yeah. I mean, big family celebration.

Something for us all to enjoy.

Don't you like it, Steven?

I, uh...

I'm not very hungry.

Steven isn't very well.

Oh?

Some sort of bug? I heard there was one going round. Yeah.

No, I, um...

This is why we wanted to... to see you.

I hope I haven't got to sign you off at the weekend.

Steven should be the one to tell you.

I found out a couple of weeks ago.

I didn't want to worry you.

Well, what is it?

Go on, tell 'em.

Tell us what?

I've, um...

Steven's got a brain tumour.

JOYCE HUMS A TUNE

You stay away from the big pharmaceuticals.

That's what I always say.

Where's Dave? Is he up and about yet?

I dunno.

I've put his food down. He'll come down when he's hungry.

How long is this going to take?

Well, we boil it for a while and we leave it to steep for 24 hours.

Strain it and then you can drink at will.

That ain't any good, is it?

Me migraine'll be over and done with by then.

They go on for days.

Oh, don't, Joyce. I know.

Look, you don't mind, do you, if I go and lie down in a darkened room?

You'll let yourself out, will you? I will, my lovely. Don't you worry.

Why didn't you tell us? He was just trying to protect you.

Are you under a consultant? What kind of treatment are you on?

Steroids, the swelling...

and...mood swings...

Prescription painkillers.

Do they know how big it is?

Yeah, and can they operate?

I mean, do you need to go private or anything?

We can always push the wedding back. Yeah. It won't make a difference.

They can't operate, Dad.

It's too late.

I don't...

I don't understand.

That's why we were so disappointed when the wedding got postponed.

In case I don't make it.

What?

How... How long?

Couple of months. Maybe less.

Steven, we are here for you. Anything you need.

I'm here for you, son.

We'll have pizzas when my money comes through.

Thanks, Mum.

Can I have a party for my birthday next month?

That's all the milk we've got for tomorrow.

Yeah, you can have a party. But no booze!

I ain't having people throwing up all over the gaff.

Well, then what am I supposed to give them? Lemonade?

And you can pay for it yourself an' all.

It's my 16th. Maybe you should've put a bit by each week.

I ain't got a bit to put by.

Who do you think I am? The Queen?

You know what?

You should never've had kids if you can't look after us!

Oi! Milk!

If you want feeding, I've only got sandwiches.

Bernadette's going to the parenting classes.

I said I'd go with her.

So you know.

The weather was so lovely earlier.

But it's meant to be all right for Saturday.

See you later. I'll see you.

You all right? Hi.

I'm glad I've seen you. I can't make Friday.

But you promised.

Yeah, but Carmel's invited me to this council do.

It'll be a good opportunity. People will be drunk, you know.

Loose lips and all that. See you later.

What have I ever done, love?

Why do I lose my children?

Bobby...

Lucy...

Steven...

HE SOBS

LAUREN: I know that must've been hard for you.

But can you see how much he cares?

It's all I ever wanted.

He loves you. We all do.

And now we can all be here for you.

Do you remember that school disco when we were 14?

You and your mates did that routine.

Ice, Ice Baby.

All the girls went crazy at the end.

But it was me you were looking at.

My whole world stopped.

Like Maria and Tony in West Side Story.

I've run out of ideas, L.

I don't know what else to do.

If you can't find it in yourself to believe me...

to forgive me...

..maybe we've run out of road.

Maybe Mick and Linda Carter...

..maybe we're over.

I took something that didn't belong to me.

I'm not a real doctor.

I don't know what to do!