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Forget Jac, I love you.

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-It's just words.

-OK, marry me.

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Your perfect little partnership is a shame.

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Your cancer is at stage four. There is no cure.

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I would never do anything to hurt my daughter.

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I never said that.

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Then why are you trying to take her away from me?

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My grandfather was not a Nazi.

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I was a guard at Majdanek work camp where

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I performed my duties with honour.

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There we go.

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I know why you're awake.

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It's not time yet.

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But it will be in...19 seconds.

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Right, here we go.

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Now although the sun appears to rise above the horizon...

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in reality, it doesn't move at all.

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No, it's the earth's rotation that

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causes the phenomena of rising and setting.

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Oh, look, here it comes.

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Here it comes.

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There... It's the one thing you can rely on...like prime numbers.

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MOBILE PHONE RINGS

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Mr Hanssen.

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What do you mean they don't want to come?

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I've taken time off, Helen - I've booked the cottage.

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Well don't tell me, is Justin Bieber himself going to be there?

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< Sachie! Your egg's ready! I've made soldiers!

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I can't believe that Helen would allow the girls to let

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you down like that.

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Well, look on the bright side.

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It'll give me time to re-grout the downstairs lavatory.

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Oh, forget that I've had a better idea - a proper day out.

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Just the two of us.

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We'll start off with a spot of shopping,

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get you some decent shirts, these flowery things -

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one can only assume that's madam's influence.

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And then we'll take in a matinee. That'll cheer you up.

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Sounds...

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perfect.

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All right, let's have FBCs, WBCs, Us & Es, cross match four units.

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And can we organise an MRI? I need to know the exact position

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and size of that aneurysm. Thank you.

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Hey, sorry about that.

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Just give her a couple of teaspoons of banana

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mashed in milk for breakfast,

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and there's a timetable on the fridge for the rest of the day.

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I'll call you later.

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So what, you don't even do breakfast any more?

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A Swedish VIP collapsed at the university.

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He has an existing thoracic aortic aneurysm that's extremely

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likely to rupture.

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And only the brilliant Jac Naylor can possibly save his life.

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-That's right.

-So you just swan off at the crack of dawn

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and you leave my baby with a nanny she barely even knows?

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Fishing for more evidence for your ridiculous case?

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Oh, I've got quite enough now, thank you.

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What is it darling?

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Another glorious failure in the life of Sacha Levy.

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Ah. If it was me I'd be celebrating.

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Chrissie was never your wife - not really.

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It was just only a charade.

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The problem, Sacha - is you.

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If women were apples,

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you'd always pick the one that had the worm.

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MOBILE PHONE BEEPS What about this Essie person?

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I've heard her name quite a lot recently.

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Actually, Mum, I've got to go in.

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They're short staffed.

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Oh.

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Mr Levy! You're supposed to be in Wales.

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Yes, yes, change of plan. You all right?

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Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah.

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Have you seen Nurse Harrison?

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Er...no.

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Oh, I thought she was covering Keller all week?

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Yes, she is...but erm...

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..I'd be surprised if she comes in at all.

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Yeah, we had to field a ton of calls from journalists.

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One of them came up to the ward actually - very pushy.

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We can't operate until we know how far it's progressed,

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then we can compare.

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Can you chase Stockholm for Mr Norgaard's original scans? Tell them it's urgent.

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In the meantime, let's do a transthoracic echocardiogram, take a closer look.

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-On it.

-Jac.

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Your mother.

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I want his blood pressure closely

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monitored and half hourly obs, please.

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Won't be long now. I think the time has come for you to make your peace.

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And who are you to give me advice? Oh, I know -

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the man I trusted to take care of my baby,

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-who then promptly "lost" her!

-We were talking about Paula.

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No. You were.

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I was talking about you handing Jonny a loaded gun.

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This time will never come again.

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Jac, we've all seen relatives who wish they'd done things

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differently at the end. The regret can be hard to live with.

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Excuse me. I have a court case to salvage.

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Rory Cullen, journalist. Any idea where I could find Estelle Harrison?

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If you continue to harass staff at this hospital

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I will get you banned from the premises.

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I have every right to be here.

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Well, let's see what my boss has to say about that, shall we?

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We're just reporting the facts. I think you should read them.

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I wouldn't demean myself.

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I'm surprised, Mr Levy,

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I thought you'd be thanking us for exposing the truth.

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How exactly? By hounding innocent relatives

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born 30 years after the war?

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Ms Harrison may be innocent, but people are finding it hard to believe she knew nothing about Dalke's past.

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How about you Mr Levy?

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None of this has got anything to do with me! All right?

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Sacha? Maybe that's a bad idea.

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-Thank you Dr...?

-Get out before I call security.

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Later then, Mr Levy.

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What was all that about?

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Not here.

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It's a miracle she made it through the night.

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She gets to the edge, you think,

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"That's it, she can't come back," but she does.

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-She's waiting for Jac.

-Could be a long one.

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Well, while Paula's still fighting I won't give up hope.

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I'll go.

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We have to treat whoever comes through the door.

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Old Ma Levy can't have been too chuffed.

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She doesn't know.

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Just keep a low profile. He'll give up eventually.

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But if I don't talk to them they're just going to make it up.

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"Jewish Doctor In Shameful Bid To Save SS Sadist."

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Well, if you get struck off you can at least get a job on a tabloid.

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PAGER BEEPS

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I've got to go.

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-Is it Paula?

-VIP patient.

-How is she? Your Mother?

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Still dying. I wish she'd just get on with it.

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You know, you can pretend to everyone else you're this

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heartless automaton.

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But I know better.

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Yes, we finally got his scans through from Stockholm.

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Jac.

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The aneurysm has grown more than 2cm.

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Yes, Mr Hanssen, I will schedule theatre for this afternoon.

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Jacqui.

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I agree.

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It was clear from the transthoracic echo that the atherosclerosis

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will make fitting the new aortic graft extremely difficult.

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But I have every confidence we can do this. Thank you.

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When Mr Norgaard's blood results come back, please, tell me,

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and let's pencil theatre for around one. Yes?

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It's your mother - she's really starting to struggle now.

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We've had to aspirate a pleural effusion in her chest.

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-Anything else?

-I just thought you'd want to know.

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DOORBELL RINGS

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KNOCKING ON DOOR

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Essie! Are you there?

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It's me - Sacha.

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I'm so sorry to disturb you at home. I tried ringing.

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Turned my mobile off. The press won't leave me alone.

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Yeah, yeah. They've been hassling us at work too.

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That's why I'm here.

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Listen, why don't I make you a cup of tea?

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When the anaesthetist's done can you let me know?

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-We need to get him prepped for theatre.

-Right.

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Not kicked the bucket yet, Jacqui.

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It's all right, my daughter will take care of me from here.

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Couldn't leave without saying goodbye.

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I'd like you to take me outside.

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You won't cope without morphine.

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I need to breathe fresh air, feel the sun on my skin.

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SHE COUGHS

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Please, Jacqui.

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It's Jac.

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You wouldn't refuse a patient's dying wish.

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Some journalist phoned me last night, about the DNA.

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Before that, I couldn't even search his name -

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it felt like such a betrayal...

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I kept praying that this was all some horrible mistake,

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that the pain meds had made him deluded or confused.

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But when I knew for sure, I couldn't stop myself.

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I didn't sleep, I just read and I read.

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How many people did he kill, Sacha?

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Listen to me, you've got to stop doing this, OK?

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You shouldn't feel like you need to apologise to anybody.

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DOORBELL RINGS

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OK, wait there. Wait there, wait there.

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-Who is it?

-It's Rory Cullen,

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he's probably the journalist you spoke to last night.

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-He's been at the hospital.

-Go! Now! Before he sees you.

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DOORBELL RINGS

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I don't want to leave you.

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This is my mess, not yours.

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< Hello? Ms Harrison, I'd just like a little chat.

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Come on.

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KNOCKING ON WINDOW

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-I tried my best, you know.

-Is that supposed to be funny?

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-You didn't need me.

-All children need their mothers.

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But I knew I was failing - that I'd keep on failing...

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..so I had to let you go.

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"Let me go?" I was your daughter.

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Who you, and let's get this absolutely straight,

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walked away from the age of 12 without a backward glance.

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We've been here so many times.

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But we've never actually got to the end.

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The bit where you tell me about my sister.

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You didn't let her go.

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Jasmine was...easy.

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From the start it was just...

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..different.

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So where is she now?

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She doesn't know.

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Of course.

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It's not your fault, Jac,

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it's not mine,

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it's just...who you are.

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You have no idea who I am.

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OK.

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So when Emma was born, it was easy, was it?

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To bond?

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SHE COUGHS

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I saw you earlier... on the ward, in your element.

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You looked so alive.

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Made me wonder...

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..what you'd give up...

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..if you had to choose...

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..surgery or Emma.

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I would keep my daughter. I'm not you.

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I saw them driving away together from Ms Harrison's house.

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But Sacha said he was going to work.

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I didn't want to upset you - I thought you'd know.

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I'm so sorry, Mrs Levy, this must be very difficult.

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Thank you, erm...

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James.

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I know Mr Levy from the hospital.

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Oh, you must be one of his students.

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That's right. We're all very fond of him.

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It's good of you to call.

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I just think that somebody should try and find him,

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make sure he knows what he's taking on.

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The press are all over it.

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I might be able to help you.

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That would be great.

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Where are we?

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We're in Wales. The Gower Peninsula to be precise.

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-What?

-Yeah, you've been asleep for quite a while.

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Ah, it's beautiful.

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And this is us.

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I booked it for a mini-break for me and the girls.

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Yeah, I've been bringing them here for years.

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-Helen always hated it here.

-How could anyone hate it here?

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That little excursion was a bad idea.

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I thought that's what you wanted -

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a tender moment of mother-daughter bonding.

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OK, her airway's clear, but she's losing consciousness.

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She's in respiratory failure.

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I'm due in theatre.

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-Stay.

-Sorry. I have a patient I can save.

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Jac, under the circumstances you should let me treat Mr Norgaard.

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-Please.

-MACHINE BEEPS

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Her sats are dropping.

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For God's sake, Jac, just give her five minutes?

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You know nothing about it.

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No, but I know a little something about loss.

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-Jonny.

-How impossibly painful it is when you don't get to say goodbye.

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Jonny.

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-They're all waiting for you.

-Don't go.

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Keep your eyes closed.

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There's a step.

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OK, that's it. OK. Stop.

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OK, give me your hands. Walk forward.

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That's it stand there.

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Open your eyes.

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Wow.

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What an amazing view.

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-It's incredible, isn't it? It's just incredible.

-Oh, yeah.

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You hungry? There's a village shop down the road.

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We could walk on the beach.

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Oh, God, it's beautiful down there.

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I'll tell you what, I'll cook.

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What? I'll have you know my culinary skills are very good.

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I got an O Level in Domestic Science you know.

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Yeah, what grade?

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Um, C. My apple fritters let me down.

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But you know, I've improved a lot since, so...

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-OK, yeah, why not?

-Good.

-I like living dangerously.

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You're going to be safe here.

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If you want me to call Elliot...

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It's just, with one thing and another,

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I know you've got a lot on your plate.

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Suction.

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You might be able to carry on, but Jonny's a right mess.

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2/0 Prolene, please.

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I know he won't say it, but this court case,

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I know he started the ball rolling,

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but I don't think it's what he wants, not really.

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He just wasn't in his right mind after Bonnie.

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If he loses tomorrow, Emma will lose her dad.

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and losing either of you will affect Emma's whole life.

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You should know that more than anyone.

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If you're going to insist on interrupting,

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I'm going to have to ask you to leave my theatre.

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Jonny?

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-Sorry.

-No, no, no, no need.

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Sorry. It just, erm...

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It just feels so...

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bloody unfair.

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Jac having the luxury of time to say goodbye,

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-and she doesn't even want it.

-It won't always be this hard.

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I've already lost so much, I can't lose Emma.

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Even if the case goes against you, you'll never give up on her.

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No.

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The pain of grief can sometimes take us down roads we regret.

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But the Jonny Maconie I know is strong, generous of heart,

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a man of immense integrity, and he'll find a way through this.

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Ah it's marvellous, isn't it? All this space!

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Makes you realise, we live most of our lives like mice in a cage.

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You just don't see skies like this in the city.

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You forget the scale of it.

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One of my earliest memories is my mother lining us

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up on the beach, like this...

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Ordering us to, "Come on, breathe in the ozone!"

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It had some supposed restorative benefits,

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which is actually rubbish invented by the Victorians.

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But just being here,

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it is, it's like taking some extraordinary drug.

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I'm like that with the sea.

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Yeah, well if it's the Med or the Caribbean,

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-you know, I might just dip my toe in.

-You big wuss!

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Oh, guilty as charged.

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When I was a kid,

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no matter what time of year it was or where we were, we were in.

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My mum was a bit of an old hippy - she believed that the sea had

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the power to cleanse your soul.

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Grandpa always said that...

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It's all right to talk about him, you know. It really is.

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Right, I'll race you.

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-What?

-Last one in pays for all the shopping -

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and I drink a lot of wine.

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Erm, er...

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All right!

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Right! But if I die of hypothermia

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then I'll hold you personally responsible.

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You really are a wuss!

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-Woo, come on.

-We'll see about that.

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The valve is in.

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We've got a tear.

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-Means pressure's dropping.

-Keep up suction.

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OK. Stop the pump. I need a Foley catheter.

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Back on bypass.

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Bleeding's stopped.

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Good. 2/0 Prolene pledgetted suture.

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Jac.

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She's coughing up blood. This is it.

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-Can someone turn off that microphone, please?

-Jac.

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I can't believe you went in.

0:25:430:25:45

Well, it was her bad influence.

0:25:450:25:46

Well hats off to you, love. I've known Sacha now for oh...

0:25:460:25:50

over ten years now, and I have never, ever known him go anywhere near it.

0:25:500:25:53

Well, we can safely say it's a one-off.

0:25:530:25:55

-Right, what's the damage?

-Oh hang on, I need a toothbrush.

0:25:580:26:01

Over there, by the fridge.

0:26:010:26:03

Oh, yes, make that two.

0:26:030:26:05

Right, well including the toothbrushes, that'll be £24.78.

0:26:050:26:11

Hang on. Nora baked some Bara Brith this morning,

0:26:110:26:14

And if you really want to impress your new...um...

0:26:140:26:16

Friend. And, yeah, that'd be great. Thanks, Dai.

0:26:160:26:20

-On the house.

-Great.

0:26:200:26:22

Erm, keep the change. Have a pint on me.

0:26:270:26:31

Ta very much.

0:26:310:26:32

-Come on. I'm starving.

-Here you go.

0:26:320:26:36

Great, thanks a lot. Cheers.

0:26:360:26:39

-Ta-ta.

-Bye.

0:26:390:26:40

PHONE RINGS

0:26:430:26:45

There's a chiminea outside, we could barbecue the chicken?

0:26:520:26:55

That's a good idea.

0:26:550:26:57

Oh, I know a wicked marinade.

0:26:570:27:01

-Do you like hot food?

-Love it.

0:27:010:27:03

That's excellent. My ex was always allergic to spice.

0:27:040:27:08

Which one? At this rate and you're going to beat Griffin's record.

0:27:080:27:12

Oh, I could not begin to compete. Believe me.

0:27:120:27:16

-Right, what can I do?

-Er, right.

0:27:160:27:18

You can sit on the terrace and relax if you want.

0:27:180:27:22

There's some binoculars there, I think.

0:27:220:27:24

On a good day you can see seals, even dolphins.

0:27:240:27:28

I want to help.

0:27:280:27:29

Well, that's very kind of you but it is a secret Levy recipe.

0:27:290:27:33

So if did you know it, I'd have to kill you.

0:27:330:27:36

Damn...there's no Worcestershire sauce.

0:27:420:27:45

Right, I'm going to pop back to Dai's.

0:27:450:27:48

-Is it really that important?

-Wait till you taste it, I mean...

0:27:500:27:54

-Go. Go.

-Yes, yes. Back in a bit. OK.

0:27:540:27:57

I'm not going to lie, that was some masterclass.

0:27:570:28:00

You and I make a pretty good team.

0:28:000:28:02

Usual obs. Inform me immediately if anything changes.

0:28:030:28:06

Ms Harrison?

0:28:360:28:37

Sorry, I didn't mean to startle you.

0:28:370:28:42

Rory Cullen.

0:28:420:28:44

If I wanted to talk to you, I'd have returned your calls.

0:28:440:28:47

I know how hard this must be, but it isn't going to go away.

0:28:510:28:54

I can help you.

0:28:570:28:58

You came.

0:29:110:29:13

I wanted you to see this.

0:29:150:29:17

Pages and pages of evidence declaring my fitness to be a mother.

0:29:180:29:22

Jac.

0:29:220:29:24

"In our view, there is no doubt that Ms Naylor is a caring parent

0:29:240:29:26

"who is focused purely on Emma's needs."

0:29:260:29:29

"Ms Naylor has Emma's best interests at heart

0:29:290:29:32

"and is fully capable of meeting her needs".

0:29:320:29:34

No-one could ever say those things about you.

0:29:340:29:39

It's just paper.

0:29:400:29:42

Even you can't argue with the facts.

0:29:430:29:45

I'm trying to help you.

0:29:480:29:51

It's a bit late now.

0:29:510:29:52

When you left for India...

0:29:550:29:57

..they weren't sure what to do with me.

0:29:590:30:01

They placed me with a foster family - one of many.

0:30:040:30:07

They had a daughter, same age.

0:30:080:30:11

Emma.

0:30:120:30:13

Her family was nice to me.

0:30:170:30:18

I wasn't used to it.

0:30:210:30:22

I realised that that was what it was supposed to be like.

0:30:250:30:28

And I was so jealous...

0:30:320:30:34

..of perfect little Emma...

0:30:370:30:39

..with her blond plaits tied up with satin yellow ribbons.

0:30:420:30:47

Oh, I wanted to be her.

0:30:490:30:52

To have what she had.

0:30:540:30:55

And I wanted her to know what it felt like to be me...

0:30:580:31:01

..to have nothing.

0:31:030:31:04

But my daughter will have everything she had.

0:31:070:31:12

You don't know how, Jacqui - how to love...

0:31:160:31:22

..what it means, to give or receive.

0:31:250:31:29

I'm a good mother.

0:31:320:31:34

Yeah?

0:31:340:31:35

Then how come, when I asked you...

0:31:380:31:41

..if you'd choose surgery or Emma...

0:31:430:31:46

..you hesitated?

0:31:480:31:50

If I hadn't made a choice,

0:31:570:32:01

you wouldn't be where you are now.

0:32:010:32:03

Cos I'd have messed it all up.

0:32:060:32:08

Just like you will.

0:32:120:32:14

This was my mother's.

0:32:290:32:30

Take it.

0:32:350:32:36

For Emma.

0:32:440:32:45

From her grandma.

0:32:460:32:48

MACHINE BEEPS

0:32:560:32:58

SHE GASPS

0:32:580:33:00

SHE EXHALES

0:33:090:33:10

HIGH-PITCHED BEEPING

0:33:120:33:13

LONG BEEP

0:33:130:33:16

Jac, wait.

0:33:240:33:25

I was told there were no photos.

0:33:290:33:31

If you don't talk to me, there'll be more journalists.

0:33:310:33:35

I don't know anything.

0:33:350:33:37

I found a survivor from Majdanek.

0:33:370:33:39

-Kasia Belinski. We can arrange a meeting.

-What for?

0:33:390:33:43

-We'd fly you to Poland. You'd have the opportunity to apologise.

-No!

0:33:430:33:46

This might be your only chance to put it all to rest.

0:33:460:33:49

But it's got nothing to do with me.

0:33:490:33:51

This is Kasia's mother, Berta.

0:33:550:33:57

In 1943, 18,000 Jews were shot in one day,

0:34:000:34:05

their bodies piled in ditches.

0:34:070:34:09

Berta was one of them. But she didn't die.

0:34:120:34:15

Managed to crawl her way out.

0:34:150:34:16

Why are you telling me this?

0:34:160:34:18

Your grandfather kicked her in the head until she stopped moving.

0:34:180:34:23

You're the only one left to atone.

0:34:230:34:25

-There must have been clues.

-No!

0:34:320:34:34

Look, maybe you didn't understand them at the time. But now...

0:34:340:34:37

Ms Harrison!

0:34:380:34:40

Ms Harrison, wait! Wait. Just...

0:34:410:34:44

Ms Harrison, open the door.

0:34:470:34:50

-BANGING AT DOOR

-Ms Harrison!

0:34:500:34:53

BANGING CONTINUES

0:34:530:34:55

Open the door.

0:34:570:34:58

Ms Harrison, open this door.

0:34:590:35:02

Jac?

0:35:180:35:19

One more push and I'll have her.

0:35:300:35:32

Yeah. Yep.

0:35:320:35:34

I'll let you know.

0:35:340:35:36

-How the hell did you find us?

-Just calm down.

0:35:390:35:42

Answer my question!

0:35:420:35:43

Your mother.

0:35:430:35:45

-I needed to speak to Ms Harrison. It was for her benefit.

-Oh, yeah, yeah.

0:35:450:35:49

Course it was.

0:35:490:35:50

-Where is she?

-Locked herself in the bedroom. I tried to talk her down...

0:35:510:35:55

-What did you say to her?!

-I was just trying to help.

0:35:550:35:57

What, by exploiting her misery to sell your newspapers, you...

0:35:570:36:01

-Look, I'll come in with you. Apologise.

-No. No, no.

0:36:010:36:04

You get out of here. Now.

0:36:040:36:06

OK, OK. I'm going.

0:36:060:36:10

Essie! Essie, it's me!

0:36:130:36:15

It's all over now. He's gone.

0:36:150:36:17

Essie? Just talk to me.

0:36:200:36:23

Open the door.

0:36:230:36:24

Oh, my God.

0:36:350:36:36

Essie, Essie. Essie, just talk to me.

0:36:360:36:39

Talk to me, can you hear me? Can you hear me?

0:36:390:36:42

Can you tell me what happened? SHE MURMURS

0:36:420:36:44

-Essie, have you taken anything?

-I need sugar.

0:36:440:36:48

There you go, that's it. That's it. That's it.

0:36:550:36:59

OK. I'm here now. I'm here now. You're going to be OK.

0:36:590:37:03

All right, just sip this for me. That's it, just sip. That's it.

0:37:030:37:08

Very slowly. There you go.

0:37:080:37:11

I really don't know what to say.

0:37:240:37:26

Sorry doesn't sound right somehow.

0:37:280:37:30

No.

0:37:300:37:32

I'll... I'll just leave this stuff here then.

0:37:340:37:38

Can I ask you something?

0:37:390:37:42

When we first met, why did you want to be with me?

0:37:430:37:48

Jonny, please.

0:37:480:37:49

I just need to know why you liked me.

0:37:510:37:54

I didn't like you, Jac.

0:37:540:37:57

I loved you.

0:38:000:38:01

You loved me.

0:38:030:38:05

But then I... You know, I realised that it was all...

0:38:080:38:11

It's just a game to you. A game you didn't really understand.

0:38:130:38:17

Because... If you actually knew what love is...

0:38:190:38:22

Well, then we wouldn't be where we are now, would we?

0:38:260:38:28

If you had to choose...

0:38:280:38:30

..between your life as a nurse, and being a father,

0:38:330:38:35

-what would you do?

-I think you know the answer to that.

0:38:350:38:38

DOOR SLAMS

0:38:410:38:42

Yeah.

0:38:420:38:44

How you feeling?

0:38:500:38:52

Tired.

0:38:520:38:53

Stupid.

0:38:550:38:57

I took my insulin this morning, but then didn't eat all day.

0:38:570:39:00

-A nurse really should be able to manage her own diabetes.

-HE CHUCKLES

0:39:020:39:06

Ah, you know. Had a lot on your mind.

0:39:060:39:09

You've seen this then.

0:39:190:39:21

The journalist said that there was this woman

0:39:250:39:27

that Grandpa was responsible for...

0:39:270:39:29

He started pushing me towards meeting her family. To apologise.

0:39:330:39:38

-Essie...

-But the thing is...

0:39:390:39:41

..I don't recognise the man he was talking about.

0:39:430:39:46

The man I knew was a hero.

0:39:480:39:50

He was a fireman who risked his life every day for other people. He...

0:39:530:39:58

He was a wonderful father, husband, grandfather.

0:39:580:40:03

And...

0:40:060:40:07

I still love that man.

0:40:090:40:10

You saw the good side of him.

0:40:150:40:17

Others weren't so lucky.

0:40:190:40:20

You were there at the end. Who did you see?

0:40:240:40:29

People change, over time.

0:40:310:40:33

Maybe he was tortured by it?

0:40:340:40:37

He was so young.

0:40:370:40:38

MOBILE PHONE RINGS

0:40:390:40:41

I'd better take this. It could be the girls.

0:40:430:40:46

I never thought I'd be ashamed of my own son.

0:40:520:40:55

Mother, please. Just listen.

0:40:550:40:57

Don't you care what people think? The phone's been going all day long.

0:40:570:41:02

Yes, yes, of course I care what people think

0:41:020:41:04

but everyone's just got to calm down.

0:41:040:41:07

'How can calm down when you've practically eloped

0:41:070:41:10

'with that man's granddaughter?

0:41:100:41:13

'Apple, worm. That's all I can say. You're coming home. Now!'

0:41:130:41:18

No. No, Mum. I'm going to stay here, right?

0:41:180:41:21

Essie needs my help.

0:41:210:41:22

She's right.

0:41:290:41:31

You shouldn't be here.

0:41:320:41:33

I don't want to cause any more trouble.

0:41:370:41:39

We both probably could use a glass of wine.

0:41:410:41:45

Sacha, stop being so nice.

0:41:450:41:47

You should hate me.

0:41:480:41:50

Josef Dalke was my patient.

0:41:530:41:54

And I had to treat him.

0:41:560:41:59

Yeah.

0:41:590:42:00

But you don't have to be my friend.

0:42:020:42:04

No.

0:42:070:42:08

But I want to be.

0:42:120:42:13

Thank you.

0:42:240:42:26

You asked me which man I saw.

0:42:580:43:01

When he was dying.

0:43:010:43:02

I've played it over in my mind 100 times.

0:43:060:43:09

That maybe I could've saved him.

0:43:100:43:13

If I'd tried that little bit harder.

0:43:130:43:15

Because the man that I heard was not the grandfather that you loved.

0:43:210:43:26

He was the murderer.

0:43:310:43:33

Who had absolutely no regrets whatsoever.

0:43:350:43:37

He should've been brought to justice.

0:43:440:43:46

And I let him slip away.

0:43:490:43:51

"TWINKLE, TWINKLE LITTLE STAR" PLAYS THROUGH TOY

0:44:000:44:04

I feel very guilty drinking alone. Are you sure you won't...?

0:44:330:44:36

I'll make up for it again.

0:44:360:44:37

I'm a terrible drunk though.

0:44:400:44:42

Dancing on bars is my speciality.

0:44:420:44:45

Oooh, I look forward to that.

0:44:450:44:47

If you're so nice. And you are...

0:44:520:44:56

Thank you very much.

0:44:560:44:57

..why the Joan Collins' divorce rate?

0:44:590:45:01

Ah. Yes. Good.

0:45:030:45:06

Um...

0:45:060:45:08

Women seem to tire of my niceness.

0:45:090:45:12

I have tried to do bad boy on occasions.

0:45:150:45:18

I never quite seem to pull it off, but...

0:45:180:45:20

I was just better at being... generally a bit rubbish, really.

0:45:230:45:27

What do you mean?

0:45:280:45:30

Well, I'm not cool enough for my kids.

0:45:320:45:34

Neither my students nor my ex-wives have any respect for me.

0:45:350:45:39

And I'm back home living with my elderly mother.

0:45:390:45:44

So, all in all, not exactly leading man material.

0:45:440:45:47

Well, you were today. You rode in on your white charger

0:45:490:45:54

and fought off the enemy.

0:45:540:45:56

-Yes, I did, didn't I?

-Yeah.

0:45:570:45:59

Don't be fooled.

0:46:030:46:05

It's very out of character.

0:46:060:46:08

Yeah, well.

0:46:080:46:09

I'm not usually a damsel in distress.

0:46:090:46:11

It's time I stopped running.

0:46:160:46:18

Maybe I should talk to the papers.

0:46:190:46:21

Yeah, but only on your terms.

0:46:240:46:26

-Mmm.

-And not tonight.

-No.

0:46:260:46:29

No. Tonight we are going to lie here,

0:46:320:46:38

till the fire dies.

0:46:380:46:41

And we're going to count the constellations.

0:46:410:46:44

OK.

0:46:440:46:45

We'll face the world tomorrow.

0:46:450:46:47

I can see the Bear. The Plough?

0:46:530:46:57

That long winding thing over there, is that the Big Dipper?

0:47:000:47:04

Look, Emma. Here it comes.

0:48:110:48:14

What's the one thing you can rely on?

0:48:150:48:19

EMMA CRIES OUT

0:48:290:48:32

I know. Yeah, I know. Shh.

0:48:320:48:35

Morning.

0:49:030:49:05

Cup of tea?

0:49:080:49:10

Thank you.

0:49:100:49:11

HE SIGHS

0:49:190:49:20

Bit too much of the old red wine last night.

0:49:220:49:25

Sorry for nodding off.

0:49:260:49:28

Your loss.

0:49:280:49:30

I saw a shooting star.

0:49:300:49:31

Hope you made a wish.

0:49:330:49:36

I did.

0:49:360:49:37

MOBILE PHONE BEEPS

0:49:400:49:42

It's work. They want me to cover.

0:49:470:49:50

-Do you know what? It's always me, and I'm going to say no.

-Hmm.

0:49:520:49:58

So. We can stay here forever.

0:49:590:50:03

Swim, look at the stars.

0:50:030:50:06

No. No.

0:50:070:50:09

It's time to stop running.

0:50:110:50:13

I think that's what you said.

0:50:130:50:15

I don't think I was that drunk.

0:50:150:50:17

It doesn't seem like such a good idea in the cold light of day.

0:50:170:50:21

Do you trust me?

0:50:230:50:24

OK.

0:50:270:50:28

Well, I want you to finish your toast and let's get going.

0:50:280:50:33

I've been thinking, and there's someone I'd like you to meet.

0:50:340:50:39

Hello, baby. It's Daddy.

0:50:520:50:53

I've missed you!

0:50:550:50:57

I know. I'm not supposed to be anywhere near my own daughter.

0:50:580:51:02

-What's she doing here anyway?

-I had to bring her.

0:51:040:51:07

I will not have my daughter dragged into court.

0:51:070:51:10

So if you're planning to use her as the poster baby

0:51:100:51:12

for your exemplary maternal skills...

0:51:120:51:15

I had to bring her.

0:51:150:51:17

To give her to you.

0:51:170:51:19

I've changed my mind.

0:51:210:51:23

About what?

0:51:230:51:24

You were right.

0:51:240:51:26

I'm not fit to be her mother.

0:51:260:51:28

Where are we exactly?

0:51:330:51:35

We are at Levy Mansions.

0:51:350:51:38

Your mother's place?

0:51:390:51:41

I want you to meet her.

0:51:410:51:43

Sacha, no. She hates me.

0:51:450:51:47

Come on, you said you want to start dealing with this.

0:51:470:51:49

It's the first step.

0:51:490:51:51

Er, no, I'm sorry. I...I can't.

0:51:510:51:53

I thought you trusted me.

0:51:560:51:58

Well, do you?

0:52:000:52:01

I've made up my mind.

0:52:060:52:08

You are in mourning right now.

0:52:080:52:10

You may not know it, but you are.

0:52:100:52:12

I thought this is what you wanted?

0:52:120:52:14

Not like this. We can co-parent, like we planned to.

0:52:140:52:16

-We can still do that, Jac.

-Jonny...

0:52:160:52:18

We just need to keep talking, OK? I'll agree to mediation.

0:52:180:52:22

It's too late.

0:52:220:52:25

I have to go.

0:52:250:52:27

Go. Where?

0:52:270:52:30

Stockholm.

0:52:300:52:32

Sweden. Why?

0:52:320:52:34

It's only for a bit. I'm leaving now.

0:52:350:52:39

No. No way, Jac. You cannot do this.

0:52:390:52:43

You can't do this to Emma, she needs you.

0:52:430:52:45

No. Emma needs you.

0:52:450:52:48

There you are.

0:52:480:52:49

I was starting to get worried.

0:52:490:52:52

I've changed my mind.

0:52:520:52:54

But we're due in court, Ms Naylor.

0:52:540:52:56

Emma's father is going to take care of her from now on.

0:52:580:53:01

It's not that simple.

0:53:010:53:02

The judge will need a valid reason for your absence.

0:53:020:53:05

If it's due to the recent loss of your mother

0:53:050:53:07

I can request an adjournment.

0:53:070:53:08

I want the application withdrawn permanently.

0:53:080:53:11

Emma will be living with her father.

0:53:110:53:13

What did you say to her?

0:53:160:53:18

Mr Maconie!

0:53:190:53:20

Jac?

0:53:200:53:23

Jac, wait! Jac!

0:53:230:53:25

Sacha's been through a lot recently.

0:53:380:53:42

And getting involved in this situation

0:53:420:53:45

is the last thing he needs.

0:53:450:53:47

I understand how difficult this must be.

0:53:490:53:51

I just want to tell you...

0:53:530:53:55

my grandpa lied to me.

0:53:550:53:58

To my mother.

0:53:580:54:00

I knew nothing about his past.

0:54:010:54:04

I know that's difficult to understand but...

0:54:060:54:09

It's the truth.

0:54:090:54:12

I think we need some biscuits with this tea.

0:54:120:54:15

I told you this was a mistake. I want to go.

0:54:170:54:20

Essie, please. Stay.

0:54:200:54:23

I have never been so ashamed of you in all my life.

0:54:320:54:35

I brought Essie here because I foolishly believed

0:54:380:54:41

that if you actually just talked to her, then you would understand.

0:54:410:54:46

Why can't you just open your heart, Mum?

0:54:460:54:49

I mean, it took a huge amount of courage

0:54:500:54:53

for her even to walk through the door.

0:54:530:54:56

It's extremely hard for me too, Sacha.

0:54:560:54:59

What did Dad always say? Hmm?

0:54:590:55:02

"Better that my enemy should see good in me

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"than I should see evil in him."

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She is overwhelmed by guilt and shame.

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And you've just made it ten times worse.

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I don't know what you want from me.

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What I want from you, all right, is to make her welcome in this house,

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as my friend.

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Now, if you are not prepared to do that, then we're leaving.

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Now.

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That's my Great Uncle Ira and his wife Maria.

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They couldn't have been more than 19.

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He died in Auschwitz.

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I'm so sorry.

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I should never have come.

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Stay.

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Please.

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Jac!

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Wait.

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Please!

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Look, we need to at least talk about this.

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Look, I want Emma. Of course I do. But you can't go.

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Please.

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Emma needs me to go.

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No. no! I'm not going to let you do this.

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You've always known exactly what you want. Roses round the door.

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And the family. And the dog. The whole shebang.

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Remember?

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And I thought I could do that.

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But you knew I couldn't.

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That was then.

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You said it again yesterday.

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look, I... I understand medicine.

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I just don't know how to do any of the other stuff.

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You do.

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I thought I was going to lose her today.

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And I will be forever in your debt for not allowing that to happen.

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But I really don't want this!

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Remember, if she gets grizzly. it's the yellow blanket.

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Silky side up. I know.

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She loves to watch the sunrise.

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And prime numbers.

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You'll be a great dad, Jonny.

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Don't worry, Emma. We'll get Mummy back. I promise.

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-TANNOY:

-Last call for BA Flight 147 to Stockholm.

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Would all remaining passengers please make their way to gate 16.

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