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Hiding Places

In light of Nina's news, Matteo can no longer run from their past. Jac faces mounting personal and professional pressures. A visitor puts Donna in a tough position.


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I am thinking about the future. Our future.

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Accept it. I have fallen out of love with you.

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I couldn't help noticing - the sickness.

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The trips to Obs and Gynae.

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That is really none of your business.

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I haven't congratulated you yet

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because I wasn't sure how many people knew about the baby.

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It's like you've given up.

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Why are you hiding in here?

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I don't know.

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I'm not picking a fight.

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But I deserve some answers.

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Don't I?

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Why won't you tell them where you were?

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Why won't you tell me?

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CAR HORN

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Oh! I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.

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-Sorry. Are you all right?

-I'm sorry, it's completely my fault.

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-You need to look where you're going!

-Matteo.

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No, he's right. Mea culpa, as they say in...

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-CLEARS HIS THROAT

-Latin.

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Was that really necessary?

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He wasn't looking, you nearly got run over.

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Next time, just...

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I can take care of myself.

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And what about the baby?

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Nina, wait.

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OK. Right, let's go.

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Where's Sarah?

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That's no way to treat your favourite pig, now, is it?

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Now we have to hurry, OK? Cos Mummy's going to be late.

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Come here, that's it.

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Right, Mummy needs you to be a very, very good girl for her today, OK?

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Yeah? OK. Here we go.

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Sarah!

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-It's all right. I'll get that for you.

-No, leave it.

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I'm sorry. I overreacted.

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No harm done.

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I've been not sleeping well.

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Hence the slight but appreciable dip in your personal grooming standards.

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I found out Nina's been keeping something from me.

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Oh, sorry.

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What kind of something?

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-Something she really should have told me about herself.

-PHONE RINGS

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Sorry, I should probably get this.

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Hey...?

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How long has he been having them?

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Oh, OK.

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Do you want me to pop down?

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Right, well, I'll be there shortly.

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Someone needs a consult?

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Just Keller.

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Nina?

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-As it happens...

-I'll handle it.

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Are you sure that's wi...

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Thank you, Ollie. You've been a big help.

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Any time.

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So you put Emma in the creche, then?

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My nanny quit at five past seven this morning by text.

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Can you believe that?

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With Jonny away that must be nightmare.

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If you happen to see her, bring her to me, dead or alive.

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Any preference? You know, just in terms of dead or alive.

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Head on a stick.

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Got ya.

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Look, they're clearing out some old offices upstairs for new

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arrivals, I'm guessing something to do with the merger,

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-not that anyone has actually told me anything...

-And?

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Well, the...

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..the cleaners found a load of these in a drawer.

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I threw the others out but...

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..that would have just felt a bit weird.

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-You asked for a CT consult?

-I asked for Mr Valentine.

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You got a free upgrade.

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Scott Bartlett, 23. Came in for an elective lipoma removal but clearly

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suffering from chest pains he hadn't thought to tell anyone about.

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ECG and D-Dimer came back inconclusive.

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Scott. My name is Mr Rossini.

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Nice to meet you.

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Leanne, my wife, she's the one that made me

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go to the doctors about the whatchamacallit on my back.

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Lipoma.

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I wasn't bothered, but Leanne's always worrying about me, bless her.

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Pretty much marched me down here.

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You didn't tell her you've been having chest pains?

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-It never came up.

-Or your GP?

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They're not that bad.

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As I long as I don't move too much.

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How long have you been having them?

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Well, on and off for a bit...

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A couple of years...maybe.

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I suppose they've been worse the last six months, or so.

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I can't really take the time off right now.

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We're having a baby, you see.

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Well, Leanne is and I'm a self-employed plumber.

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We need to do some tests, scans of your chest and abdomen.

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Has anyone in your family had any heart problems?

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No.

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So what kind of thing are you looking for?

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We'll just have to see what the scans tell us.

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Relax for now, OK?

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Will do.

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Two years of chest pains, doesn't think to tell his wife?

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All couples have their secrets.

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Let's talk in your office.

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So have HR even said what they want to talk to you about?

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Damage control. Me being the damage they want to control.

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Is your lawyer going to be there?

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I'm beginning to suspect that I'm not his top priority.

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That's not good.

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-No.

-Look, I'm going to get a coffee now, if you want to...

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-No, I better get on.

-It's fine. See you later.

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Morning.

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Hi.

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So how's he doing?

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Hard to say. He's not happy with his lawyer, so...

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Oh...

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What are you doing here?

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You weren't returning my calls, so...

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Sorry.

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How are things at home with Mr Griffin?

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Must be awkward since the inquest.

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Not really.

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Even though it's your word against his?

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It's fine.

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It must play on your mind though, wondering how negligent

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he actually was.

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I've no-one to talk to, Donna.

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No-one listens like you do.

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I was going to call you back.

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It's OK, I understand.

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I just need your help.

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And it's not about my mum's records.

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I just...want to chat.

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OK, but I'm running late, so...

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How about lunch?

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-We'll sort something.

-OK. I'll call you.

-OK.

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So...when were you going to tell me?

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I didn't think there was a way back for us.

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But the baby changes everything.

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We have to be together, raise this child, together.

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I don't understand. What is there to even think about?

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Everything.

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For instance?

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I did a terrible thing when I had you investigated.

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It was an unforgivable thing.

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It doesn't matter.

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-Of course it does!

-OK, so I forgive you.

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-Really?

-You want it in writing?!

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Matteo, this is what I'm talking about.

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You're the one that said we were broken, that you don't love me.

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What's changed?

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KNOCK AT DOOR

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Hey, sorry to interrupt.

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I was just wondering if I could get a second opinion on the epigastric pain, in bay two?

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-There's no rush or anything, though.

-Now is good.

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OK.

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Got it. Standing by.

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So I used to use a nanny agency.

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It was a bit pricey but good for short term, short notice.

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I didn't ask for your help. I don't need your help, can you see where I'm going with this?

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-"Thanks but no thanks"?

-PHONE RINGS

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Hello...?

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Could you...

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No, I understand that she's upset.

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Can you just tell her that Mummy is very sorry

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but she can't come down just now. Thank you.

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I see I'm down for the left ventricular aneurysm this afternoon.

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-And?

-Well, normally you'd keep that kind of thing for yourself.

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What I mean is, thank you for the opportunity which

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I accept with gratitude and humility.

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OK, we've got Grace Imari, 33.

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-32. My bag, it has my laptop...

-Got it.

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She collapsed with a cardiac arrest.

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Paramedics resuscitated and we put her on ECMO as soon as she came in.

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OK, let's keep her on oxygen. We'll have antibiotics and heparin, please.

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Sorry, who are you?

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Jac Naylor, consultant cardiothoracic surgeon.

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Are you the boss?

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-Yes.

-Excellent. Carry on.

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Let's have some bloods, ECG and a chest CT, please, Rochelle.

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-We can manage from here.

-I'm afraid you're stuck with me while Ms Imari is on ECMO.

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Well, lucky old us.

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We can make this work.

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We have to.

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You never stop, do you?

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To think, to consider, you just...

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Work out the best course of action and go for it?

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You can't tell me you don't want us to be together.

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It's not about what I want, or what you want.

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Not any more, Matteo.

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Even if we...

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It wouldn't work.

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So what is it? Your plan?

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Nothing is finalised, but I thought I'd move to Amsterdam...

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What?

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To be with my sister and her children.

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No. You can't do this.

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This baby needs a family.

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I need a family.

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I wish it could be with you, but it can't. I'm sorry.

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So what you're saying to me is that dogs are better than people?

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It's a cliche, but it's true.

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Loving, loyal, full of fun...

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Who wouldn't want that in their life?

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Are you all right there, love?

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Mmm-hm.

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I did always want a dog growing up, but I wasn't allowed one.

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Well, nobody can stop you now you're a grown-up, independent woman!

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-Yeah, I know, but...

-Hang on...

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How about Henry?

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Yeah, cute.

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Such a sweet temperament.

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I would but it's just with the hours I work and stuff.

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Anyway, I don't see any signs of a fracture.

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-Told you.

-But I want to make absolutely sure.

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-So could we order bloods and a head CT, please?

-OK.

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Yeah, I think she's more of a cat person.

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Dearie me.

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Problem?

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Mr Valentine.

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A pulmonary thrombectomy with your name on it.

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Delightful. Small issue, however, my dance card is full to overflowing.

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Sorry.

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It's not good news, is it?

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The scan.

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You have what's called an aortic dissection.

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And, yes, I'm afraid it is quite serious.

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I'm so stupid.

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I don't have any life insurance.

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Well, not everybody does.

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But I've got responsibilities now, don't I?

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Leanne and the baby.

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I was meant to sort it out. Idiot! Idiot!

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Hey!

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Take it easy.

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I was warned that I might have a problem.

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By your doctor?

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My dad.

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You said there was no family history.

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He's not really family. Never been around.

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But he got in touch, a few years ago,

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out of the blue, saying something about...

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..er...

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..art...

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Arterio...

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Arteriosclerosis?

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I think so.

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He had it and said I was at risk, or whatever.

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-Could that be what's caused this?

-It's possible.

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You're very young to be arteriosclerotic.

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My mum always said I was nothing like him,

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so I told myself I couldn't have it.

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I didn't want to hear it, didn't want to know.

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And maybe you didn't want to accept his help.

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-Yeah.

-Hmm.

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Maybe.

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So I need an operation?

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You do.

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As soon as possible.

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Hey.

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This is serious, but it is treatable.

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Do you understand?

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It's called the Tommy Travis Rescue Centre.

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Named after my late husband...

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Tommy. "Finding forever homes for lost canine souls",

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that's our motto, or mission statement, call it what you like.

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I'm just going to take your temperature.

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Oh, this is Belle. So pretty.

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Pretty something.

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Sorry.

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I know who'd be more your type.

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Tinka.

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Now she is pretty.

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And clever, but see, it's like she knows it.

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Prefect complex I call it.

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You fell getting off the bus, you say?

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I did, lost my footing, I suppose,

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-then...splat.

-Has it happened before?

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-Never.

-Have you been unwell recently, any dizzy spells, or anything?

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No, I've been right as rain.

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Temperature's 38.2.

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You know what, I should be getting back.

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No, we need to do your scans first.

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-Oooft!

-Are you all right?

-I need to...

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..toilet.

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Kat, could you just grab the wheelchair for me?

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Thank you so much. We'll be quicker on wheels. Come on.

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Thank you. Are you all right?

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I can't hold it much longer.

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Lovely...

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Thank you, Kat.

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Mate, are you all right?

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Yeah, I'm fine.

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Autosomal dominant.

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From his father.

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KNOCK AT DOOR

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Yes?

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Hi, sorry, it's me again.

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I just wanted to make that sure you really want me

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checking predischarge medication reviews?

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Yes, why wouldn't I?

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Well, I just thought that...

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Because you won the award you're on some kind of...

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tedium-free career fast-track?

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No, not exactly.

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If you want to move forward, and I'm sure that you do,

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you have to prove yourself, day after day, believe me.

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Is this to do with the merger?

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I'm sorry?

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Well, are there going to be redundancies?

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Am I going to have to re-apply for my job?

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I appreciate that the merger has caused some...uncertainty.

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Uncertainty, insecurity, anxiety.

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-Paranoia?

-I have no information

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that I am permitted to share with you at this time.

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So you can't rule out redundancies?

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It means that I have no information that I am permitted to share.

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So you're not ruling it out.

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Is that why Fredrik left in such a hurry?

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Right. Thank you.

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You know, you were right.

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I was getting carried away, rushing ahead.

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But maybe you were too.

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I have tried to give this a lot of thought.

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You're worried we can't function as a couple.

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Well, that's one part of it.

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So maybe we could find another way to raise this child, here.

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Separate, but working together.

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Like...co-parenting?

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Please, Nina.

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I don't want to start talking about this in terms of my rights,

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but I am this child's father and I want to be involved.

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Have you talked to Scott about this operation?

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I thought we should do it together.

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Good. Then let's get on with it then.

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My heart stopped beating, completely?

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-Correct.

-You're lucky to be alive.

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And this happened because I have a clot?

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Because the clot is close to your pulmonary artery.

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Which takes blood to the lungs?

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That's right.

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So how am I still alive?

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Paramedics on motorbikes and...

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This ECMO machine. Extracorporeal membrane oxygenation.

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-It basically gives your heart and lungs a wee rest.

-I see.

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So we need to get rid of this clot.

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Options?

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Surgery, to remove it. A pulmonary thrombectomy.

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Timescale?

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As soon as possible.

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Option two?

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If this machine is resting my heart and lungs,

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then surely I can just stay on it a bit longer.

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I think what Ms Naylor is concerned about...

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Perhaps we could keep you on ECMO.

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If we continue to with the anticoagulants,

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blood thinners, and wait for the clot to dissolve.

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And I'd still be conscious?

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Yes.

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Then that's the option I choose.

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Thanks very much.

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If that clot moves before it starts to reduce...

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She made an informed choice.

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Yes, but if you explained to her that she...

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Your job here today is to babysit a machine.

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Beyond that, seen and not heard.

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Jac Naylor, not pushing the surgical option?

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It's not like her at all.

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The aorta is the biggest blood vessel in your body.

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It's what takes the blood from your heart to where it needs to go.

0:18:230:18:26

The weakness here, it could cause the aortic wall to split

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and the worry is it could rupture.

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Right.

0:18:350:18:37

Sorry, it's just...

0:18:370:18:38

It's OK, I understand.

0:18:380:18:40

If I'd listened to my dad.

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If I'd had it checked sooner...

0:18:430:18:45

Let's not worry about that just now.

0:18:450:18:47

And what about the baby?

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It could be passed on.

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Unlikely, but still possible.

0:18:510:18:53

But simply knowing it could be an issue means that it could be closely monitored.

0:18:530:18:56

And he won't end up like me?

0:18:560:18:58

Well, that's something, at least.

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So you're having a boy?

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Yeah.

0:19:040:19:06

How could I be so stupid?

0:19:070:19:09

How could I do this to Leanne?

0:19:110:19:13

-Idiot! Idiot!

-Hey, hey, hey.

0:19:130:19:15

So you made a bad decision and if you hadn't come in today, you could have died.

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But you're here now.

0:19:200:19:22

Call it luck, or fate, or whatever you want,

0:19:220:19:24

but you have another chance.

0:19:240:19:26

You need to give yourself a break.

0:19:270:19:29

Looking forwards, not backwards.

0:19:290:19:31

You're in very good hands, Scott.

0:19:320:19:35

I'll be operating on the aorta itself,

0:19:350:19:37

putting what's called a graft on the weak part to strengthen it.

0:19:370:19:40

It's like a piece of flexible tubing.

0:19:400:19:42

Meanwhile, I'll be joining it in the abdomen.

0:19:420:19:45

I don't want Leanne to know, for now,

0:19:450:19:47

I don't want her worrying with the baby and everything.

0:19:470:19:50

-Is that all right?

-If that's what you want, that's fine.

0:19:500:19:53

You two make a good team, you know that?

0:19:560:19:58

I quite agree.

0:19:590:20:01

We have our moments.

0:20:010:20:03

Looks like Matteo's out for the rest of the day

0:20:030:20:05

so somebody needs to take care of his bronchoscopy.

0:20:050:20:07

Any chance that somebody might be...

0:20:070:20:09

-No.

-No, it's just that, looking at who's doing what

0:20:090:20:12

it doesn't seem like you're down for...

0:20:120:20:13

-Are you suggesting I'm not pulling my weight?

-Of course not.

0:20:130:20:16

I have meetings to attend, presentations to prepare,

0:20:160:20:19

and still I have to find time for needy registrars

0:20:190:20:22

-wittering on about their workload!

-I wasn't wittering.

0:20:220:20:24

I'm sure they'd take you back downstairs if you can't hack up here.

0:20:240:20:27

Thank you.

0:20:270:20:29

She's on fine form today.

0:20:290:20:31

She's got a lot on her plate.

0:20:310:20:32

A large helping of anger with a side order of completely unreasonable.

0:20:320:20:36

-I'm going in.

-Yeah, right.

0:20:380:20:40

What's the worst that can happen?

0:20:400:20:41

Aggravated assault? GBH? Torture?

0:20:410:20:44

What do you want?

0:20:480:20:50

I was just remembering Evie when she was Emma's age,

0:20:520:20:55

whenever I had to leave her somewhere she didn't want to be,

0:20:550:20:57

she was a nightmare to begin with.

0:20:570:21:00

She wouldn't play, she wouldn't even talk.

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Seeing your kid upset

0:21:040:21:07

and having to walk away from them.

0:21:070:21:09

It's the worst feeling in the world.

0:21:090:21:11

I've been there.

0:21:110:21:13

So if you ever want to...

0:21:140:21:16

I don't know, sound off, whinge, howl at the moon,

0:21:160:21:21

drown your sorrows then...

0:21:210:21:23

You couldn't throw it away, either?

0:21:280:21:30

I have a lot to get through here, so if you don't mind...

0:21:320:21:35

OK.

0:21:360:21:38

I'll leave you to it.

0:21:380:21:40

I was thinking,

0:21:480:21:49

maybe we could buy two flats close together.

0:21:490:21:53

Oh, Matteo...

0:21:530:21:55

And work something out here, coordinate our schedules

0:21:550:21:58

so we don't need so much childcare.

0:21:580:22:00

It's not the practicalities I'm worried about.

0:22:000:22:02

Then what?

0:22:020:22:04

You heard what Scott said, we make a good team.

0:22:040:22:07

He only just met us.

0:22:070:22:09

OK, so we just need to be organised

0:22:090:22:12

and establish clear boundaries.

0:22:120:22:15

-I suppose...

-Yes?

0:22:180:22:21

You do have a right to be involved.

0:22:220:22:24

Maybe...

0:22:250:22:27

Maybe it's not such a crazy idea, co-parenting.

0:22:280:22:32

It's a great idea.

0:22:320:22:33

I only said I'll think about it.

0:22:330:22:35

That's good enough for me.

0:22:350:22:37

That's two emergency toilet trips now.

0:22:370:22:40

Has this been going on a while?

0:22:400:22:42

No, just since this morning - last night.

0:22:420:22:44

I had leftover prawn biryani for my dinner.

0:22:440:22:46

Maybe not the best idea.

0:22:460:22:48

This is one of our new arrivals, I can't think of a good name for him.

0:22:480:22:53

Smart as a whip, but hard to read - mysterious.

0:22:530:22:57

Sounds like Mr Hanssen.

0:22:570:22:58

Mr Hanssen, I like it.

0:22:580:23:01

-That's what I'm going to call him.

-Really?

0:23:010:23:03

What about this one?

0:23:030:23:06

Very determined, bossy, not the friendliest.

0:23:060:23:09

Jac?

0:23:090:23:11

I'm not sure...

0:23:110:23:13

OK, the good news is your head CT shows no sign of a fracture.

0:23:130:23:17

I'll just fix you up with some steri-strips.

0:23:170:23:20

-And then I can go?

-However, your white cell count

0:23:200:23:22

is quite high, as is your temperature.

0:23:220:23:25

It does indicate an infection.

0:23:250:23:27

Do you mind if I took a feel of your neck?

0:23:270:23:30

Be my guest.

0:23:300:23:31

Yeah, your lymph nodes are quite swollen.

0:23:330:23:35

Like I said, I feel...

0:23:350:23:37

-Right as rain?

-Exactly.

0:23:370:23:40

Let's get you on antibiotics, see how you get on with them.

0:23:400:23:43

Let's get 1.2 grams co-amoxiclav IV please.

0:23:430:23:47

If you just keep nice and still while I fix you up.

0:23:470:23:51

So this charity, rescue centre of yours, do you run it from home?

0:23:510:23:55

Wouldn't have it any other way.

0:23:550:23:57

How many staff have you got?

0:23:570:23:59

Oh, half a dozen or so.

0:23:590:24:00

You know, a friend of mine might be looking for a dog,

0:24:020:24:04

what's the website?

0:24:040:24:06

It's, um... It's not actually working at the moment.

0:24:060:24:09

Right.

0:24:100:24:12

PHONE RINGS

0:24:120:24:14

I'm going to have to get this.

0:24:160:24:18

Sorry.

0:24:180:24:20

Such a pity.

0:24:320:24:33

Tape, please.

0:24:340:24:36

Francesca.

0:24:370:24:39

Who?

0:24:390:24:40

Just a name I've always liked.

0:24:400:24:42

Intestinal and iliac arteries both taped.

0:24:430:24:46

Roberta is good.

0:24:460:24:48

And Simona, or Isabella.

0:24:480:24:50

30ml graft.

0:24:520:24:53

I need a clamp.

0:24:550:24:56

Anything wrong??

0:24:580:25:00

The dissection...

0:25:000:25:02

..it's extensive, almost down to the iliac artery.

0:25:020:25:06

Salvageable?

0:25:060:25:07

Hard to say. I'll stitch it along with the graft.

0:25:070:25:10

Hi.

0:25:140:25:15

Thanks for coming. I appreciate it.

0:25:160:25:19

Of course.

0:25:190:25:21

So, how long have you actually known Ric Griffin?

0:25:240:25:26

Oh, er...

0:25:280:25:29

Must be about 13 years now.

0:25:290:25:32

Is this what you wanted to talk about?

0:25:320:25:34

I'm just interested.

0:25:340:25:36

Is he married?

0:25:360:25:37

Not at the moment.

0:25:370:25:38

Divorced? Kids?

0:25:380:25:40

What is this?

0:25:400:25:42

-Well, we're just talking.

-You're writing it down.

0:25:420:25:44

He still won't explain where he was for three hours.

0:25:440:25:46

It must have been something bad, right?

0:25:460:25:48

Why are you asking me about his personal life?

0:25:480:25:51

Well, we need to show him for what he really is.

0:25:510:25:53

You know, I keep thinking if somehow he gets away with this,

0:25:530:25:55

what about the next patient that dies cos of his negligence?

0:25:550:25:57

He is a good doctor. He's the best.

0:25:570:25:59

If it wasn't for him, I'd still be able to pick up the phone

0:26:010:26:05

and speak to her.

0:26:050:26:06

To pop round and visit her, to help in her garden.

0:26:060:26:10

-So you want me to...?

-I know you're close to him,

0:26:110:26:14

but you mustn't let that cloud your judgment,

0:26:140:26:16

to stop you doing what's right.

0:26:160:26:19

Donna, I need your help.

0:26:190:26:21

Donna!

0:26:210:26:23

-I need to get back.

-But...

0:26:230:26:24

HE SIGHS

0:26:260:26:28

CLASSICAL MUSIC PLAYING

0:26:280:26:30

Almost there.

0:26:340:26:35

A bleed. Suction, quickly!

0:26:360:26:38

-I can't find it.

-BP's dropping.

-I can't find it!

0:26:410:26:44

Come on, how can I see if you can't perform a simple task?

0:26:440:26:46

Turn the music off.

0:26:460:26:47

There it is. On the suture line.

0:26:470:26:49

Can you reinforce the stitch?

0:26:490:26:50

Buttress suture, now.

0:26:500:26:51

Come on.

0:26:520:26:54

Got it.

0:27:000:27:02

OK. Let's get these arteries onto the grafts.

0:27:020:27:05

Thank you.

0:27:060:27:07

Any danger of seeing the latest infection control report by...?

0:27:150:27:18

The end of the sentence?

0:27:180:27:21

Gold star.

0:27:210:27:22

BEEPING

0:27:230:27:26

-Grace?

-What happened?

0:27:300:27:32

-You lost output.

-Meaning?

0:27:320:27:34

Meaning surgery.

0:27:340:27:36

Sorry.

0:27:360:27:37

Given your worsening condition, we do need to operate.

0:27:370:27:40

Here's the thing -

0:27:400:27:41

I do want the operation, now's just not a good time.

0:27:410:27:44

Why not?

0:27:440:27:45

Commitments.

0:27:450:27:47

Ms Imari, if the clot moves into the other branches of your arteries,

0:27:470:27:51

it would be significantly more difficult and dangerous to remove.

0:27:510:27:54

I don't mean to be difficult, Ms Naylor, really,

0:27:540:27:56

but you do need my consent for an operation, correct?

0:27:560:28:00

If you don't have this operation, you could have a stroke or die.

0:28:020:28:05

But you do need my consent?

0:28:050:28:06

Yes.

0:28:070:28:09

So there's no need for any unpleasant argument,

0:28:090:28:12

because I'm not going to give it.

0:28:120:28:13

Yet.

0:28:150:28:17

-Fine.

-Thank you.

0:28:170:28:19

Hi.

0:28:290:28:30

All done?

0:28:310:28:33

Well, that is the question.

0:28:330:28:34

No, I've still got some more meetings upstairs.

0:28:350:28:38

In fact...I'd better get a move on.

0:28:380:28:40

There you are!

0:28:400:28:42

It's good to see you.

0:28:420:28:43

It's good to see you too, Sacha.

0:28:440:28:47

-I've got to get back upstairs.

-OK, I'll be quick.

0:28:470:28:49

Donna mentioned to me that you're not very happy with your lawyer.

0:28:510:28:55

-So I've made some calls and I've found a better one.

-Really?

0:28:550:29:00

Yeah, he's a guy called Liam Drinkwater.

0:29:000:29:03

He's like the Rolls-Royce of defence barristers

0:29:030:29:05

when it comes to medical negligence.

0:29:050:29:07

Now, I've had a conversation with him

0:29:070:29:09

and he has agreed to cap his fee at a not unreasonable level.

0:29:090:29:13

I see.

0:29:140:29:15

Well, obviously it's your call,

0:29:150:29:17

but if you want I can give you his details,

0:29:170:29:20

you can have a chat and see how you feel.

0:29:200:29:23

Thank you, Sacha. You...

0:29:240:29:26

You didn't have to do that.

0:29:260:29:27

I wanted to.

0:29:270:29:29

I mean, we all want to help, in whatever way we can, don't we?

0:29:300:29:33

Yeah, totally.

0:29:330:29:34

I appreciate it.

0:29:370:29:38

I really do.

0:29:390:29:40

Does it bother you that we still don't really know what happened,

0:29:470:29:50

that he won't tell us?

0:29:500:29:52

He's my friend

0:29:530:29:55

and he's my colleague.

0:29:550:29:56

I think that's all that matters, isn't it?

0:29:570:30:00

Erm... Have you got a second?

0:30:020:30:04

Just say what you have to say so we can all get on with our lives.

0:30:040:30:08

OK, er... So, everyone has difficult days.

0:30:080:30:13

You know, days when maybe your confidence

0:30:130:30:16

isn't what it usually is...

0:30:160:30:17

You're having a difficult day?

0:30:170:30:19

No. What I'm trying to say is...

0:30:190:30:21

..we all have days where we find ourselves...

0:30:230:30:26

Yes?

0:30:260:30:28

Backing off.

0:30:280:30:30

-Backing off?

-Yeah, look, it's just...with Grace... I don't know,

0:30:300:30:34

just a bit surprised that you didn't push for surgery a bit harder.

0:30:340:30:38

I'm not entirely sure what you're trying to imply here,

0:30:380:30:41

but I am absolutely certain you have no idea what you're talking about.

0:30:410:30:45

Wouldn't be the first time.

0:30:450:30:46

Mm.

0:30:460:30:47

Good chat.

0:30:500:30:51

Hi.

0:30:530:30:54

I'm still here then?

0:30:560:30:58

The aortic repair was a success.

0:30:580:31:00

-Result.

-A good result.

0:31:000:31:02

The dissection turned out to be more extensive

0:31:020:31:05

than it appeared in the scan, but if we keep a close eye on it

0:31:050:31:08

and work hard to control your blood pressure,

0:31:080:31:11

I'm feeling very positive and so should you.

0:31:110:31:13

Leanne?

0:31:160:31:18

-We'll let her know.

-Thank you...so much.

0:31:180:31:21

Our pleasure.

0:31:210:31:23

It's time to rest now.

0:31:230:31:25

We'll check in on you later.

0:31:260:31:28

Another chance...

0:31:280:31:29

Another chance.

0:31:310:31:33

Excuse me.

0:31:340:31:35

It's today.

0:31:430:31:45

My scan, the ultrasound.

0:31:450:31:48

Right.

0:31:480:31:49

Do you want to be there?

0:31:490:31:51

Yes, of course, absolutely.

0:31:510:31:53

Ms Naylor.

0:31:560:31:57

The risk of delaying this operation is unacceptable.

0:31:590:32:02

To you, not to me.

0:32:020:32:03

Two years ago, I was in a car accident.

0:32:030:32:06

Nothing too serious, but I was out of action for a few hours.

0:32:060:32:10

During that time, one of my clients needed me,

0:32:100:32:12

I wasn't available and it didn't end well.

0:32:120:32:14

Clients?

0:32:140:32:15

I'm a solicitor and today's a big day.

0:32:150:32:17

Surely someone else can step in for you?

0:32:170:32:20

Is that what you do when things get difficult?

0:32:200:32:23

You fob things off on your colleagues?

0:32:230:32:25

At this stage, it wouldn't be fair to ask someone else,

0:32:250:32:28

least of all on my client.

0:32:280:32:29

I know the risks I'm taking,

0:32:300:32:32

and as soon as this case is out of the way, I'm all yours.

0:32:320:32:36

OK, so I'm going to assume you're really very good at your job.

0:32:360:32:39

I get good results.

0:32:390:32:40

Well, those good results are going to come to an abrupt end

0:32:400:32:43

if you suddenly die.

0:32:430:32:44

Delegate. It's not just your client today,

0:32:450:32:48

it's every other client you might not be around for in the future.

0:32:480:32:51

And would you do the operation yourself?

0:32:530:32:55

-That depends whether...

-I want you, not one of your colleagues.

0:32:570:33:00

Get me in and out as quickly as you can.

0:33:020:33:04

You, young lady, don't know what you want for dinner tonight.

0:33:320:33:37

Er... You don't know where you left your phone?

0:33:370:33:41

OK, it's that you've heard the rumours about the redundancies

0:33:410:33:44

and you're a bit worried about it?

0:33:440:33:46

It's good job you're a better doctor than you are a mind-reader, mate.

0:33:460:33:49

That's all I'm saying.

0:33:490:33:50

Or I'd be struck off?

0:33:500:33:52

Yeah.

0:33:520:33:54

Ah. I'm so sorry.

0:33:540:33:56

Do you mind if I have a look at that?

0:34:010:34:03

It's nothing.

0:34:030:34:04

Belinda, it is obviously bothering you. Please.

0:34:040:34:08

Hmm... That looks like ringworm to me.

0:34:100:34:13

Can't be. I worm my dogs regularly.

0:34:130:34:15

Ringworm isn't actually caused by a worm. It's a fungal infection.

0:34:150:34:18

But you can catch it from contact with animals.

0:34:180:34:21

When you live with dogs, you can't keep them at arm's length.

0:34:210:34:23

They need love, lots of it.

0:34:230:34:25

Mm-hm. Well, you'll have to let your staff know.

0:34:250:34:27

Ringworm can spread.

0:34:270:34:28

You don't have any staff, do you?

0:34:310:34:33

Belinda, how many dogs are living in your house?

0:34:330:34:37

Ten.

0:34:380:34:39

15 last count.

0:34:420:34:43

You must be tripping over them.

0:34:430:34:45

Is that how you fell?

0:34:470:34:49

It's cosy, at home, but we're right next to fields.

0:34:490:34:51

I don't want you thinking I'm one of those animal hoarders.

0:34:510:34:53

Every one of my dogs has a good life.

0:34:530:34:55

You should see my vet bills.

0:34:550:34:57

What about your life?

0:34:570:34:58

I manage...

0:34:580:35:00

..mostly.

0:35:000:35:01

Mr Rossini?

0:35:120:35:13

You're supposed to be resting.

0:35:140:35:16

Can I ask you something?

0:35:160:35:18

-Of course.

-Do you have any kids?

0:35:180:35:21

Yes.

0:35:230:35:24

Is it as bad as they say, childbirth?

0:35:250:35:28

Like, watching it all happen?

0:35:280:35:30

-You're scared.

-A bit.

0:35:310:35:33

Actually, a lot.

0:35:350:35:36

But coming so close to missing out on everything,

0:35:390:35:42

getting another chance...

0:35:420:35:44

I want to do it right, you know?

0:35:450:35:48

The whole thing.

0:35:480:35:49

Really be there from the start.

0:35:490:35:51

Good for you.

0:35:530:35:55

But it is scary, isn't it?

0:35:550:35:56

The actual...

0:35:560:35:58

You know...

0:35:580:35:59

Every birth is different,

0:36:010:36:03

but you need to put all the bad images out of your mind

0:36:030:36:05

and only focus on the good ones.

0:36:050:36:08

Like?

0:36:080:36:09

Like when it's all over.

0:36:120:36:14

The three of you together.

0:36:140:36:16

Taking your baby home for the first time, showing them around.

0:36:160:36:19

I hope he likes our flat.

0:36:220:36:23

I'm sure he will.

0:36:250:36:26

You're at the start of a great adventure.

0:36:270:36:30

It won't always be easy,

0:36:300:36:32

but it will always be worth it.

0:36:320:36:34

-KNOCK AT DOOR

-Just a second.

0:36:540:36:55

What's wrong?

0:36:570:37:00

Nothing.

0:37:000:37:01

-Then why are you...?

-I was trying to be sensible.

0:37:010:37:03

I was. But Nina...

0:37:030:37:06

..I love you.

0:37:060:37:08

I just wanted you to know.

0:37:100:37:12

But everything we...talked about.

0:37:140:37:16

How you'd said you'd handle it.

0:37:160:37:19

I know. I'm sorry, but I can't pretend.

0:37:190:37:22

I want to do this properly...

0:37:220:37:25

..together.

0:37:250:37:26

-Matteo...

-I don't believe in signs, Nina.

0:37:280:37:31

Or that anything is ever "meant to be."

0:37:310:37:33

But I believe in us, with all my heart.

0:37:350:37:37

I never stopped loving you.

0:37:390:37:41

-RAPID BEEPING

-Scott.

0:37:440:37:46

OK, preparing to open the pulmonary artery.

0:37:510:37:54

Jac, I've got the creche on the phone.

0:37:580:38:01

-Do you want me to put them through?

-Is she hurt?

0:38:010:38:04

No, just very upset, they said. "Needs her mum."

0:38:040:38:07

Then I'll call them back.

0:38:090:38:11

OK.

0:38:110:38:12

There's still too much blood here. I can't see what I'm doing.

0:38:150:38:18

Suction, please.

0:38:180:38:19

What's her platelet count?

0:38:190:38:21

It is low, it's almost 80.

0:38:230:38:24

We've got one bag here and two on the way, yeah?

0:38:240:38:26

Increasing flow to 2.5 litres.

0:38:260:38:27

I can see a large clot.

0:38:530:38:55

Forceps, please.

0:38:550:38:56

It's in one piece.

0:39:020:39:03

The artery looks... Looks good.

0:39:070:39:10

5/0 prolene, please.

0:39:100:39:11

You could get somebody else to close if you needed to go and see Emma.

0:39:180:39:22

That'd... That'd be good, yeah.

0:39:260:39:28

-Temperature?

-18 degrees.

0:39:450:39:48

Keep the ice around the head. We need to keep him cold.

0:39:480:39:51

Suction.

0:39:510:39:52

The dissection has extended.

0:39:560:39:58

How far?

0:39:580:39:59

To the head vessels.

0:39:590:40:00

Hang on, I can see the entry point.

0:40:020:40:04

I might be able to stitch the graft.

0:40:040:40:05

This isn't over.

0:40:080:40:09

Emma... Emma, please, please, just stop this.

0:40:130:40:17

Sorry, bad timing. Hello!

0:40:170:40:19

I need your advice on my left atrial aneurysm.

0:40:190:40:21

Why don't I watch her for a bit?

0:40:230:40:24

If that's all right with you, little legs?

0:40:240:40:27

It's fine, honestly.

0:40:270:40:28

OK, I won't be long.

0:40:300:40:32

Come here. Hello!

0:40:320:40:33

Cos think I know where the jammy doctors

0:40:330:40:36

hide the Jammie Dodgers.

0:40:360:40:37

Stand by to take him off bypass.

0:40:400:40:42

Now.

0:40:430:40:44

-MACHINES BEEP

-He's arresting.

-Paddles.

0:40:460:40:49

Charge to 20.

0:40:520:40:54

Stand clear.

0:40:540:40:55

Shocking.

0:40:550:40:56

Charge to 30.

0:40:580:41:00

Stand clear.

0:41:000:41:02

Shocking.

0:41:020:41:03

Charge to 40.

0:41:040:41:05

Stand clear.

0:41:050:41:07

Shocking.

0:41:070:41:08

Cerebral oximetry is very low.

0:41:080:41:10

-Put him back on bypass.

-Are the pupils dilated?

0:41:100:41:13

We try again.

0:41:130:41:15

-Matteo, his brain hasn't perfused.

-We try again!

0:41:150:41:17

He's gone.

0:41:180:41:20

It's time to call it.

0:41:200:41:21

Matteo...

0:41:250:41:26

-Again, again!

-All right. One more time and then that's it, OK?

0:41:330:41:37

# I'm a little spider

0:41:370:41:39

# Minding my own business

0:41:390:41:41

# I just hope I don't get squished! #

0:41:410:41:44

-Argh!

-THEY GIGGLE

0:41:440:41:46

I have to say, I can see the appeal.

0:41:460:41:49

Well, we were just thinking about heading back to the creche.

0:41:490:41:52

-Really?

-Yeah.

0:41:520:41:53

Emma wants to give it another try if that's all right with you?

0:41:530:41:56

Yeah, it's fine.

0:41:560:41:58

Erm, listen,

0:41:590:42:00

-what you saw, in theatre...

-Was a successful operation.

0:42:000:42:04

Come on, you, spider-squasher!

0:42:040:42:05

Up you get.

0:42:050:42:07

Say bye-bye to Mummy.

0:42:070:42:08

Bye-bye, Mummy.

0:42:080:42:10

-Bye, baby.

-Bye-bye!

0:42:100:42:12

It wasn't your fault.

0:42:210:42:22

-He was such a lovely man.

-There was nothing we could do.

0:42:240:42:27

If he'd come to us sooner, different story.

0:42:270:42:29

His wife is still in shock, as you'd expect,

0:42:310:42:33

but she wants to know more about his condition

0:42:330:42:35

so I said you'd speak to her.

0:42:350:42:37

Fine.

0:42:370:42:38

Matteo...

0:42:390:42:41

..you're allowed to be upset.

0:42:430:42:44

Talk to me.

0:42:460:42:47

You want us to raise a child together,

0:42:500:42:52

and I just know there is so much inside you,

0:42:520:42:54

so much pain that you've never dealt with.

0:42:540:42:57

But this child, don't you see?

0:42:570:42:59

Is our chance to leave all that behind.

0:42:590:43:01

To start again, from the beginning.

0:43:010:43:04

A clean slate.

0:43:040:43:05

-What?

-A clean slate?

0:43:090:43:10

You think you can just wipe it all away? Wipe Nico away?

0:43:120:43:15

-Nina...

-What was I thinking?

0:43:150:43:16

Wait!

0:43:200:43:21

-BELINDA:

-We couldn't have children, you see, me and Tommy.

0:43:330:43:36

So when he passed away...

0:43:360:43:38

..our dogs were such a comfort.

0:43:390:43:41

They're good listeners, dogs.

0:43:430:43:45

They never interrupt, never judge.

0:43:450:43:47

Some shelters, if there's a dog nobody wants,

0:43:480:43:52

eventually they just put it down.

0:43:520:43:55

I take them in before that happens.

0:43:550:43:57

And I really do try to find homes for them, but...

0:43:570:44:00

You end up keeping them.

0:44:000:44:01

It's easy when they're young and appealing, to re-home them.

0:44:020:44:07

But the older ones,

0:44:070:44:09

the ones with issues...

0:44:090:44:10

I'm all they've got.

0:44:110:44:13

I know. But living like this, it's making you sick.

0:44:130:44:16

There are proper sanctuaries and rescue centres out there,

0:44:170:44:20

loads of them.

0:44:200:44:21

I know.

0:44:210:44:23

They'll help you, and your dogs. If you let them.

0:44:230:44:26

OK, I'm going to go and see about getting you discharged.

0:44:300:44:33

Thanks, love.

0:44:330:44:34

You're leaving?

0:44:560:44:58

Yeah.

0:44:580:44:59

You know...

0:45:030:45:04

I knew you weren't ready to be a parent again,

0:45:050:45:09

to be a husband again...

0:45:090:45:10

But I just so wanted to believe.

0:45:110:45:14

Please, Nina, just hear me out.

0:45:140:45:16

I can't wipe the slate clean...Matteo.

0:45:160:45:20

I can't do that to our son.

0:45:200:45:21

-It was a poor choice of words.

-It was horrific.

0:45:210:45:24

You really connected with Scott.

0:45:260:45:29

But when he died, you just...

0:45:290:45:30

..shut down. I had to stand there and watch you do that.

0:45:320:45:35

Did you talk to his wife?

0:45:350:45:36

What were you afraid of?

0:45:400:45:41

I loved you so much, Matteo.

0:45:430:45:44

I loved the man you used to be.

0:45:460:45:49

But he's never coming back.

0:45:490:45:50

And this child needs a family...

0:45:520:45:53

..not a coward.

0:45:540:45:56

PHONE VIBRATES

0:46:060:46:08

Hello.

0:46:150:46:16

Getting Emma to go back to the creche was...

0:46:170:46:20

No big deal.

0:46:200:46:21

It was to me.

0:46:220:46:24

Well, like I said, I'm happy to help.

0:46:250:46:28

I can't remember the last time I made her laugh the way you did.

0:46:300:46:34

I can always teach you the spider song.

0:46:340:46:36

Anyway, listen...

0:46:400:46:43

Everything that you've been through in the last few months...

0:46:450:46:48

..with Jasmine, with Guy...

0:46:480:46:50

..you've just carried on because that's just what you do.

0:46:520:46:56

But sometimes...

0:46:560:46:57

Sometimes you have to just step off.

0:46:580:47:01

Regroup.

0:47:010:47:02

Have you thought about taking any time off?

0:47:040:47:06

Well, maybe you should.

0:47:080:47:10

So, I was thinking... Oh, sorry.

0:47:100:47:13

-I can come back if...

-No, I was just leaving.

0:47:130:47:16

Are you OK?

0:47:230:47:24

I heard you lost a patient, I'm sorry.

0:47:250:47:27

Nina's pregnant.

0:47:290:47:30

Oh, I see.

0:47:300:47:32

She's moving to Amsterdam.

0:47:340:47:35

It's my fault.

0:47:370:47:38

-Well, I'm sure it's not as simple as that...

-It is. Believe me.

0:47:400:47:43

Can I, erm...?

0:47:430:47:45

If I've learned anything at all...

0:47:560:47:59

..about loss, it's...

0:48:000:48:02

..this - you can't run away from it. You can't ignore it.

0:48:030:48:07

You just have to look it dead in the eye and let it do its worst.

0:48:080:48:13

I'm not sure I can.

0:48:130:48:15

Well... It might take a while.

0:48:150:48:17

But you'll find your feet again.

0:48:240:48:26

Ms Naylor?

0:48:300:48:32

I missed a call, during the surgery.

0:48:360:48:38

My colleague had to deal with it.

0:48:390:48:41

And?

0:48:410:48:43

She did a very good job.

0:48:430:48:45

Well, I'm very glad to hear that.

0:48:460:48:48

I just spoke with my client. He's an asylum seeker.

0:48:480:48:50

He can stay with his family now.

0:48:500:48:53

32 is very young to have a clot like you had.

0:48:550:48:58

There's every chance it developed

0:48:580:49:00

because you've been pushing yourself to hard.

0:49:000:49:02

I was 12 when I came to this country as a refugee.

0:49:030:49:06

If it wasn't for people giving up their time to help me,

0:49:080:49:11

I never would have been able to stay.

0:49:110:49:14

This isn't just a job for me, I have a duty to do this.

0:49:140:49:17

You have a duty to keep yourself alive.

0:49:170:49:19

Learn to delegate.

0:49:210:49:23

OK.

0:49:230:49:25

And really, thank you.

0:49:250:49:27

-You!

-Oh!

0:49:560:49:58

Just can't keep away from me, can you?

0:49:580:50:00

-Hi.

-I was just passing and...

0:50:000:50:01

Come here. In here.

0:50:010:50:02

So, I think I might be wrong,

0:50:100:50:12

but I think there might be a new romance developing on Darwin.

0:50:120:50:16

-Between who?

-Oh, I'm not telling you that.

0:50:160:50:18

Why not?

0:50:180:50:20

Oh, just to annoy you.

0:50:200:50:22

-Tell me!

-No!

0:50:220:50:23

Ow!

0:50:230:50:25

Don't mind me.

0:50:250:50:26

Ahem... Erm... Raf thinks he's spotted a new romance

0:50:260:50:29

developing up here, but he won't tell me who's involved,

0:50:290:50:32

and I just don't think that's acceptable.

0:50:320:50:34

Oh, I don't know. I think there's a lot to be said for discretion.

0:50:340:50:37

Er, we were just, erm...

0:50:370:50:38

Bye.

0:50:400:50:41

SHE SOBS

0:50:450:50:47

Are you OK?

0:50:510:50:52

-TEARFULLY:

-I'm sorry...

0:50:570:50:58

-I'm so sorry, Nina.

-HE SOBS

0:51:000:51:02

Oh, Matteo.

0:51:020:51:04

I'm sorry.

0:51:080:51:10

So, I hear Tenerife's nice this time of year.

0:51:160:51:20

-What?

-Tenerife. For a bit of winter sun.

0:51:200:51:23

You know, if you're thinking about taking a break,

0:51:230:51:25

like we spoke about earlier.

0:51:250:51:26

Are you all right?

0:51:300:51:32

Sorry.

0:51:320:51:33

-I don't need a break. I'm fine.

-But what happened today....

0:51:350:51:38

I don't know what you're talking about.

0:51:380:51:40

-But you said...

-I don't know what you're talking about.

0:51:400:51:43

All right.

0:51:450:51:46

I'm sorry.

0:51:460:51:48

You know, for someone with such a demanding job

0:51:500:51:52

you seem to have an awful a lot of time

0:51:520:51:54

for sticking your nose into other people's business.

0:51:540:51:56

I don't blame you for having me investigated.

0:51:580:52:01

Now I understand why you didn't trust me.

0:52:020:52:05

I was running away.

0:52:080:52:09

From you.

0:52:100:52:11

From everything.

0:52:120:52:14

When we lost Nico...

0:52:150:52:17

..I felt like I lost you as well.

0:52:190:52:21

I'm so sorry, Nina.

0:52:210:52:22

When you needed me the most, I failed you.

0:52:240:52:27

And I'll never forgive myself for that, never.

0:52:290:52:33

But I don't want to run away any more.

0:52:350:52:37

I want to feel...

0:52:380:52:39

..everything.

0:52:410:52:42

It wasn't us that was broken.

0:52:490:52:51

It was me.

0:52:530:52:54

This boy.

0:53:040:53:05

Our boy.

0:53:070:53:08

He's right here.

0:53:110:53:13

There is no wiping the slate clean.

0:53:150:53:17

He's part of me.

0:53:190:53:20

Part of us.

0:53:220:53:23

And I never want that to change.

0:53:240:53:26

Hi.

0:53:410:53:42

So, you're going to help?

0:53:450:53:46

Well, I hope so.

0:53:460:53:48

Erm... So, where do we begin?

0:53:490:53:51

Not like that.

0:53:510:53:54

I could never do that to Ric. I'm sorry.

0:53:540:53:57

I don't understand.

0:53:570:53:58

Jeremy, you're grieving.

0:53:580:54:00

-You think I don't know that?

-No.

0:54:020:54:04

I just think, maybe that's what you should focus on right now,

0:54:040:54:08

instead of Ric.

0:54:080:54:10

Here's a bereavement counsellor.

0:54:100:54:12

Comes highly recommended.

0:54:120:54:13

OK, erm...

0:54:130:54:15

My mum's dead and no amount of counselling

0:54:150:54:18

is going to bring her back.

0:54:180:54:20

Making sure the man responsible for her death is held accountable

0:54:200:54:23

is all I have.

0:54:230:54:25

Do you not understand that?

0:54:250:54:26

I just think sometimes grief can be very powerful

0:54:260:54:30

and it can make people do things that aren't...

0:54:300:54:33

..helpful or healthy.

0:54:330:54:36

And you don't even know that it's Ric's fault.

0:54:360:54:38

Of course I do! How can you be so naive?

0:54:380:54:40

-OK, I'm going to go.

-Look, Donna, listen to me.

0:54:400:54:43

-Please let go. You're hurting me.

-Please.

0:54:430:54:45

I need you by my side, do you not understand?

0:54:450:54:47

-Jeremy, let go of me!

-You said you would help.

0:54:470:54:50

-Donna!

-Let her go, right now.

0:54:500:54:52

Right now!

0:54:520:54:53

See when this is all over,

0:54:550:54:57

you're going to see Ric Griffin for what he really is.

0:54:570:55:00

A fraud. A killer.

0:55:000:55:02

You don't have the first clue about Ric

0:55:020:55:04

or what it takes to do this job. You have no idea.

0:55:040:55:06

-Jac...

-The sacrifices that we make, the pressure, day after day

0:55:060:55:11

and what that does to you.

0:55:110:55:13

And yet we still carry on.

0:55:130:55:15

We still come back to help people just like you.

0:55:150:55:17

Do you want sympathy?

0:55:170:55:18

No, I want you out of here.

0:55:180:55:20

-HE SCOFFS

-Jac!

0:55:200:55:22

Don't.

0:55:220:55:23

This woman threatened me.

0:55:230:55:25

Get him out of the hospital.

0:55:270:55:29

Big mistake.

0:55:310:55:33

Beautiful.

0:55:440:55:45

What's that for?

0:56:060:56:08

No reason.

0:56:080:56:09

-Are you heading home?

-Finally.

0:56:110:56:13

-You mind if I walk you to your car?

-If you like.

0:56:130:56:16

So, how did it go?

0:56:190:56:22

Look, don't ask.

0:56:220:56:23

I don't want to have to relive it just yet.

0:56:230:56:26

Well, we'll have find something else to talk about then.

0:56:270:56:31

Dogs or cats?

0:56:310:56:33

As a topic for a conversation or...?

0:56:330:56:36

Are you more of a dog person or a cat person?

0:56:360:56:38

Dogs all the way.

0:56:380:56:40

For their loyalty.

0:56:400:56:41

Exactly.

0:56:430:56:44

So Ollie doesn't mind covering for you?

0:56:480:56:51

He's what you call...

0:56:510:56:53

..a good friend.

0:56:530:56:54

And how is your Dutch these days?

0:56:540:56:56

Roestig.

0:56:560:56:57

Rusty?

0:56:570:57:00

It'll all come back when we get there.

0:57:000:57:02

Let me see it again.

0:57:040:57:05

New life, new hope.

0:57:130:57:15

-You're sure about this?

-About this?

0:57:160:57:19

About everything.

0:57:190:57:20

Matteo is determined to be a part of his child's life, but Nina isn't convinced he's ready - can they find their way back to one another, or will this prove one rift too many?

Emotions run high for Jac when Fletch confronts her about a patient's care. However, still in denial, Jac reels when events take a perilous turn.

Now that Ric is being prosecuted, it's time to draw a line in the sand - Donna must decide where her loyalties lie once and for all.


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