Episode 4 Broken


Episode 4

Drama. Father Michael risks breaking the seal of confession as he tries to help Roz Demichelis, while his childhood flashbacks intensify as his mother's condition deteriorates.


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-What did you do?

-I treated you women very badly.

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You dirty, filthy beast! You little horror!

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She needs you, Michael, and she needs to have total faith in you.

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I mean, why would you destroy all that just to clear

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-your own conscious?

-I can't do that while I'm hiding

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an inconvenient truth of my own.

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There are four betting shops in Hoar Cross Road.

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No bank, no post office, no chemist.

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But four betting shops.

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Why four, when everyone round there is skint?

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In a week or two, my boss is going to find out.

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Please don't kill yourself. I will show you how to atone.

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Promise me you won't kill yourself?

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This programme contains some strong language and scenes which some viewers may find upsetting.

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# Broken windows and empty hallways

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# A pale dead moon in a sky streaked with grey

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# Human kindness is overflowing

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# And I think it's gonna rain today. #

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HE BREATHES HEAVILY

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You were a bloody awful mother!

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And you, a horrible son!

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To scream at your child like that!

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To make your hatred so obvious!

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Your bed, a disgrace! You dirty, little horror!

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My dad's not here, cos life with you,

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that was his purgatory.

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You are here!

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What a hypocrite you are.

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Yeah! Hypocrite or no, I'd never destroy my own child!

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Not a child, a dog!

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A dirty, stinking dog!

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-Something wrong with you!

-It were no big thing.

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Something seriously wrong with you!

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If you don't want to see me again, you tosser, fine!

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Everyone said it! "That Michael Kerrigan, what a headcase he is!"

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-You were two sluts!

-You meant nothing, nothing to me!

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Yeah, you were two sluts, you were!

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You especially, chewing all the way through it!

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"Don't go near that prick," that's what we told each other.

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Oh, yeah? What did you expect?

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How can anyone have respect for two little sluts like you?

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All that ever mattered to you was that!

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Oh! Who wants to bring up an arrogant child?

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Hey? Slightest sign, you knock it out of them.

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Always at it.

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Trouble is, you knock out confidence,

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and ambition and pride and self-esteem!

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Always at it.

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You made me a self-loathing wreck!

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But that's OK, cos I was not arrogant!

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TRAIN HORN BLARES

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-You're going to have to save me.

-What with, you pillock?

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-"What with?"

-Yeah.

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Can you stop talking over the table, for God's sake?

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Hey, hey! You talk over the table.

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-I don't.

-Oh, no, you don't.

-I don't.

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-Shut it, Saint Bloody Michael.

-But every time I've got a decent

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-chance of winning a hand, you do.

-You know what I've got, don't you?

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-Yeah.

-Yeah, right, well, then I repeat - save me.

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And I repeat - what with?

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You've got the ace of spades!

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Why are you telling everybody what you've got?

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I mean, where's the skill in that?

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I gave him three cards at the beginning of this game

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and then you gave me three cards.

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Same bloody cards, different colour!

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The whole point of playing cards is you don't know what each

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other's got. I mean, what's the point in playing if you don't...

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-You cheating shit!

-Where's the skill, where's the pleasure?

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I can't lose. Leave.

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-You've had it, anyway.

-That's it, he's home.

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You cheating get!

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You need to calm down a bit you do, I'll tell you that.

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Anyway, I've got to get off.

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-Mam'll be all right. Beth's with her.

-Give me that here.

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It's just that she's been with her all day, so she'll want to get off.

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-All right.

-And give my regards.

-Yeah.

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-Don't forget your money.

-Take it steady out there.

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-See you.

-Enjoy your winnings.

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KNOCK ON DOOR

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-Hi.

-Hiya, forgot my key.

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Michael's here, Mam.

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Hiya, Mam. Be up soon!

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How is she?

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Not good. She won't tell you that, but she's not good.

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-Right.

-Who won?

-Guess.

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-Bye, Mam! Bye.

-See you, ta-ra.

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It was the night Joe played in the Sheffield and Hallamshire final,

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and those two coppers came for my dad.

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He hadn't paid a fine or something.

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Court order.

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Anyway, the last thing our Joe sees before he disappears up the street

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is Dad getting marched down it by these two coppers.

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But they only take him to the bottom and they let him go.

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Anyway, Dad comes back and I said, "Why did they let you go?"

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And he says, "You can't get blood out of a stone, son."

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But our Joe hadn't seen any of this.

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He thinks Dad's in the nick.

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So, we're up in the stands at Bramall Lane,

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me and me dad, floodlights and everything.

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And the teams come out.

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And I'm desperate for Joe to see that Dad's with me,

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so I'm shouting out "Joe! Joe!"

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But Joe can't see, because of the floodlights.

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He can hear me, but he can't see me.

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So I start shouting, "Me Dad's here! Me Dad's here!"

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And everyone in the stand's looking round at me, thinking what

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I'm going on about.

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But I don't care, just so long as our Joe don't have to play

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the biggest game of his life thinking me dad's in the nick.

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"Me Dad's here! Me Dad's here!"

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Mum!

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They're ruined. Actually ruined!

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Dickhead. You're paying for them!

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Mum told me to do the washing and I have.

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He did it on purpose. He did it on purpose!

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-No, I never!

-You did! You so did!

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I said, "Separate the whites," didn't I? Didn't I say?

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I did! I made a pile of them, but they must have been

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-rolled up somewhere.

-Mum, tell him.

-Where you going?

-School.

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-Without eating?

-I'll get something there.

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Why did you tell him to do the washing anyway?

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Because he has to learn.

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But he can't even wash himself.

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Shut your face, right now!

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I'm not doing it any more, and if you've any sense,

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neither should you.

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So he has to learn.

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They have to learn.

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Come here.

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There he is.

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He's a good boy.

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-Where are you going?

-Work.

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-What, you not giving me a lift?

-No.

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Why didn't you say?

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Make sure everything's locked.

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-What?

-What's she doing?

-I don't know.

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What are you doing?

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BELLS RING

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Brothers and sisters, let us acknowledge our sins.

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And so prepare ourselves to celebrate the sacred mysteries.

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'You're a thief, Kerrigan.

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'A thief!'

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What is he, boys?

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-BOYS ALL SHOUT:

-Thief! Thief! Thief! Thief!

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Thief! Thief! Thief! Thief!

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Thief! Thief! Thief! Thief!

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A thief!

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The school stopped asking me for dinner money,

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so I stopped asking my mam for it.

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Went on for over a year and then they realised their mistake,

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and asked me what I'd done with all the money.

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I said I'd spent it.

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Better to be thought a thief than a pauper.

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Yeah. Is that a sin?

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I confess to Almighty God...

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-CONGREGATION JOINS:

-And to you, my brothers and sisters,

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that I have greatly sinned, in my thoughts and in my words,

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in what I have done and in what I have failed to do.

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Through my fault, through my fault,

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through my most grievous fault.

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Therefore, I ask blessed Mary, ever-virgin, all the angels

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and saints and you, my brothers and sisters.

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Bernadette Jenkins is here.

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She gets the results of her scan Tuesday morning,

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so she's asked us to remember her in our prayers.

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And Helen Oyenusi's with us again today,

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which reminds me to remind you of tonight's candlelit vigil outside

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Laurel Road Police Station.

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All are welcome.

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Including police officers, Andrew.

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No implied criticism here.

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PHONE RINGS

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Hello, Michael Kerrigan.

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It's Roz Demichelis, Michael.

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Oh, how are you?

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Good, yeah, you?

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Yeah, I'm good, thank you.

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What's that?

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Microwave.

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I'm doing Singapore noodles.

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Is there no end to this man's talents?

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Listen, I can see into my boss's office.

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He's on the phone.

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There's a cheque on his desk for £1,900, payable to Elaine Coombs.

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But there is no Elaine Coombs. Elaine Coombs is me.

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If he's on to accounts, and I think he is, he'll be getting told

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that there are well over 100 similar cheques,

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payable to Elaine Coombs.

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All signed by me.

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Totals £232,648.

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I think he just said, "I can't believe it."

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I think he said it again.

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He's getting off the phone.

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He's coming out, he's coming over.

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So, yeah, so, I think that would be...

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Can I see you in the office, Roz?

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-Yeah. Just finish this call.

-Yeah.

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Not to put too fine a point on it, Michael, but I am fucked.

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Can I help?

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Can I come and see you?

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Yes. When?

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Well, he's going to sack me, so I've got the rest of the day free.

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Unless he calls the police, but I'm going to ask him to defer

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that till tomorrow. So...

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..this afternoon?

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Yeah, three o'clock?

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Yeah. I'll see you then.

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Enjoy your noodles.

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What is it?

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I'm hoping you can sort something out, Roz.

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I'm praying you can sort it out.

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I'll do my best.

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Take a look at this.

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A cheque's been returned.

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-Why?

-No date.

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Who's Elaine Coombs, Roz?

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Me.

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At least one cheque a month.

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All for just under two grand so they don't need countersigning.

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How much altogether?

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-Didn't they tell you?

-They can only go back six years.

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I assume you've been at it longer than that.

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Eight years altogether.

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£232,648.

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Why?

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-I'm a thief.

-No, no, no.

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Why?

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Why did you steal from me?

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What made you do it?

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-You want the truth?

-Yeah.

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-The idiotic truth?

-Yes.

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Coke.

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Nah.

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No, large gin and tonic, you're off your head.

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You snort 230K's worth of coke, I'd notice.

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It's gone, Jamie.

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I lived the good life for a while and now it's all gone.

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You're lying!

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Oh, you look good, Roz.

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You always look good.

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But I don't believe you've spent 250,000 on yourself

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over the last few years.

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You've lived in the same house since the day you married that gobshite.

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Your last holiday was a fortnight in Windermere,

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which doesn't exactly count as an exotic holiday.

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You've got a company car!

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So where's all this money?

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It's gone.

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You pay me it back...

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I don't phone the police.

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You're sacked, yeah, but no police involved.

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You don't pay me back...

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..you go down, Roz, and you go down for years.

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And if you think it's worth it, if you think you can just do

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a few years, come out with 200 grand stashed away somewhere,

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well think again.

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Cos they'll be all over you like a rash.

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They'll go through everything, Roz.

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Every penny you've spent, every bloody postage stamp you bought!

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They won't let you away with a carrot!

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They'll find nothing.

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And I'll do my bit too, cos I want my money back.

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I want every single penny back...

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and I won't rest till I've got it.

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I'll be watching you like a hawk.

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It's all gone, Jamie.

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-It can't all be gone!

-Please, not my face.

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230 grand she's robbed, this thieving bitch!

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230 grand!

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Police, please.

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Can I ask you to wait till tomorrow, Jamie?

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What?

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-I've got things to do tonight.

-What kind of things?

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-Things.

-Tough.

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With the kids.

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I have things with the kids.

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Thank you.

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Then he told them that I was the thieving bitch who'd robbed

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200 grand off him.

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And I wished he had punched me.

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You think he's calling out there?

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Yeah.

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I do too.

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There are lots of different versions of the stations of the cross.

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Some have Christ falling three times, some just once.

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But some end with Christ entombed, some with him rising.

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But no matter what version you're looking at...

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there's one that's never there, and that's Christ calling out,

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on the cross, in despair, "My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?"

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I think that's because they can't handle it.

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Christ, the Son of God, in despair.

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What chance have we got?

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But I'd always have that one.

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He knew despair, he understands.

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You know, one of the last people he spoke to alive, Roz,

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was a common thief.

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He'll speak to you.

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He'll be saying, right up to the very end,

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"Choose hope, not despair.

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"Life, not death."

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Is there any way you can pay it back?

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Have you got any money tied up in the house?

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No.

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Convince the judge you can pay it back.

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You see, you'd be looking at three years rather than four or five.

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You do half, don't forget. Get three years, that's only 18 months.

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And it's white collar, so you'll spend most of it in an open prison.

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How do you know all that?

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Internet.

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I'm grateful, Michael.

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I am.

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But I'm not going to prison. I'm afraid.

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Why?

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I mean, why now?

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You've done the hardest bit, you've faced him and told him.

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No, that's not the hardest bit.

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It's everyone knowing.

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Neighbours, friends, all wetting themselves with glee.

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You said that you've lived with shame, Michael, but you haven't.

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It's guilt that you've lived with.

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Guilt over the way you treated those women.

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Tell the world and then that's shame.

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Did you tell him it went on machines?

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-No.

-Why not?

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I'd sooner him despise me than pity me.

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Yeah.

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Would you fuck me, Michael, please?

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What?

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I think you heard.

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I can't.

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I'm sure it would be a wonderful experience, but I can't.

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I'll be dead tomorrow, so nobody would know.

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I'll be dead tomorrow, so it's the least you can do.

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It's the least any gentleman can do.

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Yeah, well, I can't.

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You get a lot of offers?

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Yeah, a few.

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You get more wearing the collar though?

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-Yeah.

-Yeah.

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How were you going to do it?

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We're here to talk about you, Roz.

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Was it a train?

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-Have you got your mobile?

-Yeah.

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Put my number in, will you?

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How were you going to do it?

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My number is 07700900481.

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Just give it to me again.

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Yeah, 07700900481.

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Right.

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Phone me if you change your mind.

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If at any point you change your mind, early on, late on,

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very late on, phone me and I'll get to you.

0:22:220:22:25

I won't change my mind.

0:22:260:22:28

Well, promise me if you do then you'll call me?

0:22:280:22:30

I promise.

0:22:320:22:33

Where will you do it?

0:22:390:22:41

At home, in my bed.

0:22:450:22:46

Will the kids find you?

0:22:510:22:52

No, no, they'll be at school.

0:22:520:22:54

My ex, Paul's coming over.

0:22:570:22:58

He thinks to fix the radiator in my bedroom.

0:22:580:23:00

-He'll find me.

-Please don't do it, Roz.

0:23:000:23:02

How many politicians have there been caught with their fingers

0:23:040:23:07

in the till? They're worse than you, cos they're bloody hypocrites.

0:23:070:23:10

Laying down the law for others, breaking it themselves.

0:23:100:23:13

They come out of prison and throw themselves into penal reform

0:23:130:23:15

and campaigns for this, that and the other.

0:23:150:23:18

Prison's the making of them, Roz, and it can be for you.

0:23:180:23:21

Fight them. Fight those bloody machines and go to prison

0:23:210:23:24

and come back out and fight them again.

0:23:240:23:26

-I can't.

-You can!

0:23:260:23:28

You can.

0:23:300:23:32

Look, there's a meeting tomorrow down at the council.

0:23:320:23:34

-You come along...

-No, I can't.

0:23:340:23:36

Then let me tell someone about this. Let me...

0:23:360:23:38

No!

0:23:380:23:39

Will you join me in a prayer?

0:23:500:23:52

Yeah.

0:23:540:23:55

-Shall we?

-Yeah.

0:23:580:23:59

This is Roz Demichelis, Lord.

0:24:050:24:07

She doesn't know how much you love her, how much she matters to you.

0:24:090:24:12

Can you find some way of showing her?

0:24:140:24:16

Thank you, Lord.

0:24:180:24:19

-Amen.

-Amen.

0:24:190:24:21

Phone me, Roz, and I'll get to you.

0:24:330:24:35

I'll get to you, Roz, I promise.

0:24:460:24:48

You go to any food bank and you ask them what they need most

0:25:010:25:04

and they'll tell you pasta. It's cheap and nutritious.

0:25:040:25:06

You can feed an army. Bit of pasta, bit of sauce.

0:25:060:25:09

How long's that now?

0:25:120:25:13

Five minutes.

0:25:150:25:16

Right. Is there any pink showing?

0:25:160:25:19

No.

0:25:190:25:20

That's the main thing. You don't want any pink.

0:25:200:25:23

Open the sauce.

0:25:240:25:26

Pink inside a steak's fine, but pink in a pan of mince, is a no-no.

0:25:270:25:31

Right, pour the sauce in.

0:25:310:25:33

Put the whole thing in.

0:25:340:25:36

Are you watching this?

0:25:400:25:41

-Yeah.

-I am no longer cooking for you, do you understand that?

0:25:410:25:45

Get that straight. I am not cooking for you.

0:25:450:25:48

So what are you going to do?

0:25:500:25:51

Chlo'll do it.

0:25:510:25:53

No, she won't.

0:25:530:25:55

She will be no man's skivvy.

0:25:560:25:58

-So you need to watch how it's done, yeah?

-Right.

-Right.

0:25:590:26:02

OK.

0:26:050:26:07

Is it boiling?

0:26:080:26:11

-Yeah.

-All right, just turn it down and let it simmer.

0:26:110:26:14

You don't want to boil it dry.

0:26:170:26:18

All right, spaghetti.

0:26:220:26:24

How much do you think we need for four?

0:26:240:26:26

-All of it.

-Yeah.

0:26:290:26:31

Whack it in.

0:26:320:26:33

You think it's bad, yeah?

0:26:510:26:52

Yeah.

0:26:540:26:55

Well, wait till you taste his pudding.

0:26:570:26:59

-What are you doing?

-What?

0:27:110:27:13

-For God's sakes!

-What?

0:27:150:27:17

You don't turn it on until it's full and it's nowhere near full!

0:27:170:27:19

Right, whatever!

0:27:190:27:21

Don't talk to me like that!

0:27:210:27:23

Running it when it's empty costs me money.

0:27:230:27:25

I'm the one that has to find that.

0:27:250:27:26

-It's not empty!

-It's virtually empty, look at it.

0:27:260:27:30

And this, this is just ridiculous.

0:27:300:27:33

Common sense should tell you that that's just wrong.

0:27:330:27:36

-Why?

-Because...

0:27:360:27:37

..spoons and forks should face the same way.

0:27:380:27:41

If they face the same way they take up less space

0:27:410:27:45

and we want this thing as full as possible before we switch it on,

0:27:450:27:48

because it costs money to run.

0:27:480:27:50

-Right?

-Right!

0:27:500:27:51

So spoons and forks the same way in future, yeah?

0:27:530:27:56

Yeah.

0:27:560:27:57

And what's this?

0:27:570:27:59

A plate.

0:27:590:28:00

It's filthy.

0:28:010:28:03

They're all filthy.

0:28:030:28:05

That's why they're in there.

0:28:050:28:06

No, you rinse them before you put them in.

0:28:060:28:09

There's two reasons for that.

0:28:090:28:10

One, if you rinse them before you put them in,

0:28:100:28:12

you don't clog the machine.

0:28:120:28:14

-Two, we want it as full as possible before we turn it on, yes?

-Yes.

0:28:140:28:18

That's been established beyond all reasonable doubt, right?

0:28:180:28:21

-Yes!

-So there's going to be dishes in here overnight that are dirty.

0:28:210:28:25

-I don't want them stinking up the kitchen.

-Right!

0:28:260:28:29

I'm so sick of this house.

0:28:410:28:42

And I'm so sick of you and him acting the eejit.

0:28:490:28:52

I'm just so sick of it!

0:28:520:28:54

KNOCK ON DOOR

0:29:100:29:11

Yeah?

0:29:150:29:16

Can I come in?

0:29:160:29:18

Yes.

0:29:180:29:19

What you doing?

0:29:230:29:24

Writing a letter to Auntie Jackie.

0:29:260:29:28

She's on e-mail.

0:29:280:29:30

I know.

0:29:300:29:31

She likes getting letters.

0:29:320:29:34

I brought you this.

0:29:360:29:37

Thanks.

0:29:390:29:40

Are you all right?

0:29:440:29:45

Yeah.

0:29:480:29:49

I'm sorry.

0:29:520:29:54

Right.

0:30:160:30:17

Write.

0:30:290:30:30

I will.

0:30:320:30:33

CROWD SINGS AMAZING GRACE

0:30:450:30:53

Thanks for this.

0:32:010:32:02

So how's the flashbacks going?

0:32:060:32:09

Oh, I'm excelling myself.

0:32:090:32:11

Flash forwards these days...

0:32:110:32:12

..to purgatory.

0:32:140:32:15

Cold wind, thin air, people telling each other bitter truths,

0:32:150:32:19

purgatory as other people.

0:32:190:32:21

Thanks.

0:32:240:32:25

Someone in confession has told me she's going to kill herself.

0:32:280:32:31

You believe her?

0:32:330:32:35

Totally.

0:32:350:32:36

I asked her if I could tell someone about it -

0:32:380:32:40

openly, I mean - and she said no.

0:32:400:32:42

What can I do?

0:32:470:32:48

Is it imminent?

0:32:520:32:53

Tomorrow.

0:32:530:32:55

And have you told her if she changes her mind that she can...?

0:32:550:32:57

Yeah, I've given my mobile number.

0:32:570:32:59

I used to relish these prospects, Peter.

0:33:030:33:05

All those stories of Catholic martyrs going to their deaths

0:33:070:33:10

before breaking the seal of the confession.

0:33:100:33:13

Yeah, I'll have some of that.

0:33:160:33:18

They might even make me a saint.

0:33:200:33:22

-But I never envisaged this.

-No.

0:33:240:33:27

I see it now for what it is, of course, the seal.

0:33:280:33:31

It's a sales pitch.

0:33:310:33:33

The best ever. Every religion wishes it had it.

0:33:330:33:35

That's all it is, a bloody sales pitch.

0:33:350:33:38

"Ten billion confessions heard, not one revealed.

0:33:380:33:40

"Buy now while stocks last."

0:33:400:33:42

Tell me I should tell someone.

0:33:470:33:49

I'm back on the sugar.

0:33:550:33:56

I know. It's pathetic, isn't it?

0:34:020:34:05

I just didn't want you to know.

0:34:070:34:09

Yeah.

0:34:090:34:10

You see, the thing is, you could tell someone, and that someone

0:34:120:34:15

could intervene and the likelihood is,

0:34:150:34:19

is the next day she might kill herself.

0:34:190:34:21

Only the next day, she doesn't have the option to call you,

0:34:210:34:24

because guess what?

0:34:240:34:25

What?

0:34:270:34:29

You've betrayed her.

0:34:290:34:30

Aye.

0:34:340:34:36

-Do you know what we should do?

-What?

0:34:400:34:43

Pray.

0:34:430:34:44

I nearly said, "Is that all?" God forgive me.

0:34:470:34:49

Lord, lift up our weary spirits...

0:34:510:34:55

-BOTH:

-So that we might find rest and eternal peace within you.

0:34:550:35:00

May we stand on mountains and walk on stormy seas.

0:35:000:35:05

Give us that unspeakable joy to dance in the rain.

0:35:050:35:08

-Amen.

-Amen.

0:35:080:35:10

See you, Mum!

0:35:500:35:51

There we go.

0:37:490:37:50

That's my boy.

0:37:520:37:53

Father, it's shrunk!

0:39:100:39:12

It's shrunk!

0:39:140:39:16

Oh! Fantastic!

0:39:160:39:17

Stay with your granny.

0:39:220:39:24

There's a good boy.

0:39:260:39:27

It's going to be nice.

0:39:300:39:31

Surprise, surprise.

0:39:450:39:46

Come in.

0:39:470:39:48

Why are you here?

0:39:560:39:58

I was hoping you would look after Woody for me.

0:39:580:40:01

Who's Woody?

0:40:010:40:02

The dog!

0:40:030:40:05

Why? Where are you going?

0:40:050:40:06

Work's really busy.

0:40:080:40:10

He's on his own too much.

0:40:100:40:12

What would I do with a dog?

0:40:120:40:14

I thought he could keep you company.

0:40:150:40:17

Do the kids not look after him?

0:40:170:40:19

They're always out.

0:40:190:40:20

You can't just give their dog away.

0:40:200:40:22

He's my dog.

0:40:220:40:23

They won't even notice.

0:40:260:40:27

Will you take him or not?

0:40:300:40:31

It'd need walking.

0:40:330:40:35

Just for the toilet and then a little run later.

0:40:350:40:38

It's no big deal.

0:40:380:40:39

-Where would I take it?

-Out the back field.

0:40:390:40:42

Will you stop saying "it"?

0:40:420:40:43

It's a boy.

0:40:440:40:46

How long for?

0:40:490:40:50

I'm not sure.

0:40:530:40:56

A while.

0:40:560:40:57

Will you come and see him?

0:40:580:41:00

He won't cost you anything.

0:41:100:41:11

Whatever.

0:41:150:41:17

Can he stay?

0:41:180:41:20

Yes.

0:41:200:41:21

He sleeps upstairs, on the bed. Is that all right?

0:41:280:41:31

-Are you sick?

-No.

0:41:310:41:33

Got a fella?

0:41:330:41:35

-So what's wrong with you?

-Nothing.

0:41:380:41:40

Make sure you take water up to bed with you.

0:41:580:42:02

And don't feed him shite food, or chocolate.

0:42:020:42:04

PHONE RINGS

0:42:430:42:46

Hi.

0:42:530:42:54

Where are you?

0:42:540:42:55

-Work.

-Nan's been on.

0:42:570:42:59

You've given her the dog?

0:43:010:43:03

-Yeah.

-Why?

0:43:050:43:07

I don't want to look after him any more.

0:43:090:43:11

Well, I'll look after him.

0:43:110:43:12

'No, you won't, Chlo.'

0:43:120:43:14

You'll do it for a week and then you'll get fed up again.

0:43:140:43:16

She says you're acting strange.

0:43:160:43:18

I'm acting strange?

0:43:180:43:19

'What's wrong?'

0:43:200:43:21

Nothing.

0:43:230:43:24

Honestly.

0:43:240:43:25

Bye.

0:43:280:43:29

Are you going anywhere nice?

0:44:190:44:20

I hope so.

0:44:230:44:24

-What's the alternative?

-Anything.

0:44:330:44:35

Well, what exactly? A Harvey Nicks?

0:44:350:44:36

I dunno. A charity shop, anything.

0:44:360:44:38

Anything but another bloody betting shop.

0:44:380:44:40

You wouldn't even get a charity shop.

0:44:400:44:42

Look, there's four boarded up shops there already. This'll be five.

0:44:420:44:45

Fine.

0:44:450:44:47

Better boarded up than sucking the people dry,

0:44:470:44:49

because that's all they're doing.

0:44:490:44:50

I'm sorry, Father, but I'm getting a little bit sick of this, actually.

0:44:500:44:53

-Is it all right if I speak my mind?

-Yeah.

0:44:530:44:55

Just forget your prayer that you've said at the start.

0:44:550:44:57

-Please do.

-OK.

0:44:570:44:59

Well, I'm sorry, but I'm finding all of this

0:44:590:45:01

a little bit hypocritical, actually.

0:45:010:45:03

These machines are evil when they're in our betting shops,

0:45:030:45:06

but they're fine when they're in your social club, Father.

0:45:060:45:08

Two of them you've got.

0:45:080:45:10

I mean, if gambling was so bad, then how come so much of it

0:45:100:45:12

goes on in your parish?

0:45:120:45:14

The spot the ball, the bonus ball, the raffle.

0:45:140:45:16

You lose that, Father, and you'd be skint, you know it.

0:45:160:45:19

Now, the firm I work for, it employs 15,000 people.

0:45:210:45:25

That's 15,000 wage packets, on top of rates,

0:45:250:45:27

corporation tax and God knows what else.

0:45:270:45:30

You've got to see it's crucial, Father.

0:45:300:45:32

First, I'm sorry I've upset you, Jean.

0:45:320:45:35

Second, the machines in Saint Nick's

0:45:350:45:38

are nothing like those in your shops.

0:45:380:45:41

Ours take ten pence coins, yours take £10 notes.

0:45:410:45:43

We'll come back to this, Jean, if that's OK.

0:45:450:45:48

This is Roz Demichelis, everyone.

0:45:480:45:52

I hope you don't mind, but I've invited her along today because she

0:45:520:45:56

can speak from...

0:45:560:45:58

personal experience on this matter. So...

0:45:580:46:00

Isn't that right, Roz?

0:46:020:46:03

Yeah.

0:46:050:46:06

Yes.

0:46:090:46:10

I'm Roz.

0:46:320:46:33

I'm 45. I have three kids.

0:46:350:46:38

For the past eight years, I've worked full time as an

0:46:410:46:44

office manager in Bolthursts.

0:46:440:46:47

Before that, I was a stay at home mum, which was nice.

0:46:490:46:53

I have a good life.

0:46:540:46:56

Had a good life.

0:47:000:47:01

Yesterday, my boss, who's been a good friend to me...

0:47:070:47:12

..found out that I took...

0:47:130:47:16

..I've been taking - as in stealing - from him and his company.

0:47:170:47:20

£232,648 is the total that I've...

0:47:250:47:30

..taken from him.

0:47:310:47:32

Stole from him.

0:47:350:47:36

I used the money, the vast majority of it...

0:47:450:47:49

..I put into...

0:47:510:47:52

..machines in betting shops.

0:47:540:47:56

Some of it was on online bingo,

0:47:570:48:00

but most of it, I'd say 200 grand, it went into machines.

0:48:000:48:04

I grew up, went to school, went to college, got a job,

0:48:070:48:12

got a house, had kids, got a dog.

0:48:120:48:16

I...

0:48:190:48:20

I'm not anxious or depressed.

0:48:220:48:24

I don't drink or snort coke

0:48:240:48:27

and I'm not stupid.

0:48:270:48:29

I'm not the cleverest person in the world.

0:48:310:48:33

But I have a B in O-level Maths,

0:48:330:48:37

and I know that the odds of feeding a machine and coming out on top

0:48:370:48:44

are very slim.

0:48:440:48:45

But that is what I did.

0:48:480:48:49

I just started and I couldn't stop.

0:48:510:48:53

If you'd have told me ten years ago, if you'd said

0:48:560:48:59

that I would wind up here, I would have laughed in your face.

0:48:590:49:03

I suppose everybody has their thing.

0:49:070:49:09

The thing that makes them feel something...

0:49:120:49:14

..when they can't feel anything.

0:49:170:49:19

Or when they want to disappear.

0:49:210:49:23

And those machines, they were my thing.

0:49:270:49:30

I cared more about them than anything.

0:49:310:49:33

And if my boss, my friend...

0:49:350:49:39

..hadn't found out...

0:49:410:49:42

..they would still be my thing.

0:49:440:49:46

That's it.

0:49:510:49:54

I mean, that's all, really.

0:49:540:49:55

Just...

0:49:590:50:00

I would say, just don't think that this is something

0:50:010:50:03

that happens to other people.

0:50:030:50:06

You know, other people that aren't like you,

0:50:060:50:07

other people different from you.

0:50:070:50:11

It could happen to your kid, you, your mother, your brother.

0:50:110:50:14

Just don't let them near them.

0:50:170:50:19

Because they are evil.

0:50:210:50:22

That's it really. That's all.

0:50:280:50:30

Just...

0:50:330:50:34

I don't really have anything else to say.

0:50:440:50:46

-Would it be OK if I leave?

-Yeah.

0:50:460:50:49

Yes.

0:50:490:50:50

Well?

0:51:280:51:29

Know-all.

0:51:350:51:36

You did it.

0:52:080:52:09

Central College, Garmoyle, please.

0:52:120:52:14

You broke all the rules.

0:52:160:52:17

Yes, put me through, please. Thanks.

0:52:190:52:21

I'm only bending one.

0:52:240:52:25

Oh, hello. You have a student there called Chloe Demichelis?

0:52:260:52:29

The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ and the love of God and the

0:52:310:52:34

communion of the Holy Spirit be with you all.

0:52:340:52:37

-ALL:

-And with your spirit.

0:52:370:52:38

Brothers and sisters...

0:52:390:52:41

..let us acknowledge our sins, and so prepare ourselves to celebrate

0:52:450:52:50

the sacred mysteries.

0:52:500:52:52

-ALL:

-I confess to Almighty God and to you, my brothers and sisters,

0:52:520:52:57

that I have greatly sinned in my thoughts and in my words,

0:52:570:53:02

in what I have done and what I have failed to do.

0:53:020:53:06

Through my fault, through my fault,

0:53:070:53:09

through my most grievous fault.

0:53:090:53:12

Therefore, I ask blessed Mary, ever virgin, all the angels and saints

0:53:120:53:17

and you, my brothers and sisters, to pray for me to the Lord, our God.

0:53:170:53:22

May Almighty God have mercy on us,

0:53:230:53:25

forgive us our sins and bring us to everlasting life.

0:53:250:53:29

Amen.

0:53:290:53:30

Lord have mercy.

0:53:300:53:32

Lord have mercy.

0:53:320:53:33

-Christ have mercy.

-Christ have mercy.

0:53:330:53:35

Lord have mercy.

0:53:350:53:36

-ALL:

-Lord have mercy.

0:53:360:53:38

I believe in God, the Father almighty,

0:53:380:53:41

creator of heaven and Earth, and in Jesus Christ, his only Son,

0:53:410:53:46

our Lord, who was conceived by the Holy Spirit,

0:53:460:53:50

born of the Virgin Mary, suffered under Pontius Pilate,

0:53:500:53:55

was crucified, died and was buried.

0:53:550:53:58

He descended into hell.

0:54:000:54:02

On the third day, he rose again from the dead.

0:54:020:54:05

He ascended into heaven and is seated at the right hand of God,

0:54:050:54:09

the Father almighty.

0:54:090:54:11

From there, he will come to judge the living and the dead.

0:54:110:54:14

I believe in the Holy Spirit, the holy Catholic Church,

0:54:150:54:20

the communion of saints, the forgiveness of sins,

0:54:200:54:23

the resurrection of the body,

0:54:230:54:25

and everlasting life.

0:54:250:54:27

Amen.

0:54:270:54:29

-The Lord be with you.

-And be with your spirit.

0:54:290:54:32

Lift up your hearts.

0:54:320:54:33

We lift them up to the Lord.

0:54:330:54:35

Let us give thanks to the Lord, our God.

0:54:350:54:37

It is right and just.

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Holy, holy, holy Lord God of hosts.

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Heaven and Earth are full of your glory.

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Hosanna in the highest.

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Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord.

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Hosanna in the highest.

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Through him and with him and in him,

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O God, almighty Father, in the unity of the Holy Spirit,

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all glory and honour is yours, forever and ever.

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Amen.

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At the Saviour's command and formed by divine teaching we dare say...

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Our Father, who art in Heaven, hallowed be thy name,

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thy kingdom come, thy will be done on Earth as it is in Heaven.

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Give us this day our daily bread, and forgive us our trespasses

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as we forgive those who trespass against us.

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And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.

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Deliver us, Lord, we pray, from every evil.

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Graciously grant peace in our days that, by the help of your mercy,

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we may be always free from sin and safe from all distress.

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As we await the blessed hope and the coming of our Saviour, Jesus Christ.

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For the kingdom, the power and the glory are yours now and forever.

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Lamb of God, you take away the sins of the world, have mercy on us.

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Lamb of God, you take away the sins of the world, have mercy on us.

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Lamb of God, you take away the sins of the world, grant us peace.

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Behold the Lamb of God.

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MICHAEL'S PHONE RINGS

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Behold him who takes away the sins of the world.

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Blessed are those called to the supper of the lamb.

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Lord, I am not worthy that you should enter under my roof,

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but only say the word and my soul shall be healed.

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-The body of Christ.

-Amen.

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-The body of Christ.

-Amen.

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-ROZ:

-'I changed my plans, Michael.

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'Worried you might intervene.

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'Which would have been touching, but misguided.

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'Bye, Michael.'

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# We are lost

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# We are scattered

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# We're barmy and we're battered

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# We might be bruised but we're not broken

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# Hallelujah

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# Hallelujah

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# We might be bruised but we're not broken. #

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Father Michael risks breaking the seal of confession as he tries to help Roz Demichelis, while his childhood flashbacks intensify as his mother's condition deteriorates.


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