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-I changed my plans, Michael. Worried you might intervene. -How is she? | 0:00:02 | 0:00:05 | |
Not good. She won't tell you that, but she's not good. | 0:00:05 | 0:00:07 | |
I'm scared there's no Heaven. Death is just the end. | 0:00:07 | 0:00:11 | |
-And I'm scared of that end. -So, how's the flashbacks going? | 0:00:11 | 0:00:14 | |
Flash-forwards, these days. | 0:00:14 | 0:00:16 | |
It's purgatory, people telling each other bitter truths. | 0:00:16 | 0:00:19 | |
You made me a self-loathing wreck! | 0:00:19 | 0:00:21 | |
And the phone rang. | 0:00:21 | 0:00:23 | |
Helen Oyenusi about Vernon. | 0:00:23 | 0:00:26 | |
I didn't pick up. A few hours later, he was dead. | 0:00:26 | 0:00:29 | |
They won't let me see him. | 0:00:29 | 0:00:30 | |
Some police officers in my parish have... They've killed a young man. | 0:00:30 | 0:00:33 | |
They're all colluding, protecting the officers responsible. | 0:00:33 | 0:00:37 | |
I'd like to bury my son. | 0:00:37 | 0:00:39 | |
This programme contains some strong language | 0:00:43 | 0:00:51 | |
# Broken windows in empty hallways | 0:00:52 | 0:00:57 | |
# A pale dead moon in a sky streaked with grey | 0:00:57 | 0:01:01 | |
# Human kindness is overflowing | 0:01:03 | 0:01:08 | |
# And I think it's gonna rain... | 0:01:08 | 0:01:12 | |
# Today. # | 0:01:12 | 0:01:14 | |
I'm going to sprinkle Roz's coffin with holy water now. | 0:01:25 | 0:01:28 | |
To remind us of her baptism. | 0:01:28 | 0:01:31 | |
Jesus said to her, | 0:01:35 | 0:01:37 | |
"I am the resurrection and the life. | 0:01:37 | 0:01:39 | |
"Whoever believes in me shall live, even in death. | 0:01:39 | 0:01:43 | |
"And whoever lives and believes in me shall never die." | 0:01:43 | 0:01:47 | |
Eternal rest grant unto her, oh, Lord. | 0:01:50 | 0:01:54 | |
And let perpetual light shine upon her. | 0:01:54 | 0:01:57 | |
May she rest in peace. | 0:01:57 | 0:01:59 | |
Amen. | 0:01:59 | 0:02:00 | |
May her soul and the souls of all the faithful departed, | 0:02:00 | 0:02:04 | |
through the mercy of God, rest in peace. | 0:02:04 | 0:02:07 | |
Amen. | 0:02:07 | 0:02:08 | |
WOMAN CRIES | 0:02:12 | 0:02:14 | |
-May I scrounge a lift from you? -Yes. | 0:02:45 | 0:02:47 | |
She was never religious. | 0:02:52 | 0:02:53 | |
No? | 0:02:54 | 0:02:57 | |
No. HE LAUGHS | 0:02:57 | 0:02:58 | |
So how did you meet? | 0:03:00 | 0:03:02 | |
She came to see me. | 0:03:02 | 0:03:04 | |
To tell you what she decided to do? | 0:03:05 | 0:03:07 | |
I can't tell you that, Chloe. | 0:03:10 | 0:03:12 | |
Did she talk about us? | 0:03:15 | 0:03:16 | |
Oh, yes. | 0:03:16 | 0:03:17 | |
She said she loved you very much. You and the boys. | 0:03:19 | 0:03:21 | |
It didn't stop her, though, did it? | 0:03:23 | 0:03:24 | |
-Didn't her letter explain it all? -No. | 0:03:26 | 0:03:28 | |
That was all about how much she loved us. | 0:03:30 | 0:03:32 | |
Do you think she wanted you to talk her out of it? | 0:03:37 | 0:03:39 | |
Perhaps. | 0:03:41 | 0:03:43 | |
Did you try? | 0:03:43 | 0:03:45 | |
Yes, I tried very hard. | 0:03:47 | 0:03:49 | |
I'm going to pay it all back. | 0:03:53 | 0:03:54 | |
-Oh... No-one expects that of you. -I expect it of me. | 0:03:54 | 0:03:59 | |
It'll take me years, but I'm going to pay it all back. | 0:04:01 | 0:04:04 | |
Every penny. | 0:04:04 | 0:04:06 | |
Thanks very much. I appreciate it. Hiya. | 0:04:16 | 0:04:19 | |
Chloe says she's going to pay it all back. | 0:04:30 | 0:04:32 | |
Do you know how much? | 0:04:34 | 0:04:37 | |
Yeah, just over 230,000, I think she said. | 0:04:37 | 0:04:41 | |
Yeah. | 0:04:41 | 0:04:42 | |
The night she told me... | 0:04:45 | 0:04:47 | |
I couldn't sleep. | 0:04:47 | 0:04:48 | |
I was so angry. | 0:04:50 | 0:04:51 | |
And now if you pay me it back, I'd...burn it. | 0:04:52 | 0:04:57 | |
She lost it all on the machines? | 0:05:00 | 0:05:01 | |
Yeah. | 0:05:01 | 0:05:03 | |
Well, that helps. | 0:05:03 | 0:05:05 | |
I thought she robbed me because she could, but... | 0:05:06 | 0:05:09 | |
-she did it because she had to. -Yeah. She did. | 0:05:09 | 0:05:13 | |
They're all in a pension scheme at work. | 0:05:15 | 0:05:18 | |
Lump sum on death. | 0:05:18 | 0:05:19 | |
And death in service pays double. | 0:05:21 | 0:05:22 | |
Oh, the irony, Father. | 0:05:25 | 0:05:26 | |
In life, she lost it all. | 0:05:28 | 0:05:30 | |
In death, she hit the jackpot. | 0:05:31 | 0:05:33 | |
-You don't need to reproach yourself about it. -You want to bet? | 0:05:37 | 0:05:40 | |
No pun intended. | 0:05:42 | 0:05:43 | |
I told her I was phoning the police. That's what did it. | 0:05:44 | 0:05:47 | |
Look, she'd resolved to kill herself weeks before. | 0:05:47 | 0:05:51 | |
It was the shame that did it. | 0:05:51 | 0:05:53 | |
What you said, it...didn't make any difference. | 0:05:53 | 0:05:57 | |
I want to believe that so much. | 0:06:00 | 0:06:01 | |
It's the truth. | 0:06:01 | 0:06:03 | |
It's the truth. | 0:06:04 | 0:06:05 | |
Thank you. | 0:06:09 | 0:06:10 | |
Yeah, take care. | 0:06:15 | 0:06:16 | |
It's cold. | 0:06:28 | 0:06:30 | |
Right. We'll see if she's in. | 0:06:30 | 0:06:33 | |
You all right? | 0:06:33 | 0:06:34 | |
Hey, love... | 0:06:38 | 0:06:39 | |
I'm sorry to bother you. | 0:06:41 | 0:06:42 | |
-Are you a friend of Helen's? -I'm her brother. | 0:06:42 | 0:06:45 | |
Oh, lovely to meet you. | 0:06:45 | 0:06:47 | |
I'm Carl. I live just across the road. | 0:06:47 | 0:06:50 | |
I'm so sorry for your loss. | 0:06:55 | 0:06:56 | |
Have you come far? | 0:06:59 | 0:07:01 | |
Trinidad. | 0:07:01 | 0:07:03 | |
Well, I won't keep you. | 0:07:03 | 0:07:04 | |
Would you mind passing these on to Helen for me? | 0:07:04 | 0:07:07 | |
Tell her I've been meaning to call over for ages, | 0:07:07 | 0:07:10 | |
but I didn't like to intrude. | 0:07:10 | 0:07:12 | |
You can't get anything like these around here. | 0:07:14 | 0:07:17 | |
I had to go all the way into town to get them. | 0:07:17 | 0:07:19 | |
Gladioli. | 0:07:19 | 0:07:21 | |
Flamboyant rather than garish, I feel. | 0:07:22 | 0:07:24 | |
Boys, take your luggage and go and stand by the door. | 0:07:26 | 0:07:29 | |
-Why? -Why? | 0:07:29 | 0:07:31 | |
Boys, luggage. | 0:07:31 | 0:07:33 | |
I hope she likes them. | 0:07:35 | 0:07:36 | |
You can leave them there with the rest. | 0:07:39 | 0:07:41 | |
-Well, I was hoping perhaps that you could... -There is fine. | 0:07:44 | 0:07:47 | |
Maybe I'll just leave it for now, then. | 0:07:53 | 0:07:55 | |
Are you well, Michael? | 0:08:05 | 0:08:07 | |
Me? Yeah. | 0:08:07 | 0:08:08 | |
You seemed troubled...at mass. | 0:08:10 | 0:08:14 | |
Helen! | 0:08:14 | 0:08:15 | |
Oh! | 0:08:17 | 0:08:19 | |
SHE SCREAMS | 0:08:20 | 0:08:23 | |
They were sending him home. | 0:08:29 | 0:08:32 | |
He was "the least unwell", they said. | 0:08:32 | 0:08:37 | |
Michael said, "Least unwell isn't well," | 0:08:37 | 0:08:41 | |
and they agreed... | 0:08:41 | 0:08:42 | |
..but they needed his bed for someone a lot worse than him. | 0:08:44 | 0:08:47 | |
So he came home. | 0:08:49 | 0:08:51 | |
And he got worse and worse. | 0:08:51 | 0:08:54 | |
He asked me to phone Michael, | 0:08:58 | 0:09:01 | |
and I did, but Michael was asleep in bed... | 0:09:01 | 0:09:04 | |
So I phoned the crisis team. | 0:09:06 | 0:09:09 | |
If I hadn't done that, he'd be alive today... | 0:09:11 | 0:09:14 | |
The crisis team came, but Vernon had the chain on the door | 0:09:14 | 0:09:19 | |
and he put the knife to his throat | 0:09:19 | 0:09:21 | |
and he said he'd kill himself before he let them in. | 0:09:21 | 0:09:24 | |
So they phoned the police. | 0:09:26 | 0:09:28 | |
Why they did that, I don't understand, | 0:09:30 | 0:09:33 | |
and the police came and... | 0:09:33 | 0:09:35 | |
Where was he shot? | 0:09:37 | 0:09:38 | |
There. | 0:09:38 | 0:09:40 | |
No. | 0:09:40 | 0:09:41 | |
Where in his body? | 0:09:42 | 0:09:44 | |
In his heart. | 0:09:47 | 0:09:49 | |
KNOCKING | 0:09:51 | 0:09:52 | |
I'll get it. | 0:09:53 | 0:09:55 | |
KNOCKING | 0:09:55 | 0:09:57 | |
KNOCKING | 0:10:03 | 0:10:05 | |
What's going on? | 0:10:05 | 0:10:06 | |
Just need a quick word about those boys of yours. | 0:10:06 | 0:10:10 | |
-Yes? -One of them pushed the other against my door. | 0:10:10 | 0:10:13 | |
When I asked them to move, they shouted abuse at me. | 0:10:13 | 0:10:15 | |
-Abuse? -Called me a queer, to be precise. | 0:10:15 | 0:10:18 | |
Now, look, I'm pushing 50, | 0:10:18 | 0:10:21 | |
I can do without this kind of crap on my own doorstep, yeah? | 0:10:21 | 0:10:23 | |
You approached my sons? | 0:10:23 | 0:10:25 | |
I asked them to move, yes. | 0:10:25 | 0:10:27 | |
Did you touch them? | 0:10:27 | 0:10:28 | |
Of course I didn't. What are you implying? | 0:10:28 | 0:10:30 | |
Don't go anywhere near my sons again, you hear me? | 0:10:30 | 0:10:34 | |
Well, it's no wonder they carry on like that, if that's your attitude. | 0:10:34 | 0:10:37 | |
What do you expect? They're children. | 0:10:37 | 0:10:39 | |
I expect an apology. | 0:10:39 | 0:10:41 | |
No. | 0:10:41 | 0:10:42 | |
For them to apologise, they'd have to talk to you, | 0:10:42 | 0:10:44 | |
and my children will have nothing to do with the likes of you. | 0:10:44 | 0:10:47 | |
-The likes of me? -Yes. | 0:10:47 | 0:10:49 | |
What do you mean by that? | 0:10:49 | 0:10:50 | |
You know exactly what I mean. | 0:10:50 | 0:10:51 | |
I'm gay, is that what you're saying? | 0:10:51 | 0:10:53 | |
I don't really recognise that word. | 0:10:53 | 0:10:55 | |
I'm gay, therefore your boys can call me queer. | 0:10:55 | 0:10:58 | |
Fine, so next time I see you in the street I can call you nigger, yeah? | 0:10:58 | 0:11:02 | |
Bye. | 0:11:02 | 0:11:03 | |
What did you just say? | 0:11:04 | 0:11:06 | |
I said they call me queer, I call you... | 0:11:06 | 0:11:09 | |
Hey, Daniel! What the hell's going on? | 0:11:09 | 0:11:13 | |
Ask him. | 0:11:13 | 0:11:14 | |
Are you OK? | 0:11:19 | 0:11:21 | |
What was all that about? | 0:11:21 | 0:11:23 | |
What did you say to him? | 0:11:23 | 0:11:25 | |
Hey, are you all right? | 0:11:25 | 0:11:27 | |
You need to put something on that. Some frozen peas. | 0:11:28 | 0:11:31 | |
I don't need your advice, thank you very much. | 0:11:31 | 0:11:33 | |
Nothing to say for yourselves? | 0:11:38 | 0:11:40 | |
I mean, what the hell do you think you're playing at? | 0:11:40 | 0:11:42 | |
Get upstairs and get out of my sight. | 0:11:42 | 0:11:44 | |
I don't want to hear from you! | 0:11:44 | 0:11:46 | |
What's going on? | 0:11:48 | 0:11:50 | |
Nothing, Helen. | 0:11:50 | 0:11:52 | |
Come on, let's go inside. | 0:11:52 | 0:11:55 | |
Hello. Can we come in? | 0:12:42 | 0:12:44 | |
Yeah. | 0:12:44 | 0:12:46 | |
He's coming home? | 0:12:52 | 0:12:54 | |
Sorry? | 0:12:54 | 0:12:55 | |
Vernon. He's coming home? | 0:12:55 | 0:12:57 | |
Mrs Oyenusi, we're so sorry for your loss | 0:12:57 | 0:13:00 | |
and we offer our heartfelt condolences, | 0:13:00 | 0:13:02 | |
but we're not here about Vernon. | 0:13:02 | 0:13:05 | |
So why are you here? | 0:13:06 | 0:13:08 | |
Are you Mrs Oyenusi's brother? | 0:13:09 | 0:13:11 | |
Yes. | 0:13:11 | 0:13:13 | |
Could I take your name please, sir? | 0:13:13 | 0:13:14 | |
Daniel. Daniel Martin. | 0:13:14 | 0:13:16 | |
And how are you spelling that? | 0:13:16 | 0:13:18 | |
M-A-R-T-I-N. Why? | 0:13:18 | 0:13:22 | |
Mr Martin, we've received a complaint that you assaulted | 0:13:22 | 0:13:25 | |
a man just outside at roughly 2.15 this afternoon. | 0:13:25 | 0:13:28 | |
What are you talking about? | 0:13:28 | 0:13:30 | |
Is this a joke? | 0:13:30 | 0:13:31 | |
We wouldn't joke about something as serious as this. | 0:13:31 | 0:13:33 | |
Serious? | 0:13:33 | 0:13:35 | |
Sir, the man alleges it was a homophobic attack. A hate crime. | 0:13:35 | 0:13:39 | |
If found guilty of a hate crime, you will go to prison, sir. | 0:13:39 | 0:13:43 | |
Yes, sir. Very serious. | 0:13:43 | 0:13:45 | |
More serious than the killing of a black teenager by white police officers? | 0:13:45 | 0:13:51 | |
I see what you're doing here, officer. | 0:13:51 | 0:13:53 | |
You've killed a young man, | 0:13:53 | 0:13:54 | |
therefore discredit him and all his family, yeah? | 0:13:54 | 0:13:58 | |
Did you assault Carl McKenna, sir? | 0:13:58 | 0:14:00 | |
Carl! | 0:14:00 | 0:14:01 | |
He came here hurling racist abuse, but I did not assault him. | 0:14:01 | 0:14:05 | |
Carl wouldn't do that. | 0:14:05 | 0:14:07 | |
He says you witnessed it, Father. It is Father, is it? | 0:14:07 | 0:14:11 | |
Yeah, Michael will do. | 0:14:11 | 0:14:13 | |
What did you see, Michael? | 0:14:13 | 0:14:16 | |
I'll need some time to think about that. | 0:14:17 | 0:14:19 | |
-Time? -Yeah. | 0:14:19 | 0:14:22 | |
It's a very simple thing, Michael. Just tell us what you saw. | 0:14:22 | 0:14:26 | |
-Simple? -Yeah. | 0:14:26 | 0:14:27 | |
Lots of officers witnessed Vernon's death, | 0:14:27 | 0:14:29 | |
yet not one of them has said what they saw. | 0:14:29 | 0:14:31 | |
Why is that, if it's so simple? | 0:14:31 | 0:14:33 | |
How long will you need to think about it? | 0:14:39 | 0:14:41 | |
I don't know, a day or two. | 0:14:43 | 0:14:45 | |
KNOCKING | 0:14:53 | 0:14:56 | |
Hello again. | 0:15:02 | 0:15:03 | |
What do you want? | 0:15:05 | 0:15:07 | |
Frozen peas. Put them on the pain. | 0:15:07 | 0:15:10 | |
Wrap them in a cloth first or they'll stick to it. | 0:15:10 | 0:15:13 | |
You've had direct experience, have you? | 0:15:13 | 0:15:16 | |
Yeah. | 0:15:16 | 0:15:17 | |
Before I was a priest, I was a professional gobshite. | 0:15:17 | 0:15:20 | |
Quite a few people took a swing at me. | 0:15:20 | 0:15:22 | |
I'm Michael. | 0:15:25 | 0:15:27 | |
Carl. What can I do for you, Michael? | 0:15:27 | 0:15:30 | |
Can I come in? | 0:15:30 | 0:15:31 | |
It's not the Ritz. | 0:15:31 | 0:15:32 | |
Oh, I don't mind. | 0:15:32 | 0:15:34 | |
MUSIC PLAYS | 0:15:36 | 0:15:38 | |
Quentin Crisp says after the third year the dust doesn't get any worse. | 0:15:41 | 0:15:45 | |
I live in hope. | 0:15:45 | 0:15:47 | |
Oh, listen. Get out, you, will you? | 0:15:49 | 0:15:52 | |
Sorry. Have a seat, Father. Let me turn that off. | 0:15:53 | 0:15:57 | |
Ah, thanks. | 0:15:57 | 0:15:58 | |
Would you like a drink? A cup of tea, or anything...? | 0:15:58 | 0:16:00 | |
No, no, I'm fine. Thank you. | 0:16:00 | 0:16:03 | |
Brenda. | 0:16:17 | 0:16:19 | |
My mum. | 0:16:19 | 0:16:21 | |
Forgive me, Father, it's the only thing that stops | 0:16:25 | 0:16:27 | |
my poor little nerves from jangling since she passed. | 0:16:27 | 0:16:30 | |
I'm not ready to let go of her just yet, you know? | 0:16:33 | 0:16:35 | |
Yeah, some people never scatter the ashes. | 0:16:37 | 0:16:39 | |
Others find it helps them let go. | 0:16:39 | 0:16:42 | |
I smoked some. | 0:16:42 | 0:16:43 | |
Sorry? | 0:16:45 | 0:16:46 | |
When they first came back, I sprinkled a tiny bit into a spliff. | 0:16:46 | 0:16:50 | |
I was beside myself, | 0:16:51 | 0:16:53 | |
I hoped it would make her a part of me forever, you know? | 0:16:53 | 0:16:57 | |
But I've since read very little of the body remains, | 0:16:57 | 0:17:00 | |
so the only thing I got inside me was oak veneer. | 0:17:00 | 0:17:03 | |
It'll be three months on Thursday. | 0:17:06 | 0:17:09 | |
The dreaded C word. | 0:17:13 | 0:17:15 | |
I never knew it was possible to miss someone so much. | 0:17:16 | 0:17:19 | |
I'm 49 years of age, I've never left home. | 0:17:19 | 0:17:23 | |
We did everything together. | 0:17:23 | 0:17:25 | |
What do you want? | 0:17:36 | 0:17:37 | |
I want to talk to you about this afternoon. | 0:17:39 | 0:17:42 | |
Why? | 0:17:46 | 0:17:47 | |
Well, I want to hear your side of the story. | 0:17:47 | 0:17:50 | |
I have to go to the shops. | 0:17:55 | 0:17:56 | |
I'll tell it to you on the way, OK? | 0:17:56 | 0:17:59 | |
I love it here. I cut through most days. | 0:18:07 | 0:18:11 | |
Just look at that stonework. | 0:18:22 | 0:18:24 | |
It's sublime, isn't it? | 0:18:24 | 0:18:26 | |
Catacomb! | 0:18:29 | 0:18:31 | |
Catacomb. | 0:18:32 | 0:18:34 | |
Did you ever hear such a terrifying word in your entire life? | 0:18:37 | 0:18:41 | |
Catacomb. | 0:18:41 | 0:18:43 | |
I first saw him getting out of a cab outside Helen's. | 0:18:52 | 0:18:56 | |
I approached him and I asked him to pass on some flowers to her, | 0:18:56 | 0:19:00 | |
but he refused. | 0:19:00 | 0:19:02 | |
He didn't give an explanation. | 0:19:02 | 0:19:04 | |
He didn't have to. | 0:19:04 | 0:19:06 | |
Homophobia can be very subtle like that, you know? You just know. | 0:19:06 | 0:19:09 | |
Yeah. | 0:19:09 | 0:19:11 | |
Then a few hours later, his boys were messing about outside my door | 0:19:11 | 0:19:15 | |
and one of them pushed the other against it, so I went out | 0:19:15 | 0:19:18 | |
and I asked them, politely, to move further down the street. | 0:19:18 | 0:19:22 | |
They called me a queer and ran off, laughing. | 0:19:24 | 0:19:27 | |
So I knocked at Helen's, and I told him what happened. | 0:19:29 | 0:19:32 | |
Now, instead of reprimanding them, he warned me | 0:19:34 | 0:19:37 | |
never to approach his children again, like I'm some kind of a... | 0:19:37 | 0:19:41 | |
-Yeah. -You know. | 0:19:41 | 0:19:42 | |
When I realised there was no apology forthcoming, I couldn't help myself. | 0:19:45 | 0:19:48 | |
I turned around to him and I told him, I said, yeah, | 0:19:48 | 0:19:50 | |
maybe when I see you walking down the street I might feel compelled | 0:19:50 | 0:19:54 | |
-to call you by a certain name and see how you like it. -Yeah. | 0:19:54 | 0:19:57 | |
It was at that point that you entered stage left | 0:20:01 | 0:20:03 | |
for the dramatic finale. | 0:20:03 | 0:20:05 | |
Look, there's never any justification for violence, | 0:20:08 | 0:20:12 | |
but that family, they've already suffered so much. | 0:20:12 | 0:20:15 | |
You don't have to tell me, Father. | 0:20:15 | 0:20:17 | |
What those bastards - excuse my French - did to poor Vernon. | 0:20:17 | 0:20:22 | |
That was unforgivable. | 0:20:24 | 0:20:25 | |
He was a good lad. He always gave me the time of day. | 0:20:26 | 0:20:31 | |
Look, I'm not trying to make excuses for him, | 0:20:31 | 0:20:34 | |
but he'd just arrived on a very long flight | 0:20:34 | 0:20:37 | |
from a totally different culture, | 0:20:37 | 0:20:38 | |
he was jet-lagged, grieving... | 0:20:38 | 0:20:41 | |
I'm grieving, I don't go round punching innocent people in the face. | 0:20:41 | 0:20:46 | |
Entrez. | 0:20:48 | 0:20:49 | |
What are you doing? | 0:20:51 | 0:20:53 | |
Sorry, Father, but I'm gaggin'. My nerves... | 0:20:53 | 0:20:57 | |
I don't really think you should be...doing that here. | 0:21:00 | 0:21:03 | |
What else do you think phone boxes are for these days? | 0:21:03 | 0:21:06 | |
Oh, someone's been on the beak here. | 0:21:06 | 0:21:10 | |
Cocaine. | 0:21:11 | 0:21:13 | |
So what made you become a priest? | 0:21:18 | 0:21:21 | |
Oh, please tell me it was sunbeams through the window, | 0:21:21 | 0:21:24 | |
bathing you in iridescent light, and the sound of heavenly choirs... | 0:21:24 | 0:21:28 | |
If only it had been that obvious. | 0:21:28 | 0:21:31 | |
Don't mind me, I watch too many films. | 0:21:31 | 0:21:34 | |
Are you celibate? | 0:21:36 | 0:21:38 | |
Yes. | 0:21:38 | 0:21:39 | |
I am, too - not by choice, I can tell you. | 0:21:40 | 0:21:43 | |
Are you allowed to have a wank? | 0:21:46 | 0:21:48 | |
HE LAUGHS | 0:21:50 | 0:21:51 | |
I'm sorry, I shouldn't have asked. | 0:21:51 | 0:21:54 | |
I've often wondered but I've never had the chance to ask until now. | 0:21:54 | 0:21:56 | |
Let's face it, it's not every day you find yourself skinning up | 0:21:56 | 0:21:59 | |
with a Catholic priest in a public phone box now, is it? | 0:21:59 | 0:22:02 | |
The church teaches that any sexual activity outside marriage is wrong. | 0:22:07 | 0:22:11 | |
I'll take that as a yes, then, shall I? | 0:22:13 | 0:22:16 | |
Mind the cat now. | 0:22:42 | 0:22:45 | |
The cat never took a liking to me. | 0:22:45 | 0:22:48 | |
The only reason I look after the bastard is for Brenda. | 0:22:48 | 0:22:51 | |
Thanks very much, I enjoyed that. | 0:22:56 | 0:22:59 | |
Yeah. | 0:22:59 | 0:23:00 | |
Do you sleep down here? | 0:23:03 | 0:23:04 | |
Hmm? | 0:23:04 | 0:23:06 | |
I said, do you sleep down here? | 0:23:06 | 0:23:08 | |
I don't really like going upstairs since Brenda passed. | 0:23:08 | 0:23:12 | |
Besides, it's freezing up there and I've got no gas. | 0:23:12 | 0:23:15 | |
How do you mean? | 0:23:16 | 0:23:18 | |
They've got me on one of these pre-paid meter things, you know. | 0:23:18 | 0:23:22 | |
But it's not worth putting anything on it. | 0:23:22 | 0:23:23 | |
Why not? | 0:23:23 | 0:23:25 | |
Cos I owe them a fortune, | 0:23:25 | 0:23:26 | |
so if I put a tenner on the key they take most of it back straight away | 0:23:26 | 0:23:30 | |
and then shit's run out again before you know it... | 0:23:30 | 0:23:33 | |
But it's been perishing. | 0:23:33 | 0:23:34 | |
You wouldn't believe the heat that little beauty gives out. | 0:23:34 | 0:23:38 | |
So how... How do you do your cooking? | 0:23:39 | 0:23:42 | |
I don't. | 0:23:42 | 0:23:44 | |
Well, look, I can't do anything about your gas, | 0:23:45 | 0:23:48 | |
but I can arrange vouchers for the food bank | 0:23:48 | 0:23:51 | |
if you ever felt you needed... | 0:23:51 | 0:23:53 | |
What? | 0:23:53 | 0:23:54 | |
You think I don't know what this is really about? | 0:23:54 | 0:23:57 | |
You want me to forget everything, don't you? | 0:24:00 | 0:24:04 | |
Yeah. | 0:24:04 | 0:24:05 | |
Helen's going through hell right now. | 0:24:05 | 0:24:08 | |
-I know. -This is the last thing she needs. -I know. | 0:24:08 | 0:24:11 | |
He's come over to ease her grief, but he's adding to it. | 0:24:11 | 0:24:13 | |
I know. I'm more than happy to forget everything, Michael. | 0:24:13 | 0:24:16 | |
Well, thank you, Carl, thank you. I appreciate that. | 0:24:17 | 0:24:20 | |
The moment he comes over here and shakes my hand, it's all forgotten. | 0:24:20 | 0:24:25 | |
All right, thanks. | 0:24:31 | 0:24:33 | |
Shake his hand? | 0:24:46 | 0:24:47 | |
Father, I'm disappointed you would even suggest such a thing. | 0:24:49 | 0:24:53 | |
I just think for the sake of... | 0:24:53 | 0:24:54 | |
Have you forgotten what he called me? | 0:24:54 | 0:24:57 | |
Daniel, would it be so hard to swallow your pride just this once? | 0:24:57 | 0:25:01 | |
Helen, this isn't about pride, this is about what is right. | 0:25:01 | 0:25:04 | |
I'm sure if you actually spoke to Carl | 0:25:04 | 0:25:06 | |
you'd be able to find some common ground. | 0:25:06 | 0:25:08 | |
He's grieving too. He only lost his mother a few months back. | 0:25:08 | 0:25:12 | |
Are you seriously comparing his grief to what we are going through? | 0:25:13 | 0:25:17 | |
No! No, of course not, I'm just saying... | 0:25:17 | 0:25:19 | |
-Father, my sister has lost her only son... -Yes. | 0:25:19 | 0:25:24 | |
..I have lost my nephew | 0:25:24 | 0:25:26 | |
and the only thing we care about right now is bringing Vernon home. | 0:25:26 | 0:25:30 | |
Everything else is totally irrelevant, | 0:25:30 | 0:25:32 | |
so as far as I am concerned, that man can go to hell. | 0:25:32 | 0:25:36 | |
-Oh! -He's got a strike! | 0:25:52 | 0:25:55 | |
Is he going to snatch victory out of the jaws of defeat? | 0:25:55 | 0:25:57 | |
-It helps to go halfway down the alley, doesn't it? -Bollocks! | 0:25:57 | 0:26:00 | |
Any closer, you could have pushed 'em over. | 0:26:00 | 0:26:02 | |
-Hey! My foot was behind that line. -Were it shite. -It were! | 0:26:02 | 0:26:05 | |
What do we do if it's a foul throw? | 0:26:05 | 0:26:07 | |
-Were it a foul? -Yes! | 0:26:07 | 0:26:09 | |
-No, it was not. It was not. -He's cheated. | 0:26:09 | 0:26:11 | |
He has to feel sorry for his opponents, | 0:26:11 | 0:26:14 | |
up against a man at the peak of his power. | 0:26:14 | 0:26:19 | |
We'll never hear the last of this, now. | 0:26:19 | 0:26:21 | |
There's people on the pitch. | 0:26:21 | 0:26:23 | |
We're watching your feet. | 0:26:23 | 0:26:25 | |
Yeah. They think it's all over... | 0:26:25 | 0:26:28 | |
Over that line, it's a foul. | 0:26:28 | 0:26:29 | |
-Oh, it's bang-on. -Oh, no! | 0:26:29 | 0:26:32 | |
-It is now! -Bloody hell! | 0:26:32 | 0:26:34 | |
Bloody hellfire! | 0:26:34 | 0:26:36 | |
I can't believe it! | 0:26:36 | 0:26:38 | |
Can you believe that? | 0:26:38 | 0:26:39 | |
Behold the Lamb of God, | 0:26:55 | 0:26:58 | |
behold him who takes away the sins of the world. | 0:26:58 | 0:27:03 | |
Blessed are those called to the supper of the lamb. | 0:27:03 | 0:27:06 | |
-BOTH: -Lord, I am not worthy | 0:27:08 | 0:27:10 | |
that you should enter under my roof, | 0:27:10 | 0:27:14 | |
but only say the word and my soul shall be healed. | 0:27:14 | 0:27:21 | |
The body of Christ. | 0:27:38 | 0:27:39 | |
The blood of Christ. | 0:27:59 | 0:28:02 | |
Amen. | 0:28:02 | 0:28:03 | |
Oh, Mam. | 0:28:39 | 0:28:43 | |
Oh, Mam! | 0:28:47 | 0:28:49 | |
KNOCKING | 0:28:59 | 0:29:01 | |
Open that door! I know you're in there! | 0:29:01 | 0:29:04 | |
Come on, open the door, | 0:29:04 | 0:29:06 | |
I can't be standing on this doorstep all day and night! | 0:29:06 | 0:29:09 | |
Come on! Open up! I want my money. | 0:29:09 | 0:29:13 | |
I saw him go in there! | 0:29:13 | 0:29:17 | |
Come on! | 0:29:17 | 0:29:18 | |
Oh, hello. | 0:29:40 | 0:29:42 | |
Do you want to come through? | 0:29:43 | 0:29:45 | |
You're not used to this? | 0:29:59 | 0:30:00 | |
It's how it is these days. | 0:30:02 | 0:30:05 | |
I could turn the chair around, face that way. | 0:30:05 | 0:30:08 | |
We could go elsewhere, somewhere traditional. | 0:30:10 | 0:30:13 | |
Please. | 0:30:13 | 0:30:14 | |
Right. Follow me. | 0:30:18 | 0:30:21 | |
You go in there. I go in here. | 0:30:33 | 0:30:35 | |
Is that better? | 0:30:43 | 0:30:45 | |
Yes, thank you. | 0:30:45 | 0:30:47 | |
I confess to Almighty God, to Blessed Mary Ever Virgin, | 0:30:50 | 0:30:55 | |
to Blessed Michael the Archangel, | 0:30:55 | 0:30:58 | |
to the Holy Apostles Peter and Paul, | 0:30:58 | 0:31:01 | |
to all the Saints and to you, my Father, | 0:31:01 | 0:31:04 | |
that I have sinned exceedingly in thought, word and deed. | 0:31:04 | 0:31:08 | |
Through my fault. Through my fault. | 0:31:08 | 0:31:11 | |
Through my most grievous fault. | 0:31:11 | 0:31:13 | |
Father? | 0:31:20 | 0:31:21 | |
May God help you to confess your sins with true sorrow. | 0:31:25 | 0:31:29 | |
I have examined my conscience, Father, | 0:31:33 | 0:31:35 | |
and punching that man is not on it. | 0:31:35 | 0:31:38 | |
I did it in righteous anger, | 0:31:38 | 0:31:41 | |
the same anger that made Christ drive the money-men from the temple. | 0:31:41 | 0:31:45 | |
When a white man calls a black man a nigger, he must be punished. | 0:31:46 | 0:31:50 | |
He only used that word because your boys had called him queer | 0:31:50 | 0:31:53 | |
and you refused to do anything about it. | 0:31:53 | 0:31:56 | |
Those words are nowhere near equivalent. | 0:31:56 | 0:31:58 | |
You can hide your sexuality, I can't hide this. | 0:31:58 | 0:32:01 | |
You really believe Carl McKenna could hide the kind of man he is? | 0:32:01 | 0:32:04 | |
Yes, but he chooses not to. | 0:32:04 | 0:32:06 | |
In fact, he goes further. He advertises it. | 0:32:06 | 0:32:09 | |
And, in doing that, he is a danger to my sons, to all our sons. | 0:32:09 | 0:32:14 | |
-Why? -Because homosexual boys get bullied, Father. | 0:32:14 | 0:32:16 | |
As do heterosexual. | 0:32:16 | 0:32:18 | |
Much more homosexual than heterosexual. | 0:32:18 | 0:32:20 | |
Their lives are made a misery. | 0:32:20 | 0:32:22 | |
Yes, in which case, we should all try to be more tolerant. | 0:32:22 | 0:32:26 | |
Teenage boys are not tolerant, Father. They're vicious. | 0:32:26 | 0:32:30 | |
They turn on you if you stammer, | 0:32:30 | 0:32:31 | |
if you limp, if you lisp. | 0:32:31 | 0:32:33 | |
But show them you're homosexual and they turn on you quickest of all. | 0:32:33 | 0:32:37 | |
You call them gay in this country. | 0:32:38 | 0:32:41 | |
They're not gay. | 0:32:41 | 0:32:42 | |
They're sad. So, so sad. | 0:32:42 | 0:32:46 | |
And I will make sure that my boys know that. | 0:32:46 | 0:32:49 | |
Better to live a lie than reveal a truth like that. | 0:32:49 | 0:32:52 | |
-You say your anger is righteous? -Yes. | 0:32:53 | 0:32:56 | |
-In the eyes of God, I assume. -Yes. | 0:32:56 | 0:32:58 | |
But not in the eyes of the law. | 0:32:58 | 0:33:00 | |
In the eyes of the law, you have committed a serious crime | 0:33:00 | 0:33:03 | |
-and you will go to prison for it. -Yes. | 0:33:03 | 0:33:06 | |
-Unless... -Yes? | 0:33:06 | 0:33:07 | |
..you apologise. Shake hands. | 0:33:07 | 0:33:11 | |
That would be utterly insincere. | 0:33:11 | 0:33:14 | |
Nevertheless. | 0:33:14 | 0:33:16 | |
You can resolve this, Father. | 0:33:21 | 0:33:24 | |
How? | 0:33:24 | 0:33:25 | |
You did not see me strike that man. | 0:33:25 | 0:33:28 | |
You want me to lie to the police? | 0:33:33 | 0:33:35 | |
Have they not lied to us? | 0:33:35 | 0:33:37 | |
To expose myself to Carl McKenna as a liar, and then say Mass, | 0:33:37 | 0:33:40 | |
give out the holy sacrament? You're asking me to do that? | 0:33:40 | 0:33:43 | |
It's no worse than what you're asking of me. | 0:33:43 | 0:33:47 | |
To say I'm sorry when I am not. | 0:33:47 | 0:33:50 | |
To go against my faith, my Catholicism. And for what? | 0:33:50 | 0:33:55 | |
Fear of imprisonment? | 0:33:55 | 0:33:57 | |
That is cowardice. | 0:33:57 | 0:34:00 | |
That is hypocrisy. I will not do it. | 0:34:00 | 0:34:03 | |
And I am disgusted that a Catholic priest should ask me to. | 0:34:04 | 0:34:07 | |
'SMOKE ALARM' | 0:34:12 | 0:34:15 | |
SCRAPING, ALARM CONTINUES | 0:34:23 | 0:34:27 | |
I'm not doing it. | 0:34:42 | 0:34:44 | |
"I am not your skivvy," Mum said. | 0:34:45 | 0:34:47 | |
KNOCKING | 0:34:59 | 0:35:01 | |
Father Kerrigan? | 0:35:01 | 0:35:03 | |
KNOCKING | 0:35:06 | 0:35:09 | |
Are you in there, sir? | 0:35:09 | 0:35:10 | |
PHONE RINGS | 0:35:13 | 0:35:15 | |
What's he doing to you? | 0:35:15 | 0:35:17 | |
Hello. | 0:35:17 | 0:35:18 | |
Hi, Andrew. It's Michael Kerrigan. I need some advice. | 0:35:18 | 0:35:22 | |
-Right. -There's two coppers outside. -'Yeah, I know.' | 0:35:22 | 0:35:26 | |
-You know? -Yeah. | 0:35:26 | 0:35:29 | |
-Have they come to take me in to make a statement? -Yeah. | 0:35:29 | 0:35:33 | |
-Have I got to make that statement? -Well, no... | 0:35:33 | 0:35:38 | |
No, you don't have to. | 0:35:38 | 0:35:40 | |
If I make that statement and Daniel's found guilty, what will he get? | 0:35:40 | 0:35:44 | |
I'd say four to six years. | 0:35:44 | 0:35:46 | |
'It's a hate crime, you see. But you know that when he's done it,' | 0:35:46 | 0:35:49 | |
Michael, he'll be thrown out the country, won't be allowed back in. | 0:35:49 | 0:35:52 | |
'Which means he'll never see Helen again. | 0:35:52 | 0:35:54 | |
'It's horrible, isn't it? | 0:35:54 | 0:35:56 | |
'Seeing other people suffer for your principles?' | 0:35:56 | 0:36:00 | |
I know that I couldn't do it. | 0:36:02 | 0:36:04 | |
-Thanks. -'You're welcome.' | 0:36:06 | 0:36:09 | |
BARKING | 0:36:11 | 0:36:13 | |
KNOCKING | 0:36:26 | 0:36:28 | |
Look Carl, you've got to remember that in his country | 0:36:28 | 0:36:31 | |
it's still illegal to be gay. | 0:36:31 | 0:36:33 | |
You can make all the excuses you want, | 0:36:33 | 0:36:35 | |
this has nothing to do with the colour of his skin or what country he's from. | 0:36:35 | 0:36:39 | |
This is about religion and nothing else. | 0:36:39 | 0:36:42 | |
Now, every morning I look out of my window and I see | 0:36:42 | 0:36:45 | |
tiny, little kids heading off to that school of yours, | 0:36:45 | 0:36:48 | |
and guess what? Yeah, they'll also be taught that being gay is a sin. | 0:36:48 | 0:36:52 | |
That it's perfectly acceptable to treat people like me with contempt. | 0:36:52 | 0:36:56 | |
It's a cycle of hatred perpetuated by your church | 0:36:56 | 0:36:59 | |
and I'll tell you what. As far as I'm concerned, | 0:36:59 | 0:37:03 | |
the world will be a better place when Catholicism and every other | 0:37:03 | 0:37:07 | |
goddamn religion has been consigned to history. | 0:37:07 | 0:37:10 | |
My church teaches compassion for all human beings | 0:37:10 | 0:37:12 | |
regardless of religion, race, sexuality. | 0:37:12 | 0:37:15 | |
And it also teaches that I'm a sinner, | 0:37:15 | 0:37:18 | |
which is something that you go along with, Michael, | 0:37:18 | 0:37:20 | |
cos if you didn't, yeah, you'd be on the dole. | 0:37:20 | 0:37:23 | |
Look, I'm not asking you to do this for me, or for him. | 0:37:23 | 0:37:26 | |
I'm asking you to do it for Helen. She's suffered enough, Carl. | 0:37:26 | 0:37:30 | |
And if you had any idea how much I'd suffered, | 0:37:30 | 0:37:32 | |
you wouldn't dream of putting me in this position. | 0:37:32 | 0:37:35 | |
Now, the police told me that if anyone tries to intimidate me | 0:37:35 | 0:37:39 | |
or put pressure on me to drop the charges, | 0:37:39 | 0:37:41 | |
that I am to report them immediately. | 0:37:41 | 0:37:44 | |
I'm not trying to put pressure on you. | 0:37:44 | 0:37:46 | |
Have you made your statement yet? | 0:37:46 | 0:37:48 | |
Have you? | 0:37:49 | 0:37:51 | |
And you make out that you're impartial? Just go, Father. | 0:37:53 | 0:37:57 | |
I think we both know whose side you're really on. | 0:37:57 | 0:37:59 | |
Believe me, Carl, I'm on no-one's side. | 0:37:59 | 0:38:02 | |
I'm like the man with a chip on both shoulders. | 0:38:02 | 0:38:06 | |
I'm just as screwed up about straight sex as I am gay. | 0:38:06 | 0:38:09 | |
I will make a statement, yeah, and I'll tell the absolute truth, | 0:38:09 | 0:38:12 | |
but right now, there's nothing I'd like more than to get | 0:38:12 | 0:38:16 | |
the four of us together in a room, | 0:38:16 | 0:38:18 | |
because I'm sick of this Ban Ki-Moon act. | 0:38:18 | 0:38:20 | |
Oh, please tell me you're joking. | 0:38:22 | 0:38:23 | |
Look! If not for me, then for Helen. | 0:38:23 | 0:38:27 | |
This is to remind us of the presence of Christ | 0:38:37 | 0:38:41 | |
and to enable us to speak truth with compassion. | 0:38:41 | 0:38:45 | |
All I've ever wanted is to set a good example to my sons | 0:38:55 | 0:39:01 | |
and protect them from the evils of this world, | 0:39:01 | 0:39:05 | |
and in here, | 0:39:05 | 0:39:07 | |
I know that homosexuality is one of them. | 0:39:07 | 0:39:11 | |
And not because I'm homophobic | 0:39:11 | 0:39:14 | |
or repulsed by what two men choose to do together, | 0:39:14 | 0:39:18 | |
but in the Bible, it clearly states | 0:39:18 | 0:39:23 | |
that homosexuals will not inherit the Kingdom of God. | 0:39:23 | 0:39:27 | |
I was raised a Catholic too. | 0:39:27 | 0:39:29 | |
I loved it, believed it with all my heart. | 0:39:30 | 0:39:33 | |
But I also knew that I was different. | 0:39:36 | 0:39:38 | |
I even wondered if God was calling me to be a priest. | 0:39:41 | 0:39:45 | |
But I soon realised, no, I was just gay. | 0:39:45 | 0:39:48 | |
I prayed and prayed for God to make it stop, | 0:39:48 | 0:39:51 | |
to make me normal, | 0:39:51 | 0:39:53 | |
but He didn't listen. | 0:39:53 | 0:39:55 | |
Now, I'd been brought up to believe that being gay was a sin, | 0:39:57 | 0:40:00 | |
that God hated gay people, | 0:40:00 | 0:40:02 | |
so why would I choose such a thing, hmm? | 0:40:02 | 0:40:04 | |
Why would I choose such a thing when I knew it meant | 0:40:04 | 0:40:08 | |
that the church that I loved would no longer welcome me? | 0:40:08 | 0:40:12 | |
Choose? | 0:40:14 | 0:40:15 | |
Don't make me laugh. | 0:40:15 | 0:40:16 | |
This will hurt you both, | 0:40:16 | 0:40:19 | |
but in these circumstances, I cannot lie. | 0:40:19 | 0:40:23 | |
Daniel, you have always been holier than thou. | 0:40:24 | 0:40:28 | |
Carl, you have always been one to light the blue touchpaper | 0:40:29 | 0:40:33 | |
and then run away. | 0:40:33 | 0:40:35 | |
And now you have met. | 0:40:35 | 0:40:37 | |
And it is a match made in hell. | 0:40:37 | 0:40:39 | |
Two stupid, stubborn men refusing to back down, | 0:40:40 | 0:40:45 | |
locking horns, totally forgetting the only thing that should matter - | 0:40:45 | 0:40:50 | |
bringing Vernon home. | 0:40:50 | 0:40:52 | |
Yeah, the world is full of gay men | 0:40:52 | 0:40:56 | |
who can hide their sexuality, live a lie, | 0:40:56 | 0:41:00 | |
but do you seriously believe that that was ever an option for me? | 0:41:00 | 0:41:05 | |
The way I am, the way I speak, it's not some affectation. | 0:41:05 | 0:41:09 | |
It's not some show, it's not trying to shock or intimidate anyone. | 0:41:09 | 0:41:14 | |
It's just the way I was born | 0:41:14 | 0:41:17 | |
and I make no apology for that. | 0:41:17 | 0:41:19 | |
At least not any more, I don't. | 0:41:19 | 0:41:21 | |
And if you believe in God, then you also have to believe | 0:41:21 | 0:41:24 | |
that it was your God who created me this way. | 0:41:24 | 0:41:27 | |
You were in pain, Carl, angry. | 0:41:27 | 0:41:31 | |
Just waiting for someone to come along for you to lash out, | 0:41:31 | 0:41:36 | |
and you want to know how I know that? | 0:41:36 | 0:41:38 | |
Because I feel exactly the same. | 0:41:38 | 0:41:41 | |
I feel just as angry as you. | 0:41:41 | 0:41:43 | |
I know what it feels like when the person you love most of all | 0:41:43 | 0:41:46 | |
in this world is taken from you. | 0:41:46 | 0:41:49 | |
When your only reason to wake up in the morning is no longer there. | 0:41:49 | 0:41:53 | |
I wasn't even going to report it. | 0:41:53 | 0:41:55 | |
I didn't think they'd take it seriously, | 0:41:55 | 0:41:58 | |
but credit where credit is due, | 0:41:58 | 0:42:00 | |
I was amazed how supportive they were. | 0:42:00 | 0:42:02 | |
When I was growing up back in the '80s, | 0:42:02 | 0:42:05 | |
gay-bashing was virtually the national sport, | 0:42:05 | 0:42:07 | |
and most people in this country were gold medallists. | 0:42:07 | 0:42:12 | |
But now finally things are starting to change. | 0:42:12 | 0:42:15 | |
And hallelujah for that, because the only way to stamp out | 0:42:15 | 0:42:18 | |
this kind of hatred is to come down heavy on those who perpetrate it. | 0:42:18 | 0:42:22 | |
A sinner needs a priest, yes, | 0:42:22 | 0:42:26 | |
but first let him be contrite, | 0:42:26 | 0:42:29 | |
ashamed, penitent. | 0:42:29 | 0:42:32 | |
This man is none of those things. | 0:42:33 | 0:42:36 | |
His mincing, his voice, | 0:42:37 | 0:42:40 | |
his innuendos all announce that he is ready to sin again, | 0:42:40 | 0:42:44 | |
that he is proud of it, boastful of it. | 0:42:44 | 0:42:48 | |
This is a sin that my church has utterly condemned, | 0:42:50 | 0:42:53 | |
so how can a priest find it so amusing? | 0:42:53 | 0:42:56 | |
I didn't intend to speak but I suppose I should answer that, yeah? | 0:43:01 | 0:43:06 | |
-Yes. -I am not amused by it, | 0:43:06 | 0:43:09 | |
I'm amused by him. | 0:43:09 | 0:43:11 | |
-Really? -Yeah. | 0:43:11 | 0:43:12 | |
I suppose we were all teenagers once. | 0:43:14 | 0:43:16 | |
-Yeah. -Confused at times about our sexuality. | 0:43:16 | 0:43:20 | |
Yeah. | 0:43:21 | 0:43:23 | |
So how did you feel, Father, | 0:43:23 | 0:43:24 | |
when you thought you might be a homosexual? | 0:43:24 | 0:43:27 | |
The candle is still burning, Christ is still here, | 0:43:34 | 0:43:38 | |
encouraging us to speak truth. | 0:43:38 | 0:43:42 | |
How did you feel, when you thought you might be a homosexual? | 0:43:42 | 0:43:46 | |
It was the 1970s... | 0:43:50 | 0:43:52 | |
How did you feel? | 0:43:52 | 0:43:55 | |
Erm, suicidal. | 0:44:01 | 0:44:04 | |
Thank you. | 0:44:06 | 0:44:08 | |
Enough of this small talk. | 0:44:19 | 0:44:21 | |
Thank you, Father. | 0:44:29 | 0:44:30 | |
Bye, Michael. | 0:44:36 | 0:44:39 | |
MUSIC: Sisters Are Doin' It for Themselves by Eurythmics | 0:45:09 | 0:45:14 | |
# Now there was a time | 0:45:17 | 0:45:20 | |
# When they used to say | 0:45:20 | 0:45:23 | |
# That behind every great man | 0:45:23 | 0:45:27 | |
# There had to be a great woman | 0:45:27 | 0:45:31 | |
# But in these times of change | 0:45:31 | 0:45:35 | |
# You know that it's no longer true | 0:45:35 | 0:45:38 | |
# So we're comin' out of the kitchen | 0:45:38 | 0:45:42 | |
# Cos there's somethin' we forgot to say to you | 0:45:42 | 0:45:46 | |
# Sisters are doing it for themselves | 0:45:46 | 0:45:52 | |
# Standing on their... # | 0:45:52 | 0:45:54 | |
# We are the champions, my friends | 0:45:54 | 0:46:00 | |
# And we'll keep on fighting till the end | 0:46:02 | 0:46:07 | |
# We are the champions | 0:46:10 | 0:46:13 | |
# We are the champions | 0:46:13 | 0:46:17 | |
# No time for losers | 0:46:17 | 0:46:20 | |
# Cos we are the champions | 0:46:20 | 0:46:25 | |
# Of the world! # | 0:46:25 | 0:46:29 | |
CHEERING | 0:46:32 | 0:46:34 | |
KNOCKING | 0:46:56 | 0:46:58 | |
Thanks again. | 0:47:01 | 0:47:02 | |
He punched a man and I saw it. | 0:47:06 | 0:47:08 | |
I'll have to say I saw it. | 0:47:08 | 0:47:10 | |
He'll go down for it and he'll see himself as some kind | 0:47:10 | 0:47:13 | |
of Catholic martyr when he does. | 0:47:13 | 0:47:14 | |
-No other way? -No. | 0:47:14 | 0:47:16 | |
Thanks. Carl won't back down and why should he? | 0:47:16 | 0:47:21 | |
Daniel won't either. | 0:47:21 | 0:47:23 | |
I know what I should say - "Daniel, thanks to Catholic teaching, | 0:47:23 | 0:47:26 | |
"you're a totally fucked-up human being, | 0:47:26 | 0:47:28 | |
"but that's OK cos so was I. | 0:47:28 | 0:47:30 | |
"Ignore everything the church says on the subject of sex, Daniel. | 0:47:30 | 0:47:33 | |
"I do that. Every priest I know does that. | 0:47:33 | 0:47:36 | |
"You can quote scripture till you're blue in the face, | 0:47:36 | 0:47:38 | |
"papal pronouncements, edicts, whatever, they are all utter shite." | 0:47:38 | 0:47:42 | |
Or words to that effect. | 0:47:45 | 0:47:47 | |
Didn't you want sugar? | 0:47:48 | 0:47:50 | |
Yeah. | 0:47:50 | 0:47:53 | |
Good job I didn't take up smoking. | 0:47:53 | 0:47:55 | |
-I'm sorry to bring this one on you as well. -You're OK. | 0:47:56 | 0:47:59 | |
I can cope usually, honest. | 0:47:59 | 0:48:01 | |
You're fine, man. | 0:48:01 | 0:48:03 | |
It's a bit like buses, isn't it? | 0:48:03 | 0:48:06 | |
You wait all your life for a decent dilemma to come along | 0:48:06 | 0:48:09 | |
and then three arrive at the one time. | 0:48:09 | 0:48:13 | |
What can I do? | 0:48:13 | 0:48:14 | |
Well, we could pray to the Lord. | 0:48:14 | 0:48:16 | |
He usually comes up with something. | 0:48:16 | 0:48:18 | |
Not this time, Peter. | 0:48:18 | 0:48:20 | |
Irresistible force meets immovable object. | 0:48:20 | 0:48:24 | |
I need a miracle. | 0:48:24 | 0:48:26 | |
Hello. | 0:48:28 | 0:48:30 | |
Yes? | 0:48:31 | 0:48:33 | |
Vernon can come home! | 0:48:35 | 0:48:37 | |
# Lord of all hopefulness | 0:48:46 | 0:48:50 | |
# Lord of all joy | 0:48:50 | 0:48:54 | |
# Whose trust, ever childlike | 0:48:54 | 0:48:58 | |
# No cares can destroy... # | 0:48:58 | 0:49:00 | |
Father? | 0:49:00 | 0:49:02 | |
It's Vernon, Father. | 0:49:02 | 0:49:06 | |
Vernon. | 0:49:06 | 0:49:08 | |
# Your bliss in our hearts, Lord | 0:49:12 | 0:49:15 | |
# At the break of the day | 0:49:15 | 0:49:19 | |
# Lord of all eagerness | 0:49:29 | 0:49:32 | |
# Lord of all faith | 0:49:32 | 0:49:36 | |
# Whose strong hands were skilled at | 0:49:36 | 0:49:40 | |
# The plane and the lathe | 0:49:40 | 0:49:44 | |
# Be there at our labours... # | 0:49:44 | 0:49:47 | |
Thank you, Helen. | 0:49:47 | 0:49:49 | |
Please. | 0:49:51 | 0:49:53 | |
I'll be five minutes. | 0:49:53 | 0:49:56 | |
Oh. | 0:50:12 | 0:50:14 | |
Would you like to come through, please? | 0:50:14 | 0:50:16 | |
# Your hands swift to welcome | 0:50:18 | 0:50:23 | |
# Your arms to embrace | 0:50:23 | 0:50:27 | |
# Be there at our homing | 0:50:27 | 0:50:31 | |
# And give us, we pray | 0:50:31 | 0:50:35 | |
# Your love in our hearts, Lord | 0:50:35 | 0:50:39 | |
# At the eve of the day... # | 0:50:39 | 0:50:43 | |
Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee. | 0:50:50 | 0:50:53 | |
Blessed art thou amongst women | 0:50:53 | 0:50:55 | |
and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus. | 0:50:55 | 0:50:57 | |
-ALL: -Holy Mary, mother of God, | 0:50:57 | 0:51:00 | |
pray for us sinners now and at the hour of our death. | 0:51:00 | 0:51:03 | |
Amen. | 0:51:03 | 0:51:05 | |
Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee. | 0:51:05 | 0:51:08 | |
Blessed art thou amongst women | 0:51:08 | 0:51:10 | |
and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus. | 0:51:10 | 0:51:13 | |
-ALL: -Holy Mary, mother of God, | 0:51:13 | 0:51:15 | |
pray for us sinners now and at the hour of our death. | 0:51:15 | 0:51:18 | |
Amen. | 0:51:18 | 0:51:19 | |
# Lord of all kindliness | 0:51:35 | 0:51:39 | |
# Lord of all grace | 0:51:39 | 0:51:43 | |
# Your hands swift to welcome | 0:51:43 | 0:51:47 | |
# Your arms to embrace | 0:51:47 | 0:51:51 | |
# Be there at our homing | 0:51:51 | 0:51:55 | |
# And give us, we pray | 0:51:55 | 0:52:00 | |
# Your love in our hearts, Lord | 0:52:00 | 0:52:04 | |
# At the eve of the day | 0:52:04 | 0:52:08 | |
# Lord of all gentleness | 0:52:17 | 0:52:22 | |
# Lord of all calm | 0:52:22 | 0:52:25 | |
# Whose voice is contentment | 0:52:25 | 0:52:29 | |
# Whose presence is balm | 0:52:29 | 0:52:33 | |
# Be there at our sleeping | 0:52:33 | 0:52:37 | |
# And give us, we pray | 0:52:37 | 0:52:41 | |
# Your peace in our hearts, Lord | 0:52:41 | 0:52:46 | |
# At the end of the day. # | 0:52:46 | 0:52:49 | |
Barcelona? | 0:52:49 | 0:52:50 | |
Yes. | 0:52:50 | 0:52:52 | |
Why Barcelona? | 0:52:56 | 0:52:58 | |
We used to watch them together. | 0:53:00 | 0:53:02 | |
He liked Messi. | 0:53:02 | 0:53:04 | |
Something Messi. | 0:53:06 | 0:53:08 | |
Lionel Messi. | 0:53:08 | 0:53:09 | |
Yes. I know you like Messi, Vernon. I've seen your room. | 0:53:13 | 0:53:17 | |
If there's a shred of comfort I can take from this, | 0:53:19 | 0:53:22 | |
it's that deep down I'm glad God took him before me. | 0:53:22 | 0:53:25 | |
Why? | 0:53:29 | 0:53:30 | |
The number of sleepless nights I've had worried about | 0:53:32 | 0:53:34 | |
what would become of him if anything ever happened to me. | 0:53:34 | 0:53:37 | |
He was such a kind and loving boy, | 0:53:41 | 0:53:43 | |
but when he was having one of his episodes, he was so... | 0:53:43 | 0:53:46 | |
..difficult. | 0:53:48 | 0:53:51 | |
I knew no matter how hard I prayed, | 0:53:51 | 0:53:52 | |
the chances of him ever leading a normal life were slim. | 0:53:52 | 0:53:55 | |
I worried about him growing old, | 0:53:57 | 0:54:00 | |
the thought of him ending up in some institution, | 0:54:00 | 0:54:03 | |
with nobody in the world to love him. | 0:54:03 | 0:54:06 | |
Brenda understood how I felt. | 0:54:11 | 0:54:12 | |
Carl's mother. | 0:54:14 | 0:54:15 | |
We both had sons who were troubled in their own ways. | 0:54:18 | 0:54:22 | |
That's why we felt such affinity. | 0:54:22 | 0:54:25 | |
Yes? | 0:54:29 | 0:54:30 | |
This is unfair. | 0:54:33 | 0:54:34 | |
What is unfair? | 0:54:34 | 0:54:37 | |
I cannot argue with you. | 0:54:37 | 0:54:39 | |
I cannot contradict you in these circumstances. | 0:54:40 | 0:54:42 | |
Why not? | 0:54:42 | 0:54:44 | |
You have done nothing BUT contradict me since the moment you arrived | 0:54:44 | 0:54:48 | |
so why stop now? | 0:54:48 | 0:54:50 | |
Because he home? | 0:54:50 | 0:54:52 | |
Is he more dead now than he was before, | 0:54:52 | 0:54:55 | |
more dead now that you can see him? | 0:54:55 | 0:54:58 | |
Her son and mine both had difficulties growing up, | 0:54:58 | 0:55:03 | |
were both picked on because they were different | 0:55:03 | 0:55:06 | |
and we bonded because of it, | 0:55:06 | 0:55:09 | |
because they were so alike! | 0:55:09 | 0:55:12 | |
When Brenda was diagnosed, she came to me | 0:55:13 | 0:55:17 | |
worried about what would become of Carl. | 0:55:17 | 0:55:20 | |
I promised her that I would always keep an eye out for her | 0:55:20 | 0:55:24 | |
and I intend to keep that promise. | 0:55:24 | 0:55:26 | |
She was a good mother who never once tried to change him, | 0:55:26 | 0:55:31 | |
but accepted him for who he was and I so admired her for that. | 0:55:31 | 0:55:36 | |
Her love was unconditional and that's exactly how it should be. | 0:55:36 | 0:55:41 | |
Daniel... | 0:55:45 | 0:55:49 | |
I wouldn't care if my son was straight, | 0:55:49 | 0:55:53 | |
gay or anything else, | 0:55:53 | 0:55:56 | |
just so long as I can see that beautiful smile once more. | 0:55:56 | 0:56:00 | |
KNOCKING | 0:56:13 | 0:56:15 | |
I'll get that. | 0:56:17 | 0:56:18 | |
Can I speak to Helen, please? | 0:56:26 | 0:56:28 | |
Yeah, come in. | 0:56:28 | 0:56:31 | |
Look, It's fine. Honest. | 0:56:34 | 0:56:35 | |
I knew you'd have him in that shirt. | 0:56:54 | 0:56:56 | |
I'm stopping all this right now. | 0:57:00 | 0:57:02 | |
I'm telling them whatever I need to tell them to get it all to stop. | 0:57:04 | 0:57:08 | |
Thank you. | 0:57:08 | 0:57:10 | |
I'm not doing it for him. | 0:57:10 | 0:57:13 | |
I'm doing it for you. | 0:57:13 | 0:57:15 | |
And for Vernon. | 0:57:15 | 0:57:18 | |
Brenda would be so proud of you. | 0:57:21 | 0:57:24 | |
Yeah. | 0:57:27 | 0:57:28 | |
Praise the Lord. | 0:57:38 | 0:57:39 | |
KNOCKING | 0:57:43 | 0:57:46 | |
There's more Christianity in your little finger | 0:57:48 | 0:57:50 | |
than in that man's entire body. | 0:57:50 | 0:57:52 | |
Yeah, why don't you tell that to your bishop? | 0:57:52 | 0:57:55 | |
Tell it to your pope. Shout it from the rooftops, why don't you? | 0:57:55 | 0:57:59 | |
There's no use coming around here and whispering it to me, | 0:57:59 | 0:58:01 | |
you bloody hypocrite. | 0:58:01 | 0:58:03 | |
# Tell me what it's like in heaven | 0:58:09 | 0:58:14 | |
# I hope it's kinder than it is down here | 0:58:14 | 0:58:19 | |
# With all the trials and tribulations | 0:58:19 | 0:58:24 | |
# All the worry and living in fear | 0:58:24 | 0:58:28 | |
# We are lost, we are scattered | 0:58:28 | 0:58:32 | |
# We're balmy and we're battered | 0:58:32 | 0:58:35 | |
# We might be bruised but we're not broken | 0:58:37 | 0:58:41 | |
# Hallelujah | 0:58:41 | 0:58:45 | |
# Hallelujah... # | 0:58:45 | 0:58:47 |