Feel the Fear Doctors

'You are being held back by one thing alone, fear.

'Fear poisons your spirit well and will ultimately prevent you

'from reaching the top of your dream mountain.

'Fear is a heavy bag, weighing you down on your journey through life.

'Put it down. Feel light. Feel free. '

HE EXHALES

You need to eat something.

Thanks.

Can we talk about Dad now, please?

Not now.

I'm popping home. Get him some books to read to him.

And a bit of music. Do you want anything?

No.

Focus on your dream mountain.

HE PANTS

PHONE DIALS

'David?'

-I-I can't do it.

-I knew you'd bottle it.

I really wanted to.

Wanting's not enough, is it? You've got to have guts.

-You're right.

-So that's it? You just giving up?

'You think I should try again?'

If you like. But we'll need to see some evidence.

What?

Otherwise, how will we know you really went through with it?

What sort of evidence?

Martin?

Hi.

Howard.

I didn't bring anything. For Sam.

You're not allowed to bring flowers any more, are you?

And grapes, I didn't really see the point. Magazines...

There's always something strange about giving another man a magazine.

Didn't know whether to come.

I'm glad you did.

< George, where are you?

HE EXHALES

George, where are you? George, we're meant to be on a nice walk.

We don't have time to play with...squirrels!

You revolting little man!

I'm so sorry!

Help! Police!

-Shhh!

-Police!

Help!

How bad is it?

They're still doing tests, but...it's bad.

His system was already weak so...

I'm sorry.

Chris knew something was wrong, and I ignored him.

I let myself get distracted.

-Emma, you can't blame...

-I can.

If he dies...

Emma, he'll be fine.

Hi, how are you?

Hey. Yeah, I'm OK.

-I better get back to the surgery. I'll call you later.

-Yeah.

-If there's anything you need...

-Thank you.

Did you get the books?

No. No.

What's in the bag, then?

Dad's diaries.

We've done a quick sweep of the park but we can't find anything.

Oi! Stay exactly where you are! Jim!

We've found him.

Is there a problem, Officer?

Shall we talk down at the station? Don't want you catching cold.

If the symptoms get any worse, come straight back, OK?

I will see you on Sunday, Mr Moline.

We opening on Sundays now?

Mr Moline is one of our church's finest baritones.

In fact, the quality of singing in the congregation has greatly

improved since I suggested introducing free singing lessons.

Reverend Stanhope says I have restored harmony to Letherbridge.

Is that right?

The Reverend has been a great source of support to me

over the years. It is gratifying to know that he has come to

rely on me in many important matters.

I'm sure he'll miss you.

Wait! Miss me?

Yeah. When he goes to Uganda. To do the missionary work?

You must be mistaken.

If Reverend Stanhope was going anywhere,

I would be the first to know.

-He must have got the wrong end of the stick, then.

-Mr Moline?

-Yeah, he said...

-That explains it.

I am afraid the committee has suspected for quite some time

that Mr Moline has a very unhealthy relationship with alcohol.

Really?

I am afraid so.

Good singer or not,

the Reverend would not confide in such a man before myself.

I'll take your word for it.

I don't understand why you're being like this!

Because they are his private diaries!

He let himself get sick, Mum.

Do you not think we need to know why he hid his infection?

Your father has always,

always made it clear that we were never to look at them.

And what difference will it make now, anyway?

-It's not going to make him any better!

-No, but...

You promised never to touch them, remember?

How do you think he's going to feel

when he finds out that you betrayed his trust?

We'll take them home and put them back where they belong.

-Chris...

-I need a coffee.

Do you want one?

No.

-It's ridiculous!

-Why?

Marching across the world telling other people

which god to believe in?

I find it all just a little bit Victorian.

What about the food they supply? The clothes? The medicine?

And they do a lot of education work.

Education? They take impressionable young minds and fill them

full of Holy Ghost stories only to ensure

the continuation of their own outdated religious beliefs.

I quote - "I just can't wait to shine God's glorious light

"where it is needed most".

Who does he think he is?

Can I ask what you are talking about?

Oh, some local vicar wants to cure Africa of its ills.

Speaking of which...

I'm due at the station. So better head off.

Something to read while I'm hanging about.

You don't mind, do you?

No. Not at all.

What are you doing?

Nothing!

So I can't look at them, but it's fine for you to?

-No, I wouldn't...

-That's not what it looks like.

It's not that, it's just...

The smell.

It's the smell I associate with him.

All those nights he was scribbling away.

I would take him a drink,

and his study would smell... like these.

Sorry.

It doesn't matter.

When I was a kid, I used to think he was a spy.

-He was so secretive.

-Don't.

What?

Talk about him like he's already gone.

How long have I got to be in here?

That depends. You'll have to bear with us.

I'm going to try and find you some clothes from lost property.

Thank you, Mrs Grantham.

The officer will show you where you can wait.

More waiting. Lucky me(!) Have they found my George?

I'm afraid I wouldn't know.

How is she? Can I interview her?

She's fine. I'll take more than a flasher to scare her.

So he's not tried to attack her?

No. The way she tells it, he was more scared than she was.

He doesn't look the type, does he?

They rarely do.

Why aren't you out there looking for my George?

I really don't know what our taxes get spent on.

We'll get to that in a minute, Mrs Grantham, I promise you.

Now, you said that you went behind the bush to try and find George,

and you found the man there already in a state of undress?

Yes. An image that will haunt me for the rest of my days.

He didn't jump out at you?

No. I imagine he was going to.

What makes you say that?

It's what they do, isn't it?

Where he was, behind the bush,

would you say that he was visible to any other members of the public?

I wouldn't know. Probably not. What difference does it make?

I'm just trying to ascertain the man's actions and intentions.

Intentions? I have no desire to guess at his intentions!

If it was up to me, men like him would be castrated.

If you won't do it, leave it with me.

I have a pair of rose clippers at home

that would be perfect for the job!

Thank you very much for that kind offer, Mrs Grantham,

but we'll take it from here.

PHONE RINGS

Hello?

'Hello?'

Mrs Tembe, is that you?

If this is about tomorrow night, I have spoken to the florist

and everything is sorted.

Actually, I wanted to talk about Reverend Stanhope.

'Oh, yes?'

Has he mentioned to you his plans for the future?

You mean Uganda? Yes, of course!

He has talked to you about it?

'At great length.'

Yes. Me, too.

I hope you didn't mind me arranging the interview with

the Letherbridge News, but I know how busy you are at the moment.

Isn't it all so exciting?

'Obviously, we'll have to start thinking about a replacement.'

Yes. Of course.

It won't be easy to find somebody as...qualified for the role.

I am sorry, I have to go. I will speak to you tomorrow.

That's when her husband came home!

So I jumped out of bed, grabbed my coat, climbed out the window,

over the fence and into the park.

I was just putting my coat on when the old lady saw me!

Oh, dear. And...what was the video camera for?

Home movies, you know? Except we never got round to it.

And your married lover will confirm this?

Ah, that's the thing!

She's made it clear that she has no intention of leaving her husband.

It wouldn't surprise me if she denied that I even existed!

But presumably you could give us an address?

Um, I've only ever been there at night.

Normally, we're a bit distracted in the back of a taxi,

if you know what I mean?

I'm not sure if I could even find the place again.

You don't look like the Casanova type to me.

Look, I'm not a flasher, I promise.

I never intended to upset an old lady.

What do you do for a living, Mr Fairhead?

I'm an IT manager for the local education authority.

HE LAUGHS

You work in education?

What do you think your employers would think about

you exposing yourself in public?

You're not going to tell them, are you? Please!

I never meant to upset anyone!

Mrs Grantham has confirmed that when she found you,

you were not in full sight of the general public.

So, I am going to accept that you didn't intend to upset anyone.

I'm going to let you off with a caution.

Thank you! Thank you so much!

But if we find you loitering with no clothes on in the park again,

we will drag you straight back down here.

Possibly through a very large patch of stinging nettles. Clear?

Clear!

I wish they'd tell us what's going on.

It's just more tests.

You know, when I look at him lying there,

I feel like I don't know him.

Don't be silly. He's your dad.

Exactly.

He's just Dad.

He might be dying, and there's all these aspects of his life that

I don't know anything about. You're both so secretive.

All right.

-What do you want to know?

-Like...

-Why don't you spend any time together?

-We do!

Not really.

Is he a good husband?

-Your father is a wonderful man.

-That's not the same thing.

Of course he's a good husband!

Even though he locks himself away in his room for hours,

scribbling away in his little books?

Everyone's entitled to some privacy.

What happened? Did you get arrested by the fashion police?

-No, the real police.

-Really? That's classic!

I'm glad you find it so very funny!

You know what they say, if at first you don't succeed...

No! Not again!

Do you think that your father would have been made captain

of the Letherbridge First Team with a defeatist attitude like that?

No, Keith was a fighter. Pity he raised such a wimp of a son.

-But...

-He never showed any fear.

No matter how big the opposition were,

or how many points they were behind, he never showed any weakness.

-But I'm not him, am I?

-More's the pity!

If I get caught again, they said they'd tell my boss.

-I'll get the sack!

-So don't get caught.

-But...

You listen to me, lad. There are people relying on you.

A lot of people.

And you're just going to give up after the first little setback?

-Look at this.

-What is it?

Honorary life membership.

Committee were going to award it to your dad,

only they never got the chance.

Do you have any idea how much all this meant to him?

And you're going to let it all fall apart?

How could you live with yourself?

I don't know.

Come on, David. One more try?

For him?

Is a bit of honesty too much to ask for?

I am being honest!

The only two people who understand a marriage are the two who are in it.

I love your father, and he loves me.

-All I'm trying to say...

-Just leave it!

MACHINES BEEP

I'll get someone!

Sam? Darling, I'm here. I'm here.

Hang on, please hang on!

Oh! Um...have you seen my George?

George! George!

Georgie! >

You are kidding me!

Excuse me?

-Well?

-He's physically fit. He's lucid.

There's nothing to suggest he needs a full psych exam.

It's over to you.

I was convinced he wasn't just some pervert.

If it helps, he mentioned his dad a few times.

-His dad?

-Said something about... wanted to make him proud.

-Anyway, he's all yours.

-Thanks.

I gave you a chance.

-I was mugged!

-For your clothes?

-Yes!

-For the second-hand clothes that I gave you?

-Yes.

Do you think I'm an idiot? Do you?

The way you're heading,

you're going to end up in the nick as a registered sex offender.

Is that what you want?

Is that what you really want, to be banged up with a bunch of perverts?

-No!

-Then you better start talking.

Give me one good reason why I don't arrest you for indecent exposure.

I was doing it for my father.

Your father? Your father told you to get naked in public?

-No. It was for a bet.

-I've had enough of this.

It's true!

My father was the president of Letherbridge Rugby Club.

He was the life and soul of the party. Everybody loved him.

One night, after a couple of pints, he bet the landlord that if the club

won the county cup, he'd do a lap of Letherbridge Park, stark naked.

What's that got to do with you?

Before long, it had turned into this big charity thing.

Loads of people sponsored him to do it, to raise money for the club.

The council have withdrawn funding.

They were threatening to close it down.

I think I've heard it all now.

A sponsored streak to save the rugby club?

Yes! The club raised thousands in pledges.

Not just the members, but the local community, too.

And, sure enough, we won the cup.

What happened then?

Don't tell me, you're dad wimped out and asked you to do it for him?

No. Not exactly.

He died of a heart attack during the semifinal.

He always did get a bit worked up on the touchline.

So I told the club that I'd do it.

In his memory.

It's for charity, isn't it? Hundreds of kids use that club.

It's not just that.

He was so fearless.

Me, I'm scared of everything. Scared of people laughing at me.

I just wanted, for once in my life, to be like him.

Do something as ridiculous and as terrifying as he would have done.

Only now I'm going to go to jail, aren't I?

Oh, David.

David, why didn't you tell me this before?

You'd have stopped me from doing it.

I didn't want to let everyone down. But I have. I've failed him.

Listen to me, just because your dad was a strong personality

does not mean he was a better man.

Forget it.

What about the club? They're relying on that money.

Do a bungee jump or something else instead?

I'm scared of heights.

Why else would he be running halfway around the world?

He's clearly been a naughty boy with one of his parishioners!

He's probably just sick of having his ears chewed off by the Tembe

and her committee buddies.

No, trust me, he's been caught with his pants down.

THEY LAUGH

Maybe he's been sleeping with the vicarage gardener.

-They've been rutting away in the shed like Lady Chatterley.

-Stop it!

How dare you?!

Reverend Stanhope is an honourable man!

If he is going to Uganda, it is because he is a good Christian.

"Good Christian"? What does that even mean?

Someone who is prepared to travel thousands of miles

around the world to impose his narrow-minded views on people

who would be better off without them?

He is trying to help others! What would you know?

About caring for others?

I know everything he does, plus I've got the added advantage

of hundreds of years of scientific, medical and cultural progress.

Why are religious people so easily offended?

-What?

-Mate, I don't believe either, but...

No, no, no. She's more than happy to share her opinions.

I'm just doing the same.

He's developed septicaemia.

They say that we should be ready.

Ready?

There's a chance that he won't make it through the night.

All I can say is, Martin is a very persuasive man.

I still don't understand.

It's only illegal if you expose yourself in a way that's

intended to cause alarm or distress.

We've cleared the park of all members of the public

as best we can.

-You've what?

-So there's nobody to be offended.

And if there's nobody to be offended,

you can't commit an offence.

Let's just say, I'm doing my bit for crime prevention.

It's a bit cold.

You'll have to grin and bear it.

Go on, do him proud.

THEY CHEER

I thought you said you cleared the park?

Except for a few willing observers who want to cheer you on.

I can't.

Did I mention that I had a whip-round at the nick?

Some of the lads have been very, very generous.

Do you really want to disappoint a load of coppers?

I don't have much choice, do I?

No.

THEY ALL CHEER

This is a public place!

I wouldn't need to be here at all if your lot would do their job

and find my George!

DOG BARKS

There he is, I'd recognise his voice anywhere!

George, come to Mummy!

Mrs Tembe, can I go through my patient list for this afternoon?

I am still making a few changes.

Right.

Look, I'm sorry about earlier.

No, it is fine.

You know, Reverend Stanhope probably didn't tell you

because he knows how hard you've been working for the church.

Maybe he didn't want you to have another thing to worry about.

You think so?

And it sounds like a really good cause.

Yes. Yes, it really is.

Isn't it your job, on the committee, to welcome the new vicar

and introduce him or her to the congregation?

Sounds to me like the church is going to need you now more than ever.

Yes. Yes, you are right.

I need to remain positive.

Thank you, Dr Tyler.

The guest of honour!

CHEERING AND APPLAUSE

On the house.

Thank you very much.

Lads! A round of applause, please, for the kind assistance

of Sgt Hollins and the Letherbridge police force, and, of course,

the courageous David Fairhead. Like father, like son!

THEY APPLAUD

You know, your dad asked me to look after you.

Did he?

Yeah. And I tell you, lad, he would have been proud.

Life membership.

What? For me?

You've earned it. You're one of us now.

THEY MURMUR IN AGREEMENT

So what's next? Naked abseil?

Whoa! I think we've seen far too much already, don't you?

THEY ALL LAUGH

You know, it is surprisingly liberating.

THEY ALL LAUGH

You should be in there.

I can't.

Why not?

Because if I stay out here...

HE WHIMPERS

I can pretend he's still alive.

He is still alive.

But he needs us both in there with him.

Come on.

I'm sorry. Do you hear me? I'm sorry.

I don't know why I did it. If it helps, I'm ashamed of myself.

Excuse me. We need you in here.

-I can't at the moment. I...

-Yes, you can.

-I'm a freak.

-No, you're not.

-If he dies because of your negligence...

-That's not fair.

Look, don't. You're going to hurt yourself. Don't!

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