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BANGING ON CAR WINDOW

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Morning.

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Suppose coffee's out the question?

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Come on. I think you'd better come with me.

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One set of car keys. I have to ask you, are these yours?

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Yeah, like I could afford a car like that!

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No, they're not hers.

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And apparently you refused to give a breath sample,

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is that right?

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Actually, I didn't refuse, I'm asthmatic and this one here

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wouldn't believe me, cos I've lost my inhaler.

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Asthmatic? Are you? That's a new one on me, Lizzy.

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Right, what we got in here?

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A purse, with bank cards...

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Oi, watch out, there's money in there. I know what you lot are like.

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Yep. 58 pence, to be exact.

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Don't you worry, this is all going down on your form.

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What else we got? Sunglasses still with the security tag on them.

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One piece of women's clothing still on the coat hanger.

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Have you got receipts for any of these?

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Nope. Didn't pay for none of it.

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Shock horror(!)

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There's a couple of DVDs in there n'all.

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I can write you a list if you like, where I got them all from.

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It's Liz MacWhinnie, she's three sheets to the wind as usual.

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She refused to give a breath test.

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She's saying she's asthmatic but there's no sign of an inhaler.

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If you could do the honours, please?

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Yeah, no problem. You think she's playing for time?

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Well, who knows?

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She's already stuck her hand up to nicking a car

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and volunteered a few other thefts as well,

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so why she wouldn't just take a "drunk in charge", I don't know.

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Sounds pretty prolific.

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-Don't you know Liz?

-No.

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I'm surprised you've managed to avoid her.

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She's been in and out of here for years,

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had a problem with drinking for as long as I can remember.

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Only time we don't see her is when she's inside.

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She an aggressive drunk, or is she harmless?

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She's gobby but harmless.

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We just go through the motions, don't we, mate?

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And then leave it to the magistrates.

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But it's all cut and dry anyway.

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Any trouble, you know where I am.

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OK.

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Hi, I'm Dr Clay, I'll be taking your bloods.

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Yeah, I know, the other idiot explained.

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OK. Could you take off your cardigan

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and roll up your sleeve for me, please?

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Sounds like you've had a busy day already.

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Just cos I'm unemployed don't mean I can't be productive.

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See, that's the problem with our society. Everyone assumes

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we're all lazy scroungers.

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You were just arrested for taking a car and whatever else.

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You're hardly providing an alternative viewpoint.

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Well, exactly.

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For a homeless, unemployed alcoholic,

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there are no alternatives.

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Sharp prick.

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Sounds pretty extreme.

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It is extreme, it's a political statement.

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How is stealing a car a political statement?

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I wasn't stealing it. Just borrowed it for a bit.

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It's a bit cold, early mornings.

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Right, just give me a second.

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Just pop your finger on that for me, hold your arm.

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So you were just staying warm?

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And having a kip.

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It's hard trying to get your eight hours

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when you're on the lookout for weirdos.

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Wouldn't have thought weirdos would bother you that much.

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You couldn't get me a puffer, could you?

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For me asthma.

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Oh, what, they telling you I'm pulling a fast one?

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Where's your inhaler?

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I lost it.

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I feel OK but I don't like not having it with me.

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OK, I'll see what I can do.

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Listen, if you weren't taking the car,

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why don't you just tell the police that,

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you might get away with a rap on the knuckles?

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A rap on the knuckles ain't going to get me banged up again, is it?

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The government doesn't give a monkey's about people like me.

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Only chance of a hot meal and a roof over my head is prison,

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which, ironically, costs the tax-payer more than putting us

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in a proper home.

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So you'd rather be in prison, than homeless?

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Prison's not that bad. Barfield's the best.

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Stretton Hill's OK, especially the mother and baby unit,

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but Barfield's got this massive library.

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Taught myself fluent French there.

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Est-ce que vous pouvez m'aider avec mes bagages, monsieur?

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Do I even want to know what that means?

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Oh, you're going to have to look it up.

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Sorry, Nell. Can't start the day without a cuppa.

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Fine with me, any excuse to put my feet up.

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Now, what can I do for you?

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I've got really painful hips

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and I know it's common during pregnancy

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but I just wanted to put my mind at rest.

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Can you roll your sleeve up for me?

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It's probably just the joints

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loosening, getting you ready for labour.

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Are you sleeping with a pillow between your knees?

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And under the bump, and a hot water bottle.

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But it's not just at night,

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and now my knees are starting to ache as well.

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Just worried it might be a sign.

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Yeah, it's a sign you're pregnant.

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Your hormones cause your tendons to loosen,

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so aching joints is par for the course, I'm afraid.

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Majority of women reckon they feel better

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when they're pregnant. Sod's law I'm in the minority.

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I haven't had a flare-up for over a year, but...

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Sorry, flare-up of what?

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Rheumatoid arthritis.

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Sorry, I assumed you'd read my notes.

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Right.

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No wonder you're joining the dots.

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So you do think it's a flare-up?

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Oh, that's just what I need. The cot

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hasn't arrived yet, I haven't even painted

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the nursery, and I don't want to go back on drugs while I'm pregnant.

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Whoa, let's not jump the gun,

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your blood pressure's fine.

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These are all fairly normal symptoms of being pregnant.

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Fairly normal? Not completely normal?

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Yes, actually, completely normal.

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Oh, thank God for that!

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Sorry, you must think I'm a raving idiot.

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-I'm sorry!

-Don't apologise.

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It's normal to have concerns about your pregnancy, especially

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if there are other factors.

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I just want to do everything

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I can to assuage those concerns, so...

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And you have, thank you.

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To be honest, I feel a bit silly,

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letting my paranoia get the better of me.

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Nonsense, you don't have to rush off.

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No, you've... I've taken enough of your time.

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Thank you, Doctor.

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Any news on the Liz MacWhinnie blood sample?

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Ah, yep. She's over. 105 mgs.

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She probably had a top-up for breakfast, knowing Liz.

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She told me she had no intention of driving the car.

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Doesn't matter. Keys were in the ignition, engine was running.

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Yeah, but the engine was running because the heater was on.

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You know she wants to go back to prison?

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She reckons it's a form of protest, taking up a cell to prove

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a point about lack of support for the homeless.

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Of course she wants to go back to prison. She's institutionalised.

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Can see her point.

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Probably would be cheaper to help her off the streets

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and into a home, than it would locking her away again.

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Just because she needs help it doesn't mean she can go round

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breaking the law.

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You know, deep down, she likes being in the system.

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She doesn't want any help.

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Thank you.

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All right, I've checked your medical records and I've got you an inhaler

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but I'd like to examine you first, if that's OK?

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Could you lift your top up for me?

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I'm just going to listen to your back first.

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Breathe in.

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Again.

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When was the last time you had an asthma attack?

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Don't know. Months? A year?

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Yet it was bad enough to stop you being breathalysed?

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Yeah, but imagine if I'd done the test, had an attack

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and I didn't have my inhaler with me.

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Police'd be accused of all sorts.

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I was doing them a favour.

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Can I listen to your chest, please?

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Sounds fine.

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Is there anything else you need to tell me?

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No, no, that was years ago.

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We all have different ways of coping, but I'm over all that now.

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Thought you were getting here early?

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I've made a start on the cakes but there's not a lot I can do until...

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Oh, sorry.

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I was expecting Trevor.

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Trevor couldn't make it. I offered to swap.

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You don't mind, do you?

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No, why would I mind?

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Yeah, he had to take his daughter to the dentist, his brother was

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going to do it but he had this thing at work he couldn't miss,

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so...

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So, I can be your sous-chef if you like? What do you need?

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Well, maybe if you start on the sandwiches?

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All the stuff's over there.

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Right.

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I'm not sure if it's something the church would help with directly,

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or if there are any other charities who might...

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That sounds perfect!

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Yeah, thank you, thank you, Mrs Tembe, I owe you one.

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Mrs Tembe? What's all that about?

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Getting one out of the system.

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And, with a permanent address, you stand a better chance of being

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bailed instead of put back inside.

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Did I ask for your help?

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No, but it is perfect, and it's got an onsite warden,

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large communal space for meetings and stuff

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which are a condition for residents who have a history of substance

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abuse. But then once you're settled,

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you could have the kids over to visit.

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Who mentioned anything about kids?

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You mentioned a mother and baby unit so I just presumed.

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I did have a kid.

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But they don't like you keeping 'em in prison.

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So what happened?

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You get a choice. Either a family member looks after it

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or you get it adopted. I ain't got a family, so...

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You still in contact?

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Why would I be? Didn't want her in the first place.

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Sorry, I thought you'd be pleased.

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I am. Sounds perfect.

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Listen to this bit -

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"Corticosteroids exert anti-inflammatory

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"and immunosuppressant actions, while oestrogen can decrease

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"the stromal cell production of interleukein-1 and TNF-alpha..."

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SHE GROANS

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Why is it, when we become doctors, we stop speaking English?

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I mean, I know the words but...

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Come on!

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I suppose it is a little bit dense.

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Dense? It's impenetrable is what it is!

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Would you look at what you've written!

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What, don't tell me it gets worse?

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It doesn't matter, just more blather.

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It's enough to make a girl feel stupid.

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That's what our resident geek's for.

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He does all the hard work so you don't have to.

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It's my patient, I couldn't ask another doctor...

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Al Haskey's offered to help, with no incentive or personal gain.

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That's a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity.

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I would take him up on that if I were you.

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Actually, I was going to go to the Icon for lunch.

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What, with your sandwiches?

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Or I could stay here.

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Great.

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Your hearing's set for ten o'clock tomorrow morning. You don't

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need me to tell you that failure to appear will

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result in a warrant being issued for your arrest, OK?

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Yeah. Doc?

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I just want to say cheers. You know, for taking the time.

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I appreciate it.

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Good luck, yeah?

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Can you pass the ham?

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Thank you.

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And tomatoes, thanks?

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You know what this needs?

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My kids are mad for anything with mustard in it.

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Oh, me too when I was a kid.

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My husband used to reckon it was too spicy for them

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but they can't get enough of it.

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Does he do the cooking at home?

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You're kidding, aren't you?

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Even when he was still around, he was never the hands-on dad type.

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MICROWAVE PINGS

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I was only 17 when we got together.

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A very young 17.

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I idolised him, thought he knew it all.

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So did he.

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We all make mistakes.

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Yeah, but not all of us have to live with the consequences.

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When my parents died, he used my inheritance to set up

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a business, property development.

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Easy way to make money, he said.

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Easy way to lose money as well.

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Careful, it's hot.

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So had you no idea?

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Well, every time I mentioned it, he was like,

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"No need for you to worry about it, you don't understand finance."

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It's my own fault, I should've been more persistent

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but he had this way of making me feel stupid.

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I was stupid.

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Don't be so hard on yourself.

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No, it's true.

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He only got away with it cos I let him.

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And then he ran off, the house got repossessed,

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and I had these massive bills I couldn't pay.

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So how did you manage?

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Well, I had to, for the kids' sake.

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All that time he made me

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feel like I was completely useless.

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It turns out he was wrong.

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I'm not brilliant, but I can manage.

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It's lovely. So what about you?

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What about me?

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Well, I've told you my sob story, what about yours?

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What's your skeleton in the cupboard?

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Nothing to tell. I've no wife or kids,

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no job and no prospects!

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I wouldn't say that.

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Oi, you, come here!

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What do you think you're doing? I'm warning you.

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DULL THUD

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KNOCK AT DOOR Come in.

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Got another one for you. Had a barney with a store detective.

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Good right hook, bruised knuckles.

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Show him in.

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Her. Come on.

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Thank you.

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Show me your hand.

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Can you move your fingers?

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Doesn't look like it's broken.

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I'll clean and dress it for you, but it'll need some rest for a while.

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All that about using crime as a protest,

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just to get a roof over your head...

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Now you've got somewhere to live, you're still breaking the law.

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I never asked for your help.

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So what are we talking about, worst case scenario?

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Well, it's nine months without medication, isn't it?

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You've got the additional stress on

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the joints with the added baby weight.

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She could be looking at long-term joint damage.

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But we find her the right medication, she'll be fine.

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Thanks, Al.

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I've never had a pregnant patient with RA before.

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Been through it on paper but it's different in practice.

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Just paranoid I missed something.

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Ah, paranoia. It's what keeps us on our toes.

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And tea.

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And fags.

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And bacon sandwiches.

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So have you got any plans for the rest of the week?

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Not really.

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Me neither.

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My sister's staying as well, so I've got a baby-sitter on tap.

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Do you know what?

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I realised the other day that I haven't been out to

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the cinema in years.

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Apart from with the kids, but an hour of, "Who's he?"

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and, "Why's she doing that?"

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It doesn't really count as going out.

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Yeah, I'm not really a big fan of the cinema.

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I prefer to watch films at home. You don't have to put up with

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people texting and rustling sweet wrappers.

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And what is it with people speaking with their mouths full?

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Maybe we could do something?

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I mean, not the cinema, obviously, but...

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A meal?

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Well, maybe not a meal, that's a bit...

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We could go for a drink, if you like?

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I just think it might be nice,

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to get to know each other better.

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I don't know.

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Where does all this washing-up come from?

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Why don't I crack on with this, while you go and serve out front?

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Don't take it personally.

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I had it all sorted, she didn't even give it a day.

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She doesn't want help.

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You do know, according to her prison records, that

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she was offered counselling several times and turned it down?

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Why was she offered counselling?

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Problems with confined spaces, ongoing disputes with other

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inmates resulting in broken bones, a stab wound, regular beatings...

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You'd think that you would want counselling after all that.

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To be honest, my understanding of rheumatoid arthritis

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isn't as in-depth as my colleagues,

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I wanted to make sure I wasn't overlooking anything

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and I'm really sorry I've had to bring you in twice.

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OK. GPs can't be specialists at everything, I suppose!

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I've got a leaflet for you, actually.

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It's funny, of all the things I miss about my ex, the biggest one

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is not having someone there to tell me when I'm being neurotic.

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You should count yourself lucky!

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My friends take it in turns to tell me when I'm being an idiot.

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Who needs boyfriends when you've got good mates, eh?

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-That's right.

-Thanks.

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Take care.

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Why're you so keen to go back inside?

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Maybe I like it.

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You like being beaten up, stabbed?

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You liked it when they broke your leg?

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Not exactly the cushy picture you painted for me, is it?

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So who in their right minds would want to go back to that?

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There's your answer. I'm obviously not in my right mind.

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There we go then(!) That's why we have the self-punishing?

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What do you care?

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When you finish here, you go back to your cosy little home,

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with your cosy little wife and kids,

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and you'll switch off and forget all about me.

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No, I won't.

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Yeah, well you should,

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because I don't need your help and I didn't ask for it.

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Save it for someone who deserves it.

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Look, we've all done things we're ashamed of.

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Acknowledging it,

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facing up to it, sometimes that can be the hardest part.

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Acknowledging what I've done, facing up to it...

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That's not going to change anything.

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I'll still've done it, I'm still worthless.

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No-one's worthless.

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You don't know what you're talking about!

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You know, if I died, no-one would care, no-one would mourn me,

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no-one's lives'd change and that's exactly how it should be,

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cos I don't deserve it.

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Whatever you've done, nothing can be that terrible.

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She'll be scarred for life because of me.

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She'll grow up thinking no-one's loved her.

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You know, I created her, I gave birth to her, then I rejected her.

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What's worse than that?

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You gave her a chance.

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I gave her up!

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What was the alternative?

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Foster care when you were inside, living on the streets

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when you weren't? What sort of life would that've been?

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Any other mum would've kept her, regardless.

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They'd have loved her. Properly.

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Just because you give up a child for adoption it doesn't

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mean you don't love them.

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Doesn't it?

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I didn't even name her, I couldn't even look her in the face, I...

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They tried to make me but I closed my eyes.

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I didn't even want to picture what she looked like.

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I can't imagine her growing up, getting older.

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I don't wonder what the sound of her laughter is.

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I just don't want to know any of that.

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They send me photos, every year for her birthday.

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Her social worker gives it to me.

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I just rip it up or burn it,

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I can't even look at it.

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What you did was completely understandable.

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We all have different ways of coping.

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But this isn't coping, Liz.

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This cycle of alcohol abuse, breaking the law,

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the self-punishment.

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None of that's coping.

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Do you really want to spend the rest of your life like this?

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-Claire.

-I'm just going to start clearing up in the kitchen.

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Can that wait? Please?

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I like you so I'm going to level with you.

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I'm not very good at relationships.

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Neither am I...

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No, no, no, no, I mean, really.

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I've done...

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I've done things in my past which I'm not proud of.

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My childhood was...

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It was difficult,

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which has meant that I've really struggled to form...

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It's OK.

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No, no, it's not, because you're really nice and the last thing

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I want to do is hurt you but you shouldn't be around someone like me.

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From what I can see, you're kind, you're thoughtful...

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I've been to prison.

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OK.

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Can I ask what for? I mean...

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..is it for anything...violent?

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Yeah.

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How violent? I mean, are we talking fight in a pub or worse?

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It's worse.

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How worse?

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Armed robbery.

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Guns?

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Trust me, I would never do anything like that again...

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I just think you deserve to know.

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And I completely understand if you don't want anything to do with me.

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This is ridiculous.

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The magistrates will remand her and she'll be back to square one again.

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Probation services might be able to sort out a bail hostel.

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Yeah, but you and I both know the chances of that.

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Listen, how do you feel about her having a visitor?

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Here's the thing.

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We get on, right?

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Right.

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And just because we've had a few crossed wires,

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doesn't mean we don't get on any more.

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We do.

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We do.

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I know we haven't known each other that long, but I reckon

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when you click with someone, you just click.

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And I miss our click.

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I want our click back.

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I think you're absolutely right,

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I've been feeling all...

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And I didn't know how to say it and I thought you felt differently.

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Course I don't, I feel exactly the same as you do!

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Well, in that case, I think that we should...

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Forget all about it and pretend it never happened. Friends?

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Friends?

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Friends.

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Good then.

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Er, there's someone to see you. If you want to.

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Your social worker.

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What's she doing here?

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I asked her to come.

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She's got copies of the old letters

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and photographs your daughter's parents have sent.

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Look, I know it's hard.

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If you want me to I can come with you.

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Just say the word.

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Can't have been easy, telling me that.

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It's brave, really.

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I've always been so cautious, worry too much to take risks.

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Look, it's fine, you don't have to explain.

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Being scared, it holds you back.

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I don't want to be held back any more.

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None of us is perfect.

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Maybe your past is a bit more...extreme.

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But I'm not interested in the past.

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It's who you are now that matters.

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And if you feel the same...

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I mean, we don't have to rush anything,

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we could take it slowly and see what happens.

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If you like?

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I'm going to be taking over Marcus' life.

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Don't stop on my account.

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Dr Tyler. I know.

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Ah, my reputation precedes me.

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Is running away really the answer?

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What are you, Jeremy Kyle?

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Tango.

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I will teach you the basics. You will not deviate from them

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until I feel you are ready.

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Yes, sir.

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Show-offs will not be tolerated.

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