13/06/2011 EastEnders


13/06/2011

Janine and Lydia reach out to one another during a dark night of the soul, before heartbreaking tragedy tears them apart. Vanessa puts Max on the spot about his feelings for Tanya.


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Janine!

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What is it? Go back to bed.

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Janine, she was here!

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Who was there?

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GROANING

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For goodness' sake!

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What have you done?!

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-She's in there.

-Have you hurt yourself?

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I'm telling you she's in there!

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-There's nobody's in there. Come on, let me get you onto a chair.

-I'm telling you she's in there!

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There's nobody in here. It's completely empty.

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You must have been hallucinating. How many of those pills have you taken?

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I'm telling you, she was there.

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Wearing the same dress as in the photograph.

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Sorry? What photograph?

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Who are you talking about?

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Your mother!

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Max?

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Sorry, babe.

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Was it a bit loud?

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No, I woke up and you weren't there.

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Same old, innit.

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I got straight off, come two o'clock I'm wide awake and buzzing.

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Just gave up in the end.

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Can I guess?

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There's nothing to guess. It's just...

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just something I go through now and again, innit.

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-So it's got nothing to do with what Tanya said...

-No, course it ain't.

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Only I'm not sure I'd be altogether overjoyed to learn my ex was starting a new family.

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Not that he could manage it.

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Am I warm?

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As far as I'm concerned, she can do what she wants.

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It's just the kids, you know?

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Once junior comes along, they're going to get forgotten about. It's not fair on them.

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What?

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I think it's about time you and I stopped pretending.

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I think the reason you can't sleep...

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..the reason you're so upset...

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..it's got nothing to do with the kids.

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I think it's cos

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you've never quite fallen out of love with her, have you?

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Max, look at me.

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Honest answers only.

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Yes or no?

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Don't usually see you in here at this time. What you doing?

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Couldn't sleep. Needed to get out of the house for a bit.

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-Oh, really?

-Yeah, really.

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So you haven't had a row, then?

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-You and fatty boy?

-No, nothing at all.

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-Are you sure?

-Yeah, I'm sure.

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-Has he been coming on to you?

-No!

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Oh, no, he hasn't, has he?

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-Hasn't what?

-Honey, I've been there.

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Even the nicest-seeming guys can do the most dreadful things.

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-Has he hit you?

-No!

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-It's nothing to do with Arthur at all.

-So what, then?

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I went to see a solicitor on Friday.

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I have an immigration hearing, in...

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..six hours!

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I've screwed up so bad.

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-It was a mistake getting married.

-How?

-They'll think it was a scam to keep me in the country.

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What did Fatboy say to that?

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He wasn't there. I haven't been able to bring myself to tell him.

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Honey, another coffee, please.

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Sure.

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Come on.

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That's it.

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You just... You haven't taken on nearly enough liquids.

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You're dehydrated.

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That is what all of this is about.

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My time is up.

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I am not having you die on me.

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What are you talking about?

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You've been praying for this!

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I mean in my living room. Far too much hassle.

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THEY CHUCKLE

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About my funeral.

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Are you not listening? There is going to be no dying.

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-That's an order.

-I don't want one.

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Good, because you're not going to have one. Not yet.

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-And when you do...

-The doctors can do what they like with me.

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I mean, there's nothing worth salvaging anyway.

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I rather relish the idea of young medical students gawping over my innards.

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"Where's her heart?" they'll say.

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"Extraordinary. She doesn't appear to have one."

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I've never told you this, young lady, but I rather like you.

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It's that defiant streak.

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That refusal to be anything other than you are.

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Well, I wonder where I get that from?

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Do you know, just to cheese you off,

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I'm going to give you the most fantastic funeral.

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Loads and loads of hideous floral tributes.

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You know, ones that spell out "Grandma" in lilies.

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Tasteful, you know? And I, I will be chief mourner, dressed all in black.

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With a little pillbox hat, and a veil, and maybe some fishnets...

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Why do I always feel so filthy at funerals?

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Oh, and there'll definitely be a choir.

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I think I can stretch to that. What song would you have?

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Yes! We Have No Bananas.

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She's there again!

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-Next to your father!

-No, Granny,

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-look, it's just a picture.

-No!

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-She's there!

-No.

-She's as real as you or me.

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This is it. Now, come on, help me.

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-Please.

-What? Can you just stop this?

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Or I'll start being extra nice to you.

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Or something else you'd really hate. And I mean it.

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It's not true I don't have a heart.

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-I DO have a heart.

-I know.

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And I do know how to love.

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Because I loved her.

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Oh, Granny...

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All right, then, let me ask you another question.

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Do you think I'm stupid?

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No, course I don't.

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Cos I have got eyes and ears, Max.

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Underneath all that big hair and make-up, I have got a brain.

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And I notice things.

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And while I'm

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long enough in the tooth to know that all relationships

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require a bit of give and take...

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..I'm not so dumb as not to know when I'm becoming second best.

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Babe, that ain't true! I got loads of respect for you.

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I'm not talking about respect.

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All right. Well, let me ask you a question. This word "love".

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What do you think it means?

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I'd rather hear what YOU think it means.

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It means loads of things.

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You know, "I want to possess you.

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"I want to control you. I want to be controlled BY you.

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"I'm needy.

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"I'm weak.

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-"I need reassurance."

-That's what you think love means?

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I think that's what other people muddle it up with.

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So, what is it, then?

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It's about trust.

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Intimacy?

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Being truthful. Wanting to put someone else before yourself.

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Babe, none of that...none of that applies to me and Tanya.

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So?

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It's just emotional cat-and-mouse, innit.

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Stupid, ridiculous, never-ending game.

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And who's winning?

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Nobody.

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So, what you doing here?

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Are YOU going to tell him?

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Or do you want me to?

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There isn't a day goes by when I don't look at him

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and find myself having a conversation with him in my head.

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Shame he was such a slug.

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Yeah, well, I'm not going to be sticking up for him.

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I know what he was like.

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But it's not rational, is it? Some people you find yourself forgiving over and over again.

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Not me. Any hope of that died when she died.

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And all I was left with was bitterness and hatred...

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and my money.

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Ooh, how he hated that.

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Money doesn't buy you very much.

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But it does buy you power.

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I want you to do something for me.

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-What?

-In the bedroom, in that drawer, there's a biscuit tin and a bundle of letters.

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Bring them here for me.

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-What are you doing in there?

-Oh, I'm just coming.

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-Janine!

-All right!

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All right.

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-Did you look at it?

-Look at what?

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Of course you looked at it!

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You wouldn't be the Janine I know if you didn't.

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No, I don't know what you're talking about.

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You didn't come across my will while you were rooting about in there?

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Be very odd if you didn't.

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-Considering the time you were in there.

-OK.

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I saw it, you know. So what?

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Why don't I quite believe this display of studied indifference?

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Where's the resentment? Oh, come on, girl, let it out.

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You'll feel so much better afterwards.

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All right, so what is the Cancer Nurses Trust anyway? I've never heard of it.

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-They looked after your mother during the final weeks of her illness.

-Well, who'd've thought it?

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Lydia Simmonds, lady bountiful, selfless philanthropist and all round good egg.

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That's more like it.

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A trace of disappointment.

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Anger, even.

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Look, if it's for a good cause

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and it helps you buy your way into heaven, then why not?

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These are all of Mum.

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Supposing I was to tell you we're talking well into seven figures,

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would that make a difference?

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Would that light the gleam of avarice in your eye?

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What are you trying to do, Granny, torture me?

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Is that it? Because, let me tell you, it isn't working.

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Yes, but just think, Janine. With all that money,

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you could end up as happy and fulfilled as me.

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Think of what you'll be missing.

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I would rather have these.

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-You are as British as me.

-That's not quite British enough.

-What?

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Oh, come on, Fats, you know what she's talking about as well as I do.

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Last I heard, there was this thing called law.

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-Yeah, and it's against me.

-So, what time we got to be at this hearing?

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-Ten o'clock.

-All right, well that gives me exactly 5.75 hours.

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-What are you going to do?

-Learn to be a lawyer. This ain't over!

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So, if what you say about you and Tanya is right

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and this is all a big game, then what's all this stuff about?

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All that stuff about her wanting more kids was just her next throw of the dice?

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Can there be any worse reason for having more children than just to get back at your ex-husband?

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So what you're feeling now is exactly what she WANTS you to feel.

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So how do I stop feeling it?

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By understanding what's going on.

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Do you think me and Harry aren't wrapped up in the same stuff?

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The only reason you don't know it is cos you don't see it. But it's there.

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So how do you manage it?

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I don't.

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You see, the sad irony of this is that

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you can know all of this and then just carry on the same old way.

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Cos it's too scary to do anything different.

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What do you mean, "scary"?

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To act differently takes courage, Max.

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Courage I don't have.

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Courage to be a grown-up.

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Why do you think I hide behind all that make-up?

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Because I'm scared.

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I'm scared that if people could see the real me

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-then I wouldn't be able to pretend any more.

-Shhh, V, V, V.

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Please, please, V.

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Cos that's what we're all doing.

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You, me, Tanya, everyone.

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Pretending.

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Well, we could stop right now.

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This very second.

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Let's make love.

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Right here.

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I want to.

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What are you doing?

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Will you get it off me?

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-Why do you want to take it off?

-Oh, just do it!

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OK.

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There you go.

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What do you think it's worth, Janine?

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I don't know.

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Is it solid gold?

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If I told you it was priceless, what would you say?

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I gave it to your mother the day you were born.

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Open it up.

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That picture was taken

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on your third birthday.

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Your mother loved that photograph.

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And so do I.

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You were such a happy child.

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Yeah, well, that's not the way I heard it.

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-According to Pat, I was the devil's spawn.

-But that was afterwards.

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After what?

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-Do you know what my earliest memory is?

-No, what was that?

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It was of my dad

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telling me that Mummy had gone away

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and that she wasn't coming back.

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I thought he meant to the shops, you know. That was the only

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"away" I knew.

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I wanted you to come to the funeral.

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But he wouldn't have it.

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He said you were too young. That it would upset you.

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I knew that he was lying, of course.

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About the going away bit, I mean.

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Not that I could have known what lying was then.

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I just,

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I didn't take it on board that she was dead for days.

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Weeks. It just wasn't mentioned.

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And I...

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I can remember being so...

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so angry at her for leaving me.

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I said to Frank "Who's going to look after Janine while we're all at the funeral?"

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And he said, "Oh, I've got this friend I was thinking of asking."

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I said, "Is it a woman?" And that's when he starts fiddling with his spectacles,

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which was always a sure sign.

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-Pat.

-Yeah, well, she didn't come.

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He backed down.

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I'd've killed him if he hadn't.

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I wanted you to come and live with me. You do know that?

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What?

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When it was being discussed.

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Frank said, "I can't run a business and look after a four-year-old."

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So I said, "I will."

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So, you mean that when I was living with Clare

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I could've gone to you instead?

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I begged him. Even though the words stuck in my throat.

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Cos I wanted it.

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-I wanted it so much...

-Oh, Granny...

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I wanted you...

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If I'd had a little girl to look after, things might have been...

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Might have what?

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Then afterwards he did everything he could to keep you away from me.

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I say "he", but I think it was more her by then,

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but he just went along with it, you know, coward that he was.

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Well, it's a lovely locket.

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It's a lovely photograph.

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It's yours.

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Keep it. Put it on.

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-No, no, no, I can't do that.

-Just for once do what you're told, mm?

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What time is it?

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Oh, I don't know.

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It is half past four.

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What time does it get light?

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I don't know.

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Can't be long now.

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I can feel it.

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Your mother was born at this time of day.

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I'd been in labour forever.

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And halfway through, the sirens went off...

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..and the midwife thought that I might haemorrhage if we moved to the shelter.

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So I was stuck under that kitchen table for another three hours

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with the bombs falling all round.

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No epidurals in those days.

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There was no nothing.

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I thought, "If this is childbirth, you can keep it!"

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Granny, you shouldn't be talking.

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It's wearing you out. You need to rest.

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And then suddenly there she was.

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Bawling and screaming.

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"You've got a beautiful

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"baby girl, Mrs Simmonds."

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And that was Mum?

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And then the midwife pulled back the blackout curtain

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and it was dawn.

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And outside, miraculously,

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birdsong.

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And the room was flooded with a pale yellow light.

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And suddenly the whole thing was alive and just for one moment,

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despite the pain, despite the bombs, despite the wretched war...

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..it was as if everything in the entire universe

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made complete and perfect sense.

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As if I'd been touched by God.

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Granny...

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Would you be very offended

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if I told you that I loved you?

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SHE CHUCKLES

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What? What's so funny?

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Everything's funny.

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The whole damned thing is funny from up here looking down on it.

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Up where?

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Are you really not bothered about the will?

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Well, I'm not saying that I won't feel differently tomorrow...

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..but right now I couldn't give a damn. Honestly.

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Kiss me.

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So, what about these letters?

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Not now. Later.

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I want you to take me into the front room.

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I want to see the sunrise.

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OK, well let me just get your wheelchair.

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Hey.

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What you doing?

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Nothing.

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You go to bed, babe. You're going to need some sleep.

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-So do you.

-Yeah, but I'm Superman, all right?

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I can do anything.

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Oh, Arthur...

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What?

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You know I can't cope with this.

0:24:080:24:11

-What?

-Knowing that, you know, if I didn't ask you to marry me, then you'd probably stand a better chance.

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Well, I'm glad you did.

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Really?

0:24:190:24:20

-I so wish I...

-No, no, no, no.

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I know you don't love me, Merce, all right. But that ain't going to stop me loving you, OK.

0:24:240:24:29

So just don't blow out all hope.

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Listen, Merce, if all this goes wrong, and I'm not saying it will,

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-but if it does, then... I'm coming to Nigeria with you, all right? No arguments.

-No.

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So just say, "Yes, Arthur."

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Yes, Arthur.

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Good.

0:24:550:24:57

-You know what?

-What?

0:24:580:25:01

I think I'm going to give up the fags.

0:25:020:25:04

Really?

0:25:050:25:07

Yeah, it's suddenly like I don't need them any more.

0:25:070:25:10

It's weird. I don't even want one.

0:25:120:25:14

That's great.

0:25:150:25:17

Abi'll be pleased.

0:25:180:25:19

V?

0:25:270:25:28

Yeah?

0:25:280:25:31

Will you marry me?

0:25:330:25:35

Are you serious?

0:25:410:25:42

Yes or no?

0:25:450:25:46

Sure.

0:25:500:25:51

Why not?

0:25:530:25:55

Good.

0:25:570:25:58

FEEBLY: Pull the curtains.

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Open the window. I want to hear the birds.

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BIRDSONG DRIFTS IN

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Oh, wow.

0:26:200:26:22

-Who'd've thought it? It's amazing.

-Closer.

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Closer.

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Hey...listen.

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The world is a beautiful place sometimes.

0:26:420:26:45

We forget so easily.

0:26:470:26:50

Is it me, or does it look different?

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Same old square.

0:27:060:27:08

Same old gardens.

0:27:080:27:10

Same old...rubbish.

0:27:100:27:13

I don't know what it is.

0:27:160:27:17

It's almost like I've never looked at it properly before.

0:27:170:27:24

I know this is going to sound stupid, but...

0:27:260:27:28

..it's almost beautiful.

0:27:300:27:32

It's like I want to go round and knock on

0:27:320:27:35

everyone's door and say "Wake up!

0:27:350:27:37

"you don't know what you're missing, you idiots!"

0:27:370:27:40

Instead they're all just

0:27:420:27:44

tucked up in bed asleep.

0:27:440:27:47

They haven't got the foggiest.

0:27:470:27:49

Isn't it weird being alive?

0:27:510:27:53

I mean, when you really think about it,

0:27:550:27:59

it's just so strange.

0:27:590:28:03

That's the trouble, though, isn't it?

0:28:050:28:07

We don't ever think about it, I mean.

0:28:090:28:12

You're not saying much.

0:28:160:28:17

Granny?

0:28:220:28:24

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Janine and Lydia reach out to one another during a dark night of the soul, before heartbreaking tragedy tears them apart. Vanessa puts Max on the spot about his feelings for Tanya, while a terrified Mercy prepares herself for the worst in court.


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