22/11/2011 EastEnders

Oh, I thought I couldn't have those shoes cos you were skint?

That's it, there.

Lovely, innit, eh? All of us here together.

You do know it's November?

And it's SO tacky.

-You hate tacky.

-No, it's lovely.

You going to put lights on the front of the house as well?

Yep, all over it. Reindeer on the roof.

One of them great, big blow-up snowmen. The works.

When's it going to be back on?

You know what, I'll find someone else to pick Amy up.

-Jack, I'll have her.

-No.

No, we set up ground rules.

I'll take her to the park. She'll love it.

No, I'll find someone else. Responsible.

Yes, that's it. That's it. There's another one in there, too.

KNOCK ON DOOR

I'll get it.

-Abs, I said there's one under the stairs...

-I've got school.

It's not like it's Christmas tomorrow.

You know what daughters are like. Hormones.

I've arranged you an urgent appointment this afternoon.

-Right, well I'm busy this afternoon.

-Tanya...

I had to call in a favour.

So uncall it.

I'll ring 'em later.

Twice in two days?

Yeah, Dr Khan was just wondering if I had any work at the salon for Afia, that's all.

So he's out looking for work for his daughter

when he should be at the surgery?

No wonder the NHS is in such a state.

Come on, it'll only be an hour. The playgroup's got a power cut.

-I'm working! And I'm going out.

-You won't know she's here.

-Why not get her yourself?

-I'll tell them you'll be there in two minutes.

-Jack!

All right, Abs?

What do you want?

-Did you bring any cash with you?

-I'm meant to be at school.

Whose is...? Is that...?

Lola, are you pregnant?!

Abi, I'll need you to look after Amy for me in a few minutes, yeah?

No, I'm meant to be at school!

You better have brought some cash with you,

because I am starving.

I'm still moving out.

Good.

Oh, don't forget your make-up.

It's all over the bathroom.

Today's a three.

Are you thinking about Stace and Lily?

You missing Norman?

If this is about me and Alfie, we're fine.

We're just getting stressed out about Christmas, that's all.

You don't have to work, you know. Go back to bed if you want.

No.

Today, I'll beat it.

I'll be OK.

Not going in today?

The salon can run itself.

Did Doctor Khan really come round about his daughter?

-Yeah.

-Only you look like Death warmed up.

Well, I'm just tired, Mum, that's all.

You keep wiping them plates, you'll wipe the print off.

Put the cloth down.

Mum, honestly. I'm fine!

This "flu" of yours.

Well, there's been a lot going round, hasn't there?

Only it ain't flu, though, is it?

What, are you a doctor now, or...?

How much did you have to drink last night?

-That's none of your business, Mum!

-Come on, I've seen it all before with Rainie.

I know a drink problem when I see one.

Hello! Pot? Kettle?

Thought about where you're going to live yet?

-Right, change the subject.

-I said a week. Now it's six days.

-Nobody said it was easy, being on your own.

-I'm not joking.

Don't take it out on me. I'm trying.

You've got until the end of the week. Then you're gone.

Max, Greg, me.

You keep pushing everyone away, Tanya,

and one day there's going to be no-one left to push.

I don't have any extra hours, Rose.

Just another morning a week, Dr Khan?

-My little face, to brighten up your day?

-I'm sorry.

You see, I'm thinking of getting my own place,

-and London is so expensive.

-Rose, the work's not there.

And you're sure you're OK?

Scabs, it's just a baby.

-Coffee to take away?

-Yeah, yeah, please.

Um, he's going to find out.

Yeah, he can find out when I've finished my drink.

Hello, my baby.

How are you? Hello.

Auntie Carol said Uncle Jack said that...

She's my daughter, Abi.

Yeah. But if he finds out, then...

I'm not going to tell him, am I?

She IS her mum.

Come here, baby. Come to Mummy.

Oh, hello.

It's funny, I don't remember school looking like this.

Starts late today.

Staff training.

Lo, you promised me.

Yeah, and I'm going to go.

Bye, then.

All right.

Cheers, love.

How am I supposed to serve meals?

Lister said there was too many on the pavement.

He doesn't have to fight through a forest with a Sausage Surprise!

We're here to help you, aren't we? Me and Alfie. Together.

Yeah, see? Jean, why don't you go and have a lie down, yeah? Go on.

Why does everybody want me to lie down?

I don't want to lie down. If I wanted to lie down, I'd go and lie down

but I don't want to lie down because I'm trying to do a job

and I'd be able to do my job if I didn't have half of Epping Forest in the way!

We've run out of milk. I'm going to the shop.

-Jean, get me a scratchcard, will you?

-That is NOT in my job description.

Is it too early for a vodka?

No! It's never too early for a vodka.

You better get me one, while you're at it.

Of course! Why don't I get everyone a scratchcard?

Scratchcards!

Scratchcard, Alfie?

Scratchcard, Kat? I could put some mash potato on the top.

Little bit of gravy?

They're white, Alfie. I find that very, very scary.

ROXY LAUGHS

Look, I think maybe you should just...

OK, all right, OK, I'm going.

Oi, hand her over.

-Jack...

-Auntie Carol just asked me to help out.

I said, give her back. Come here.

All right?

What were you thinking?

-It's not Abi's fault.

-Yeah?

-I ask you to do one thing.

-She's just helping me out, OK?

-She can't stop who comes into the cafe.

-One little thing.

Come on, darling, I think that playgroup's open again now.

-Say bye.

-Bye.

-Bye, Daddy.

-Don't blame Abi. It was me, OK?

-Get out of my sight.

-She's my daughter!

Yeah? You should've noticed months ago.

-You've got no right to stop me seeing her.

-Yeah?

I'll see you in court.

That's right. Passing her round anyone that'll have her?

Cos that's really being responsible, isn't it?

You happy now?

-She was trying to help YOU!

-Yeah? I really trusted you, Abi.

You've let me down, ain't ya?

Abi!

But it says you've got vacancies at the B&B.

I forgot to flip it round, honey, sorry.

-Is anybody working?

-Dee's sick today, sugar lump. So you got me instead.

You shouldn't advertise if you've got no vacancies.

Oh, what, you and your sister fallen out? Me and Denise? All the time.

Could I pay for this milk, please? I have customers.

Yes, my love, you can.

All right.

That's it, Delia?

A scratchcard for Mo.

And a scratchcard for Mrs Cross.

I just needed some space.

How about one for you as well, Jean?

-I've got the lucky touch, lucky fingers.

-OK, OK!

OK, that's three pounds for the scratchcards. Thank you.

So, all this because of you and Pops?

Dot doesn't approve of pensioner jiggy?

Just one room for a couple of nights.

I can do you a scratchcard.

Oh, look, do you remember when you brought these home from playgroup?

Well, you probably don't.

There was more glitter on your face than there was on the cones.

What was Nan asking you?

She thinks I've got a drink problem.

Maybe...

Maybe you should tell her.

What, and have her tell half the Square?

But if she thinks that something's wrong...

No, Lauren, I don't need her. I've got you, haven't I?

Do you still speak to Siobhan?

Siobhan?

Yeah, Siobhan, she's doing well. Really well, yeah. She's going to go travelling.

We should do that when you finish.

Yeah. What like, Thelma and Louise? We just get in a car and go.

See, I knew we'd beat this.

My mum, the fighter. Yeah.

Yeah, it's going well. Really well.

Yeah, life's good, innit?

Oh, look.

Is there no school today?

Look, what I said... I'm sorry.

All right? It's just me and Roxy. It's hard.

It's not always to do with you, you know?

Yeah, well, I shouldn't have snapped at you.

You're a good kid, Abi.

It's all one big mess.

Mum's acting weird and she won't say what's wrong

and she thinks that I don't know but I know something's up, I'm not stupid.

Jay's always busy and Lauren...

all she does is go out drinking.

And Nan's been chucked out by Grandma Dot but Mum don't want her round

and Auntie Rainie's in some sort of trouble with Shirley, and Dad...

Dad's just disappeared.

And I'm just in the middle of it.

Invisible.

Abs, sweetheart.

My whole family.

Everything's falling apart.

Come here. Come here.

It's all right.

Jean, sweetheart, do us another couple of shepherd's pies?

Just a bit more shepherd this time, all right?

Hello? Jean?

I've won £8,000.

What?

-Carol put you up to this, did she?

-Tanya...

-Or was it my mum?

-No, I just saw Abi.

-Oh, Abi. Great(!)

She's worried you're not coping.

Sorry, Max leaves and nobody worries.

Nobody bothers to help. Nobody says anything.

-Yeah well, that's not true.

-I get drunk ONE night

and you're all running about like I'm some sort of charity case.

-Look, I know this must be hard for you.

-Do you?

Do you, Jack?

Why, cos I'm bringing up three kids on my own?

At least I still see my kids. All of them.

This isn't about me, is it?

Yeah, it's always about you.

What were you thinking, taking Roxy's kid off her?

What's Ronnie got to say about this?

You stopping her own sister from seeing her daughter.

-Have you got any idea what that feels like, Jack?

-Yeah.

Terrified you'll never see your kids again?

-You want to drop it?

-You've just remembered you've got a daughter!

All those months, "Oh, my baby's dead."

All along you had a little girl, did you think about her? Did you bother? No.

Yeah, well, that ain't fair, is it?

-What about the rest of your kids, eh?

-Tan, what's going on? This ain't you.

-Your other kids fled the country - that'll go down well in court(!)

-What's going on?

Your wife's banged up for child snatching.

-Oi, calm down.

-I'd make the most of my time with Amy.

Another court hearing coming up. Get ready to say goodbye.

-That's none of your business!

-No?

Well, my business seems to be everyone else's business round here.

It seems fair it works both ways.

Shall I spell this out in words of one syllable for you?

Make it easy for you, shall I?

I. Am. Fine!

Tell you what, Jean, if anyone deserves it, darling...

It's me. She ain't the one who's homeless, is she?

Cora, can we let it go, sweetheart? You want some bubbles, yeah?

-Bubbles?

-If I hadn't asked for one, you'd've won nothing!

Well, actually it was more Kim...

-Mo, bubbles, darlin'?

-I'd have shared it!

-Right(!)

-No, you wouldn't!

-Maybe I should share it.

-You ain't sharing nothing.

-No, keep it. Or you'll have us to answer to.

-Whose side are you on?

-She bought it.

-She won the money.

-End of story.

-Thank you.

-You had no right!

-She's 15.

-I remember. I was there.

-She's worried about you.

-No she's not. She's only worried about herself.

-Mum!

The world revolves around you.

Let me and your mum have a word...

I suppose she's tried to scab some money off you?

Get you to buy her shoes cos her cow of a mum won't pay.

-I didn't ask him for anything.

-You want those shoes, Abi?

Ask your dad to pay maintenance. You'd have to find him first.

-Tanya, come on.

-In fact, you want them so much,

why not get Jay to nick you some? The way you're heading, that's next on the list.

I hate you!

PHONE RINGS

DOOR SLAMS

You're fine, are you?

Shouldn't you be in court or something?

Tan, it's all right to admit you're missing Max.

You know, no matter what they done, love don't go away, does it?

You know, Ronnie won't see me.

I spent the whole morning with the solicitor trying to find a way to make her.

So, you're not the only one who's hurting.

Come here.

Phone for you.

Please just go, Jack.

-They won't say who they are.

-I'm not in.

-They're insistent.

Look, I'm here for you.

DOOR SLAMS

You heard her.

See ya.

Oi.

So this is double maths, is it?

I took an extra shift. I thought you'd be happy.

-Come on, we've been through this.

-Yeah, personal responsibility, blah, blah, blah.

Do you want me to let Ian down?

Want to work in a place like this your whole life?

No, and I ain't going back to school.

-How will you afford your rent?

-I'll get my own place and a load of benefits.

"Get your own place." Yeah, right.

No. They'll give me what I want.

I'm going to have a baby.

Yeah, course you are(!)

Swear down.

I'm pregnant.

Hey, Miss Fox, no flies on you, are there, sweetheart?

"Kimberley Fox, you're hired."

-It's a bit random, but...

-You knocking my lucky touch?

-Don't knock it till you try it.

-You don't know where he's been.

-Half the Square knows where HE'S been.

-And half the Square will never forget!

Do me a favour! Hey, Alfie, I called the Gazette.

-Shut up!

-Yeah, bit of free publicity.

Thank you very much. Yeah.

Oh, hello, my love, fancy a scratchcard?

Auntie Kim has got the lucky touch. Come, let me show you. Come on.

Rose?

Rose, what's the matter?

SHE SOBS

-Lola, will you listen to yourself?

-I'm keeping it!

-You haven't thought this through!

-I've never had anything of my own.

-Well, I'll buy you a goldfish then!

-You think I'm joking, don't you?

Come here.

It's a baby, Lola!

-A baby!

-Yeah, I know.

-I'll get a flat and then I'm just...

-No, no.

Wait, you're not going to get a flat.

They don't just give people flats any more.

-Yes, they do. Two girls from my home did it.

-This is not a game!

Didn't say it was, did I?

And it's not even about the money, the flat or anything like that.

You're 15 and you're pregnant!

And how old was you when you had my dad, eh?

What, you wish you never had him?

No. Of course I don't.

Wish you never gave him up?

-So whose is it?

-Mine.

-Who's the dad?

-I don't know.

-You must know.

-It doesn't matter.

-Is it Tyler? I seen him hanging round you yesterday.

Could be anyone's.

I'm your grandad!

Yeah.

You're going to be a great-grandad soon.

She's your sister.

My half-sister.

Your half-sister.

You know, we all say things we don't mean.

You know, I've got three brothers, two sisters.

We always row about something, fall out. It's what families do.

You don't know Rose.

She's always been the same.

These last few weeks, all I've done is prop people up.

I didn't come to you.

-No, I'm not saying that, Dot. We're not so different, you know?

-What?

-We're always there for other people, picking up the pieces.

-Oh.

And sometimes that gets lonely.

You know, sometimes... we want someone there for us.

Is that what you think?

You know, when I came back...

I hoped that, you know, Eddie would still be here.

-And you think that is how I feel about the vicar?

-No.

I don't. I meant Rose, all right?

Dad's in the home. You're lonely.

And right now, you need your sister.

You ready?

That stunt you pulled yesterday...

-Yeah, well, you did sell me a dodgy tree!

-Got to say...

I admire your style.

I can see it now - "Head Chef Wins Perfect Meal Ticket."

-He's trying to take my photograph!

-"Shopkeeper's Lucky Touch."

This is my moment!

Oi! I want a word with you.

-Yeah?

-Yeah.

-What are you doing?

Will you just let me have my moment!

I never get to have a moment!

Not a whole one!

-Come with me.

-Alfie, Kim, please!

CAMERA CLICKS

You got her pregnant!

-Pops!

-I got no-one pregnant!

What, you think I'd go near a kid like her?

-I ain't a kid!

-She's 15!

-Exactly, you ought to be ashamed of yourself!

-Listen, back off old man.

Why did you tell him I got you pregnant?

-I didn't. He's got the wrong idea.

-Don't cover for him.

I ain't covering for no-one!

It ain't Tyler.

You really pregnant?

You happy now?

Yeah. Yeah, I couldn't be happier(!)

One day I think you're taking your life seriously,

the next, you're throwing it all away.

Mummy's a long time on the phone, ain't she?

Tanya?

Mrs Jessop?

Come in.

Rose?

I'm very sorry I embarrassed you.

With the vicar.

And Patrick.

-And?

-And I'm willing...

to forget all those horrible things you said to me.

Things I said?

I forgive you.

Good.

Well, I wouldn't like to part on bad terms, so...

you will give my love to Andrew, won't you?

Dot, we agreed!

I never agreed nothing, Carol.

I'm too busy to be lonely.

And in my humble opinion...

siblings are too much like hard work.

Even half-siblings.

You can collect the rest of your stuff tomorrow.

Come on, Rose.

Barrel's gone.

-Alfie...

-Huh?

I love you, you muppet.

Today...

Today is a nine.

No, actually, it's a nine and a half!

I know you think I'm throwing my life away, but I ain't.

Every time I think I'm doing right by you,

every time I think we're getting there...

You are doing right by me.

No, I'm not.

Lo, you're 15, you've stopped going to school.

You're pregnant. And you don't even know who the father is.

So? It doesn't matter.

-Yes, it does matter.

-Well, the baby don't need a dad.

It's got you.

Oh, hello.

Yeah, I let myself in.

Rose is in the front room. Dot's thrown her out.

You all right?

-No, I just had a run-in.

-Having a day of it, aren't you?

With Tanya.

You too?

I've never seen her like that before, she was crazy.

I mean, you got Abi worried.

Lauren's a mess. There's something not quite right here.

I tried to help her, she told me where to stick it.

-You know, Dot's right. It's too much like hard work.

-I'm serious, Carol.

I think we need to get hold of Max, tell him what's going on.

Yeah, and how are we going to do that? We don't even know where he is.

You know, don't you?

After all this time?

Look, he made me promise.

Why? Where is he?

Jack, where is he?

He's with Derek.

Just come inside and talk about it.

Don't give up the fight!

It's my decision.

Of course it is, but...

And can stop ringing my house, stop calling my doctor.

You're scared, I understand that.

Do you?

What do you understand? What exactly do you understand?

Cancer is a disease we can treat.

Right, like you treated my father?

I don't know your father.

Pumped him full of chemicals, like a load of dry cleaning.

It did him the world of good(!)

Or like you helped Siobhan.

I can only talk about your case.

That's all I am to you, isn't it?

Just another case.

Fighting this thing like it's some sort of noisy neighbour.

But it's not, is it? It's in...

It's in me. It's part of me.

-So how am I supposed to fight that?

-Just...

Let's talk in my office.

-Now, we've been trying to get hold of you for two weeks.

-No.

-You missed a number of sessions.

-There's no point.

There's no point. You can't do anything.

I'm not having any more treatment. I've had enough. My treatment's over.

I'm not sure you fully understand.

It's my decision.

You should respect it.

In stopping your treatment, there is a strong chance that you've made your prognosis worse.

There is even a possibility that the cancer could have already progressed.

Are you sure this is what you want?

Of course it isn't what I want. None of this is what I want.

Without treatment, you're highly likely to get worse.

And in my experience, there is a strong probability you may die.

It could be a year.

It could even be less.

You think I don't know that?

"You've got to fight this."

"Be brave."

"You can win."

Well, I'm not brave.

And I'm not strong.

And don't... Don't tell me to pull myself together, cos...

there's nothing left to pull.

I'm out of fight.

I've got no strength left.

I'm the one that's going through this, right?

I'm the one that this is happening to. Not you. Not anyone else.

So this is my choice, it's my life.

And I'm going to live what's left of it in whatever way I choose.

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