16/08/2012 EastEnders

Argh!

-What the hell do you think you're doing?

-Get your hands off me, Phil.

Just calm down. All right? Calm down.

He did it. He killed Heather.

He confessed.

What...? What are you talking about?

He killed her. I found the photo frame. And I've got it. I've got it downstairs.

He killed her and he's going to pay for what he did!

Back off! Just back off.

All right? Now let's just all... all calm down.

Calm down! He killed my best mate in cold blood.

-That's not what happened!

-I don't want to hear your pathetic excuses.

I told you, back off! All right? Just back off and calm down.

-Ben, go and get dry, go and get changed.

-What are you doing?

-He's going to get changed.

-He's not leaving this room.

-Why? What are you going to do?

You going to finish him off?

Is that it, eh? Now, listen, he's going to get changed.

All right? And me and you, we're going to talk.

No, you're not talking me round. He's going to prison.

He's going to prison for what he's done and he's going to pay.

I'm going to call the police. I'll get Marsden and I'll show her what a real murderer looks like!

Not until we've talked. All right? Not until we've talked.

He's going to get changed. Just give me a few minutes. I'll calm him down. And then we'll go downstairs.

All right? We'll go downstairs.

I mean it, Phil. He ain't getting out of this.

Yes, OK, OK. You said. Now go downstairs.

Put the kettle on. He's going to get changed. OK?

I promise you, I promise you. I'll be straight down.

Come on, come on. Come on.

-What happened?

-She found the frame, Dad. She found the picture frame.

-Where?

-I dunno. I just walked in, she shoved it in my face.

-What did you tell her?

-Nothing. I...

-Did you tell her that I knew?

-No. No. I said I did it.

-You what?!

-I can't help it, Dad. I can't keep it in any more...

-Ben, just listen to me, calm down...

No, I don't care any more. I don't! I won't say anything.

I won't say anything about you or Jay. I won't say anything about either of you. I won't. I wouldn't.

You protected me.

And I still am protecting you. All right? Now listen to me.

And calm down, yeah? Now get out these wet clothes. Dry off.

Get out them clothes. Come on. Put these on. Put 'em on.

-Put 'em on! Come on.

-Why?

Because you're wet, Ben. You're soaking wet through. Now get changed.

Dry off. I'm going to talk to Shirley.

-What you going to say? Eh? She tried to kill me.

-No, she didn't.

-She did.

You should've seen the look in her eyes! She had me under water!

-She's angry. She's upset. And now, now I'm going to talk to her.

-There's no point!

There is a point! What, do you want to go back inside?

Is that it? You want to go through all that again? Do you?

No. Course you don't.

I just want to do the right thing.

Going inside, Ben, that ain't going to help anyone. Is it?

-Ain't it?

-No.

No, course it ain't.

Ben, you're my boy.

All right? You're my son. And I love you.

And I'm going to protect you. And I'm going to do whatever if takes.

That's all my life is about right now. Just that, that one thing.

So I will do whatever it takes.

I'd rather go inside myself. Do you understand?

Now you're going to get through this. You're going to have a life.

You're going to have a good life. Because I owe you that much.

Yeah? A better life than me.

And I owe your mum that much too.

And so do you.

So do you.

Now come on.

We'll get through this together. We'll get through it together.

All right? Now come on. Pull yourself together. Get changed.

And I'll be right back.

Ben.

I promise you, nothing bad's going to happen.

Hello? Hello?

Sharon?

Lucy!

Hi.

What is he doing here?

He wants to talk to you.

Get out. Get out now!

Lucy, you're upset. I understand. I heard what happened.

You heard, did you? What's he been telling you then?

Oh, not him.

Ian's said nothing. Look, why don't we sit down, eh?

Bobby, go upstairs.

Go on!

Do you see what you've done? You're upsetting him!

He didn't look very upset.

You don't know what you're talking about.

Look, why don't you wait here? I'll talk to Lucy. Go on.

It's OK. I won't be a minute.

Exhibit number one.

I just... I just want to talk it through.

What's there to talk about?

Ben. Him hurting Heather? You don't actually believe that, do you?

You don't actually think he could do that?

He told me. He told me everything. He confessed, Phil.

-Why would he do that if it wasn't true?

-Who knows? He's a messed-up kid!

Listen to me, all right...

No!

He did it.

He confessed. And I'm calling the Old Bill.

Since when do we grass up our own? Eh?

Grass up?

This ain't some stolen car or dodgy booze, this is a murder!

A murder of an innocent woman who just happened to be my best mate.

Yeah? And what's Ben in all this, eh?

What is he - nothing? Nothing?

Now you said to me once, he was like a son to you.

-That's what you said.

-Well, I was wrong! He's a worm.

An evil little worm.

Shirley, Shirley. Wait. Shirl... He didn't know what he was doing!

It was a mistake. It was an accident.

How would you know that?

Phil?

Just give me the phone.

Did you...?

Give me the phone.

Did you know about this?

You did?

You did.

How long?

-A while.

-Exactly?

Since... Since the off.

What?

Since that night.

You knew about this all that time?

Yes.

Yes. I came back to the Square. I found him...

Heather was...

She was already dead.

I feel sick.

Listen to me. All right? Listen. Listen very carefully.

Now, he was in a state. Ben was in a state.

They'd had a row. And he'd lashed out. That's all it was.

He never, ever meant to hurt her.

How would you know that? You said you came back after.

Jay told me.

Jay...?

Jay was there. He saw it all.

Listen to me. I know this is difficult. I know it's horrible.

But it's not like I had a choice. I didn't have hours to think about it or anything, you know?

Ben was coming apart. Jay was in a state.

And I had to choose.

And in that moment, I chose to protect my son.

The robbery?

All her stuff?

I had to cover it up.

You were here.

You came back here, with Ben and Jay.

And we had...

We had dinner together.

I know.

You knew?

All three of you.

You sat there and you knew?

-I'm sorry.

-You let me go.

You let me go off...

Find her.

-What else could I do?

-You knew I was going to find her.

What else could I do, Shirley?

Tell me! Tell me the truth!

And what would you have done? You'd have gone to the Old Bill, wouldn't you?!

-Which is exactly what I'm going to do now.

-Shirley, wait!

-Shirley. Shirley, wait. wait!

-Just stay away from me. Don't touch me.

-Where you going?

-Where do you think?

-I can't let you do that.

-Then stop me!

I will if I have to, all right?

What does that mean, Phil? Are you going to kill me too?

-Just get in that room.

-I'm not scared of you, Phil.

-Get in that room now.

-Take your hands off me!

Just calm down. Please!

I'll scream this this house down if you come near. Get away from me!

Please, please calm down! Calm down! Shut up! Shut up! Shut. Up.

Now you don't make another sound. Do you understand me? Another sound.

Lilsten. We all need... We need to calm down. All right?

Just please calm down. Please.

Just give me a few minutes and listen to me, and if you still want to go...

What, you'll kill me?

You can go. All right?

He left us. He walked out. No warning. No nothing.

Debts up to here. Bills unpaid.

And Bobby with just me to look after him.

Do you know what that's been like?

If he's such a good family man, then why did he do that? How could he do that?

Well, people do things when they're under pressure. Strange things.

Happens to everyone.

I don't think so.

What do you know?

I mean, how old are you? 17? 18?

What do you really know about anything?

I've been running three businesses and looking after Bobby. I think I know a bit.

Lucy, you are a kid. You're young.

You don't understand what life can be like.

Ian walked out on you, walked out on the day of his wedding,

and I've just done the exact same thing.

Five hours ago I was wearing a wedding dress, halfway up the aisle.

And look at me now. Single. No money. Nowhere to live.

But it was the right choice.

It was the right thing to do.

What are you saying? It was right that he left us? Left his own children?

No, it's not right. Of course it's not.

I'm just saying, people don't always do the right thing.

The sensible thing.

I've done things I never thought possible.

I've found myself sitting in bars, done up to the nines,

nursing my third drink of the night waiting to be picked up.

And why? For love? No.

For a cheap one night stand that I'd walk out on before the big hand hit 12.

Because I was lonely and miserable and trying to forget.

It's messed up. And I'm not proud, but sometimes...

you know, sometimes things get out of control.

Suddenly you look round, and wonder how you got from being 18 and pretty,

your whole life stretched out before you, full of hope, to 40-odd

and sneaking out of a stranger's bed in the middle of the night.

It just happens.

And maybe, maybe that's what's happened to your dad.

Oh, Lucy, he's broken.

He's like a shell of the Ian I used to know.

Just take a look. Take a look at him. A proper look.

I'd say he needs you.

He needs you to at least give him a chance, hear what he has to say.

At least you can do that before you shut him back out in the cold, can't you?

Please?

Heather's gone, Shirl.

And nothing we do is going to bring her back.

But we can, we can make amends. Ben can make amends.

He can grow up, you know. He can change.

He could become a good man.

And what about Hev? What's going to change for her?

-She's gone.

-And that's it?

Gone. Dead, forgotten?

No, no, no, of course not.

She deserves justice.

What justice? Eh?

Locking away a scared kid?

Banging him up for ten years? That justice?

What, you want him to get away with it?

That your world, Phil? Anyone can do anything they want?

Anything they want? No right or wrong?

It's just, well, you get caught or not. Is that it?

No-one pays?

Shirley, he is paying. Can't you see that?

No. He's not. He's out there, swanning around. Young. Free.

Life ahead of him. Hev is dead.

That's not right.

Oh, and you're the moral one, ain't ya?

Cos you've lived your life like a saint, haven't you?

I've never killed anyone.

But what if you had? Eh? Just now.

Upstairs? In the heat of the moment? What if you had?

Then I'd give myself in.

Really?

Yes. Cos I couldn't live with myself.

Waking up, every day, knowing what I'd done. I couldn't. I couldn't go on.

Well, that's you, Shirl. It's not me. And it's not Ben.

Locking him away, that ain't going to help anyone.

All right, you might feel better, cos of revenge.

And what, that'll last a day, a week?

And then you'll know, won't ya? You'll know what you've done.

You've locked him away, and he's getting his head kicked in.

And worse. You know that. Much, much worse than that.

Day in, day out. Until that last little bit of good in him,

that last little bit of good, is destroyed.

Until he becomes something too ugly for you to even set eyes on again.

And that, Shirley, that will be down to you.

That ain't going to help anyone, is it?

You say it... You say it like it makes sense.

Like...that's what anyone would do.

-Well, ain't it?

-It ain't.

No? Well, who really knows what they'd do when it comes down to it?

Anyone. I mean, what about Billy?

If he found Lola with that frame. What would he do?

Eh? Or you? You.

If you found your girl, Carly, yeah, and she'd lost it,

lashed out at someone, didn't mean to hurt them, but they end up dead on the floor - what would you do?

Would you see her go to prison?

Or would you give her a future? Hmm?

Well, you tell me. What, what would you do?

If you need me, I'll be over at Phil's, OK?

Come here.

I'll see you tomorrow.

I loved Hev.

I loved her.

And I thought you loved me, but you don't.

I do.

No, you don't.

You don't care, Phil.

Don't pretend that you do. You don't care at all.

I do care. Course I care!

Nah.

You've never loved me.

Not really.

Not like those other women.

Not like Sharon.

I saw it, Phil.

I saw it in your face when she walked through that door.

It was like your heart leapt out of your body.

You have never, never looked at me like that.

Ain't true, Shirley. She's just a mate.

She's an old, old mate.

Gave up your marriage with Kathy.

Don't tell me she didn't do that for you.

It was a fling.

It was nothing.

I know you, Phil.

I know you.

You would have been all over her.

Not taken your eyes off her for one second.

Like a dog on heat.

I can see it.

And, now, she's here.

And you, you look at me and you think, "I'm stuck.

"I'm stuck with that old battleaxe, cos she knows my dirty secret".

Is that it, Phil?

You trapped?

Even if I did want to keep my mouth shut, I couldn't live with that.

I couldn't live with those lies.

And that look in your eyes,

wondering every time, "Is she going to crack?"

If we had a ruck, an argument over the washing up,

what would you be thinking - "I gotta keep quiet, can't take the risk?

"Say if she talks? Say if she spills?"

Where do we go from there, Phil?

Don't you see that there is no way forward any more?

It's not going to work. None of this.

It can work. We can make it work.

We can turn Ben around, can't we?

Now that you know, you can talk to him, you can explain.

Explain what?!

That he did wrong.

Oh, really?

Ain't he got that yet?

You can hear his side.

Shirl, you mean everything, everything to me.

You mean the world to me. You're my life.

Phil?

Phil?

Wait here. Don't move.

Hi. I did knock but there was no answer. You all right?

Yeah, yeah, I'm fine. What do you want?

Well, you told me to come back.

Where's Ian?

Oh, he's at home.

Lucy's upset, but I think I got through...

What's he doing? Has he said anything?

Nothing. No, nothing. Well, I just left them to talk.

Are you sure you're all right?

Yeah. Yeah, I'm fine. Just...now's not a very good time.

Oh, right. OK, well...

I'll go and get Denny, we can come back later, yeah?

That's... That's not a good idea.

What do you mean?

You and Dennis coming back. That's not a good idea.

-But you said we could stay.

-Well, something's come up.

I won't get in the way. I can kip on the floor.

It's not going to happen, Sharon. You need to go.

-What's got into you?

-Nothing's got into me. I just don't like the idea of you kipping on my sofa. Sorry.

-I've got no money. I've got a six-year-old who hasn't eaten. I've got nowhere to sleep!

-Tough.

Ain't my problem, is it?

Why are you being like this?

Ain't being like anything.

Well, earlier... Well, it was like old times.

I thought we were close.

What, you think you can turn up here, damsel in distress,

and we all drop everything, we all worship Sharon?

Nothing's too much trouble?

-No, no, no, of course not!

-That's not how it works.

Now, I did you a favour. I helped you out. And that's it. End of story. I ain't interested.

Fine! If that's the way you feel about it.

Yeah. That's the way I feel.

-Well, I won't take up any more of your time.

-Good.

-I'll see myself out then, shall I?

-Yeah.

Well, what are you waiting for?

You haven't changed a bit, have you?

She means nothing to me. Nothing.

Now do you believe me?

You chose Mandy over me. Right here. Right here.

You chose her over your own child!

You pushed me through that door. You chucked me out.

Even when I said you'd never see me again, you didn't care.

Do you know what that's like?

Your own dad choosing someone else over you?

It was wrong.

What, is that all you can say?

I'm sorry.

Sorry.

Sorry? What is that going to help?

I don't know.

Don't you love me?

Lucy, of course I love you! You're my little girl.

But you preferred her?

I was scared.

I just thought if I could get that...

ring on her finger...

then everything'd... everything'd be OK.

I was wrong.

It wasn't.

She was just like all the others.

She didn't love me.

She didn't really love me.

Am I supposed to care?

You left us.

You abandoned us.

I know.

And I'm sorry.

I'd just like you to forgive me. That's all.

Please, if you'll just give me a chance. Just one chance, OK?

I can...

I can prove I can get better.

That...

That I can be a better father.

Yeah? And how are you going to do that?

I don't know.

I...I don't know.

But if you just give me a chance, Lucy, I'll do...

I'll do anything...

I promise you.

I just want to come home.

Come home?

And if I let you?

Any... Anything. Anything.

OK.

You mean it?

On one condition.

Yeah, yeah. Name it. Name it.

You can come back home...

Yes.

..if you sign everything over to me.

What?

All of it. The house.

The businesses. It all has to be in my name.

I'm not going to be left like I was before. Not again.

And if you go again, it'll all be mine.

What do you say?

OK.

You...

You love me.

And you love Ben.

I know that you don't want to, but you do.

And what he did, it was a mistake. A terrible mistake with tragic consequences, but that's all it was.

It was just a mistake.

And you, you're the closest thing he's got to a mum.

And he, he is the closest thing you've got to a son.

And you can't see him get put away. You can't.

And we can work through this together. We can.

I can't. Even if I wanted to, I just can't.

I'll help you, Shirley. Just...trust me. Please.

And I promise you I'll help you.

How? Tell me, how can I live with this?

Just look him in the eye.

Look Ben in the eye, and talk to him, and then you'll see what he is.

He's just a kid. A messed-up kid.

Messed up by me.

-And he needs you, Shirley. He needs you.

-No.

He does. He does. He needs his mum.

So, please, just...

just look him in the eye and talk to him, yeah?

And after that, you can do whatever you want.

I won't stop you. I promise.

Please, Shirley. Please?

Thank you.

Thank you. Stay there.

I'll go get him. I'll be right back.

THUNDER RUMBLES

Ben? Ben?

-Where is he?

-Ben?

Ben?

Ben!

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