20/09/2013 EastEnders

Time to get those legs moving again.

Doctor's orders, I'm afraid.

And what better motivation than burnt toast and soggy cornflakes.

Maybe later, I've only just woke up.

I had you down as a man of action.

Come on. For me?

That's it.

Come on.

That's it, take your time. Take your time.

Lean on me.

No... I can't. I can't.

I'll get back as soon as I can.

Are you sure you don't want me to take the day off?

Stop fussing. I'm not on my last legs.

Not yet anyway.

So what? They fixed you up all right then, yeah?

Yeah. Like one of your clapped out motors.

I'm back on the road, but something could blow any minute.

It won't.

Think positive.

I was feeling fine a couple of weeks ago.

Started to get tired, a bit breathless...

Then what, I visit the specialist and bam!

She hit me with it.

Your kidneys are shot.

I need a transplant.

There's got to be something else you can do. Something less drastic.

Yeah. I could start dialysis.

Yeah, but you heard what that doctor said.

That means spending every other day at the hospital, nausea,

dizziness, not to mention feeling tired all the time...

Hm, if it keeps me going...

Yeah, but it's not the sort of life you'd choose though, is it?

It'd be all right if it was our only option...

It is! You heard what they said about the transplant list.

You're talking years, even for a white guy.

Hold on. What's colour got to do with anything?

We're talking about a kidney.

You've got to match blood group and tissue type.

And that's more likely coming from someone from

the same ethnic background.

Not enough brothers coming forward so...

Yeah, but maybe we'll get lucky, eh?

Maybe my bloods'll be a match.

What do you mean, yours?

I told you I was getting tested, look.

I feel like a pincushion.

I ain't using that.

There's nothing to be embarrassed about.

Just till you get your confidence back.

All right if I come in?

There's nothing wrong with my confidence.

It's my legs, it's my ribs, it's everything.

You're healing nicely. Now, I'm going to leave that there.

Just in case you change your mind.

You must be mad, turning her down.

-Nah, just want the bed back, don't they?

-Probably.

About time though, ain't it?

I mean, you must be itching to get out of here.

Do you want something or did you just come to annoy me?

No... Look...

You ain't going to like this, all right?

But before you start having a pop at me,

this would never have happened if you'd left me in charge.

Now, Ronnie has let things go with this Carl geezer, all right.

-The other night at the club...

-Yes, yes, I know. She's called me.

-So what're you still doing in here?

-Well, what do you want me to do?

Run him over with my wheelchair or something?

Ronnie can deal with it.

You're paying way over the odds for the mixers.

What are you doing...?

Like a bit of rough, do you?

You are a grubby, grubby little backstreet dealer.

You're lucky I'm a gentleman.

I wouldn't do to you what I'd do to a bloke

-if he talked to me like that.

-What exactly is that, eh, Carl?

You know, I keep coming back to security.

I've noticed Phil hasn't even invested in an alarm

for the house where you live on your own.

You wouldn't dare.

How do you think I got in here, eh?

Now if you don't think you need proper protection,

proper security for this place...

..I'm going to keep coming back. Simple as that.

Ronnie is a bird, all right.

She might give it large but, at the end of the day,

if he comes at her, she ain't going to be able to do nothing.

You think I can? I can't even take a leak standing up.

So? You've been beaten up before.

It's never stopped you fighting for what's yours, has it?

-If you're so bothered, why don't you do something about it?

-I have.

Look, you need to be at home.

All right. He needs to see you on the Square.

You need to have your family around you...

Well, what's Ronnie then, eh?

Make your mind up, Billy, will ya? I can't be doing with all this.

-Come on, look, don't be like that...

-PHONE RINGS

Why don't you just do one, eh?

Phil, I need to talk to you about something...

-PHONE RINGS

-Shut that thing up, will ya!

I'll be back in a minute.

-Don't bother.

-PHONE RINGS

I don't understand. Yesterday everything was fine.

Now Sam's ill, and you're talking about having a massive operation...

And we can't hang about.

-Time - that's a luxury we ain't got.

-But the risks are...

The risks are minimal, hon. It's just like crossing the road.

Besides, I take my life into my hands every time

I walk into a classroom.

Anyway, the chances are your mum won't even be a match.

-See, she's not a blood relative.

-Sam.

What?

Don't you go getting any funny ideas, OK?

-But I thought you said that it was perfectly safe.

-It is.

But you're too young.

-We wouldn't let you do that anyway, would we?

-Mm-hm.

Guess what? Everyone's out this evening.

We've got the house all to ourselves.

Just you...me...

and the 40th president of the United States of America

Mr Ronald Reagan.

And Barbara Stanwyck and a few others.

Cattle Queen of Montana. You can't get it on DVD, so it's now or never.

POOR AMERICAN ACCENT: Mosey on over about six. Leave your horse outside.

HE CLEARS THROAT NORMAL VOICE: If you're up for it.

Yeah, yeah, of course, cowboy.

Good. See you about six.

Lauren.

They're going to snap you up.

I hope so.

We could really do with some money.

No... Joey, I didn't mean....

I know you didn't mean anything, but go on. Take it. Tube fare.

They're going to send you off all over the place, ain't they?

You've done way too much for us already.

Lauren, please take it. It'll make me happy.

If you feel that bad about it you can pay me back

out of your first week's wages.

Oh, Dexter.

How's your dad?

Tired but...

Yeah... Fathers, eh? Who'd have 'em?

Oh, no, not that I'm comparing yours to mine.

-You heard any more from him?

-No.

What with him inside, Lauren, and money,

and my upcoming biology practical...

I think I might just silently have a nervous breakdown.

You mind if I join you?

You know, why don't we do it over lunch today?

Anywhere you want. Your choice. My shout.

Anywhere? I've heard The Ritz is pretty good.

Nah. All hype. You want class,

I know this wicked burger van parks up at the station sometime.

Oh, no, no, no, nothing can beat the one outside Highbury.

Yeah, my dad used to take to me there and he used to get me

the works like, onions, cheese, can of cherryade.

-Alice?

-Hello.

Hello. How are you?

Good. How are you?

Scarlett's teething. I need your magic.

I can't. I've told Tamwar I'd spend time with him...

You can spend time with double physics tomorrow.

Come on, let me set the scene -

you come over tonight, cook me my dinner.

Come on. Sounds good, right?

Yeah...but there's this film he really wants to watch.

Am I glad to see you.

Here you go, mate, all right.

Good flight?

Yeah, yeah, fine. Right.

-Where's that son of mine then?

-Follow me.

What are you doing here?

Nothing. I'll see you at lunchtime. Yeah.

Is he up to something?

My lips are sealed.

Anyway, I thought you were meant to be studying.

I actually wanted to talk to you about dad's legal fees.

I thought I told you where to go.

Oh, charming.

Mum.

Two and a half hours sat next to the most obnoxious bloke in

the whole of Christendom...

Airport security... And that's the sort of welcome I get?

Now what you gone and done to yourself this time, eh?

Nothing. Just...

I just had a bit of an accident.

How did you know I was here?

Billy.

Yeah, well, he rang yesterday in a right old flap.

And before you go off on one, Phil, he was right.

I'm your mother. And you should've told me right at the beginning.

What's the point, eh?

I don't want you being worried, Mum.

You didn't want me fussing around more like.

It's all right. Don't worry.

I'm not stopping.

I'm flying back tonight.

Just enough time to see you settled back home...

Oh, no, Mum.

And Billy is going to sort out some kind of rota where you don't

have to worry about cooking or anything like that.

And you'll feel better once you've had a wash

and put a nice fresh shirt on.

Mum, you're not listening. All right. Just stop. Cos I'm not ready, OK?

I'm just not ready.

That's not what that pretty little nurse on reception reckons.

You want to get her number before you go.

Mum, are you blind or something? Look at the state of me, will ya?

A couple weeks ago I was at death's door.

This is why I didn't want you here, you know.

I'm not a kid any more, Mum. And I don't want organising.

You might not want it...

but you've got to do something, Phil.

What am I supposed to do, eh?

Stand back and watch while you lose everything.

See, the commentator said it, "Bad placing."

-You all set?

-Huh?

Sorry, babe, I'm going to have to miss it.

Where we going then? The Vic?

Back in time.

What do you think when you look at me?

Do you think frumpy and boring...

No.

Sensible, ain't ya?

You're comfortable and that.

There's nothing wrong with it.

There is if you want to have fun.

I need to loosen things up a little bit.

Alice, you're not going to loosen things up a bit with that.

Ease yourself in gently. All right? Now trust me.

These, little pair of heels, little top.

Black or pink?

Right.

Arsenal versus Hamburg. 2006.

You know, one of the ones they actually won.

-And...

-Dexter...

Cherryade.

Burger, cheese and onion. Now that took some getting.

And I wouldn't just wear this for any one, you know.

-Abs... Come on, man, don't cry...

-No, no, no, it's OK.

It's brilliant. Thank you.

What?

It's just.... How could my dad be so stupid?

It was so humiliating.

They wouldn't even put me on the books.

Forget about it, Lauren.

I ain't being funny, but it's a cleaning job.

It ain't exactly the end of the world.

Face it, Joey. I'm a failure.

What you talking about, Lauren? You ain't a failure.

-Don't even say that.

-Yeah, well,

-if you had any idea what was going on in my head right now...

-I think I do.

I'm an alcoholic, Joey.

No, you ain't.

No, you ain't. Not any more.

That's what I'm saying to you, I've been so proud of you.

It's not something that's just going to go away. I'm not cured.

Yeah, but you ain't exactly about to go and have another bender, are you?

You wouldn't do that, Lauren.

I know you wouldn't do that cos you ain't that stupid no more.

Sorry.

Don't be sorry, you know.

It's just, it's all in the past now, isn't it?

I don't know how you still put up with me.

Well, you know, it ain't easy.

You have your moments, don't you?

But overall I think you're quite lovable really.

Especially when you've got all this nice make-up just

dripping down your face like that.

Well, I'd better get off anyway.

Are you sure? I can put the kettle on if you want.

No, it's all right. I've got loads of stuff to be doing.

See you later.

Did I interrupt?

Oh? No. No, don't be silly.

I don't know how to feel. I mean...

I am so angry with him.

But you miss him.

Confusing, ain't it?

Yeah, I don't need to tell you, do I?

It's different though.

You're used to your dad being around.

Yeah, well, so are you now.

I mean, he has done some pretty stupid things, but this...

Wrong way round, ain't it?

They're meant to worry about you.

I mean, the worst part is, is that I just feel so useless.

Why? You've done what you can.

Yeah. Exactly. Nothing.

No. You've been there. You've visited.

I mean, you're keeping things going.

It's no life for him in there though, is it?

I mean, I've got all this stuff I still want to do with him.

If there was something...

..even if it meant putting yourself at risk...

Would you?

Of course I would. Like a shot.

Mum, it ain't going to work.

You ain't going to talk me round. I'm tired. I'm worn out.

And I've had enough.

You've had a rough couple of years, darlin'.

You know, when I walked away from the Square...

I thought I'd lost everything.

I thought I'd hit rock bottom when Archie died,

but when the Vic went up in smoke...

..I knew it was just the beginning.

Mum, I know what I put you through and I'm sorry...

No, darling, I'm not saying it to make you feel bad,

it's just that...

thinking I'd lost you...my Phil.

Thinking I was making things worse.

I just wanted to roll over.

Give up.

Mum, I just think I need a bit more time, that's all.

Oh, come off it, Phil.

You've had a knock on the head, not a blooming lobotomy.

You've got to get out there and you've got to show your face.

I can't.

Yes, you can.

You're my boy, aren't you?

Mum, whatever it is that...

keeps you getting back up time and time again.

Well, I ain't got it. I just ain't got it.

Yes. Yes, you have.

It's family. It's what keeps you going.

People who look up to you... rely on you.

What? Like Ben? Like Louise?

They're better off without me, Mum.

Yeah, well... Poor Ben. He did what he did.

But you tried to help him, didn't you?

Didn't do any good though, did it?

You're many things, but the Lord God Almighty you ain't.

Now she tells me.

You tried to help.

That's all you can do.

Just keep on trying.

Like you do.

You could be a hundred years old.

But you're still my boy.

I appreciate what you're trying to do, Mum....I really do.

You know, Ben's going to need you when he gets out.

And what about Lexi?

What about her?

Lexi's the one thing I ain't messed up. Up till now.

Who's she going to look up to if you throw your hand in?

I mean, who's going to make sure she's all right?

Billy?

What have you done to yourself?

Nothing.

I just fancied a change of image.

What was wrong with the old one?

That's quite an aggressive choice.

Pretty girl like you doesn't need to look so...

desperate.

Not really working that, is it?

Sexy? Not really your thing.

BABY CRIES

Hold that for me.

Hello, Jake? It's me.

Yeah. I'm great thanks.

Be really good if we could meet up though.

I ain't saying you ain't got a point, Mum.

You've got to get out there.

And defend what's yours.

What with? Have a look at the state of me, will you?

It's not all about muscle, Phil.

Cos if it was, your father would have finished me off years ago.

You've got to put on that front. Act like the guv'nor...

What, with a load of broken ribs and stitches in my gut?

Well, you and me, we never did do easy, did we?

You can say that again.

You got to put on your best bib and tucker.

Shoulders back, head held high.

You've seen me do it enough times, Phil.

You'll be OK. I promise.

Anyway. I'm going to love you and leave you.

What, that's it? You're going?

Well, I said it was just a flying visit

and I don't want to outstay my welcome.

You said tonight, didn't you?

Yeah, well there's something I've got to do first.

You going to see Ronnie?

No, she's got enough on her plate without me showing my face.

Well, what then?

Well, it's just a little something, OK?

Now, would you give this to Lexi for me?

And there's something for you in there as well. Don't waste it.

Mum...

..when you left last time...

No, darling. Let's not go back over all that, eh?

No. Listen to me. When you left last time...

..I said I didn't need you.

But I do.

I do need you.

You know that, don't you?

Shoulders back, head held high, eh?

What time is it?

It's time you had something to eat.

-I think I might just go to my bed.

-Come on.

You know you have to.

You heard what the doctor said.

You're your mother's son, all right.

Look... I'm going to get tested too.

I'm touched.

Really, I am.

But I can't let you.

So what, it's all right for Mum to?

You try stopping her once, she's made her mind up.

Besides, you heard what she said earlier.

Even if I wanted you to.

Yeah, well, she doesn't have to know, does she?

Look, I'm doing it for her.

I mean, you might be all right with all this dialysis stuff but...

Hardest on her, I know.

Look, I feel terrible I've laid this down on you both.

It's all right.

We're family, ain't we?

We'll cope.

FILM SOUNDTRACK PLAYS

KNOCK ON DOOR

There you are. You've just missed the beginning...

Yeah...?

SHE GIGGLES

Who cares, cowboy?

I'm here now.

I love drunk people, I love drunk people.

Um... OK.

Just in there.

There we go.

Do you want a coffee?

I think you need a coffee.

I'm going to get you a coffee.

Over here we have a cracked basin

with this season's must have leaky tap.

Double divan with original vintage linens.

De-constructed wardrobe.

Oh, very nice.

Yeah, I think they call it doss house chic.

Anyway, it'll do till I find a flat. Right, what're you having?

Tea or...?

Tea.

So it's definitely over between you two then?

You didn't come here to talk about my wreck of a life.

Yeah, well...

Apparently I'm unemployable.

Congratulations. And so early on in your career.

No, seriously. It's not the fact that we need the money.

It's humiliating.

So you thought about having a drink?

You didn't though.

Cos you wouldn't have just stopped at one.

You would've carried right on till oblivion.

Call me Sherlock.

Is it that obvious?

No.

Not to the normal people. No.

But we're alchies, Lauren.

It's not something that's going to get cured or go away.

Got a lot in common, ain't we?

God help you.

-Two sugars, right?

-Mm-hm.

Here you go. One coffee.

FILM PLAYS IN BACKGROUND

You make a decent cup of tea.

Yeah, well I should think so after 20-odd years in catering.

You'll have to give me some lessons.

I can hardly boil an egg.

Unless you're like that Gordon Ramsay in the kitchen.

-Oh, he's a pussycat compared to me.

-Right.

Well, in that case, you'll just have to cook me dinner, won't you?

When you've got your new place.

Sorry, that was a bit forward. I do apologise.

No. No, not at all.

I want to be straight with you, Lauren.

I know I said I was here to support you.

And I am. I mean...

I want to be but...

..I haven't stopped thinking about you since the first time I met you.

It's wrong, I know.

Even if I was 20 years younger...

-Even if I wasn't another addict...

-Yeah.

It'd be a really bad idea.

Yeah.

Anyway.

I just wanted to put it out there. I'm sorry.

You can't help the way you feel, can you?

Feelings are good, aren't they?

You ready to get real about things, Ronnie?

You'd better come through.

You surprised?

Phil?

Good to see you.

I thought you'd be...

You thought I'd be what?

Tucked up in a hospital bed feeling sorry for myself?

Nah, nah, nah, no time for that.

There's people out there that might want to muscle in on what's mine.

And you'd know all about that, wouldn't you?

That's why I offered to keep an eye on things.

Yeah. Yeah, Ronnie mentioned that. That's generous of you.

Very, very generous.

So did I get it wrong then?

Cos I thought you wanted us to pay.

Nah, he wouldn't do that, cos that'd be stupid.

I mean, that'd be like a declaration of war?

And you don't want to go to war. Do you?

Nah.

We're mates.

Must be good for you to have me back.

You know, now you can concentrate on your own business, can't you?

It's good to know you've got my back.

Any time, Phil.

Toerag. That told him, didn't it?

Phil? Do you want to go back to hospital?

No. No. It's all right. I'm not going anywhere.

Oh, Pat.

We never did have that last drink, did we, darling?

Anyway, cheers.

You silly old cow.

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