08/08/2017 EastEnders

I needed to tell you before it got out of hand.

Who is she, then?

Some dolly bird who fluttered her eyelashes at you across the bar?

I've seen what you and the market boys are like

when an attractive girl walks in here.

I can handle a bit of harmless flirting. It's only natural, innit?

I don't think this is a crush.

I think I love her.

I don't believe you.

-Please, Mick. If this is a wind-up...

-It's not a wind-up.

I'm so sorry.

I think I'm going to be sick.

MESSAGE ALERT

MUSIC PLAYS

How far has it gone?

It was just a kiss.

How many times?

Once.

Were you drunk?

No.

I hadn't been drinking.

Did she go in first?

Well, did she?

-SOBBING:

-No.

Don't you touch me.

-When?

-It was a couple of months ago.

And you've waited until now to tell me?

-I thought I could fix it.

-So that voicemail...

I had to, because the guilt, it was, like, eating me up.

You said that if I didn't come home,

there'd be nothing left for me to come back to.

I felt like I was drowning.

So you love her? Is that what you're telling me?

I don't know what I feel. I just...

Well, you either love her or you don't, Mick. So, which is it?

Answer me.

I care about her.

You know why this is, don't you?

We got together too young.

I should've let you play the field, get it out of your system.

-I only ever wanted to be with you.

-Then why did you kiss someone else?

I don't know.

I don't know.

She got inside my head.

So you're saying that she went after you?

No.

You know, the problem is, Mick, that you're like a little boy.

All right, you don't know about women. You say it's love,

-it's just infatuation.

-It was more than that.

No, no, it isn't.

Why do you think I made you come back?

Because I don't know what would've happened if you didn't.

-RADIO:

-We've got a request here for a Whitney Carter.

It's from your fiance Woody.

What is that, a nickname?

-LAUGHS:

-I'll leave that one to the imagination.

Anyway, Woody says, even though he's in Watford,

you're never far from his thoughts.

"This one's for you, babe."

# Making my way down town Walking fast

# Faces pass and I'm home bound...

# Staring blankly ahead Just making my way

# Making a way through the... #

No need to guess who it is.

I saw the way she was looking at you.

Who?

That Fi. Fancies herself a bit of rough, does she?

You know that's all you are to her, don't you?

Something she can talk about with her posh mates in Shoreditch.

-Walking around like she's Jilly flamin' Cooper.

-It's not Fi.

Don't insult me, Mick.

You've bent over backwards to try and accommodate her.

I'm telling you, it's nothing to do with Fi.

Then, who is it?

Is it someone I know?

-Does it matter who it is?

-You've just ripped my heart in two, Mick.

I think I've got a right to ask, don't you?

Is she older?

Younger?

Please don't say Whitney.

I'm sorry.

-Where you going?

-What I should've done months ago.

No, no, this isn't about Whitney, is it? This is about me and you.

So, let me explain.

# Cos you know I'd walk...

PHONE RINGS # ..a thousand miles

# If I could just... # TURNS RADIO DOWN

All right, soppy?

I loved it. Thank you.

Watford isn't the other side of the world, by the way.

I was just having a look at bridesmaid's dresses

for Lauren's wedding.

You can still make that, can't you?

I love you.

How come Lee never said nothing?

What?

That's why he left, isn't it?

Their marriage was over months before anything happened.

Oh, that's all right then. I mean, the fact that she's still

your daughter-in-law don't even come into it.

It wasn't even a thing. It was just like one stupid kiss.

There you go again. Backtracking. Do you love her or not?

I don't know what I feel.

I just needed to do something about it before...

-Before what?

-Before it got out of hand.

So that's why you brought me back here.

To stop you sniffing round her.

I brought you back here because I missed you and you're my wife.

-Don't pretend that means anything now.

-Course it does.

-I love you, don't I?

-If you loved me

you wouldn't have kissed another girl, would you?!

Because that's what she is, Mick.

A girl.

A girl that you're supposed to be giving away at her wedding.

If that's not twisted, I don't know what is.

Did you sleep with her?

I told you. It was just a kiss.

-I don't believe you.

-Well, it's the truth.

And why should I believe a word that comes out of your mouth?

She's not exactly shy when it comes to putting it about, is she?

I would never do that to you.

I take it all this happened before she got together with Woody?

That must have been a real slap in the face for you.

-I was happy for her.

-You were jealous.

That's why you tried to knock seven bells out of him, isn't it?

Nearly eight months I've been away.

And there wasn't a day I didn't wish I wasn't back here with you.

And I was the same.

You were the one person I never thought would hurt me, Mick.

You weren't just my husband. You were my best friend.

What we had, what we have...

We can get back there, L.

Because I love you -

and you and the kids are all that matters to me.

If we mattered, you wouldn't have done this to us.

Do you remember what happened on the 7th of June 1991?

You gave a note to my mate Kirsty.

Asking me to meet you down by the waltzers.

I was 20 minutes late,

because the mousse in my hair had gone all crusty...

..but you were still there waiting for me...

..and that's when you asked me to be your girlfriend.

Do you remember what you said?

Please, don't.

You said I was going to be yours forever.

And I meant it.

You're a liar, Mick.

Listen to me.

-Get away from me.

-No. No, listen.

-Just get away from me!

SHATTERING

Woody. I might have to go.

I just heard something next door.

Will you hold on a sec?

Mick.

Linda?

-What happened?

-Get her out of here.

Just go back to your room. Everything's under control.

-Linda?

-I swear to God, Mick!

Just go. I'll sort it out.

I sat her down in Beale's and told her to keep away from you...

but she couldn't help herself, could she?

No, not content with ruining Lee's life,

-she has to have a go with you, as well.

-It wasn't like that.

I'm going to ask you one last time.

Did you sleep with her?

Of course I didn't.

-What do you take me for?

-I don't know any more, Mick.

All right, you're not the man I left here at Christmas, that's for sure.

Is it because she's more attractive than me?

-Don't be ridiculous.

-I'm not stupid.

I look in the mirror, I can see what having four kids has done to me.

What are you talking about? You're beautiful.

Now I know you're lying.

I look at you...and it makes me realise how lucky I am.

It's because of Dean, isn't it?

No, it isn't.

Sometimes I used to catch you looking at me.

I mean, you'd look away when I caught your eye, but I knew...

I knew something had changed between us.

And do you know what I was thinking?

I was thinking, that woman has more guts

than anyone I've ever met in my entire life.

Then, why did you do it?

I was lonely.

Lonely?

Everything in my life was falling apart.

Lee leaving, Nancy's accident. I had this place and Whitney was...here.

She was present.

I would've lost my mind without her.

-So this is my fault?

-You walked out on us.

You left me and the kids to fend for ourselves.

So that's what all this is about? Poor Mick couldn't cope by himself.

-I'm not saying that. It's just...

-Just what?

Well, go on. Say it!

Do you know how many times I picked up that blower

and begged you to come home?

And what did you do? You sent that retch Woody.

Oh, I knew you were jealous.

Jealous? What, of Woody? Oh, leave off, he couldn't lace my boots.

Get in the way of your little romance, did he?

This isn't about Woody, though, is it?

This is about me and you. I needed you here,

but you just couldn't drag yourself away from your mother!

How dare you say that to me?!

I'm sorry.

This ain't getting us anywhere.

Why don't we sleep on it?

Do you think I want you anywhere near me after this?

-You gotta let me try and fix this.

-Too late.

-Don't say that.

You are the most important thing in my life, L.

I would die for you.

If I could change what happened, I would in a heartbeat,

but I can't, so we've got to try and find a way through this.

I don't know if we can.

-Where are you going?

-To check on Ollie.

I'll sleep on the settee, shall I?

You do what you like.

Why aren't you in bed?

I couldn't sleep.

Do you know what I can't get my head round?

All those months we talked on the phone...

-and the whole time...

-No, no, no. It wasn't like that.

I need to know how it happened.

How what happened?

The kiss. What do you think?

Don't do this.

-Not now.

-So that's it, is it? You've done your bit.

Got it off your chest and now it's my problem.

I never said that.

Did you brush her hair away from her face like you do mine?

Hm?

Did you go in first or did she?

I already told you. It was just me.

So she pulled away from you?

Well, did she?

So, she kissed you back?

Yes.

And how long did it last?

-We talking a couple of seconds?

-Why are you doing this?

Because you're my husband, Mick.

I can't remember. It was a blur.

Show me.

I said show me.

What are you doing? What are you doing?

What are you doing?

-Linda!

-Get up and pack your stuff. I want you out of my pub.

-L, calm down.

-Get her out of here, Mick,

-before I throw her out myself!

-Calm down!

-What have you done, Mick?

-Just stay where you are. I'll sort it.

-This ain't Whitney's fault.

-Oh, please!

She's been trying to get her claws into you

since she got together with Lee.

I had no-one, L. I was a mess.

I needed you back here with your family.

Well, there you go again, making out like it's my fault.

Eight months I had to cope here on my jack.

While I've been living it up in Watford, you mean?

-When did I say that?

-We ain't exactly been on holiday, Mick.

-Here we go.

-What's that supposed to mean?

-There are carers, ain't there?

There's specialist units.

Do you know what I think? I think you chose not to be here.

-She's my mum. She's all I've got.

-And what about us?

-We don't matter to you any more, is that what it is?

-I never said that!

I had Lee racking up debts left, right and centre.

Nancy was in intensive care intensive care. Intensive care, L!

-And you still chose not to be with us?

-You think I didn't try?

That's our daughter, like, that's our baby girl.

-I wanted to be there!

-So, why wasn't you?!

Because I... I had other stuff to deal with, didn't I?!

I couldn't be in two places at once.

So your solution was to sell this place from under me?

It wasn't like that, and you know it.

This was our dream. This was everything we ever wanted

and you sign it away with one poxy signature!

-I was trying to help you!

-I needed you here!

So that's why you kissed her, is it?

-Because you felt abandoned by me.

-No.

-Well, that's what it sounds like.

-You know what I can't understand?

What I really can't understand is,

months I've been begging you to come back here, months,

and then one phone call - one phone call and you're here?

So, what's changed, L? What is it?

Let's be straight. When you came back for your 40th,

-you couldn't wait to get away.

-Well, I had lots going on.

Well, go on. I'm all ears. What?

Yeah.

That's what I thought. Shutters down.

Don't make this my fault.

I never said that. This ain't all about Whitney, though, is it?

We haven't been right for months, have we?

So you kissed her to get back at me?

No, I just want you to understand what we've been going through here.

Listen. I don't know what's been going on...

I'll tell you what's been happening, shall I?

You couldn't keep your dirty little hands off my husband!

Linda, please, it wasn't like that, I swear.

Mick, will you tell her...?

No. You talk to me now!

For months, I had to watch you push Lee.

Guilt-tripping him into getting you a flat he couldn't afford!

-No, that's not how it was.

-You broke him! Do you know that?

He stole from us. He lied to our faces, just to keep you happy!

And how do you repay him?

-By trying to sleep with his father.

-No...

-I warned you, didn't I?

I told you to stay away from him,

but you couldn't even do that, could you?!

It was just one kiss, L!

-Please, I tried to stop it happening.

-Then, why didn't you?

Hey? Because you wanted him.

And you weren't going to give up

-until you'd got what you came for.

-No.

So who's next then, eh? Ian Beale? Jack Branning's still grieving,

he might be a soft touch. Or what about Phil?

-I bet he's got some money tucked away.

-That ain't fair.

Don't you dare talk to me about fair!

I gave you a home when no-one else would have you!

I treated you like a daughter!

I helped plan your wedding!

Well, your first one, anyway.

-I'm sorry.

-Just... Just get out.

-Please... Please let me explain.

-Don't want to hear it!

I just want you and your stuff out of my house!

-Please...

-Fine! I'll do it myself.

Mick?

-What are you doing?

-I'm putting the rubbish out, what does it look like?

What's this doing in here?

I needed a smart jacket. Mick said it would be all right to borrow one.

Get off on it, did you?

-Walking around pretending to be me.

-It wasn't like that.

Stealing my husband not enough for you?

-It's just a jacket!

-It's sick, is what it is!

What were you hoping was going to happen, eh

-That you'd get your claws into him and he'd leave me?

-Of course not.

Bet you thought all your Christmases had come at once

when my mum had her stroke!

How long did you leave it?

-Two, three months before you made your move?

-It wasn't like that.

Wait until he's at his most vulnerable and then you pounce?!

Maybe if you'd have been here

instead of swanning off to your mother's,

-we wouldn't be in this mess!

-Right, that is it.

-Get off me!

-Oi. L! L! L! L!

Get off! Get your hands off me!

You come near my family again and I will rip your face off.

Do you understand me?

-Don't worry I'm going.

-Get out!

Stealing my husband's not enough for her.

She gotta rearrange my kitchen an' all.

And don't even get me started on that disgusting wallpaper next door.

I suppose she was all for the changes downstairs, weren't she?

Yeah, sooner she removes all trace of me the better.

-That's just stupid talk.

-Then, where is it?

-Where's what?

My Lady Di mug. I mean, she's probably drinking out of it now.

-I suppose you think I was wrong to throw her out?

-No.

No, I think it's best she goes for a few days -

-and it gives us time to talk.

-Yeah, there's nothing to talk about.

I want us to try and get through this.

I don't know if we can.

I love you.

Do you?

More than anything in this world.

The kiss...

I could just about get over...

..t we both know it's more than just that, don't we?

You said you were in love with her, Mick.

I don't know what I was saying.

All I know is you're the woman

I want to spend the rest of my life with.

But I can't share you.

So we just move away.

We start afresh.

She'll always be there, won't she?

Every time I look at you, I'll always be wondering

if it's her you'd rather be with.

You never said where it happened, this kiss.

It was up here.

Where exactly?

Just show me.

-Our bedroom?

-Look, it's not what you think.

So, where was she stood?

Hm?

-Was she by the door or by the bed?

-The door.

And how long did this kiss last?

-Seconds.

-Could it have gone further?

-I've already told you...

-You're in our bedroom, Mick.

Do you really expect me to believe that was just an accident?

You need to go.

-Please, L...

-I can't look at you any more.

I don't want to leave you.

Fine. Know what? Fine. I'll go.

Just get out of my way. I swear to God...

We can't leave it like this.

You don't even know what you've done, do you?

LINDA SOBS

You've broken my heart, Mick.

BABY CRIES

And what am I supposed to say to him?

Bet you didn't think about that, did you?

You haven't gotta say anything.

I know we can work through this.

I've told you, it's too late.

Please don't say that.

Please.

Please, just go.

I can't leave you.

You left me the moment you looked at her.

BABY CRIES

It's all right, baby.

Mummy's coming.

Why did you do it, Mick? Why did you have to tell her?

Because I couldn't live with myself.

I am happy with Woody, I've moved on with my life.

-I couldn't lie to her.

-Yes, yes, you could!

Me and you, us...

it meant nothing.

You've lost everything.