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It's extraordinary. Absolutely extraordinary. | 0:00:29 | 0:00:35 | |
I swear, you haven't changed at all. | 0:00:36 | 0:00:39 | |
Not one little bit. | 0:00:40 | 0:00:42 | |
25 years. | 0:00:47 | 0:00:49 | |
How do you do it? | 0:00:52 | 0:00:54 | |
Haven't got a picture in the attic somewhere, have you? | 0:00:54 | 0:00:57 | |
Can't say the same for the rest of the place. | 0:01:01 | 0:01:04 | |
A lot of changes out there. | 0:01:04 | 0:01:05 | |
None of them for the better, | 0:01:07 | 0:01:09 | |
from what I can see. | 0:01:09 | 0:01:11 | |
All those boarded up businesses. Such a shame. | 0:01:11 | 0:01:16 | |
Get out. | 0:01:17 | 0:01:19 | |
I'm not here to cause you any trouble, Kathy. | 0:01:21 | 0:01:24 | |
I promise you. | 0:01:24 | 0:01:26 | |
Just want a few minutes of your time, that's all. | 0:01:27 | 0:01:30 | |
Just to talk. | 0:01:33 | 0:01:35 | |
I suppose it's a bit late for coffee. | 0:01:37 | 0:01:39 | |
This is something of a surprise, I know. | 0:02:03 | 0:02:06 | |
Maybe I should have called ahead, given you some advance warning. | 0:02:06 | 0:02:09 | |
I do apologise. | 0:02:09 | 0:02:12 | |
Perhaps that was thoughtless of me. | 0:02:12 | 0:02:14 | |
How's Ian? | 0:02:16 | 0:02:18 | |
I'm told he has a few businesses round here. | 0:02:18 | 0:02:20 | |
It's always nice, isn't it, when your children find their way? | 0:02:20 | 0:02:23 | |
I have three now. | 0:02:23 | 0:02:24 | |
All grown up as well, of course, but they've all found their feet. | 0:02:24 | 0:02:28 | |
One way or another. | 0:02:28 | 0:02:31 | |
What do you want? | 0:02:31 | 0:02:33 | |
Down to business, is it? | 0:02:35 | 0:02:38 | |
You always were the same, weren't you? | 0:02:38 | 0:02:40 | |
No nonsense. | 0:02:40 | 0:02:42 | |
Straight down the line. It's one of the things that made me | 0:02:42 | 0:02:45 | |
realise you'd be just right for the Dagmar. | 0:02:45 | 0:02:48 | |
I said, what do you want? | 0:02:48 | 0:02:50 | |
And you've always been able to do that, too, haven't you? | 0:02:50 | 0:02:54 | |
Read me. | 0:02:54 | 0:02:55 | |
Here's me going on about children, businesses, | 0:02:55 | 0:02:59 | |
anything and everything, but you just know, don't you? | 0:02:59 | 0:03:02 | |
You know this isn't just a trip down memory lane. | 0:03:03 | 0:03:06 | |
I'm dying, Kathy. | 0:03:13 | 0:03:15 | |
I had the diagnosis a few days ago. | 0:03:17 | 0:03:20 | |
Liver cancer. | 0:03:20 | 0:03:22 | |
A few months at the most. | 0:03:22 | 0:03:23 | |
I was sitting in the consultant's office, you know. | 0:03:24 | 0:03:28 | |
There was a window behind his desk. | 0:03:28 | 0:03:31 | |
Looking out on to the street. | 0:03:31 | 0:03:33 | |
I saw a bus go past. A big, red London bus. | 0:03:33 | 0:03:36 | |
I suddenly thought, how strange! | 0:03:38 | 0:03:41 | |
Everything was so normal, so everyday. | 0:03:41 | 0:03:45 | |
Just like it was a few moments before. | 0:03:45 | 0:03:48 | |
Nothing ever would be again, would it? | 0:03:49 | 0:03:52 | |
Everything had suddenly changed forever. | 0:03:53 | 0:03:55 | |
But from the moment the consultant told me, | 0:03:57 | 0:03:59 | |
from the very moment he gave me that prognosis, I didn't think | 0:03:59 | 0:04:03 | |
about the people I'd have expected to think about, my family, friends. | 0:04:03 | 0:04:08 | |
The person I wanted to tell was you. | 0:04:08 | 0:04:11 | |
Look, you don't mind, do you? I just really need a glass of water. | 0:04:17 | 0:04:21 | |
PLATE SHATTERS Ooh. It's all right. I'll get it. | 0:04:21 | 0:04:23 | |
I'll help you clear that up, if you like. | 0:04:35 | 0:04:38 | |
Thank you. | 0:04:41 | 0:04:43 | |
Honey. | 0:04:43 | 0:04:46 | |
You all right? | 0:04:46 | 0:04:49 | |
Is there any news? | 0:04:49 | 0:04:50 | |
The doctor's in with her now, so... | 0:04:50 | 0:04:52 | |
-I'd best get back to her. -Yeah, yeah. | 0:04:55 | 0:04:56 | |
Where's Billy? | 0:04:56 | 0:04:58 | |
-Where are you going? -I need some fresh air. | 0:05:05 | 0:05:08 | |
-Don't do anything stupid. -I think I've already done that, don't you? | 0:05:08 | 0:05:11 | |
I meant what I said. Nothing's going to change by you holding your hands up. | 0:05:11 | 0:05:15 | |
-Janet will still be in hospital, but you'll be in the nick. -I'm just going for a walk. | 0:05:15 | 0:05:18 | |
OK? Nothing more, I promise. | 0:05:18 | 0:05:20 | |
25 years. Can you believe it? | 0:05:25 | 0:05:28 | |
You look ahead and you think it's forever. | 0:05:28 | 0:05:30 | |
Look back and zoom, there it is, gone. | 0:05:30 | 0:05:34 | |
-In the blink of an eye. -Why are you here? | 0:05:34 | 0:05:37 | |
Because it's last chance time, Kathy. | 0:05:42 | 0:05:44 | |
Last chance for me. | 0:05:46 | 0:05:48 | |
And the last chance for you, too, I suppose. | 0:05:48 | 0:05:51 | |
Things went wrong between us. There's no denying that. | 0:05:59 | 0:06:03 | |
There was so much bitterness back then. | 0:06:05 | 0:06:08 | |
So many harsh words. | 0:06:09 | 0:06:12 | |
And they don't just fade away, do they? | 0:06:13 | 0:06:16 | |
They stay with you. | 0:06:16 | 0:06:19 | |
Worm their way inside your head. | 0:06:19 | 0:06:22 | |
And they don't just affect everything you do at the time, | 0:06:22 | 0:06:25 | |
but afterwards as well. | 0:06:25 | 0:06:28 | |
I know that. | 0:06:28 | 0:06:30 | |
And you probably do, too. | 0:06:30 | 0:06:32 | |
In fact, I know you do. | 0:06:32 | 0:06:34 | |
Don't misunderstand me, Kathy. | 0:06:34 | 0:06:36 | |
I haven't been keeping tabs on you or anything. | 0:06:36 | 0:06:38 | |
I'm not some kind of stalker. | 0:06:38 | 0:06:40 | |
But these days, it's not that difficult to keep in touch | 0:06:40 | 0:06:43 | |
with how people are getting on. | 0:06:43 | 0:06:45 | |
So I do know, the false dawns, the wrong turns. | 0:06:45 | 0:06:50 | |
What was it...? Someone mentioned some chap from South Africa. | 0:06:50 | 0:06:55 | |
An old friend of your brother's, wasn't he? | 0:06:55 | 0:06:57 | |
This isn't a criticism, Kathy. Good heavens! | 0:07:00 | 0:07:03 | |
Don't start thinking that for a minute. That's not what I'm saying. | 0:07:03 | 0:07:08 | |
And that's not why I'm here. | 0:07:08 | 0:07:09 | |
Any wrong turn you've taken, I've taken, too. | 0:07:09 | 0:07:12 | |
At least. We've rather a lot in common, so far as that's concerned. | 0:07:12 | 0:07:16 | |
No, we ain't. | 0:07:18 | 0:07:20 | |
And that's why I'm here. | 0:07:21 | 0:07:23 | |
It's 30 years since we first met. | 0:07:24 | 0:07:27 | |
It's the blink of an eye. | 0:07:28 | 0:07:30 | |
It's all in the past. | 0:07:30 | 0:07:33 | |
But it isn't because nothing ever is. | 0:07:33 | 0:07:36 | |
You think you've moved on, that you're a different person, | 0:07:36 | 0:07:40 | |
but you're not. | 0:07:40 | 0:07:41 | |
Not really. | 0:07:43 | 0:07:45 | |
You're the sum of all your past actions. | 0:07:45 | 0:07:49 | |
Everything you've done, everyone you've ever met, ever loved. | 0:07:49 | 0:07:55 | |
Ever lost. | 0:07:55 | 0:07:56 | |
We all carry them around, don't we? | 0:07:59 | 0:08:01 | |
All these ghosts on our shoulders. | 0:08:01 | 0:08:05 | |
And that's why I'm here. | 0:08:09 | 0:08:10 | |
To see if we can get rid of them, | 0:08:10 | 0:08:12 | |
banish all those ghosts for both of us. | 0:08:12 | 0:08:16 | |
LAUGHTER OUTSIDE | 0:08:16 | 0:08:19 | |
-Trick or treat! -Well, well. What have we here? | 0:08:19 | 0:08:22 | |
Treat, I think. | 0:08:26 | 0:08:27 | |
Don't you, Kathy? | 0:08:27 | 0:08:29 | |
There you go. | 0:08:29 | 0:08:31 | |
That's for all of you. | 0:08:31 | 0:08:33 | |
-ALL: -Thank you! | 0:08:33 | 0:08:35 | |
'Mum, Dad, look!' | 0:08:38 | 0:08:40 | |
Hey, hey! Was you round here a couple of hours ago? | 0:08:53 | 0:08:57 | |
There was a little girl, she got hit by a car. | 0:08:57 | 0:08:59 | |
Did you see anything? Did you see who did it? | 0:08:59 | 0:09:02 | |
Don't run away! I'm talking to you! | 0:09:02 | 0:09:05 | |
Billy, what are you doing? | 0:09:05 | 0:09:06 | |
Someone saw something! | 0:09:06 | 0:09:09 | |
Must have! | 0:09:10 | 0:09:12 | |
I mean, this is a busy road, isn't it? | 0:09:12 | 0:09:15 | |
There's people round here all the time. | 0:09:15 | 0:09:17 | |
I can't do this, Teen. | 0:09:20 | 0:09:21 | |
I can't lose her. | 0:09:22 | 0:09:25 | |
She's my little girl. | 0:09:26 | 0:09:28 | |
Honey chucked me out. | 0:09:36 | 0:09:38 | |
I... I told her that she loved Will more than Janet. | 0:09:40 | 0:09:45 | |
That she never really loved Janet, not really. | 0:09:45 | 0:09:48 | |
I said that he was her favourite. | 0:09:50 | 0:09:52 | |
How dare you! | 0:10:05 | 0:10:06 | |
-Sorry? -How dare you say my life is like yours! | 0:10:06 | 0:10:10 | |
-I don't think I did, to be fair. -Fair?! | 0:10:10 | 0:10:13 | |
Listen to you. | 0:10:15 | 0:10:17 | |
The way you're going on, you think you cast this | 0:10:17 | 0:10:20 | |
great, big shadow over everything I've ever done. | 0:10:20 | 0:10:23 | |
I have built a life for myself. | 0:10:23 | 0:10:26 | |
With my kids, and my grandkids. | 0:10:26 | 0:10:30 | |
I ain't got no ghosts. | 0:10:30 | 0:10:32 | |
I've got people. | 0:10:33 | 0:10:35 | |
People who I love and who love me. | 0:10:35 | 0:10:37 | |
Your life might have gone belly up over the last 25 years, | 0:10:39 | 0:10:42 | |
but mine hasn't. | 0:10:42 | 0:10:43 | |
And despite what you did, I've had no choice but to carry on. | 0:10:43 | 0:10:48 | |
I do understand, Kathy. | 0:10:48 | 0:10:50 | |
-What? -Whatever else you think of me, you know I'm not stupid. | 0:10:52 | 0:10:55 | |
Give me credit for that, at least. | 0:10:55 | 0:10:57 | |
But there is damage, isn't there? | 0:10:58 | 0:11:01 | |
For me and for you. | 0:11:01 | 0:11:03 | |
I'm not about to deny that. | 0:11:03 | 0:11:05 | |
And you've always been too honest to fool yourself as well. | 0:11:05 | 0:11:09 | |
But if life can take a wrong turn, it can take a right turn, too, | 0:11:09 | 0:11:14 | |
can't it? | 0:11:14 | 0:11:16 | |
Can't we at least see if we can try? | 0:11:16 | 0:11:18 | |
A bit late for that, don't you think? | 0:11:18 | 0:11:21 | |
No. | 0:11:21 | 0:11:24 | |
No, I don't. | 0:11:24 | 0:11:26 | |
You're still here. I am, too. | 0:11:26 | 0:11:29 | |
For a time, anyway. | 0:11:29 | 0:11:31 | |
The clock might be ticking, but it is still ticking, | 0:11:33 | 0:11:36 | |
so isn't it even more important that somehow, if we possibly can, | 0:11:36 | 0:11:42 | |
we try to resolve these things between you and me? | 0:11:42 | 0:11:45 | |
Come on then. | 0:11:47 | 0:11:49 | |
You've no idea how much I've been hoping you'd say that. | 0:11:50 | 0:11:54 | |
I had to sit through your version of what you did day after | 0:11:56 | 0:12:02 | |
day in that court. | 0:12:02 | 0:12:04 | |
But the one thing I have never heard from you is the truth. | 0:12:04 | 0:12:08 | |
Not what you told the judge, not the lies you fed the jury. | 0:12:10 | 0:12:13 | |
But what actually happened. | 0:12:13 | 0:12:15 | |
The pictures I see when I close my eyes, | 0:12:18 | 0:12:23 | |
the pictures you must be seeing right now, too. | 0:12:23 | 0:12:27 | |
But I'm talking about moving forward, not going back. | 0:12:27 | 0:12:29 | |
That's the whole point. | 0:12:29 | 0:12:32 | |
Not raking over things that can't be changed, | 0:12:32 | 0:12:34 | |
but moving on, you and me, to something new. | 0:12:34 | 0:12:39 | |
You and me will never move on to anything new. | 0:12:39 | 0:12:43 | |
Not like that. | 0:12:43 | 0:12:45 | |
That's not what I meant. | 0:12:45 | 0:12:47 | |
So you tell me... | 0:12:50 | 0:12:52 | |
You tell me, | 0:12:54 | 0:12:57 | |
what happened that night? | 0:12:57 | 0:12:59 | |
Of course. | 0:13:05 | 0:13:07 | |
-If that's how you want to play this. -I'm not playing anything. | 0:13:08 | 0:13:12 | |
This ain't some stupid game! | 0:13:12 | 0:13:15 | |
Clumsy turn of phrase. | 0:13:15 | 0:13:17 | |
Look, why don't you sit here? | 0:13:19 | 0:13:23 | |
It does seem rather ridiculous, me over here and you over there, | 0:13:23 | 0:13:27 | |
behind that counter. | 0:13:27 | 0:13:29 | |
Just tell me. | 0:13:29 | 0:13:31 | |
I said things at the trial I now bitterly regret. | 0:13:58 | 0:14:02 | |
I said things about you I'm ashamed of. | 0:14:02 | 0:14:05 | |
My only defence is that I was scared. | 0:14:06 | 0:14:10 | |
And I freely admit that. | 0:14:13 | 0:14:15 | |
I simply couldn't understand how we'd got into that position. | 0:14:15 | 0:14:19 | |
That situation. And I suppose I just...hit out. | 0:14:19 | 0:14:24 | |
And I'm ashamed. | 0:14:25 | 0:14:27 | |
It was unforgivable. | 0:14:28 | 0:14:31 | |
Well, I hope this clears that up, at least. | 0:14:32 | 0:14:36 | |
You couldn't understand | 0:14:38 | 0:14:41 | |
how you were on trial for...what you did? | 0:14:41 | 0:14:46 | |
How everything had become so complicated. | 0:14:46 | 0:14:48 | |
-What did you expect? -No, between you and me, I mean. | 0:14:50 | 0:14:53 | |
Be fair. | 0:14:53 | 0:14:56 | |
One thing we'd always been able | 0:14:56 | 0:14:58 | |
to do was talk to each other, communicate. | 0:14:58 | 0:15:01 | |
Remember all those late night conversations in the Dagmar | 0:15:01 | 0:15:04 | |
after work? Just you and me? | 0:15:04 | 0:15:07 | |
We'd put the world to rights for hours on end, sometimes. | 0:15:07 | 0:15:10 | |
I looked at you in that courtroom, | 0:15:12 | 0:15:15 | |
it was like looking at a stranger. | 0:15:16 | 0:15:18 | |
I simply couldn't understand how everything could have changed, | 0:15:20 | 0:15:23 | |
just like that. | 0:15:23 | 0:15:25 | |
Well, I understood. | 0:15:27 | 0:15:29 | |
I understood perfectly. | 0:15:29 | 0:15:31 | |
But I don't understand this. | 0:15:34 | 0:15:36 | |
I asked you to tell me what happened that night | 0:15:37 | 0:15:40 | |
and how you see all that now, but all you're | 0:15:40 | 0:15:43 | |
doing is going on about how you don't understand things. | 0:15:43 | 0:15:47 | |
-Well, that's not quite what I said. -Well, it sounded like it to me. | 0:15:47 | 0:15:50 | |
Going back like this, trying to relive everything that's happened, way back in the past, | 0:15:50 | 0:15:55 | |
it just leads to more bitterness, more misunderstandings. | 0:15:55 | 0:16:00 | |
Let me do it for you, then. | 0:16:00 | 0:16:01 | |
-What? -Well, you won't tell me what happened, so I'll tell you, shall I? | 0:16:01 | 0:16:06 | |
I can take you through every bit of that night, second by second, | 0:16:09 | 0:16:14 | |
cos I have been over it time and time again, | 0:16:14 | 0:16:16 | |
trying to work out how it could have happened. | 0:16:16 | 0:16:20 | |
How you could have got it all so wrong. | 0:16:20 | 0:16:24 | |
And do you know the first question? | 0:16:26 | 0:16:28 | |
The very first question I've always asked myself? | 0:16:28 | 0:16:31 | |
When did it start? | 0:16:31 | 0:16:33 | |
-I don't understand. -When exactly... | 0:16:35 | 0:16:38 | |
..that night... | 0:16:40 | 0:16:43 | |
did you decide... | 0:16:43 | 0:16:45 | |
to do...what you did? | 0:16:45 | 0:16:49 | |
We'd closed up, remember? | 0:16:53 | 0:16:56 | |
We'd watched Simon and his mates go off to that party. | 0:16:58 | 0:17:01 | |
We'd even laughed about the girl he was trying to get off with. | 0:17:01 | 0:17:04 | |
How everything had all got mixed up. | 0:17:04 | 0:17:07 | |
It was... It was just all so normal. | 0:17:07 | 0:17:10 | |
Like any other night. | 0:17:11 | 0:17:12 | |
Well, as far as I was concerned, anyway. | 0:17:16 | 0:17:18 | |
And then I was about to go home and suddenly, you were there with a drink in your hand. | 0:17:20 | 0:17:24 | |
You didn't ask if I wanted one. | 0:17:24 | 0:17:26 | |
You didn't say, "Can I get you something before you go?" | 0:17:26 | 0:17:29 | |
You just poured it for me. | 0:17:29 | 0:17:30 | |
And it was stupid, I know, because I didn't really want it. | 0:17:31 | 0:17:35 | |
But it was already there. You were holding it out to me. | 0:17:36 | 0:17:39 | |
And so, somehow... | 0:17:39 | 0:17:42 | |
It just seemed rude to say no. | 0:17:42 | 0:17:44 | |
So, was that it? | 0:17:46 | 0:17:47 | |
Was that the moment? | 0:17:49 | 0:17:51 | |
When I took that drink from you, was that the moment you thought, | 0:17:51 | 0:17:54 | |
"Right, I can get a bit more than a drink out of this tonight"? | 0:17:54 | 0:17:58 | |
Kathy, I honestly have absolutely no idea what you're talking about. | 0:17:58 | 0:18:03 | |
And then you said, "Let's talk," remember? | 0:18:03 | 0:18:06 | |
"Somewhere more comfortable." Just like you said come and sit over in that chair just now. | 0:18:06 | 0:18:10 | |
And do you know something? | 0:18:10 | 0:18:13 | |
You said it back then, too, what you said just now. | 0:18:13 | 0:18:15 | |
"This is ridiculous." | 0:18:15 | 0:18:17 | |
You actually used them very same words. "This is ridiculous. | 0:18:17 | 0:18:22 | |
"I'm standing here in this draughty, old bar, when there's a nice warm flat upstairs." | 0:18:22 | 0:18:26 | |
-Oh, come on. You don't think... -And I didn't really want to go up to your flat. | 0:18:26 | 0:18:29 | |
Just like I didn't really want the drink you'd poured me. | 0:18:29 | 0:18:33 | |
I just wanted to go home. | 0:18:33 | 0:18:36 | |
But you were already on your way up the stairs, | 0:18:36 | 0:18:39 | |
and so what was I supposed to do? | 0:18:39 | 0:18:40 | |
Just turn round and walk away from you? | 0:18:40 | 0:18:42 | |
And yes, I know that was stupid, too. | 0:18:45 | 0:18:47 | |
I just thought it would have seemed rude again, so...up I went. | 0:18:49 | 0:18:53 | |
So, was that it? | 0:18:56 | 0:18:58 | |
Was that the moment? | 0:18:58 | 0:19:00 | |
When you turned round and saw me in that doorway, | 0:19:00 | 0:19:03 | |
saw that I had done what you had asked me to do, | 0:19:03 | 0:19:06 | |
followed you up to your flat, was that the moment you thought, | 0:19:06 | 0:19:09 | |
"I can get her to do something else tonight and all"? | 0:19:09 | 0:19:12 | |
Kathy, is this really serving any useful purpose? | 0:19:12 | 0:19:15 | |
But then, we started talking | 0:19:15 | 0:19:17 | |
and you steered the conversation round to Pete and our marriage. | 0:19:17 | 0:19:21 | |
And yeah, we were having problems, I admit that. I told you that myself. | 0:19:21 | 0:19:25 | |
Not a patch on the problems we had afterwards, mind you, but you kept | 0:19:27 | 0:19:31 | |
talking all about that and about me and Pete and acting so nice. | 0:19:31 | 0:19:35 | |
And so concerned. | 0:19:35 | 0:19:37 | |
And then you started telling me about your own wife | 0:19:37 | 0:19:40 | |
and about the problems you were having with her. | 0:19:40 | 0:19:43 | |
So, what was that? | 0:19:44 | 0:19:46 | |
What were you doing? Softening me up? | 0:19:46 | 0:19:48 | |
What was happening in your head when all that was going on? | 0:19:50 | 0:19:54 | |
Were you thinking, "Right, I've got her in the place I want, | 0:19:54 | 0:19:59 | |
"I've got a drink in her hand, | 0:19:59 | 0:20:01 | |
"and now I paint the picture of the pair of us | 0:20:01 | 0:20:04 | |
"as two lost souls, that should do the trick"? | 0:20:04 | 0:20:07 | |
"That should get her melting in my arms," | 0:20:07 | 0:20:10 | |
especially with the music you put on at the same time. | 0:20:10 | 0:20:13 | |
"But just in case that's not enough, just in case, I know what I'll do. | 0:20:13 | 0:20:18 | |
"I'll go to the kitchen, | 0:20:18 | 0:20:19 | |
"I'll get that bottle of champagne out the fridge. | 0:20:19 | 0:20:22 | |
"Oh, that should do it. She's bound to stay then. | 0:20:22 | 0:20:25 | |
"I mean, why shouldn't she? | 0:20:25 | 0:20:26 | |
"She stayed for that one drink I poured her down in the bar, | 0:20:26 | 0:20:29 | |
"she's bound to stay for another one, once I've opened the whole bottle." | 0:20:29 | 0:20:33 | |
So, was that it? | 0:20:33 | 0:20:35 | |
The moment you opened that champagne, | 0:20:35 | 0:20:38 | |
was that for you, was it? To toast yourself, cos you thought, | 0:20:38 | 0:20:41 | |
"Yes, I've got her just where I want her. Clever, little me!" | 0:20:41 | 0:20:46 | |
Got nothing to say? | 0:20:49 | 0:20:50 | |
It don't matter. | 0:20:52 | 0:20:54 | |
Cos I'll tell you, shall I? | 0:20:54 | 0:20:55 | |
Cos I know exactly when it was. | 0:20:57 | 0:20:59 | |
I've had a long time to work it out. | 0:21:01 | 0:21:02 | |
It wasn't after any of that, was it? | 0:21:04 | 0:21:07 | |
It wasn't after the drink down in the bar, or up in your flat, | 0:21:07 | 0:21:10 | |
it wasn't after the chat about Pete. | 0:21:10 | 0:21:12 | |
It wasn't when you put the music on, or when you opened that champagne. | 0:21:12 | 0:21:16 | |
It was when Simon | 0:21:18 | 0:21:21 | |
and his mates left and you closed | 0:21:21 | 0:21:26 | |
and locked that door behind them. | 0:21:26 | 0:21:28 | |
That's the moment that you decided | 0:21:29 | 0:21:34 | |
you were going to do what you | 0:21:34 | 0:21:38 | |
did that night! | 0:21:38 | 0:21:40 | |
And nothing, and no-one, was going to stop you! | 0:21:40 | 0:21:43 | |
But I tried, didn't I? | 0:21:43 | 0:21:46 | |
I tried to stop you. | 0:21:46 | 0:21:48 | |
I tried telling you to leave me alone, but you wouldn't. | 0:21:48 | 0:21:51 | |
You just held my wrists with one hand and then you... | 0:21:53 | 0:21:57 | |
And all the time, I was thinking, | 0:22:06 | 0:22:09 | |
when it was happening and afterwards, was... | 0:22:09 | 0:22:12 | |
Why didn't I do more? | 0:22:14 | 0:22:15 | |
Your lawyer even said so in court. I mean, how could you do it? | 0:22:18 | 0:22:21 | |
How could you hold me down on that floor with your one hand | 0:22:21 | 0:22:25 | |
round my wrists? | 0:22:25 | 0:22:28 | |
Why didn't I struggle more? Why...? | 0:22:28 | 0:22:31 | |
Why didn't I lash out and kick you off me? | 0:22:31 | 0:22:34 | |
Showed I must have wanted it, right? | 0:22:36 | 0:22:38 | |
No. | 0:22:43 | 0:22:44 | |
I was terrified. | 0:22:44 | 0:22:46 | |
I was terrified. And I froze. | 0:22:48 | 0:22:51 | |
Just like I did when you walked in here this evening. | 0:22:53 | 0:22:56 | |
I couldn't move. | 0:22:58 | 0:23:00 | |
I just lay on that floor and I thought, please, let this be over. | 0:23:00 | 0:23:07 | |
Let this not be happening. | 0:23:07 | 0:23:09 | |
Just like I thought when you walked in tonight and I looked at you | 0:23:09 | 0:23:12 | |
and thought, no, let him not be here. | 0:23:12 | 0:23:17 | |
Let me not be seeing him again. | 0:23:17 | 0:23:19 | |
And I am sorry, Kathy, | 0:23:21 | 0:23:23 | |
truly sorry, beyond words, | 0:23:25 | 0:23:27 | |
that I made you feel that way this evening. | 0:23:29 | 0:23:31 | |
Never mind about how I feel. | 0:23:33 | 0:23:36 | |
How about being sorry for what you did? | 0:23:36 | 0:23:41 | |
And I'm even more sorry that you can't leave all this behind you. | 0:23:45 | 0:23:50 | |
That you can't move on. | 0:23:50 | 0:23:51 | |
I've tried. | 0:23:59 | 0:24:01 | |
I've tried offering resolution, at a difficult time for me. | 0:24:01 | 0:24:07 | |
And you've just thrown it back in my face. | 0:24:07 | 0:24:11 | |
You really are totally deluded, aren't you? | 0:24:14 | 0:24:17 | |
Here's my address. | 0:24:19 | 0:24:20 | |
And number. | 0:24:23 | 0:24:24 | |
In case you change your mind. | 0:24:26 | 0:24:28 | |
Say black is white, you mean, and you aren't what you are? | 0:24:28 | 0:24:31 | |
Things could have been so different, you know? | 0:24:33 | 0:24:36 | |
Yeah. | 0:24:36 | 0:24:37 | |
If you hadn't done... | 0:24:37 | 0:24:40 | |
what you did. | 0:24:40 | 0:24:42 | |
It's more the future I'm thinking of. | 0:24:45 | 0:24:47 | |
What are you talking about?! | 0:24:49 | 0:24:51 | |
But I suppose that was always your problem, wasn't it? | 0:24:53 | 0:24:57 | |
Always the one thing that held you back. | 0:24:57 | 0:25:01 | |
You'd get one idea in your head and no-one would be able to shift it. | 0:25:01 | 0:25:05 | |
Well... | 0:25:09 | 0:25:11 | |
like I said... | 0:25:11 | 0:25:14 | |
I tried. | 0:25:14 | 0:25:15 | |
SHE SOBS | 0:25:24 | 0:25:27 | |
Look, I know you don't want to see no-one, | 0:25:30 | 0:25:33 | |
so just stay here for five minutes, yeah? And then I will check everyone's asleep | 0:25:33 | 0:25:37 | |
and I'll get you a bed sorted out upstairs. | 0:25:37 | 0:25:40 | |
I ain't going to be able to sleep tonight. | 0:25:40 | 0:25:43 | |
Look, you never meant what you said, yeah? Honey will understand that. | 0:25:43 | 0:25:47 | |
It's just cos of what happened. The accident. | 0:25:47 | 0:25:52 | |
I'm going to lose her, ain't I? | 0:25:52 | 0:25:54 | |
-Going to lose Honey. -No, of course not. -You didn't see her face, Teen. | 0:25:54 | 0:25:58 | |
-When I said all of that... -Billy... -She had this look in her eye. | 0:25:58 | 0:26:01 | |
Please, stop it. | 0:26:01 | 0:26:03 | |
It's over. | 0:26:03 | 0:26:05 | |
I'm so sorry. | 0:26:08 | 0:26:09 | |
What are you sorry for? It ain't your fault, is it, silly? | 0:26:09 | 0:26:12 | |
Billy, listen... | 0:26:12 | 0:26:15 |