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-Fear knocked on the door.

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-Faith answered.

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-There was no-one there.

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-My name is Irfon Williams.

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-I have cancer.

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-Monday, 28 January, 2014

-was a misty, cold and grey day.

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-I'd been expecting a call

-from Meinir...

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-..manager of Betsi Cadwaladr's

-surgical department.

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-The phone rang

-a little after lunchtime.

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-She told me that the doctor wanted

-to see me at four that afternoon.

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-He wanted to give me the diagnosis.

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-Walking to the office

-was a rather blurry experience.

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-Becky, my wife, and I

-knew Meinir well.

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-Fair play, there was

-no beating about the bush...

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-..before getting down

-to the serious business.

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-Once I'd sat down,

-Meinir revealed the exact diagnosis.

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-"Irfon, you have advanced bowel

-cancer and metastasis in the liver."

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-The words felt the same as being

-hit in the face by a frying pan.

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-I got a terrible shock.

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-It was as if time froze

-for a second or two.

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-To be honest, I don't know

-why it was such a shock.

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-The news wasn't unexpected.

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-I couldn't understand

-how such a thing had happened.

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-I was young,

-fairly fit and healthy.

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-Even though it didn't help,

-I couldn't help but ask...

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-..why me?

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-There is no answer to that question.

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-Why me? I don't know why me.

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-It doesn't help

-to take too much notice of that.

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-It's important to carry on,

-to look forward.

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-The reality is,

-I have this condition.

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-I just have to cope,

-and live with it from day to day.

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-I hadn't cried much at all.

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-Well, not with anyone but Becky.

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-In the early days...

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-..where there was uncertainty

-about what would happen...

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-..I had some very dark thoughts.

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-The nights were worst.

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-Lying there, unable to sleep...

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-..imagining what would happen

-if I died.

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-Would the children be OK?

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-How would Lois, Owen and Beca cope?

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-Would Sion and Ianto remember me,

-given that they were so young?

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-How would Becky carry on without me?

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-How would it affect my parents?

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-I'd try to answer the questions...

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-..persuading myself

-that they'd all be fine.

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-Becky would be more than able

-to care for the boys...

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-..and tell them stories

-about me for ever.

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-There were also hundreds of photos.

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-Dad might struggle at first.

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-But I'm sure Becky

-would maintain links...

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-..given the value I place...

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-..on his relationship

-with Sion and Ianto especially.

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-Clive would support Mam.

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-She'd know how much I'd want them

-to be there for all the children.

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-I'm not supposed to cry

-at my own book.

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-I haven't read the book back

-all that much.

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-Those thoughts come back

-when you read what you have written.

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-Sorry about that.

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-What frightened me

-was that the cancer had spread...

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-..from his bowel to his liver

-without any kind of symptom.

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-That's frightening, somehow.

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-Irfon lost his brother

-to epilepsy in 2003.

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-Arwyn was 30 years old.

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-When I lost my youngest son,

-Arwyn, Irfon supported me.

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-He helped me in so many ways.

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-I remember telling him...

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-..that he was my rock,

-the strength behind me.

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-I remember him telling me

-that he always would be.

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-I'll still be your rock...

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-..because I'll be there.

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-I think I know what he means

-when he says that...

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-..because...

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-..Irfon is a special person, really.

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-Maybe I shouldn't say that

-about my own son...

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-..but he was a tower of strength

-for me when Arwyn died.

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-It's difficult to think

-about life without him.

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-I can't.

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-I just can't...

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-..think about it.

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-After the diagnosis,

-Irfon and I decided to get married.

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-We thought it was important

-to go through this...

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-..as husband and wife.

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-In five days...

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-..we organized a wedding.

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-It was a fantastic day.

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-Yes, really great.

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-Becky's a very pretty woman

-and looks beautiful every day.

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-But I'll never forget how I felt

-when I saw her in her wedding dress.

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-A cold shiver went down my spine

-and a tear came to my eye.

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-How had I been so fortunate

-to marry this woman...

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-..who was beautiful

-both inside and out?

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-It was nice to have everyone there.

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-Mam and Clive were there, and Dad,

-and Becky's parents, of course.

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-What was really nice

-was that Lois, Owen and Beca...

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-..my children from

-my first marriage, were there too...

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-..and Sion and Ianto,

-who were so excited.

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-It was a very happy occasion,

-and everyone had fun together.

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-I can't say it was

-a really, really happy day...

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-..as it should be.

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-They were happy

-and they had a wonderful day.

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-We all did.

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-But it was tinged

-with sadness too, of course.

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-We haven't had a honeymoon yet.

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-Irfon says

-that when he's feeling OK...

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-..we'll go off somewhere exotic

-for our honeymoon.

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-So, I'm looking forward to that.

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-But, no.

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-Day to day, life is good.

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-We do as much as we can.

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-The thoughts about death

-are much clearer in my mind now.

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-The boys are older

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-By now, I've had years with them.

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-Ianto, you won't pick them,

-but you'll still eat the crumble.

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-Becky and I have sat down...

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-..and discussed the things

-that are important to me...

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-..after I die,

-whenever that will be.

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-I think I'm a stronger person

-emotionally now...

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-..than I was when this started.

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-Obviously, there are times...

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-..when I'm sad

-or worried about what will happen.

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-But I'm much more philosophical

-about it now than I was.

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-I'm...

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-I'm satisfied...

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-..that everything will be OK

-if I die, or when I die.

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-My name is Irfon Williams.

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-I've had chemotherapy...

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-..I've had radiotherapy...

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-..and surgery on the liver

-and the bowel.

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-By now, I only have

-a quarter of my liver left.

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-I have to believe there's a chance

-for me to beat this...

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-..or it's all over for me.

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-I'd been told about

-a drug called Cetuximab...

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-..which was effective

-for some bowel cancer patients.

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-Doctors in England were very keen

-for me to prescribed it.

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-Unfortunately, it wasn't possible

-for me to get the drug in Wales.

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-We were lucky

-that I had a relative in England.

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-We were able

-to use her home address.

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-As a result, it became

-a political issue, in a way.

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-The media took a lot of interest.

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-Good evening.

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-The First Minister has had to defend

-his cancer treatment policy.

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-Irfon Williams from Bangor

-has now been told...

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-..that a so-called wonder drug

-not available to Welsh patients...

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-..has shrunk his tumours.

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-That was a very difficult period.

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-He then started to ask

-whether this was fair.

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-The expertise or the know-how...

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-..is there in Bangor

-to be able to give this drug.

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-There's no reason

-beyond that it's not funded...

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-..that I can't have it there.

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-Irfon is a Welshman to the hilt.

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-He couldn't see why we in Wales

-couldn't have the same treatment.

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-That was the start

-of the Right To Live campaign.

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-# You look at my picture,

-full of sympathy #

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-When Right To Live came together,

-the media were very interested.

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-I was interviewed on the radio

-and even on the news.

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-Tough questions were thrown at me.

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-I was a patient, not a politician.

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-But I learnt quickly

-that I had to know my facts.

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-# But I too was born

-a child to my parents

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-# I've heard people say

-we're all God's children

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-# I'm your brother #

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-The media had already

-been in contact...

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-..because of fundraising events

-for Team Irfon.

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-But this had a different focus

-because it was a political issue.

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-I was glad it was happening

-because it publicized the issue.

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-That was very important to us.

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-# I've seen politicians go by

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-# They shake their heads,

-sad and wise

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-Celebrities then started

-to support us...

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-..and show an interest in it.

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-They supported us

-by holding our poster up...

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-..and expressing strong feelings

-about the matter.

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-I was a school friend

-of Robin McBryde.

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-He helped to secure

-the Welsh rugby team's support.

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-They wore Right To Live shirts

-before one game.

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-Welsh football players

-supported us.

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-Support came

-from across the world...

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-..and not just from famous faces.

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-It was just incredible, in a way,

-how big it all got.

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-I was in hospital in Liverpool...

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-..when I got a phone call

-from a radio station.

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-They told me, in confidence...

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-..that there'd be an announcement

-the following morning...

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-..that Cetuximab was going

-to be made available in Wales.

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-That was great news for me.

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-I felt strongly that the campaign

-had influenced that decision.

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-Since then, loads of people

-have been in touch...

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-..or come up to shake my hand...

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-..to say what a difference

-having the drug has made to them.

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-It just makes me think

-how many people didn't have it.

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-Without the campaign,

-that wouldn't have happened.

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-# Why don't I too

-have the right to live

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-# The right to live #

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-# Happy birthday to you

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-# Happy birthday to you #

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-It's 9 July, my birthday.

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-I'm 46 years old this year.

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-I was 43

-when I got the cancer diagnosis.

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-At that time, no-one knew

-how many more birthdays I'd see.

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-It was very important for me

-that I celebrated every day...

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-..but especially every birthday.

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-The cancer has given me

-an exceptional challenge.

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-Despite the operations,

-it has come back countless times.

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-When a doctor tells you...

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-..there's a chance

-you won't survive...

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-..it isn't easy to take, naturally.

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-Conversely,

-it makes you think more about life.

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-Enjoy every day.

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-Enjoy the little things.

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-It's important for me

-to enjoy the time that I have...

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-..not just for me...

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-..but to provide memories

-for the children and for Becky.

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-Before the last operation...

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-..I was told there was a chance

-I wouldn't pull through.

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-Before I went into the theatre,

-Becky and I said our goodbyes.

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-That was difficult.

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-I said goodbye

-to the older children too.

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-I explained to them...

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-..that Dad

-was undergoing more surgery...

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-..and that it was possible

-that I would die.

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-They handled it very well.

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-We had a family meal out.

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-I won't hide the fact

-that it was quite upsetting.

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-The morning I went to Liverpool...

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-..to have the operation,

-saying ta-ra to the little boys.

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-That was very difficult.

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-But I didn't show them that I...

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-At the time, I was determined

-that I would be coming home.

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-I had to think that way,

-to be strong for myself.

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-Before going into the theatre

-to have the operation...

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-..he told me that he would be

-seeing me afterwards.

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-That he would be alright,

-but there was...

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-I was afraid...

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-..that I wouldn't see him again.

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-The operation lasted 14 hours.

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-After removing two tumours, only

-a quarter of Irfon's liver remained.

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-It was really difficult

-to see him like that.

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-I was praying over the bed.

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-Following the surgery, Irfon

-was in hospital for three months.

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-# My life has been shot down

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-# I'm not ready to fall

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-Today, we're at Snowdon Rocks

-with Mike Peters and Jules Peters...

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-..raising money for Alaw Ward and

-the Love Hope Strength Foundation.

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-We're all walking up Snowdon...

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-..and singing on the way.

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-A train is coming up

-carrying cancer patients.

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-Irfon's coming up on the train

-with the boys.

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-I can't wait to see him at the top.

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-# Irfon, let me tell you,

-is hard at work

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-# Irfon, let me tell you,

-is hard at work #

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-# Men Of Harlech #

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-So, how is the big man?

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-So, how is the big man?

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-He's really, really well.

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-He's really turned a corner.

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-In the last four weeks,

-he's gained some strength.

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-He's put more weight on.

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-Obviously, he had lost so much.

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-Then, getting over all the trauma.

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-Ending up in CCU, nearly

-not making it through the night.

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-Coming to terms

-with all that as well.

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-I think we have to stay strong

-to support them.

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-People say to you,

-"How do you cope?"

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-You just do. There's no choice.

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-If there's one positive thing

-from cancer...

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-..it makes you

-appreciate life so much more.

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-Life becomes even sweeter, I think.

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-Hey, Irfon. Look at you.

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-Bang!

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-Bang!

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-Alright, mate?

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-Good. You?

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-Good. You?

-

-I thought you were shattered.

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-Efs, how are you? I saw you at the

-Eisteddfod, playing guitar with Dad.

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-It was cool. Did you enjoy it?

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-Very good.

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-You've been in the wars,

-haven't you?

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-I had the op in March.

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-I'm just getting over that.

-I've still got a drain in.

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-I'm much stronger now.

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-I've got scans in a month,

-then take it from there.

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-I'm feeling good, but it's tiring.

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-I'm feeling good, but it's tiring.

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-You're doing brilliantly.

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-You feel as if

-you want to go too quick.

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-You're showing people how they

-can get through these things.

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-We're both living with it,

-and that's they key.

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-I'll catch you later.

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-I'll catch you later.

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-See you tonight, Irfon.

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-Take it easy.

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-Take it easy.

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-And you, mate. Brilliant.

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-Ef, fist bumps!

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-See you later.

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-Cheers, Irfon.

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-Put your arms up in the air, please.

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-Hooray!

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-And enjoy!

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-I've worked in the field

-of mental health all my life.

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-Now that I'm on the other side,

-I know what it is to suffer.

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-I've set up a company

-called Hanner Llawn (Half Full).

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-The subject of mental health

-is extremely important to me.

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-That's why I talk to children,

-young people and adults...

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-..promoting mental health.

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-Good afternoon.

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-Are you all OK?

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-Is it nice

-to be out of the classroom?

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-My name's Irfon.

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-Irfon Williams.

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-Some of you may know me.

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-I'm here to talk about a subject...

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-..that people don't discuss much.

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-That subject is mental health.

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-Do you know what mental health is?

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-No?

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-Do you know what stress is?

0:25:140:25:16

-You all know what stress is.

0:25:170:25:19

-OK.

0:25:190:25:20

-Do the teachers know what stress is?

0:25:200:25:23

-Do you create stress for teachers?!

0:25:240:25:26

-Or do they cause stress for you?

0:25:270:25:29

-I thought as much!

0:25:300:25:31

-I wanted to create a company

-where I could share experiences.

0:25:320:25:37

-This gives me a huge buzz.

0:25:390:25:42

-It's something

-about which I feel strongly.

0:25:420:25:45

-Mental health.

0:25:450:25:47

-Being able to go out and discuss

-mental health with the public.

0:25:470:25:52

-With people who live under stress

-from day to day.

0:25:520:25:57

-It affects us all.

0:25:590:26:00

-We must get rid of the stigma

-associated with mental health.

0:26:030:26:08

-I feel that the way to do so

-is by talking about it.

0:26:080:26:11

-I hope that my work

-will help to reduce that stigma.

0:26:130:26:18

-SOUND OF BREAKING WIND

0:26:200:26:21

-Excuse me. I have to explain

-the sound of breaking wind.

0:26:220:26:25

-I have a colostomy

-because I've been ill.

0:26:250:26:28

-It happens with no warning, and it's

-a bit rude, so please excuse me!

0:26:280:26:33

-Some of you may know.

0:26:330:26:35

-Two years ago, I got cancer.

0:26:350:26:37

-Bowel cancer.

0:26:380:26:40

-As a result,

-I had a section of my bowel removed.

0:26:400:26:44

-Unfortunately,

-that meant they had to move...

0:26:450:26:48

-..where my body got rid of waste.

0:26:480:26:51

-I now have a hole in my stomach,

-and a bag.

0:26:510:26:55

-The wind comes from there,

-and I can't control it.

0:26:550:26:58

-She thinks it's hilarious!

0:26:580:27:00

-When it happens at home,

-my kids think it's hilarious too.

0:27:030:27:06

-They come to this school, and they

-laugh out loud when it happens.

0:27:070:27:11

-Thank you for coming today.

-I'm sure we've all learnt a lot.

0:27:120:27:16

-We'll all remember

-the three important words.

0:27:160:27:20

-I'm sure everyone enjoyed it.

0:27:200:27:23

-Sion!

0:27:340:27:35

-Ready, Nel?

0:27:360:27:37

-Go, Nel!

0:27:390:27:40

-Very good.

0:27:410:27:42

-Ready?

0:27:420:27:43

-Go!

0:27:430:27:44

-Rugby has always been

-close to my heart.

0:27:450:27:47

-I've been with the coaching team

-here for years.

0:27:470:27:51

-I'm better now, and ready

-for more treatment next week.

0:27:550:27:59

-I've looked forward

-to this operation for a while.

0:27:590:28:03

-I wasn't sure it would happen,

-but they're reversing the colostomy.

0:28:030:28:08

-That's great,

-and one less thing to worry about.

0:28:080:28:12

-It's a matter of dignity.

0:28:140:28:16

-It can sometimes leak,

-it can burst.

0:28:160:28:20

-It has happened to me in social

-situations, which wasn't nice.

0:28:200:28:24

-I'm looking forward

-to sitting on the toilet again...

0:28:290:28:34

-..and having somewhere

-where I can read the paper in peace.

0:28:340:28:38

-The operation isn't a success.

0:28:480:28:51

-He learns that the cancer

-has spread further.

0:28:540:28:58

-We got the news on Monday...

0:29:000:29:04

-..that the cancer has spread.

0:29:040:29:08

-I've had two days...

0:29:090:29:12

-..of feeling very sad.

0:29:130:29:15

-Very low, to be honest...

0:29:160:29:17

-..with the boys at school.

0:29:190:29:21

-I just lay in bed...

0:29:220:29:25

-..feeling scared, I think.

0:29:250:29:28

-I'm afraid of what's to come.

0:29:280:29:31

-But...

0:29:320:29:33

-..I looked in the mirror...

0:29:340:29:36

-..and thought to myself, come on!

0:29:360:29:38

-Hello!

0:29:400:29:41

-Are you alright, boys?

0:29:450:29:47

-Dad, can I use your...

0:29:470:29:49

-Can I have a kiss first?!

0:29:500:29:52

-Ooh, nice to see you.

0:29:580:29:59

-Straight for the sweets!

0:30:000:30:02

-This is how my stomach looks now.

0:30:060:30:08

-I have an open scar here...

0:30:100:30:13

-..and another one here.

0:30:150:30:16

-The wounds are packed

-with dressings daily.

0:30:160:30:20

-I've got a drain here

-for whatever collects there.

0:30:200:30:27

-Blood and what have you.

0:30:270:30:29

-These are old scars

-from previous operations.

0:30:310:30:34

-It's a bit uncomfortable,

-but it's less painful than it was...

0:30:350:30:40

-..two, three, four days ago.

0:30:400:30:42

-There we are.

0:30:430:30:44

-I look like a pregnant man.

0:30:440:30:46

-Christmas 2016

0:30:530:30:55

-The cancer

-has now spread to the lungs.

0:30:560:30:59

-After the last operation...

0:31:080:31:11

-..I felt very strongly...

0:31:120:31:14

-..that I wasn't sure...

0:31:150:31:16

-..if I could go through

-being so ill again.

0:31:170:31:20

-I was offered an operation

-on both lungs...

0:31:230:31:26

-..to remove the cancer, the tumours.

0:31:270:31:30

-That would mean two spells

-of being ill again...

0:31:310:31:36

-..because they could only treat

-one lung at a time.

0:31:360:31:40

-There's no guarantee...

0:31:420:31:45

-..that the surgery

-would get rid of the cancer.

0:31:450:31:50

-It has also spread

-to other parts of my body.

0:31:510:31:55

-The stomach and so on.

0:31:550:31:58

-Of course...

0:32:000:32:01

-..it's important for me to accept...

0:32:020:32:05

-..that I'm not going

-to get rid of the cancer now.

0:32:070:32:13

-Cool!

0:32:190:32:20

-It's difficult at times.

0:32:220:32:24

-I do get emotional sometimes...

0:32:240:32:26

-..especially when I do things

-with the children.

0:32:270:32:30

-Sausages!

0:32:300:32:33

-Sion asked if he could read me

-a story the other day.

0:32:350:32:40

-It was a story about two bears.

0:32:400:32:43

-A father and son,

-saying that they loved each other.

0:32:440:32:47

-At the end, Sion said,

-"That's how I feel about you, Dad."

0:32:470:32:52

-That hit me straight away.

0:32:520:32:55

-That...

0:32:570:32:58

-..the future for the boys

-will be one without a father.

0:33:010:33:05

-But, on the other hand...

0:33:060:33:08

-..I'm in no hurry to go.

0:33:090:33:12

-I'm healthy in myself.

0:33:120:33:14

-I'm not suffering any symptoms

-from the tumours that I have.

0:33:140:33:19

-I've got over

-the last surgery, again...

0:33:200:33:22

-..even though I was very ill.

0:33:240:33:26

-I think that my strength...

0:33:270:33:29

-..will help to keep me alive

-for quite a while...

0:33:300:33:33

-..or at least long enough

-to enjoy a lot more things in life.

0:33:340:33:39

-Time with all my children...

0:33:400:33:42

-..extended family,

-friends and so on.

0:33:440:33:47

-I now live to enjoy every day.

0:33:470:33:51

-I'm planning fun things to do...

0:33:510:33:55

-..big and small.

0:33:560:33:58

-Things I've always wanted to do.

0:33:580:34:00

-There's nothing overly major.

0:34:020:34:04

-I'm happy with my life.

0:34:040:34:06

-I've had great experiences

-during my life.

0:34:060:34:09

-I've achieved things

-that some people wouldn't achieve...

0:34:090:34:13

-..if they lived to be a hundred.

0:34:130:34:15

-I'm grateful for that.

0:34:160:34:18

-The most important thing

-is to remember...

0:34:210:34:24

-..even that there's no possibility

-that I'll recover from cancer now...

0:34:270:34:33

-..is that I've given it

-quite a hammering.

0:34:340:34:38

-I've raised awareness of it.

0:34:390:34:42

-In the future, I hope...

0:34:470:34:48

-..that my work will help others...

0:34:500:34:53

-..who are suffering.

0:34:530:34:55

-Sorry.

0:35:000:35:01

-Not at all.

0:35:020:35:03

-Here's your blackberry tart.

0:35:120:35:14

-Yeah!

0:35:140:35:15

-OK, made by my own hand.

0:35:160:35:18

-I know it's always important

-to get together...

0:35:260:35:30

-..but it was even more so for me

-this Christmas...

0:35:300:35:33

-..given all that's happened.

0:35:330:35:35

-Not that I want

-to be morbid or anything...

0:35:350:35:39

-..but the way I feel now...

0:35:400:35:42

-..we'll have to do it again

-next Christmas!

0:35:420:35:45

-It's been nice

-to have everyone together.

0:35:450:35:48

-It's nice for you...

0:35:500:35:51

-Did you see what I put on Facebook?

0:35:510:35:53

-All the children.

0:35:550:35:56

-All the children.

-

-I love having all five together.

0:35:560:35:59

-It doesn't happen very often.

0:36:000:36:04

-OK, Ianto Huw?

0:36:050:36:07

-Don't play it yet.

0:36:090:36:10

-Good boy.

0:36:110:36:12

-Have you had pudding?

0:36:120:36:13

-Have you had pudding?

0:36:130:36:15

-There are cakes in there.

0:36:150:36:17

-They love it.

0:36:210:36:22

-They love it.

-

-Yes.

0:36:220:36:23

-It's nice to put it on Facebook.

0:36:230:36:27

-People realize

-that you interact with us all.

0:36:270:36:32

-It is nice, because they often

-only see Sion and Ianto.

0:36:330:36:36

-Even though you're older,

-this affects you, Owen and Beca.

0:36:370:36:41

-It's different for us

-because we don't live with you.

0:36:410:36:46

-We have to make the most

-of the time we have together.

0:36:460:36:49

-Make an effort to get together more

-over the coming months.

0:36:500:36:53

-It'll be really nice

-to spend time with the family.

0:36:540:36:57

-Nain loves it too.

0:36:570:36:58

-Nain loves it too.

-

-When she's not stressing!

0:36:580:37:01

-I won't tell her you said that.

0:37:020:37:04

-Nain used to chew bread

-for ducks with no teeth.

0:37:060:37:09

-Can you please

-put your hands together...

0:37:120:37:15

-..for the cook who has cooked

-all that food for you?

0:37:150:37:18

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-We've just arrived in Rome.

0:38:270:38:29

-We're here for the weekend,

-mainly to watch the rugby.

0:38:290:38:34

-I'm looking forward

-to the game on Sunday.

0:38:340:38:38

-Hopefully, this won't be

-the wooden spoon decider.

0:38:390:38:45

-The Colosseum is on the left.

0:38:470:38:49

-Daf Wyn's fighting tigers there

-after a few Jagerbombs tomorrow.

0:38:500:38:56

-I hoped we could come.

0:39:070:39:09

-I've been in hospital again recently

-having a drain in the liver...

0:39:090:39:15

-..because I had jaundice.

0:39:150:39:17

-I'm still a bit yellow,

-but it's much better.

0:39:170:39:20

-But the drain's still in.

0:39:210:39:22

-On Monday, I saw Mr Malik's team

-in Liverpool, at Aintree.

0:39:220:39:27

-They did say that it would be

-better if I didn't come...

0:39:270:39:33

-..but under the circumstances,

-given that I'm well in myself...

0:39:330:39:37

-..and determined anyway...

0:39:370:39:40

-..they gave me the okay,

-as long as I took my medication...

0:39:400:39:45

-..and antibiotics

-in case I got an infection...

0:39:450:39:48

-..and it should all be OK.

0:39:480:39:50

-# A clean heart

-o'erflow'd with goodness

0:39:500:39:55

-# Fairer than the lily bright

0:39:570:40:00

-# A clean heart forever singing

0:40:010:40:06

-# Singing through

-the day and night #

0:40:060:40:13

-It says we're going to pass...

0:40:180:40:20

-..the first statue

-that depicts a woman's orgasm.

0:40:210:40:24

-What does that look like then?

0:40:270:40:29

-Going away to watch the rugby

-was special.

0:41:030:41:06

-There's something exceptional

-about Rome.

0:41:060:41:09

-The last time we were here,

-Becky was expecting Ianto.

0:41:110:41:14

-We had a great weekend.

0:41:150:41:16

-I'm so lucky

-that Becky is so supportive.

0:41:220:41:25

-I don't know

-where I'd be without her.

0:41:260:41:28

-She's been a rock.

0:41:320:41:34

-She's so strong.

0:41:340:41:35

-That makes me stronger in turn.

0:41:350:41:38

-Three years have passed

-since we got married.

0:41:410:41:44

-They haven't been easy.

0:41:440:41:46

-When we met and fell in love...

0:41:490:41:52

-..I remember talking a lot

-about growing old together.

0:41:520:41:56

-About watching the boys growing up

-and making plans.

0:41:570:42:01

-Discussing what we'd do

-during our lives.

0:42:010:42:05

-No-one expects illness to strike.

0:42:060:42:09

-I sometimes feel that it's harder

-for Becky than for me.

0:42:210:42:25

-I see her pain sometimes...

0:42:260:42:27

-..and it breaks my heart.

0:42:280:42:30

-Thank you, Becky.

0:42:350:42:37

-Thanks for everything.

0:42:370:42:39

-I love you

-more than you'll ever know.

0:42:410:42:43

-# A clean heart

-o'erflow'd with goodness

0:43:010:43:09

-# Fairer than the lily bright

0:43:090:43:16

-# A clean heart forever singing

0:43:160:43:23

-# Singing through

-the day and night

0:43:230:43:33

-# Amen #

0:43:340:43:44

-Well done.

0:43:470:43:48

-Good health, boys!

0:43:490:43:51

-There's no better feeling

-than walking into a stadium...

0:44:260:44:29

-..and seeing all the Welsh fans

-singing and having a good time.

0:44:300:44:34

-The hairs on the back of my neck

-stand up.

0:44:340:44:37

-It's a great feeling.

0:44:380:44:39

-Oggi oggi oggi!

0:44:400:44:41

-Oggi oggi oggi!

-

-Oi oi oi!

0:44:410:44:42

-There's a lot of passion

-in the game.

0:44:460:44:49

-A pride in being Welsh.

0:44:490:44:50

-Joy at being a part

-of one big rugby family.

0:44:520:44:56

-Wales 33 Italy 7.

0:45:120:45:14

-The Trevi Fountain is beautiful,

-especially lit up at night.

0:45:300:45:35

-I remember coming here last time.

0:45:360:45:39

-Throwing a coin into the water

-is supposed to bring you luck...

0:45:390:45:43

-..and ensures

-that you'll return to Rome.

0:45:430:45:46

-And here I am, back in Rome.

0:45:460:45:48

-Maybe I'll be back again.

0:45:530:45:54

-Who knows?

0:45:540:45:55

-But I could definitely do

-with a little bit of luck.

0:45:590:46:02

-You never know.

-Miracles might happen.

0:46:220:46:24

-A special thank you

-to Irfon and his family.

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