From Daddy with Love Doctors

Ow.

-Ooh, let me...

-I'm fine.

I said I'm OK.

At least run it under the tap.

I know there's too much.

I didn't say anything.

I only meant to bake a cake.

but once I started, I couldn't stop.

-Maybe you should go back to bed.

-I need to do the decorations.

-Well, let me.

-I know how I want it.

-Carla.

-What?

Today is going to be perfect.

Come on. Come on, then.

Yeah, you lazies. Come on, get down there.

Do you reckon he's got any Coco Pops?

I could get some when I go shopping later.

No, they're fine with muesli.

Sorry if we disturbed you.

You didn't.

It's chilly today.

Yes, I probably should have put some...

No, I meant outside.

We're not usually this messy.

It's fine.

I've taken half a day off. I'm probably going to clean the house.

You sit down and relax.

I think I've got some spare keys somewhere.

Come on.

Nathan? Nathan?

It's nothing.

I heard a noise.

Oh, it's nothing. It's just...

I'm rubbish at this.

-Do you want me to..?

-No, it's fine.

I've just got one more present to buy.

-KNOCK ON DOOR

-Yeah.

I am sorry to interrupt.

I have some papers for you to sign.

If you could just leave them there. Thank you.

Oh!

"The Monster Truck 5,000".

I could only dream of such a thing when I was a child.

How much?! For a toy?

This isn't just any old toy. It's THE toy, Mrs Tembe.

And it's leaving the shelves as soon as it gets to the shops.

-Have you not seen it on the news?

-Well, I would urge caution.

Yeah, well, Joe is going to have one of these trucks.

I might not be able to spend as much time with him

as Zara at the moment,

but I want him to know how much I care.

Joe knows how much you love him without buying an expensive toy.

Karen, you haven't got a charger for this, have you?

I don't know, let's have a look.

-Yeah, maybe.

-Thanks.

I can't remember which suitcase I shoved mine in.

You still not found somewhere to live?

Oh, no, we have... No, we're staying at Heston's.

No way!

It's only temporary.

Oh, but still, it'll be lovely.

He's a fantastic host, a great cook, so you'll be spoiled rotten.

Yeah, but I don't know if he's going to get used to having teenagers around.

Give it time cos he got on really well with Immie

-and really encouraged her artwork.

-Oh?

That's good to know. He's been a life-saver.

I can't help feeling we're going to impose on him, though.

Are you joking? He's going to love having you around.

-Yeah, maybe.

-Yeah.

Hey, Al, have you got a charger for one of these?

-Er, no.

-It's for Ruhma.

My battery's dying. Making a lot of calls trying to find us

somewhere to live.

Oh, well. Never mind. Chin up. No point moping.

As Albert Einstein said,

"Life is like riding a bicycle.

"To keep balance you just have to keep moving."

Speaking of which, lunch.

Oh, for goodness' sake.

What's she doing here?

I imagine she's here for you, lover boy.

You know what? I do have a charger for that phone.

-You want to come this way?

-What about your lunch?

That'll wait.

-Hi, Mo. Come on in.

-Ta.

Al's not here at the minute,

but if you'd like to wait,

he's desperate to see you.

I thought you finished that this morning?

Obviously not.

All right. Keep your hair on.

Playing candy crush?

No. I've got this genius new app, which is going

to notify me the moment a Monster Truck 5,000 becomes

available locally.

Joe's getting a Monster Truck 5,000?

All right for some.

It is Christmas.

So, I was thinking of going to that new Spanish bar,

you know, on my blind date?

But do you think that's a bad idea? I don't want to have garlic breath.

I've never been.

Chelsea says he likes Indian, but the problem with curry is there's

never enough room for booze after.

PHONE TEXT ALERT BEEPS

Do you think I should just stick to the Icon?

Yes!

Oh, no.

-You all right?

-Yeah, I'm fine. I'm fine.

You don't look fine.

Hi.

Yeah. It looks like I'm going to be able to get my hands

on one of those trucks after all. I can't wait to see his face.

Listen, I was wondering, could this just be a present from me?

You know, something special from Daddy?

It's too much, isn't it? Tacky.

No, I like it.

Your first birthday was full-on. Balloons, streamers.

Your mother went to town.

I was looking at the pictures.

Seeing you as a baby, it made me imagine...

-Are you listening?

-Yeah, of course.

-What did I say, then?

Something about my mum being tacky.

Actually, I was trying to talk about you being a baby.

Sorry.

I've just got to pop out for a sec.

You're not serious.

-Yeah, I won't be long. It's important.

-So is this.

One hour. I promise.

Steady on. Drink that and you'll be wired for a fortnight.

It's just coffee.

Get off my case.

Rude!

Sorry.

I didn't mean to snap.

What's going on?

I just haven't been sleeping very well lately, that's all.

I'm not surprised the way you're OD-ing on caffeine.

Forget it.

Sid.

You know you can tell me if something is wrong.

OK, but promise not to make a big deal of it?

Go on.

OK, well,

I was driving home

and I must have been really tired

and I just lost my concentration or something.

And?

I fell asleep at the wheel.

Oh, my...

I really shouldn't have mentioned it.

It sounds a lot worse than it actually was, when I...

Just forget about it.

Hi, I wonder if you could help me?

I'm looking for the toy aisle, particularly the Monster Truck 5,000.

Yes, sure. It's at the back of the store. Aisle number four.

Great. Thank you.

-I saw it first.

-I don't think you did, actually.

PHONE TEXT ALERTS BEEP SIMULTANEOUSLY

Hey, will you pack it in, dropping it on the floor.

I'll clean up before I go. Chill out.

Sorry to keep you.

A rather lovely Jack in the Box needed my attention.

Now, you look like a man with an eye for design.

We have a delightful collection of reclaimed dolls.

-I saw them. They're beautiful.

-Excuse me, I was here first.

-No, you weren't.

-I want the Monster Truck 5,000.

-That ugly thing.

-Yeah, that one, please.

As you can see, I was dealing with this gentleman.

It can take time to pick the right toy.

In some cases, it can be a matter of the right toy finding you.

That's fascinating.

I was actually interested in the Monster Truck 5,000 also.

Well, looks like you're out of luck. Have a cup and ball instead.

Do you mind hurrying up? I've got the money. £80 it said online.

Wait a minute. I'm perfectly happy to negotiate on price.

You can't do that. There's trading standards.

This is my shop and I can sell what I like to who.

For example,

if a customer were willing to support our specialist line

of antique toys,

then their custom would be especially welcome.

I see. So, if I was to buy the Monster Truck 500 and, er,

one of these, let's say?

OK, I'll take the one on the left.

I'll leave you two to it.

HE COUGHS

All right?

I need to tell you something.

I'm a bit busy at the moment.

This isn't easy to say, so I'm just going to come straight out and say it.

I'm done with the hot nights of hot passion.

-I'm ready to settle down, like now.

-Whoa, you're ready to what now?

I'm in love.

OK, I'm really flattered, and all that, but...

Look, I'm not one usually for slushy stuff like this,

but Lonnie just does things to me that...

Who's Lonnie?

Trucker from Doncaster?

Beautiful tattoos.

Huge...

Lonnie's the one for me.

Always has been.

I guess I just only realised it when he showed up yesterday.

What I'm trying to say is,

I've been using you.

For sex.

I'm sorry.

Say that again.

-I'm sorry.

-No, the other bit.

I've been using you for sex.

You've been using me?

For sex.

Lonnie's going to take me home.

I feel really bad, Al.

You'll be all right, though, yeah?

She...

was using me...

for sex!

I am sorry, Dr Carter. I thought you were leaving early today?

No, I just wanted a quiet moment.

Things are a bit chaotic at home.

I understand.

It's not Ruhma's fault.

I'm not used to children.

All awkward limbs and

insistent drumbeats.

Very little respect for personal space

and even less for personal hygiene.

They're not bad kids.

I just wish I could do more to help.

Dr Carter,

you are a man of great wisdom and experience.

I'm sure there is some guidance you can offer them.

Carla, calm down. I'm on my way.

No, I didn't get what I wanted.

Just take me off the call list.

Every time I speak to you, it's the same thing.

Thank you.

CAR TYRES SCREECH

Oi! Oi!

Have you never heard of knocking?

You can't just tell me something like that and then expect me to forget about it.

Not now, Ayesh.

I'm not going anywhere, not until you tell me what happened.

-You're blowing this all out of proportion.

-Am I?

You could have been killed.

Either that or someone else.

You think I haven't thought of that?

I haven't thought about anything else.

Every time I shut my eyes, I think about what could have happened.

I'm sorry.

I'm not here to have a go.

I want to help.

I'm fine, honestly.

Look,

I get that you're trying to prove yourself,

cram in as much experience as possible,

but there's a limit and you've reached it.

You don't get it, though.

No-one does.

It's like I've got this voice in my head

telling me I'm not good enough.

Telling me I don't have it in me to be a doctor.

It's always been there. It's just...

It feels like it's getting louder.

Ever since all that stuff with Zara.

Zara?

All that stuff got sorted ages ago.

Yeah, I know.

It's just I keep thinking,

what if she was right?

What if I'm not up to it?

Incompetent doctors kill people, you know?

You are not incompetent.

I lie awake at night thinking about all the things I don't know,

all the things that could go wrong.

Sid, you can't carry on like this.

Oh, God. What's happening to me?

You take on so much, just to prove you can do everything.

But look at you, you're knackered. You're not doing anything well

and then you nearly end up killing yourself.

Doesn't make any sense, does it?

Come here.

What are we going to do with you?

About time.

I told you I'd be here.

-I've just got one more present to wrap.

-I thought you said you couldn't get it.

I couldn't break my promise.

You're sweating.

I'm fine.

KNOCK ON DOOR

Open the door. I know you're in there.

What have you done?

I was there first. It should have been mine.

Why do you have to make everything about you?

It wasn't like that.

-BANGING ON DOOR

-I'm going to call the police.

Shak, is that you?

-Have I done something?

-No, come in. I wanted to have a little chat.

OK.

Is Alia not with you?

We're not joined at the hip. She's at netball.

All these marvellous extra-curricular activities.

You don't get involved much?

Is that what you wanted to chat about, after-school clubs?

I just want to say,

I know what you're going through.

I went to boarding school, and as much as I loved it there,

I never quite got used to living out of a suitcase.

Home one minute,

boy's dorm the next.

-It was just...

-Are you seriously talking to me about boarding school?

No, I'm talking to you about

uncertainty.

Do you honestly think that being sent to some rich-kid school

is the same as being homeless?

I'm not saying it's the same. I'm saying I understand.

As if! How could somebody like you ever understand me?

Where is it?

I can give you the money. Please, just let me keep the truck.

-Look, I don't want to get the police involved. I'm sure you don't either.

-I was at that shop first.

All right. OK, fine. Look, we both got a little

caught up in the moment. But I paid for it,

-which makes it mine.

-I can't give it to you.

-What?

-You don't understand.

I've broken too many promises.

Please, let me keep this one.

Is this some sort of a joke?

I can't explain.

Would you just follow me? Please?

Who do you think you are, telling me how I should feel?

-I didn't mean to offend you.

-What's going on?

-It's him.

-The patronising old...

-Shakib!

I was try to offer advice

-and it just came out wrong.

-Yeah, you can say that again.

That's enough. You go to your room.

-It's not my room!

-Just go.

It's my fault...

There's no excuse.

I raised my boy to have manners.

DOOR SLAMS

I promised her this time it would be different.

We heard a heartbeat, you see, so I thought that meant this was the one, but it wasn't.

I don't understand.

Four miscarriages.

Four babies we haven't held.

I'm sorry.

I promised her, if we just kept trying, then...

We've both had all the tests.

They told us nothing was wrong, but if there's nothing wrong, then why do we keep losing babies?

It must be very painful.

But I still don't understand why...

Every due date,

we throw a birthday party.

I see.

The first one wasn't really a birthday party.

We just...

..lit a candle and Carla started singing Happy Birthday.

It's not uncommon to mark the dates.

Our families think it is.

They joined us once.

Just stood there amongst the balloons, not knowing what to say.

"Better luck next time."

"At least it wasn't a real baby."

I'm sure they weren't trying to hurt you.

People find miscarriage uncomfortable.

For some reason, it's still seen as a taboo.

That's when I started buying presents.

Everyone was going mad for these...

singing Little Angelica dolls.

-Do you remember those?

-Yeah, my daughter has one.

I was passing the toy shop, late,

and I saw a dad

camped out with his daughter, waiting to be first in line.

And they had deck chairs, and a flask of hot chocolate

and I remember thinking, "That's the kind of dad I want to be."

So I sat with them all night,

talking about how funny and clever my little girl was.

You think I'm mad, don't you?

I think you're in a lot of pain.

I don't know how to make it better.

I can hear Carla sobbing into her pillow,

but I don't know how to make it stop.

But I thought the best presents?

At least I could do this.

You're not really fixing anything, though, are you?

What are you doing?

What do you care?

Stop it!

-Hear him out, would you?

-I'm sorry, but who are you?

Yes, of course. I'm Daniel.

Nathan and I just have only just met,

but he's been telling me some of what you guys have been going through.

What WE'VE both been going through?

From what I see,

all Nathan is going through is an inability to take life seriously.

-That isn't fair.

-Isn't it?

I needed you today.

And where were you?

Chasing around after a toy.

I wanted today to be perfect.

Everything is a joke to you.

What sort of a father would you have been, anyway?

You're just a child yourself. A stupid, selfish child.

You've never even cried for them.

Of course I have.

I was trying to be strong for you. I thought if I bought the best toys,

then you'd see how much they meant to me.

Why couldn't you just tell me that?

You know, you're right. I would be a rubbish dad.

But it wouldn't matter

because our kids would have the best mum in the world.

Don't.

I'm sorry I can't give you what want.

It's not your fault.

I'm sorry.

You'd be brilliant.

Childish and silly but never selfish.

You'd build dens from pillows

and make the best fancy dress costumes.

And our kids wouldn't need expensive gifts.

They'd have you.

Thank you.

Come on, let's get this down.

-I thought you wanted...

-Not because I'm angry.

Because it's time.

We don't need anniversaries or parties to remember.

What we've lost is with us every day

and always will be.

Wait.

The toy.

It should go to a child who can play with it.

I hope your lad enjoys it.

Thank you.

DOOR OPENS AND CLOSES

MUSIC: E=MC2 by Big Audio Dynamite

Al.

-Al, would you take your glasses off?

-Oop, sorry.

Oh, come on, would you take this seriously?

You're supposed to be Albert Einstein.

Right. Sorry. Sorry.

Just, erm,

think of something scientific, like the atomic bomb or something.

Yeah, you're right.

The theory of relativity.

Atomic equations. E equals MC squared.

-This is my first one since lunchtime, honestly.

-I'm not here to nag.

I've just come to see how you're doing?

Yeah, I'm all right. Cheers.

Cheers for that, before.

And I've got an idea that I think might help.

There's no need. Honestly, I'm fine.

Just hear me out.

You know my mate Chelsea?

Match-maker extraordinaire?

Well, it took some doing,

but tomorrow night you and me are going on a double blind date!

I can't. I don't have the time.

Come on, Sid. It'll be good for you. It'll help you relax.

Ah, yes. Relaxation is very good for wellbeing.

See, you tell him, Einstein. Even doctors need a night off.

What is it you discuss?

Me and Sid are going on a double blind date tomorrow night.

No, no. I haven't agreed yet.

Romance is a mysterious

and unpredictable journey into the unknown.

I, myself, recently had an encounter with a black hole.

-THEY LAUGH

-Have I told you about Rob's cousin?

What about Mo?

Karen Hollins,

did you know about that Lonnie dude?

Karen, you could have saved me so much aggro?

Oh, come on, Sid, it's all arranged.

If you don't turn up I'll look like a right numpty.

It's one precious night off.

Come on.

For me?

-You shouldn't have gone to so much trouble.

-It's nothing.

Well, it looks lovely.

A woman of many talents.

Shame she can't find us somewhere to live.

Shak!

-He's right though.

-You're welcome to stay as long as you need.

I think we've stayed long enough.

Yeah, too long.

Shak, isn't there something you need to say to Heston?

-Thank you for having us.

-My pleasure.

And I'm sorry for disrespecting you earlier.

Not a problem, honestly.

Come on, tuck in.

SHOP BELL RINGS

I'd like to return this, please.

I can't be held responsible for manufacturing faults.

-Oh, there's nothing wrong with it.

-That's a matter of taste.

No, I just wanted to exchange it for one of those planes.

That's half the price! I won't be making up the difference.

I'm not interested in the money.

I'm interested in the right toy.

I should have listened to the expert in the first place.

I was always desperate for one of those planes when I was a kid.

So, I thought I'd make one with my son, over Christmas.

Is it all right to sit down?

You don't need to ask.

You've been really kind.

-You shouldn't have to put up with Shak's attitude.

-It's fine.

This isn't how it's supposed to be.

I'm their mum.

I'm supposed to protect them.

I can't even keep a roof over their heads.

SHE CRIES

I'm sorry.

-You probably want to be on your own.

-Please.

Please don't go.

We need to stay a few more days.

Of course. You don't need to ask.

-Stop it. He doesn't need two stroppy women fight...

-Stroppy?

Are you OK?

My car!

I think you've broken a headlight.

-We're film buddies.

-Sad!

So, what are your top five?

Which is yours?

Once Upon A Time In America, director's cut.

-I love that!

-Really?

Yeah, 100%. I've always been a Disney girl.